The Troubles of Miss Nicola the Exorcist Vol 1
Table of Contents
Chapter 1: Two Visages in One Mirror
Chapter 2: Rushing to One’s Doom
Chapter 3: Pale, Blue, and Frail
Chapter 4: The Portrait Inside the Chest
Chapter 5: If You Curse Someone, Dig Three, Four
Graves
A Certain Interlude, From Before She Was Nicola
The Final Chapter: A Contemptible End
Prologue
Grace and splendor adorned the young man,
surrounding him like a picture frame. He drew the attention of every teacher or
student who passed by, male or female. Whenever he left a room, the sighs of
those who envied his overwhelming beauty filled the air. People said that his
noble visage, which boasted a perfect beauty of form, would not be matched in a
thousand years.
At the tender age of eighteen, he had already attained
the rank of marquess. What was more, he was also known as the firstborn
prince’s closest friend, and had been promised a bright future. As president of
the student council at the Royal Academy, he was popular. He was blessed with a
keen intellect and skilled in both the literary and martial arts.
For this young man, who was truly beloved by
God and made others lose faith in the deity’s wordless proverbs, ██ had only
wanted to say one thing...
Chapter 1: Two Visages in One Mirror
1
A few weeks earlier, around the middle of
August, Sieghart von Edelstein first experienced a feeling of unease.
Sieghart ended his summer vacation early to
fulfill his duties as a member of the student council and prepared to welcome a
new cohort to the academy. He found himself with quite a lot of work to do in
the two weeks or so left before the new term started. However, the strange
events began at the end of the summer.
For personal reasons, the young man had very
much looked forward to September this year. Finally, it was just around the
corner. It was for that reason he was able to overlook said unease in the
beginning, and only the slightest of things ever unsettled him.
When teachers or other student council members
happened to spot him in the hallway, they assumed confused looks and tilted
their heads to one side or looked in the direction they had come from. But
Sieghart, who was aware of his somewhat distinct appearance, had long since
grown used to receiving this kind of attention.
This was understandable when I was still a new
student, but I’m about to enter my third year. Is there really still anyone at
the academy who finds the sight of me remarkable? Sieghart had this thought, among other such
misguided ideas. Well, I suppose they haven’t seen
me all summer. Perhaps this is to be expected, was another such thought that came to him.
Even if he did not want to admit it, he
realized there was something wrong when these suspicious reactions kept
happening constantly over the last two weeks of summer vacation. As the new
term approached, and the general student body returned to their dormitories in
droves, the nature of this bizarre feeling of unease changed steadily.
A certain male student said, “Thanks for
showing me your summer vacation homework. Your notes were easy to understand,
just as expected of the top student in our class. You really saved my skin!”
“Huh? Ah, right, you’re welcome. But when
winter break comes around, do your own homework.”
“Aw, really? My parents are merchants, so when
I head home for vacation, I’ll be busy helping out with the family business.”
“Even the sons of noble houses often have a
lot to do, serving as apprentices in the management of their fathers’
territories. So, our conditions are the same.”
“Yeah, yeah.” The classmate shrugged his
shoulders and gave Sieghart a listless response, despite having been scolded
within the bounds of casual banter. In all honesty, Sieghart had no memory of
lending his notes to this friend who had come to thank him for that very favor.
As he had in fact lent them to another student, he thought that his classmates
had probably passed them around. He soon forgot about it, but that same day
brought with it yet another disquieting event.
“Ah, President! Thank you once again for
helping me bind those documents yesterday evening. Preparing enough for all the
new students really is backbreaking, is it not?” exclaimed Sieghart’s junior in
the student council.
“Huh? Ah, yes, well done... Although, are you
sure that was me?”
She snickered before saying, “There you go
again! How can I cope with a nonchalant glance from someone as charming as our
president?”
Sieghart had no memory of assisting her
either, so he finally leaned his head forward in confusion. He had actually
gone into town the previous evening to buy a new inkwell, as his last one had
run dry.
On that fateful day, Sieghart made a beeline
for his dormitory. Once he confirmed that the inkwell and fountain pen he was
sure he had bought were still in the drawer of his writing desk, he was left
even more baffled.
As days went by, people told him about more
“sightings of Sieghart” of which he had no memory. Two, then three, then four
followed, one after the other. Each time someone mentioned such encounters, an
enigmatic feeling of anxiety and a faint chill crept over him.
By the time the new school term had begun,
Sieghart was certain that something bearing his
likeness stalked the halls of the academy.
“Oh? Didn’t I just see you on the third
floor?”
“A vase? Yeah, you yourself brought it to the
student council room the day before yesterday, did you not, President? This is
most unlike you. Are you tired, perhaps?”
“Thanks for coming, even though you already
seem so busy with your student council work. We were short on people, so you
were really a great help.”
The frequency with which Sieghart heard people
claim they had seen him had been limited to once every two or three days, but
it gradually increased in number. He had gotten used to hearing such
testimonies many times a day, until he finally felt cornered.
Just who is this “me who is
not me”? Why did he appear, and what does he want?
With all of this still shrouded in mystery, Sieghart’s restlessness only
continued to grow. An unfamiliar, eerie feeling crept up on him inch by inch.
He felt as if strands of silk floss were wrapped around his throat, while a
damp, uncomfortable film of sweat enveloped his body.
If he did not do something, he would not be
able to relax. As such, Sieghart devoted himself even more diligently to his
miscellaneous duties in the student council.
2
The day of the welcoming ceremony for new
students at the academy had finally come. When the ceremony was over, Sieghart
heard someone behind him call out his name. It was a young girl’s voice,
sounding like a small bell ringing behind him—though her voice was not loud in
volume, it resounded clearly through the air.
Sieghart’s feet came to a sudden stop in the
stone-paved corridor as the rays of the setting sun dyed it a deep orange.
Today was a day off for students in the second year and above, so no one had
passed him in the hallways.
“Thank you very much for showing me around
earlier. This school is very big, I couldn’t help but get lost...”
Not again, Sieghart thought to himself as he stood frozen in place. This girl
was most likely a new student if she had gotten lost within school grounds. She
had said that they had met “earlier,” but Sieghart had been busy tidying up the
lecture hall directly after the welcoming ceremony. He certainly had no time to
give new students directions. Without a doubt, this is once
again the work of “someone other than me.”
Of course, there was no way he could tell this
new student his suspicions. Explaining himself would not foster understanding.
Instead, it would only leave her perplexed.
“You’re wel—” Seeing no alternative, Sieghart
plastered a smile on his face and turned to face the girl. But before he had
even finished turning around, he realized that something about that voice had
been nagging at him.
“Kidding, just a joke,” Sieghart
overheard the girl mutter to herself.
The moment he heard this, he immediately cast
off any sense of shame or concern for his own reputation. After closing the
distance between them in a single leap, he embraced the girl, whose body was
one or two sizes smaller than his. Though, it would have been more accurate to
say that he clung to her.
“Nicola! It’s really you! How I’ve missed
you!” Sieghart took a whiff, and the smell of a brand-new uniform, combined
with the girl’s own sweet fragrance, filled his nostrils. The lush black hair
that tickled the tip of his nose belonged to Nicola von Weber. Despite her
being younger than Sieghart, they were childhood friends, and she was the woman
he loved most in the world.
Under normal circumstances, Sieghart would
have never committed such a pitiful blunder as failing to recognize Nicola’s
voice. He was once again aware of the fact that he had suffered substantial
emotional distress.
“You haven’t changed a bit, have you? I take
my eyes off of you for a short while, and you drag me into a malevolent matter
that would make anyone recoil. Good job spooking me, but really, give me a
break.” Nicola’s tone of voice showed her displeasure and let Sieghart know she
was tired and cared little about his problems. Yet he could not help but feel
relieved.
This was precisely Nicola’s usual manner. The
feeling of being treated as someone deeply familiar allowed Sieghart to breathe
a sigh of relief, causing his fears to dissipate in the blink of an eye. The
“childhood friend” effect was incredibly powerful.
“Ah, seriously, why weren’t we born in the
same year so we could have enrolled here together? Do you know how long I’ve
awaited your arrival?!” Sieghart pursed his lips.
A two-year academic gap that would never close
existed between the childhood friends. One had to reach the minimum age of
sixteen to enroll at the Royal Academy, so Sieghart had been forced to wait two
whole years for Nicola to join him there.
“I do not know. Try asking my parents, who
conceived me fifteen years ago.”
“Oof... I really don’t think I can say that to
the people who will one day become my parents-in-law.”
“That will never happen, not for all eternity,
so no problem there. Please go ahead, face them head-on and ask them directly.
More to the point, you still haven’t given up?”
“Of course not!” Still clinging to Nicola,
Sieghart suddenly and forcefully raised his face. The two found their faces
closer than they had expected, and both gasped in surprise. Sieghart found
Nicola’s face so close to his that the tips of their noses might touch.
“Ugh, too close, your face is too beaut—I’m
about to go blind...” Nicola let out a series of such peculiar moans.
As for Sieghart, he had hoped to get a closer
look at Nicola’s deep ocean blue eyes, but his wish was not granted. After
Nicola pushed him away mercilessly, he found himself facing the ground.
“Nicola, that hurts...”
“Oh, enough already. Stop looking at me, Mr.
Noble-Phantasm-for-a-Face.”
As this childish fight unfolded, Sieghart felt
their usual rapport return and smiled for the first time in a long while.
Perhaps it was because Nicola had watched Sieghart’s smile reappear, or maybe
that was unrelated, but she primly resumed a serious expression and started
talking.
“Now then, what’s the matter? I thought some
strange entity was wandering around here, but it turned out to be wearing an
unpleasantly familiar face.” Although Nicola was short for a girl her age, she
looked much more dignified and imposing when she folded her arms and stood up
to her full height.
Sieghart answered nervously, “It appears that
there is a me who is not me.” He then explained that he had first realized
something was amiss about two weeks prior, and that the frequency with which
this other self had been sighted had gradually increased. Nicola did not make a
peep while he spoke, but listened silently and intently.
When he had finished, she placed her
beautiful, white hands on her chin and simply murmured, “Hmmm.”
“What on earth does ‘he’ hope to achieve by
impersonating me?” muttered Sieghart, letting out a sigh that was halfway to a
grumble. That was before he noticed Nicola looking up at him with not even the
faintest trace of an expression remaining on her face.
“It sounds to me like he is no longer
satisfied with just impersonating others. Isn’t that right? Mr.
Somebody-Who-Can’t-Be-Anybody?”
“Huh?” Nicola tapped a finger against
Sieghart’s chest as he was transfixed by her deep blue eyes, causing him to
stumble backwards slightly. There were still no other people walking through
the corridor. At some point, the sun in the western sky had passed from orange,
straight through vermilion, to a dark dusky red. The remaining sunlight cast
long shadows along the stone pathway.
Though Nicola and Sieghart had been the only
two people there a moment ago, the sound of shoes striking the cobblestones
suddenly echoed throughout the corridor. The third person’s footsteps seemed to
come from behind Sieghart.
“Nicola, get away from him. He’s an impostor.”
Nicola was silent for a moment. “Huh?”
Sieghart could not believe his ears. The voice
behind him was, without a doubt, his own. Not only that, but this impostor
claimed Sieghart himself was a fake. These words, which carried terrifying
implications, slipped in one ear and out the other. He could not process what
the voice had said.
“What are you saying? I am... I’m...” Sieghart
said. Of course I’m real. There should have been no
room whatsoever to doubt that fact. Still, no one who had encountered the
impostor, that thing, around the school, had realized
that it was not Sieghart.
If Nicola came to believe that the fake behind
Sieghart was the real thing, then she would regard Sieghart himself as the
fake. After arriving at that thought, Sieghart felt the warm blood in his veins
drain away in the blink of an eye. He felt as if his body had frozen from the
extremities to its very core. He felt dizzy. The ground beneath him felt as if
it had melted away, so even his footing seemed uncertain. His breathing grew
steadily more shallow until it hurt to breathe at all.
“N-Nicola...” Sieghart looked pleadingly at
Nicola, who still stood in front of him. Nicola, however, did not look back at
Sieghart. She stared steadily at the space behind him, with an absentminded
smile creeping across her face.
Sieghart cautiously began to turn his head to
look at what stood behind him, but none other than Nicola reached out and
pulled him back to face her instead.
“Don’t look behind you,” she whispered, with
one of her soft, white hands on each of Sieghart’s cheeks.
Sieghart’s heart leaped forward in his chest.
Under normal circumstances, this probably would have made him nervous, but he
was much more concerned about what lay behind him. He certainly could not
celebrate.
“Aren’t you a pushover? I didn’t think there
would be any harm in trying to look like I suspected that the real Sieghart was
the fake, and I thought it might even draw you out. Still, to think you really
fell for that.” With her eyes steadily fixed on whatever was behind Sieghart,
the young girl shrugged slightly before muttering. “I’m just glad that you’ve
saved me the effort of searching for you again.”
“And so this farce is over now. It’s time to
stop playing pretend.” Nicola hurled her words behind Sieghart with a fearless
smile, almost sounding like she was taunting or ridiculing whatever was there.
But the voice behind Sieghart spoke up,
insisting that it was the real Sieghart, “Nicola, you’re being trick—”
“No, you will not fool me with such cheap
theatrics. If you really want to take this guy’s place, you must be some kind
of masochist...” said Nicola, rudely cutting off the voice behind Sieghart. She
then shrugged in exasperation. At that moment, Sieghart realized that Nicola
had determined the presence behind him to be the fake. “In any case, I will not
allow you to play the part of this man any longer. It’s time to stop playing
pretend. Don’t make me say it again.”
“SO UNFAIR. HOW NICE, I WANT IT FOR MYSELF.
WON’T YOU GIVE ME A PLACE TO BELONG?” The voice behind Sieghart no longer
sounded anything like him and its character had changed, becoming slimy and
more ominous. Cold sweat poured down Sieghart’s face as his body temperature
plummeted and his teeth chattered. He could not stop shaking.
Sieghart gave Nicola an imploring look once
again. As she looked back reproachfully, she stood up on tiptoes and roughly
stroked Sieghart’s head while saying, “It’s okay, it’s okay. It’s over now, so
calm down.”
Even with the girl he loved stroking his head,
Sieghart could not help but notice that the presence behind him, the root cause
of his terror, had yet to depart.
When Nicola saw that Sieghart’s fear hadn’t
gone away yet, she let out a thoroughly irritated sigh and pulled him closer by
the hand.
3
“It’s time to stop playing pretend. Don’t make
me say it again.” When Nicola put more force behind her words, the thing that
had assumed the form of her older childhood friend lost its stability in the
blink of an eye. Nicola chuckled quietly to herself. If a little taunting was
all it took for it to lose control of its appearance, it must have been a real
weakling. The thing, which had been entirely humanoid moments earlier, was
reduced to nothing but a sticky cloud of black haze.
Satisfied that it would take little effort to
exorcise in these conditions, Nicola let down her guard. Her childhood friend,
standing before her, squeezed her hand tightly. She looked away from the haze
and up at Sieghart’s eyes, which looked like those of an abandoned puppy.
“Ugh.” Nicola drew her lips into a thin line
as his long, smooth, beautiful silver hair stopped her in her tracks. His
expression of fear did not detract in the slightest from his flawless white
skin or the features of his face, which were the epitome of elegance. Nicola
had never been able to resist the tearful eyes of this unequaled male beauty—a
ravishing young man who seemed to have monopolized the goddess of forms’s
favor.
Even after Nicola reassured him that he was
safe now, her childhood friend, two years her senior, was still white as a
sheet and shaking. Nicola resisted the urge to click her tongue in annoyance,
letting out a long sigh instead. She then reluctantly pulled the hand Sieghart
had been squeezing toward herself. Sieghart followed it, and Nicola embraced
him.
“Huh? N-Nicola?!”
Nicola had thought from the very start that if
she pretended to doubt the authenticity of the real Sieghart, she would be able
to draw the impostor out. She knew that the objective of apparitions like the
doppelgänger was typically to take the place of the people they imitated. This
was true in all places and at all times.
But Nicola considered that, from the
perspective of someone haunted by their doppelgänger, acting as if she doubted
the authenticity of the original, with no discussion or warning, may not have
been the most thoughtful approach. Nicola felt a little ashamed of the extent
to which she had avoided spending effort on searching for the impostor.
So as she hugged Sieghart, she told herself
that this was merely a form of shock therapy infused with something of an
apology. She was merely taking drastic measures and had no ulterior motives.
That was the excuse she told herself as she wound her arms around the slender
yet toned body of her childhood friend.
Nicola patted Sieghart on the back, as if
comforting a small child. This was surprisingly effective. Nicola could not
help but think that she had overdone it a bit. Still wrapped in her arms,
Sieghart showed no further signs of terror but looked flustered, as even his
ears turned bright red from embarrassment.
“Now, as for you. If you had just stuck to
fooling the people around you, you could have retained some of your charm. But
if you wish to take a real person’s place, I can’t overlook that, you know?”
said Nicola, glaring at the black haze.
The haze seemed to recoil, slithering up the
corridor as if to put some distance between Nicola and itself.
“You can either leave, or stay and have your
very existence snuffed out. Hey, puny. It’s your choice.” With her left arm
still wound around Sieghart’s waist, Nicola raised the middle and index fingers
of her right hand in a gesture that looked as if she were brandishing a knife.
She then swept that hand in a straight line through the air. The haze, which
had been in human form a short while ago, split in two near where its neck had
been.
The severed head portion crumbled into dust
and vanished. What was left of the haze quickly shrank, dwindling until only a
ball the size of a fist remained.
While floating in midair, the black sphere
trembled slightly, as if frightened of Nicola. Nicola furrowed her brow.
“You needn’t tremble so. You’re acting like
I’m the villain here. Even though I said I wouldn’t exorcise you as long as you
left, ah ha ha.” Even as it continued to tremble, Nicola pointed at the ball
with its surprisingly shiny surface, drawing it toward her.
Once the thing, still trembling nervously, was
within arm’s reach, Nicola snatched it up without hesitation and flung it out
of the nearest window. It flew into the distance, soaring farther than anyone
would have expected just from her arm strength.
“Whoa, it really flew a long way, huh?” Nicola
raised her right hand to eye level as if performing a salute while she watched
the ball recede into the distance. She never saw it touch the ground. It simply
continued flying toward the horizon, eventually fading away in the twilight.
After waiting for a moment to confirm that
there was no sign of the ball returning, Nicola took her left hand, seized
Sieghart by the back of his jacket, and mercilessly peeled him away from her.
“Right, it’s all over now.”
The black haze was formed by the negative
emotions that had leaked out of people unconsciously. Even though each person
would only emit a tiny amount, the similar feelings brought about by a
sufficiently large number of people with similar negative emotions would
attract each other. They would eventually converge to form an apparition. Many
a little makes a mickle.
In this case, a large number of people all had
feelings of yearning and envy toward the same individual. Over time, these
feelings fused and formed an entity with its own shape and agency. These were,
at least, the broad strokes of what had happened.
Although there were countless students at the
academy, they all directed their emotions toward the same person. This was rare
because negative emotions would have never formed an entity in most cases. Such
was the fearsome power of having such a ravishingly beautiful visage as well as
popularity and social standing.
Still, entities like this soon expired once
removed from the source of negative emotions, and it would no longer present a
problem so long as it did not return to the academy. Nicola considered the
matter settled.
“What was that...?”
“I doubt it will come back after I threatened
it that much. Your impostor will not be making another appearance.”
Sieghart let out a sigh of relief. Nicola
inspected his face and noticed that there were dark patches under his eyes. He
must not have been able to sleep much recently.
Yet he took Nicola’s hands into his own, which
were slightly sinewy and quite manly. He gently cradled her hands.
“Nicola, thank you so much. I’m sorry for all
the trouble I caused you.”
“No, no, no.” Nicola bowed her head slightly
but made no further comment. Sieghart, born possessing rare beauty, attracted
all manner of beings, whether he wanted to or not. This included both humans
and nonhumans, which was no fault of his own.
It was not in Nicola’s nature to abandon
someone who looked as if they might die the moment she took her eyes off them.
This was no fault of Sieghart’s either. Nicola was not such a monster as to
blame someone for being caught up in dangerous situations unintentionally.
The two friends walked side by side through
the stone-paved corridor.
“By the way, Nicola. Just for tonight, do you
think we could sleep together, like old times?”
Nicola could, however, blame Sieghart for
saying something as outlandish as that. She glared at him with eyes that
registered a temperature of absolute zero and said, “Are you stupid? Ah, right.
Of course you are.”
“I only mean that if you were to hold me, I
would be able to sleep peacefully, without night terrors... Besides, you
embraced me earlier, didn’t you?”
“That was shock therapy. Besides, we are not
at one of our family homes. Are you really thinking of inviting a woman into
the boys’ dormitory? You, the student council president?”
“Oof,” grunted Sieghart. So his childhood
friend, despite being so pampered, still had a certain amount of reason and
common sense. But Sieghart was unusually persistent. “Just a nap then, in a
vacant classroom... Is the answer still no?”
Nicola looked down at Sieghart’s feet. He
seemed slightly uncertain of his footing as they walked. She remembered how
Sieghart had staggered backward earlier from merely the tap of one of Nicola’s
fingers. It seemed that he was nearly at the end of his rope.
Nicola raised an eyebrow before sighing so
heavily that all the air in her lungs was expelled. She then reluctantly
grunted, “I will make an exception, just for today.” After they entered a
nearby classroom and Nicola sat on one of the benches, Sieghart unbelievably
rested his head on Nicola’s lap and wound his arms around her waist. Nicola, of
course, had not granted Sieghart permission to go that far. As she moved to
brush his hands away, Sieghart muttered something that made her stop.
“I’m pathetic, aren’t I? The only thing I know
how to do is quake in fear...”
Nicola paused for a moment. “When you feel
scared, that is only your instinct for self-preservation at work. Fear tells
you the best way to protect yourself from danger. I can assure you that it’s
better than being fearless. Please feel afraid when you need to. Sometimes you
need to be afraid.”
Everyone fears the unknown. This fear is not
born of reason but instinct, though it is still the appropriate reaction.
Regardless of his own desires, Sieghart would always attract both people and
nonhuman entities because of his natural beauty. Nicola truly felt sorry for
him and believed that the apparition that thought of taking his place must have
been a masochist.
Nicola’s words prompted Sieghart to loosen his
grip on her waist. “You’re the only one who recognizes my weakness and forgives
me for it, Nicola. That’s what has really saved me all these years...”
The room was deathly silent. Only the low,
gentle breathing of the man sleeping on Nicola’s lap reverberated through the
air. Sieghart’s face, nestled against Nicola’s stomach as he slept, looked
slightly more youthful than usual. Nicola glanced out the window, noticing that
the sun had set and everything outside was dark.
“Ah, jeez.” Nicola realized she had missed her
chance to set Sieghart’s head down and slip away. For the umpteenth time that
day, she sighed and held her head up with her elbows resting on the desk in
front of her with an impudent expression.
Nicola’s Little Occult Lectures: Lesson 1
Doppelgänger
In German, “doppel” has the meaning “to
resemble” or “to copy.” “Doppelgänger” means exactly what the name implies:
“one who walks with exactly the same appearance as you.”
You might have heard accounts from people
saying you took actions you do not remember taking or appeared in places you
are sure you did not visit. If you only hear such things from the mouths of
others, you might still be okay. But if it should appear in front of you...
There is no end to the unfortunate tales told about such meetings. Some say the
doppelgänger is an omen of death. Some say that it will take over your place in
life, or your very existence.
Chapter 2: Rushing to One’s Doom
1
Nicola von Weber had led a slightly more
checkered life than most people. In concrete terms, she had experienced being
reborn in a new world while retaining the memories of her past life.
She had first been born and raised in a small
island country known as Japan, but she’d turned out to be one of those people
who could truly see. It was definitely not the case
that she had taken some peculiar drugs that made her hallucinate. She was
simply more receptive than most people, so she could clearly perceive beings
around her that were not humans. Because she was born that way, she did not
consider her view of the world to be remarkable.
Eventually, perhaps by coincidence, Nicola met
other people who could see the same things. She had discovered a talent within
her and came to study the arts of opposing the nonhuman. At first she learned
this for self-defense, but it had become her profession before she knew it. To
her disbelief, she died on duty one day.
She had been an exorcist who knew how to deal
with ghosts, phantoms, urban legends, curses, and all the other things that
transcended human understanding. One reason she had chosen this profession,
which was difficult to talk to normal people about, was that she had a natural
talent and affinity for it. Another reason she might have cited was that the
pay was good and made up for the inherent danger in this line of work. She
ended up being far more prosperous than she could have ever dreamed of becoming
as a regular office lady.
Though, when she considered that she had died
quite young, she could not say that she had no regrets.
The last thing Nicola remembered from her past
life was an almost suffocating stench and the smell of blood. Words written in
dark-red blood covered the floor and walls of the room where she had died.
In general, using the blood of animals was the
height of heresy. Not only would you incur the grudge of the animals you
killed, but if you were particularly unlucky, you would also incur the wrath of
the gods. It seemed that Nicola had been caught up in an act of heresy against
her own will.
Having been called to that address as part of
a job request, she’d found herself in a room that looked like it had been
prepared for some kind of ritual. She remembered cringing at the sight of the
bloody writing covering the room. At that moment, a blunt object struck the
back of her head.
After a sickening thud, her field of vision
was shaken. She felt her skull cave in. As her consciousness rapidly left her,
the last thing she remembered seeing was a single word written on the wall. The
word meant “offering.”
Nicola’s spiritual power had been quite
strong, so she must have made quite a good offering. Thus, she died at the age
of twenty-six and was granted a new life as Nicola von Weber.
After that experience, she’d regained
consciousness and discovered that she had been reborn in another world that had
a European look as the daughter of a viscount of little importance. She could
not do very much as an infant, so this period of life was the height of tedium.
Her memories of this second childhood were still vague.
If she had to compare it to something, Nicola
thought it was like skimming through a novel she had not particularly enjoyed
for the second time. Although the world around her was substantially different,
there was little difference in the process of childhood development. So it was
nothing but a bore.
It was for that reason Nicola’s first enduring
memory of this new life, as she lived it in a daze, was the day she met a
certain heir to a marquess.
◇
One day, Nicola and her parents were invited
to the birthday party of some count’s son. The party was for children in the
aristocracy who were around the same age as the birthday boy, between five and
eight years old. However, their parents busied themselves working on their
social connections.
The children were almost immediately shooed
outside onto the wide garden terrace to play with each other. They seemed to
find this setting every bit as exciting as a zoo because they were soon running
around boisterously. However, Nicola could not summon the enthusiasm to run
around with the other children, as this was her second go-around in life.
Feeling emotionally drained, Nicola slipped
away from the garden. She did so under the pretense of going to the toilet to
lose herself in the count’s manor so that she might kill some time.
Incidentally, the plumbing in this world was
surprisingly advanced, and one could find proper toilets without much trouble.
This was one of the reasons that helped Nicola conclude she was in another world in the style of Europe. But it was also the
greatest relief she had felt since being reborn. In her world’s history,
European nobility had been famous for their poor toilet habits. Now, returning
to the topic at hand...
After Nicola had slipped back inside the
manor, she walked along the crimson carpets and turned her head back and forth
as she worried about being seen. If a servant found her and guided her to the
toilet, she would be returned to the garden straightaway. Her escape would have
had no meaning.
Nicola noticed a presence because she had
concentrated so hard while checking for adults. She saw a strange lump behind a
curtain that moved ever so slightly. Looking closely, she could see a child’s
feet sticking out from beneath the curtain. If this happened to be something
acutely wrong, ignoring them would cause her to lose sleep as it might become
an issue.
“Excuse me?”
“Ah!”
When Nicola pulled the curtain aside, she
found a child quaking behind it. His amethyst eyes were filled with tears.
Nicola was left speechless for two reasons.
For one thing, this child’s appearance was
perfect beyond anything Nicola had seen in this life or her previous one. His
face was flawless and built in a way that was perfect from an aesthetic
perspective, as if sculpted to show the golden ratio. She could have almost
mistaken the beautiful boy for an angel. She had even lost the ability to speak
as time stood still.
But there was another reason for this. Nicola
gasped at the sight of what was behind the angel. Putting it mildly, she saw
hell and how this angel bore it on his back.
Even if she scoured all the memories of her
past life, Nicola could not catalog all of the apparitions that the boy carried
behind him as he stepped out into the open. There were frightful obsessions
given form, like departed souls, vengeful spirits, the ghosts of animals,
sprites, and others. If Nicola had been given the choice, she would have
elected to have never seen a catfight between dead and living spirits, but
these were occurring by the dozen behind the boy.
“Whoa, this is unreal... Gross...” Nicola was
so shocked that her vocabulary melted away. She knew it was not proper to utter
such words. But without the mental leeway to consider what the boy’s social
standing might be relative to her own, she muttered thoughtlessly to herself.
The juxtaposition of the boy’s divine beauty and the unruly spirits behind him
was beyond description. For a while, she simply stopped thinking.
“E-Excuse me?” said the boy, his voice
trembling with fear.
After a while, Nicola regained her senses and
took another look at the terrified but beautiful boy. He looked like he was a
couple of sizes bigger than Nicola. Considering the other guests at the party,
she guessed he was probably seven or eight years old.
Nicola opened her mouth to respond to the boy,
but she was not sure what to say. She did not know how long she hesitated, but
when she suddenly found her words, they sounded like a medical examination.
“Ah, now then, have you been experiencing
tinnitus? A headache? Stiff shoulders, perhaps? No... I mean, have you felt
your ears ring or your head hurt? Have your shoulders felt a little heavy?
Anything like that...?”
Looking back on this, Nicola realized this was
not something a five-year-old girl would ever say. When she reworded her
question to be easier to understand for a child of seven or eight, the little
boy opened his large eyes so wide that Nicola thought they might fall out. He
then nodded timidly.
“I feel like people are watching me, or like I
hear voices, even when no one’s around... Things also move or go away all by
themselves...” The boy nodded so furiously that Nicola thought his head might
come off. As he did so, the tears in his eyes scattered through the air,
reflecting the sunlight streaming through the windows.
“Ah, right. Makes sense...” responded Nicola
stiffly, a far-off look in her eyes.
Resentment, frustration, jealousy, envy, and
feelings of inferiority came together. All of this brewed into a stew of love,
hate, and admiration that was nothing but chaos. With all that on his back, it
would have been impossible for the boy not to feel anything, no matter how
dense or devoid of spiritual sensitivity he might be. His life had most likely
been a succession of ailments visited upon him by spirits. Nicola could only
feel sympathy for the boy.
Although the boy looked older than Nicola,
because she had memories of her past life, to her he looked like nothing more
than an unfortunate little boy.
Out of kindness, Nicola raised her index
finger to her lips and whispered, “It will be our little secret.” She then took
a deep breath. “I ask you in all humility to take every one of our misfortunes,
our sins, and our impurities, and exorcise them, purify them. Please hear my
prayer.”
These words all had their own meaning, and
became spirits themselves that carried out their tasks when imbued with
Nicola’s natural spiritual energy. However, the original objects of this prayer
were spirits in Japanese mythology; the prayer would probably not be enough in
this world. This was Nicola’s first time using her abilities as an exorcist
since her reincarnation.
Nicola squinted at the chaos, judging the
chances of her prayer having worked to be about fifty-fifty, and was able to
confirm that about a tenth of the spirits had been cast away. Most likely, this
was due to Nicola’s innate ability to imbue words with spiritual energy.
However, two words had had their effect weakened significantly because she had
straddled them.
Even though the effect was slight compared to
what it had been when she’d been in her prime in her past life, there was still
definitely a result. Ready to get down to business, Nicola faced the boy once
more. She could not deny that the number of spirits was immense. Although each
was weak enough to be blown away with little effort, their overall number was
so great that it made her head hurt.
“Ah, come on, there’s no end to them!
Exorcise, purify, exorcise, purify, exorcise, purify, exorcise, purify,
exorcise, purify, exorcise, purify...” From time to time, Nicola had to tear
spirits away from the boy with her bare hands one by one. She spent a little
over ten minutes mindlessly repeating her incantation. By the time she had
finally cleared all of the spirits behind the boy, Nicola’s mouth was parched.
Nicola patted the boy on the back, as if
putting the final touches on her work. She turned around to head back to the
garden with a sense of accomplishment, where she was pretty sure drinks were
being served. But then she was suddenly interrupted by something pulling on her
clothes. Nicola looked back to see the angel grasping her dress by the hem.
“Hey, what’s your name?!”
“Whoa, too bright!” As the boy leaned toward
Nicola, his unfairly perfect face seemed to glow. “I have no name. Goodbye!”
cried Nicola. She then pulled the hem of her dress from the boy’s grasp and ran
away as fast as she could. She sensed that the boy would otherwise become a
constant nuisance.
But she had nipped this in the bud... Or so
she thought. However, the boy, who she would later learn was the son of
Marquess Edelstein, soon determined Nicola’s full name using a description of
her appearance. He arranged for a formal request to be issued under the name of
the marquess, naming Nicola as his new playmate.
There was no way that she could refuse a
request from the family of a marquess because she belonged to the family of a
viscount who was so insignificant that a strong enough wind might carry him
away. Though she never stopped crying about it, she became the boy’s little
playmate despite their difference in social standing, and remained involved
with him ever since.
2
“Ah... I feel like I just had a dream about my
childhood, but not a happy one...” Feeling drowsy due to low blood pressure and
having just gotten out of bed, Nicola forced herself awake by splashing cold
water on her face. She then noticed her hair sticking up wildly and tried to
force it back down with a hairbrush.
Looking in the mirror, she saw a girl with
smooth, glossy but ordinary hair, and thoroughly average facial features. Under
the right light, the color of her eyes almost appeared indigo. However, she
could not claim that her eye color was rare in this world where people had a
rich variety of eye colors that ranged from blue to amber.
Empirically, based on her experiences in her
past life and this one, Nicola had always thought there was nothing better in
life than being good-looking. However, this opinion had undergone a 180-degree
turn after meeting Sieghart.
“Viva the medium.
Isn’t being average splendid?” Nicola then mocked herself internally after
recalling that “viva” had long since died out in the slang of her past world.
Unfortunately, no one in this world would make that quip for her.
But at any rate, she felt nothing but
gratitude toward her parents in this life for giving her a mediocre appearance.
After doing the bare minimum in front of the mirror necessary to prepare for
the day, Nicola left her room in the girls’ dormitory.
The Royal Academy of the Kingdom of Daustria
was an educational institution, which Nicola had just joined. Boys and girls
from the royal family, the aristocracy, and the most powerful merchant families
attended it.
This school resembled a fusion between two
types of schools that Nicola knew existed on the continent of Europe in the
world of her past life: the finishing school, where the unmarried daughters of
notable families received cultural education; and the boarding school, where
all students were given lodgings within school grounds. It was a place for
children of the aristocratic class, who wished to pursue cutting-edge fashion,
and the children of the merchant class, who sought patrons to fund their enterprises,
to mingle. Not only that, but it was also a place for those who were not
already engaged to find a match.
The school’s fundamental principle was as
follows: “There is no social rank in this school. Instead, students will treat
each other equally.” Nicola had heard about how friendships between students of
different social standing flourished at the school so many times during her
welcoming ceremony that she’d felt like covering her ears. In reality, one did
seem to have a fair amount of freedom in one’s choice of friends.
“Good morning, Nicola! Haven’t seen you since
yesterday.” A voice called out to Nicola from behind as she headed to the main
school building.
“Good morning, Karin,” replied Nicola.
“Oh, I thought the daughters of noble houses
always greeted others by saying, ‘Good day to you!’” said the girl with a
mischievous snicker. Nicola smiled wryly.
As a viscount, Nicola’s father held a rank
near the bottom of the hierarchy. She thought that, if anything, it would make
less sense for her to go around shoving her upper-class status in everyone’s
face all the time.
“Maybe it depends on the person?”
“Does it? But I’m glad that I seem to have
gotten close to a noblewoman who’s easy to talk to!” said Karin Staden, with an
affable smile. The only thing Karin and Nicola had in common was that their
seats at the welcoming ceremony had been close together. However, Karin seemed
quite open-minded, as one might have expected from the daughter of a merchant
family, and this appealed to Nicola. Karin swooped over to Nicola, her
luxuriant red hair and the hem of her uniform trailing behind her.
Her uniform was the same as Nicola’s, made of
a deep navy blue fabric that was smooth to the touch. It was a high-waisted
dress with a hemline that came halfway down her calf.
The boys they walked past in the school’s main
thoroughfare wore uniforms with elongated jackets that had tails fluttering
behind them. At first glance, this world resembled nineteenth-century Europe.
But certain things, such as some clothing trends and the fact that the academy
was coeducational, did not conform to that period.
Though there were some notable elements from
that time period, others were too advanced for Nicola to grasp. Yet, as one
might have expected from a different reality, she was disturbed by these
conflicting elements. Nicola still concluded that it was at least based on
European culture.
For example, conversational back-channeling
and forced smiles—mannerisms that Japanese people performed without
thinking—were considered bad manners in this world. So, some caution was
necessary.
“In any case, you seem quite cheerful today,”
noted Nicola, seeing that Karin walked beside her so lightly that she looked
like she might start skipping at any moment.
“Ah, you did well to notice! Well, you see, I
spied on both the Silver Lord and the Golden Lord this morning! Although I only
managed to glimpse them from a distance, I think it was an auspicious start to
the day!” said Karin, her eyes sparkling.
“Ah...” sighed Nicola, with an unusual
expression that defied description.
“Wait a moment, what’s with that look?”
“Nothing. Please continue.” The word “silver”
perhaps represented Nicola’s third-year childhood friend better than any other,
so she could guess to whom this nickname referred. She was not, however,
familiar with this “Golden Lord.”
“You know the Silver Lord, don’t you? We saw
him at the ceremony. He is Lord Sieghart, Marquess of Edelstein, a ravishing
beauty who excels in the literary and martial arts. And he happens to be our
student council president. As for the Golden Lord, he is the one man not
upstaged when standing next to the Silver Lord. After all, he is the firstborn
prince of this kingdom, His Highness Prince Alois. It is said that those two
are the closest friends in the entire school!”
“H-Huh...” muttered Nicola. She reflected that
the word “ravishing” also represented Sieghart in her mind, but hearing it from
another person, she realized how unusual it was to describe a man in those
terms. But, thinking that presenting this objection to Karin in the middle of
her impassioned speech would likely have the opposite effect, Nicola kept it to
herself.
With her cheeks blushing a rosy red and a
melancholy expression, Karin let out a plaintive sigh.
“If I had but one chance to have tea with them
during my time at this school, I could brag about it for generations to come.”
“Could you really?”
“I really could!” Karin said as she seemed
dead set on joining the bandwagon. She half-closed her gray-tinged green eyes
before nodding confidently.
But, well, I must say... mused Nicola to herself. “I think I’d kind of like to see someone who
isn’t outshone by Sieghart...”
“Yeah! Who wouldn’t?!”
It would only be a few hours later that very
afternoon when Nicola would realize that she had just encountered what was
colloquially known as an “event flag.”
3
When the school day was over, students could
spend their time freely on club activities, tea parties, and the like. Nicola
strode through the corridors by herself with an unintentional expression of
anxiety. Even when male pupils clutching their chess boards or female pupils
walking in groups gave her a second glance, Nicola paid no attention to them
and continued walking quickly.
Nicola’s destination was the student council
room. She wanted nothing more than to get this chore over and done with.
Yesterday, after clinging to Nicola and
sleeping soundly for about two hours, Sieghart had declared the following as
the two parted ways. “As well as wanting to apologize for all the trouble
today, there’s something I’d like to give you. So, I hope you can come to the
student council room after school tomorrow. If you try to blow me off, then
I’ll come by your dormitory to pick you up.” Sieghart had added that final line
to drive the point home with a needlessly dazzling look on his face.
As the two had known each other for a decade,
Nicola should have expected Sieghart to read her mind, but she scowled all the
same. She then tried to imagine the kind of trouble that might be sparked if
this “Silver Lord,” who drew the attention of crowds wherever he went, came to
visit a mere viscount’s daughter in the girl’s dormitory. Unfortunately, she
had no alternative but to present herself voluntarily.
After stopping in front of a stately door made
from mahogany, Nicola knocked four times. Tap, tap, tap, tap.
Nicola had learned from living in this world
that knocking twice, as the Japanese did, was considered by people in the West
to be reserved for the doors of toilet cubicles. In any other circumstance, it
was considered rude.
“Excuse me. It is I, Nicola von Weber.” Not
caring about how she had hit her knuckles against the door with unnecessary
force or that her tone of voice was a bit stern, Nicola opened the door roughly
before immediately regretting her actions. Even though she had expected to find
Sieghart waiting inside, another figure was in the room.
Standing next to Sieghart was a young man with
golden hair, which drastically contrasted with Sieghart’s silver. It only took
one look for Nicola to comprehend that this was probably the Golden Lord she
had heard about that very morning. As she recalled what she had heard from
Karin, she was forced to reflect on her rash behavior, which seemed to have
triggered an event flag.
It was fairly rare to find someone who was not
completely outshone by Sieghart. There was no mistaking who this was.
“Welcome, Nicola. This here is His
Highness,Prince Alois.”
Nicola summoned all her willpower to stop
herself from wincing.
“Hey, nice to meet you, Miss Nicola. I am
Alois von Kleist-Daustoria. This isn’t an official ceremony, so let’s dispense
with the formalities!” Alois put on a friendly smile and extended his right
hand. But whatever he might have said, Nicola was meeting the firstborn prince
of this kingdom. Unsure of whether or not to take the prince at his word,
Nicola looked up at Sieghart. Her childhood friend nodded approvingly.
Nicola decided that was good enough and, after
taking Alois’s hand, introduced herself nonchalantly.
“Hey Sieg, look. It’s been so long since you
called me ‘Highness’ that I got goose bumps.”
“What a coincidence, I felt a shiver go up my
spine too.” As Alois cackled with laughter, Sieghart shrugged. It seemed the
rumors were true. They really were close friends.
“Now then, Nicola, come join us. We’ve
prepared an afternoon tea to enjoy in the garden.”
Nicola found herself taken by the hand of
Sieghart, causing her to stagger forward ungracefully.
“Hold— I was going to go straight home after
taking whatever it was you wanted to...” Nicola had only come because Sieghart
said he had something he wanted to give her, but she had heard nothing about a
prolonged social engagement. She did not imagine that the firstborn prince of
this kingdom would wish to share a table with a middling young girl whom he had
never met before, especially given his high social standing. But after a glance
at Alois, she saw him looking back at her with a smile so breezy it was
actually irritating, as if he meant to contradict her assumptions.
“Now, now, don’t be like that! I’ve wanted a
chance to talk to you for ages. After all, Miss Nicola, you are the love of
Sieg’s life!” After being issued this title, which seemed sure to mislead
people and cause trouble, Nicola’s eyes shot open in shock. With Alois pushing
her from behind and Sieghart in front pulling her forward by her hand, Nicola
finally winced openly.
4
Though rejecting Sieghart, her childhood
friend, would have been one thing, Nicola knew she could not freely reject the
firstborn prince. In the blink of an eye, she was escorted to the balcony
outside the student council room and forced to sit on one of the antique chairs
around a cabriole-leg table with a circular top.
Despite Nicola not knowing what Alois found so
funny, he laughed and said, “Ah ha ha! I’m telling you, you can’t completely
hide how you feel, Miss Nicola!” All Nicola could do in the face of this was
sit in glum silence. She was surprised by just how casual this prince had
turned out to be.
Nicola could not complain about the adorable
sweets displayed on a three-tiered cake stand or the high-end tea. These were
certainly delicious, but the gorgeous men seated in front of her had soured her
stomach. Sieghart, who had swept his long, translucent silver hair to one side
and loosely tied it together, remained a perfect, flawless vision of structural
beauty. His long silver eyelashes, which looked like they belonged on feathers,
framed the amethyst gems of his eyes and cast shadows over them. This contributed
a passionate burst of color to his already alluring irises.
On the other hand, Alois had slightly scruffy
blond hair with eyes the color of emeralds. Though his face was on the boyish
side, his features were altogether elegant. While he carried himself with the
sweet disposition of a fairy tale prince, his face was still far more neatly
arranged than the average person’s, even though it was still inferior to
Sieghart’s.
Right then, Nicola was comparing Alois to an
incomparable beauty, so he could not help but look slightly less gorgeous.
Otherwise, Alois would surely find himself easily classed as a beautiful man.
One was graceful and the other was charming.
As their beauty belonged to different categories, at this point, it was all
down to personal preference. The two stood in stark contrast, so much so that
Nicola understood why people needed to juxtapose their gold and silver hair.
With his eyes seeming to ooze honey, Sieghart
gazed at Nicola as she sipped her tea. She was not sure what he found so
interesting, but she had long since grown accustomed to this behavior and was
determined to ignore it.
The problem was the gaze that Alois had placed
on her. He looked at her curiously, like a cat that had just found a new toy.
As the rays of the afternoon sun bounced off
their needlessly shiny gold and silver hair, it became too much for Nicola to
bear as she frowned when they stared at her.
Nicola paused before saying, “Firstly, please
allow me to correct the assumption implicit in the dishonorable way I was
described earlier. Though it is true that I served as Sieghart’s childhood
friend, it is not as if we are engaged or anything. I hope you can refrain from
saying anything else susceptible to misinterpretation.”
She saw Sieghart look heartbroken out of the
corner of her eye and could not help but let out a whimper and mutter to
herself, “Oof... He’s just too pretty...” This was before she realized that she
could not afford to pay him any mind and dismissed him entirely. Sieghart knew
that Nicola had a weakness for that expression, so he had almost certainly made
it on purpose.
Besides, the words that Sieghart muttered to
himself as he pouted were not cute in the slightest.
“We’ll get engaged eventually, so I don’t see
the problem,” he said. Nicola could not understand a word of what he was trying
to say. In the first place, a marriage between a marquess and the daughter of a
viscount was impossible.
Nicola looked at Sieghart icily.
“Hmm, hmm, oh, is that right? Even if it is
one-sided, that doesn’t change the fact that, as far as Sieg is concerned, you
are the love of his life, does it?” remarked Alois.
“As I keep saying—”
“Ah, that’s right. Nicola, getting back to the
main reason I called you here today...” Sieghart cut Nicola off this time.
Realizing that no one here would listen to
her, Nicola felt the veins in her temples begin to throb. She coughed and
managed to calm herself down. If she had been alone with Sieghart, she probably
would not have been able to do this, but the firstborn prince was there as
well. Instead of pressing the matter further, she simply furrowed her brow more
deeply.
“There you go. This is what I wanted to give
you. Consider it my thanks for your constant help and a gift to celebrate your
admission to this school. Go on, open it.”
Sieghart handed Nicola a carefully wrapped,
rectangular box. Doing as she was told, Nicola tore away the wrapping paper and
lifted the lid of the box to find a simple fountain pen inside. She noticed
that it had been produced by a well-known craftsperson when she picked up the
pen and held it aloft. The tasteful contrast between the pen’s deep azure and
silver trim was beautiful enough to enchant anyone. It certainly matched Nicola’s
tastes well.
But despite all that, the first thing that
struck Nicola was the overwhelming impression: This looks
expensive.
“I’m afraid I have nothing to offer you in
return for such an expensive item, so I can’t accept this,” said Nicola. But as
she attempted to return the pen, Sieghart wrapped his hands around hers.
“It needn’t be expensive. Anything you make by
hand is valuable to me. So why not give me your usual gift?” said Sieghart,
slyly tilting his head to one side. Nicola growled in annoyance. “Ah, you see,
the one you gave me last time has long since lost its fragrance.”
There was a rustling sound as Sieghart fished
for something around his neck before revealing a tiny scented sachet sewn from
gauze. This sachet, which Sieghart had taken to wearing around his neck, was
Nicola’s handiwork. She had utilized knowledge from her past life in making it,
and it had a limited ability to ward off spirits.
However, a trained eye could instantly spot
that this sachet, which Nicola had sent Sieghart by mail only two months
earlier, had already lost its potency. Nicola supposed if that was the case,
she would have to give him a new one anyway.
Wearing a sour expression on her face, Nicola
begrudgingly took a new sachet out of her pocket. The new sachet contained
dried wisteria, mixed with just a trace amount of sandalwood. Wisteria, known
as fuji in Japan, was a flower that repelled spirits
and other evils. However, Nicola used scraps of cloth to make them because the
sachets themselves were intended to be disposed of eventually. The wisteria
grew naturally outside, so Nicola just harvested it. The material cost of this
gift was practically zero.
Even so, Sieghart looked delighted and his
face seemed to glow as he took the sachet and treated it as if it were
precious. Nicola’s lips twisted into a jagged grimace.
“Oh, are these really so special?” asked
Alois.
“I’m just happy to receive something that
Nicola made herself. Though they are incredibly effective as well,” replied
Sieghart.
“The sachet itself is not very potent. It
really does little more than comfort the wearer,” said Nicola dismissively.
“No, no, it really is effective... The moment
the last one’s fragrance went away, that thing
appeared.” The thing that Sieghart grumbled about in a
low voice was most likely the doppelgänger that Nicola had cast out yesterday.
Sieghart must have been recalling the encounter because his jewel of a face
clouded over slightly.
Nicola was silent for a moment, before saying,
“I see.” Nicola had not been speaking out of modesty, as her sachets really
provided nothing more than comfort. Still, this was probably preferable to
being told that they had no effect. To hide her bashfulness, she spoke with an
excessively blunt tone.
Suddenly feeling Alois’s gaze upon her, Nicola
saw how the prince slowly rested his elbows on the round tabletop and clasped
his hands together. He then put his chin on top of them. His emerald eyes
became fixed on Nicola.
“So, Sieg’s mysterious little helper. Just
what are these mysterious phenomena that Sieg seems to get caught up in now and
then?”
Nicola’s hand froze just as she reached out to
take a macaron. She glared at Sieghart reproachfully as if to say, You told him? But Sieghart shook his head in denial.
“No, Sieg hasn’t said anything. But I’m
inquisitive by nature. The more someone tries to hide something, the more I
want to know about it.” Alois grinned broadly, like a cat cornering a mouse.
In response, Nicola fixed the prince with a
steady grin of her own. She plastered a smile evenly across her face like a
mask, imbuing it with a warning for the prince not to take one step further.
“Your Highness. I can assure you that there
exists a world that you are better off not knowing about,” said Nicola, before
deciding that the conversation was over and standing up from her chair.
Nicola could not stand fearless fellows like
this one. She knew that she was being impolite, but Alois was the one who had
said to dispense with formalities. Nicola glanced at Sieghart, who smiled wryly
as if to say there was nothing else for it. He surely understood that Alois had
just stepped on a land mine as far as Nicola was concerned.
Expecting Sieghart to somehow smooth things
over, Nicola bowed to them. She then left Alois with one last perfunctory
warning before taking her leave.
“Forgetting anything you have doubts about, or
that you are merely curious about, is for your own good. With that, I bid you
good day.”
5
Alois’s first impression of Nicola was that
she was an extremely cautious girl, one that put the image of a black cat in
his mind. Although her diminutive stature made her look somewhat adorable, like
a small animal, she was by no means a breathtaking beauty. Alois knew that his
own appearance was more elegant than most people’s, but he was also aware that
even he could not compete with Sieghart’s fair and beautiful face. Yet Sieghart
had said that he was infatuated with this young lady.
In all honesty, Alois had expected a beauty
worthy of his best friend. He had almost felt let down by the structure of her
face from the high expectations he had set. Certainly, Alois did feel some
affinity toward her for the fact that she could hold a proper conversation with
the likes of Sieghart and himself without blushing and shuffling her feet.
Furthermore, he was particularly amused by her expression that she had been
unable to hide completely, which seemed to say, “When can I leave?”
Still, that alone was not enough to maintain
Alois’s interest. What really intrigued him was what she had kept hidden. He
craved her knowledge of ghosts, phantoms, and supernatural phenomena—what one
might have called the spiritual realm.
When Alois heard people whisper rumors of such
things from time to time, he thought, How interesting, if
only it were true. He had never quite been able to believe them. But as
his friendship with Sieghart deepened, his way of thinking had started to
change.
At any rate, strange phenomena that defied
common sense happened regularly around his best friend. Under such
circumstances, Sieghart had always simply sent a letter to his childhood
friend. He would never discuss these happenings with Alois, who found these
things quite boring.
Even over the last two weeks, though Sieghart
had hid it quite well, Alois could tell that Sieghart had been feeling terrible
based on the color of his face alone. Only once had Alois spotted the two
Siegharts existing at the same time, from a distance, which had allowed him to
deduce that something strange was going on. But, like always, his friend had
not seen fit to confide in him.
While looking more exhausted with each passing
day, Sieghart had repeatedly muttered, “Come the new school year, Nicola will
be here...” Alois had found himself unable to do anything but pretend not to
notice.
And so Alois’s thoughts returned to Sieghart’s
childhood friend, the viscount’s daughter, in whom his best friend put so much
faith whenever he was caught up in one of these strange situations. After
seeing today how much Sieghart’s complexion had recovered, Alois thought that she
probably really had resolved the terror that had been plaguing Sieghart on the
day of her welcoming ceremony.
Anyone would surely have believed it was more
difficult not to find such a girl interesting.
Moreover, Alois simply did not relish the thought of being left out. Those
feelings had spurred Alois to boldly intrude on Nicola’s territory, but he had
received a definitive rejection from her. This was nothing like the
noncommittal answers he was more used to hearing. After watching Nicola walk
away, Alois shrugged.
“My, my. Somehow I seem to have incurred her
displeasure. Did I say something wrong?”
Sieghart chuckled with his eyebrows downturned
as if to say that he knew Nicola was surprisingly severe about such things. But
he then fixed Alois with a reproachful gaze.
“But you are also at fault. Just as Nicola
says, there are some things you are better off not knowing about. In fact, I
especially don’t want you to know anything, Alois.”
Alois shrugged again before downing his now
completely cold cup of tea. It probably was genuine concern that had kept
Sieghart from confiding in him. He was not so childish or foolish as to fail to
understand that. Still, he could not help but feel dissatisfied.
6
A few days had passed since that fateful tea
party. Still not rid of his feelings of dissatisfaction, Alois gazed vacantly
out of the window of an empty classroom, lost in thought. He could not help
feeling bothered after all. Alois knew that he’d been more inquisitive than
others from a young age.
Still, it was rare for someone of his lofty
status—the firstborn prince of this kingdom—to find the time to lose himself in
his thoughts. Alois actually found himself enjoying this opportunity to brood a
little.
His childhood friend, a young man who also
served as his bodyguard and valet and who accompanied him most of the time, was
not at school today. Alois had been told that his manservant had sustained an
injury during his summer training and had not yet recovered by the start of the
new school term.
Alois certainly did not dislike his friend,
but Sieghart tended to be overly passionate since he held Alois in a position
of supremacy. And so Alois sometimes winced at the thought of being attended by
Sieghart around the clock. He intended to make the most of the time he had to
himself until his bodyguard returned to his side.
Moreover, Alois had enough consideration to
allow Sieghart to spend some time one-on-one with his childhood friend. In a
rare occurrence, Alois had not gone to see his best friend after school today.
Alois wondered what, precisely, the
inexplicable phenomena surrounding Sieghart were, how Nicola resolved them, and
how he could get one of them to tell him what had happened. This was an ideal
theme for Alois to mull over as he passed his spare time.
Gazing outside with his elbows resting on the
windowsill, Alois happened to look down at the courtyard.
“Ah...” he quietly gasped to himself, without
intending to. Ever since he could remember, Alois had had the repeated
experience of noticing something strange in his field of vision and squinting
to better see it. It always appeared to him dimly, in a blur. It was
indistinct, as if a veil had been placed over it.
Failing to understand this phenomenon was
unbearable to someone as inquisitive as Alois, but no matter how hard he
squinted, it never came into focus. Even its outline did not seem clearly
bounded. It remained obscure.
Since he could not discern what it was, he
always forgot about these encounters soon after they happened. In this
instance, it occupied just one point in his field of vision. It formed a blur
underneath one of the trees in the courtyard, like ink dropped into water. As
always, no matter how much Alois concentrated, it would not come into focus—or
so he thought at first.
“Huh... Oh?” The thing,
which had remained indistinct for so many years until this day, came into focus
for the first time. Its once obscure outline gradually became distinct. Alois’s
heart leaped forward in his chest and he felt cold sweat start to run down his
back.
“Forgetting anything you have doubts about, or
that you are merely curious about, is for your own good.” The words Alois had
heard a few days earlier went through his mind.
Alois had to look away, before it noticed him. If it knew he had seen it, it would all be
over for him. His instinct almost screamed the optimal course of action at him,
but he could not look away for some reason.
Quite the contrary, it felt as if his legs had
sprouted roots that fixed him firmly to the floor or as if his brain and body
were no longer connected. He could not move a muscle in his body, not even his
limbs. Although he felt as if the chill running through his veins might cause
him to shiver at any moment, his whole body seemed to have turned to stone,
down to the very tips of his fingers.
An alarm bell clamored inside his head. But no
matter how clearly he perceived the danger, he no longer had an ounce of
freedom with which to move his own body.
Taking its time, the thing swayed eerily, its
undulations becoming more violent little by little. Then, without warning, it
stopped entirely. Now that it was stationary, Alois could see its outline clear
as day.
“Ah...” Alois gasped again. Though it had
merely ceased moving, Alois once again knew in his gut that this was very bad.
In addition to his cold sweat, he felt every hair on his body stand. As he sat
in stunned silence, he unknowingly foresaw his own death.
It was at that moment that the young lady
Alois had met only a few days earlier appeared out of nowhere. It certainly
seemed correct to say that she “appeared” rather than “arrived.” Before Alois
knew what was happening, she casually pushed her way into his line of sight.
“Your Highness, you must not look. It will do
you harm.” Her voice, lacking intonation, tumbled gently into Alois’s ear.
Nicola’s outstretched hand covered his eyes entirely, so all Alois saw was
darkness.
He could faintly feel Nicola’s body heat
through her hand, although it remained abnormally cold. Regardless, he still
felt the slight warmth course through his body. As it did so, sensation began
to return to his limbs, little by little.
Finally, he felt the stiffness in his
shoulders melt away. With one hand still covering Alois’s eyes, Nicola used her
other hand to grab him by the wrist before forcing him to face away from the
window. Although he could not move a muscle moments earlier, his body followed
Nicola’s lead.
“That is not something you should be looking
at,” said Nicola before removing her hand from in front of Alois’s eyes. His
sight revealed a classroom with no one in it besides the two of them. He felt
an awkward rush of air go down his throat and finally realized that he had
stopped breathing during the encounter. Still holding Alois by the wrist,
Nicola started walking again, dragging Alois behind her without mercy or
hesitation. She must have decided her destination beforehand because there was
no hint of delay in her footsteps.
“Hey, what was that just now? Miss Nicola?
Where are we going? Hey. Hey, Miss Nicola!” Alois called out to Nicola
repeatedly, but it was almost as if she could not hear him at all. Not only did
she not answer him, she did not even turn back once as she pushed her way
through the hallway.
Alois belatedly began to worry that this might
not even be the viscount’s daughter he had met so recently. As he tried to
shake her hand off, it would not budge. He could only follow her until they
went to a garden behind the school.
Sieghart and Alois, who tended to draw
attention wherever they went, had found this little-known garden and often took
refuge there. But the moment Alois stepped into the familiar garden, he looked
quite foolish as he stood with his mouth hanging open.
“Uh, what? Miss...Nicola...?”
Nicola sat under the shade of a tree, allowing
Sieghart to use her lap as a cushion as he lay sprawled on the lawn. She slowly
raised her head to look up at Alois with eyes that seemed half dead.
“Good day to you. That was something of a
close call... I told you to forget about such things.” Unlike when they had met
a few days ago, Nicola no longer attempted to hide her displeasure, even with
Alois standing in front of her. For some reason, she remained seated as she
looked up at Alois.
But if Nicola is there, thought Alois, then who on earth is holding my
wrist right now? Alois gingerly turned to look to one side but found
that the one standing beside him was another Nicola, though her face was
expressionless.
“There are...two Miss Nicolas...?”
But once the Nicola who had Sieghart resting
his head on her snapped her fingers, the Nicola who had escorted Alois here
turned into a piece of paper shaped like a person. The paper figure followed
gravity as it fluttered down onto the grass.
Alois was dumbfounded, unable to believe what
had just occurred before his very eyes. He picked up the person-shaped piece of
paper and found drawings resembling eyes and a mouth on it, sketched in faded
dark-red ink.
Still unable to believe his eyes after facing
this phenomenon, Alois looked back and forth between Nicola and the paper doll,
over and over.
Nicola ignored Alois completely and, after
slapping the reclining Sieghart on his forehead, said, “Sieghart, the task is
complete. Please move aside. Come on, hurry up.”
After Sieghart reluctantly sat up, Nicola
asked him which was the shortest route to the courtyard. She then walked away,
clearly intent on leaving Alois behind to stand there, stock-still.
But Alois suddenly became flustered and
grabbed Nicola’s hand. “I’d like you to wait a moment. Could I trouble you for
an explanation?” With his tone, he made it clear that he had no intention of
letting go until he got one. He exerted some strength in his hand when holding
Nicola by the wrist. Her wrist, which was so slender, looked like a twig that
might snap if he applied too much force to it.
After a silent battle of wills between the
two, Nicola seemed to resign herself to the fact that Alois would not give up
so easily.
Nicola sighed, then said, “All right then.
Tomorrow, after school.”
“Understood. Tomorrow, then. I’ll be waiting.”
When Alois released Nicola’s wrist, she finally distanced herself from the two
boys and walked away.
Sieghart called out to Nicola one more time
before she was out of sight, “Nicola, everything’s all right, isn’t it?”
“Yes. No need to worry.”
“I see. Well, see you later. Take care.”
Still facing away from Sieghart, Nicola waved
goodbye as she walked away. Alois thought to himself that she was probably
going to confront that terrible thing.
Alois could not help but want to know more
about what he could not understand. If something seemed interesting, he wanted
to know all about it. That was Alois’s driving principle.
But if someone asked him if he wanted to see that thing again, his answer would surely be “no.”
Alois was silent for a moment before saying,
“Sieg, are you sure you want to let her go by herself?”
“Even if I went, I’m afraid there’s nothing I
could do.” As Sieghart was gifted with both intelligence and beauty and praised
as a master of both the pen and the sword, everyone around him spread rumors
that there was nothing he could not do. But under these circumstances, Sieghart
could only look down with melancholy eyes and speak in self-deprecating terms.
“This is Nicola’s territory. If she says she’s fine, there’s nothing I can do
but believe in her and wait for her return. Although I can’t say that I like
it.”
“Is that right...?” Alois was no longer
gripped by terror, by that oppressive sensation that his life was forfeit. But
with the sweat drenching his shirt, and feeling the cold wind, he had goose
bumps for a totally different reason.
No matter how long he waited, the
uncomfortable feeling of his uniform clinging to his skin would not go away.
7
After school, Nicola and Alois stared each
other down. This was the day after she had disposed of the disagreeable entity
that lurked in the courtyard. For some reason, Sieghart had picked Nicola up
and set her down on his knee.
Throughout all the day’s classes, Nicola had
wondered whether she could escape her fate, but this was how she had ended up.
As she was walking through an empty hallway, she thought about feigning
sickness as an excuse when suddenly a pair of arms were thrust under her from
behind. The owner of those arms then picked her up and carried her away, almost
as if she were a cat. Unable to resist, she had been brought to her present
location.
At one point, Nicola tried letting her body go
limp to make it seem she had given up, then attempted to surprise her captor
with a sudden burst of strength. Such was her last-ditch effort to flee
Sieghart’s knee. But she could not have removed the arms wrapped around her
waist, even if she had a lever.
“Hmph, hmph,” Nicola groaned as she tried once
more to wriggle herself free. But behind her, Sieghart did not move a muscle.
“Ah ha ha, you’re so cute when you squirm,
Nicola,” said Sieghart.
“Tch... Very well. I
won’t run away, so please put me down.”
“One hundred and twenty-seven times,”
whispered Sieghart in a voice so pleasant that Nicola thought it was wasted on
him.
“Eh?” Failing to understand the significance
of this number, Nicola turned back to look at Sieghart but soon regretted it.
At close range, his excessively well-ordered face was too much for her to bear
and so Nicola whimpered, “Ugh... He really is good-looking, though.”
Though Sieghart smiled gracefully, there was a
force behind it, almost if something awful lurked beneath the surface.
“One hundred and twenty-seven. That’s the
number of times you said, ‘I won’t run away’ and then proceeded to run away,
Nicola.”
Nicola wondered, Why would
he go to the trouble of keeping count? Utterly flabbergasted, she looked
up at the sky. While bothered by Sieghart’s incredible memory, which was wasted
on her, Nicola was strangely impressed with just how many times she had escaped
him. She could hardly believe he was talking about her.
“Now then, I take it your lover’s quarrel is
finished? Hey, I’d really like to know what happened yesterday,” said Alois,
glancing out at the courtyard through a window. That was before he turned to
look at Nicola, who remained suspended on Sieghart’s knee.
Sieghart had brought Nicola to the same
classroom Alois had been in when he’d spotted the apparition yesterday. No one
else preferred to hang around once classes were finished, so there was a lot of
space in the room with only the three of them inside.
“I must ask you, please do not take too keen
an interest in such things. You will attract them more easily if you do.”
“Huh, really?”
“Would you please try not to look so excited
when I give you a warning?” Nicola glared coldly at Alois, who showed no sign
of relaxing his curious demeanor. “I came to get you this time, but I am not so
curious or kind as to come and save someone who sticks his nose into trouble
just for fun.” Roughly translated, what Nicola meant was, “There won’t be a
next time.”
Nicola dismissed fools who had no sense of
fear. She felt no obligation to save people who rushed into danger like moths
to a flame.
Sieghart’s hands must have been free because
he started playing with Nicola’s hair from behind. When Nicola glared back at
him in irritation, he simply said, “Oh, don’t mind me. Continue.” Yet he did
not look concerned in the slightest.
She begrudgingly put Sieghart out of her mind
and shifted her sight back to Alois. His expression showed he was still dead
set on getting an explanation, which made her frown.
“I told you, did I not? There exists a world
you are better off not knowing about. The more you know about it, the more its
inhabitants will approach you. If you think you can go through life without
understanding it or having any knowledge about it, that would be for the best.
You don’t want to die under suspicious circumstances, do you?” Simply put,
Nicola was telling Alois to tread carefully if he valued his life.
Circumstances differed greatly between
Sieghart and Alois. Sieghart, with his peerless beauty, never had any chance of
living a life free of such perils. If Nicola had not bestowed an appropriate
amount of knowledge upon him, he would have passed on to the other side in no
time at all.
But it would be preferable to living with no
knowledge about the inhabitants of that world. Nicola wished Alois would simply
forget about the encounter. She stared back at Alois, her eyes telling him that
she had no intention of backing down.
After a moment, Alois reluctantly returned
Nicola’s gaze with a shrug. “All right. To be fair, I did break out in a cold
sweat yesterday. In that case, could you at least tell me what I should do if I
come across one of those things again?”
“No, no. One near miss does not mean that you
will come across them again so easily. For now, I will give you a talisman. If
you carry that, you should not experience any further problems.”
Those who had made contact with that world
even once had a particular air about them. The nonhuman did not tend to
overlook it. If Alois avoided interacting with any apparitions for a while, the
echo of that encounter would eventually fade away.
However, Alois shook his head and said, “This
isn’t the first time I’ve seen it.”
Nicola took a moment to register this. “Eh?”
“I’ve spotted something like that every now
and then up ’til now. Though each time I have seen it, I forget about it soon
after.”
Nicola was silent for another moment. “Up ’til
now? This really wasn’t the first time?”
“No, it wasn’t. It happens to me once every
year or two. Though this was the first instance I saw it so clearly. And with
my personality, I couldn’t help but pay attention to something so mysterious.”
Nicola asked Alois to describe his experiences
in more detail. He told her he had seen something that did not appear human
more than once before. But the shape appeared indistinct, almost as if it were
behind a veil. Yesterday, it suddenly snapped into focus for the very first
time.
“You’re kidding,” groaned Nicola after a
moment. Realizing this was a completely different story, she cradled her head
in dismay. A person with a bit of bad luck could deem such encounters a close
call. But each encounter was inevitable for someone haunted by that world’s
inhabitants throughout his life. Those outside the realm of humanity would not
overlook this history.
Nicola almost blurted out, “You’re like two
pesky peas in a pod, aren’t ya?” With what little reason she had left, she
suppressed this impulse, even if that really was the case. It was not only
humans who preferred those who were beautiful or elegant. Although not quite as
gorgeous, Alois could still stand beside Sieghart. There was no way that he
could not enchant the nonhuman.
Alois could have simply been lucky until now,
but he had always been doomed to arrive at the same wavelength as the
apparitions. Nicola grimaced and groaned again.
“Oh, come on!” In all places and times in
history, ill feelings gathered around those who had power, followed by
apparitions. If Nicola could have had one wish granted, it would have been to
not get involved with the firstborn prince of the kingdom.
However, the stronger one’s interest was in
the supernatural, the more the distance between one’s own world and the next
would shrink. Nicola knew that if she became part of the reason for Alois
crossing that boundary, she could not remain so detached.
Nicola paused for a moment before saying, “I
retract my previous statement. I shall tell you the bare minimum you need to
know.”
“Thanks! Ah ha ha, there’s no need to scowl
so. Don’t worry. I’ll obey whatever warnings you give me, Miss Nicola. I vow
not to do anything rash. You have my word.”
Unlike Nicola, who looked like someone had
forced her to thoroughly chew something especially sour before swallowing it,
Alois beamed with happiness as he made this declaration.
When Sieghart playfully blew into Nicola’s ear
to distract her, she silently stepped on his foot.
8
“First of all, can you tell me what it was
that I saw yesterday?” asked Alois.
Nicola could not immediately respond when
asked exactly what the thing was. Remaining somewhat defiant, Nicola folded her
arms imperiously as she sat on Sieghart’s knee. He showed no sign of getting
tired of annoying Nicola as he began to put her hair in braids.
“Hmmm... If I had to describe it, I might say
that it is ‘something nameless,’” ventured Nicola.
“You don’t even have a name for it?” Alois
said and frowned almost imperceptibly. At this stage, it may have sounded like
Nicola was just trying to sidestep the question, but there was really no other
way of putting it.
“Quite right. It is one of the endless,
nameless apparitions one might find anywhere. Amongst these, some will snuff
you out the moment you lay eyes on them, while others will simply float around.
The one in the courtyard yesterday was a somewhat disagreeable example, but
there is still no definitive name for it. In fact, Your Highness, let me say
this.”
Nicola paused for a beat and leaned closer to
Alois, staring him squarely in the eye. She was about to tell him something she
had reminded Sieghart of repeatedly ever since they were little.
“You must be very careful about giving such
things a name.”
Alois was silent for a moment. “But why?”
After blinking once in surprise, Alois’s boyish face looked more childlike than
ever.
“Names are the shortest spells in the world. A
name represents the true nature of a thing. The very act of granting something
a name can give a hazy apparition a more clearly defined shape. So you must not
go around naming things without a good reason.”
On the flip side, the act of granting a name
could bind an apparition’s existence to this plane and make them easier to
command. But it was unrealistic to expect a layperson to pull this off, so
there was no need to tell Alois that.
Though Alois still did not look entirely
satisfied, he reluctantly nodded. “Hmm, well, I can see what you’re saying.
Basically, it’s better for some things we don’t know to remain unknown.”
“That is what I am saying.” Irritated by
Sieghart’s chin resting on top of her head, Nicola shook her head furiously to
get rid of him. When she did so, several braids of black hair fell back down.
Sieghart must have gone to the trouble of removing the hairpin he had used for
his hair to style hers in an updo. Nicola looked back at Sieghart suspiciously.
“What do you think you’re doing?”
“Hm? I was putting your hair in a braided
chignon, Nicola. You’ve just been talking to Alois this entire time, leaving me
all by myself. I was bored,” replied Sieghart.
“Sorry, Sieg. But I’d still like to ask a few
more things. Please lend me Miss Nicola for a little while longer,” said Alois.
Once again, something insulting nearly slipped
past Nicola’s lips. She wanted to say something to the effect of, “What are you
talking about, you wretched prince?” But she once again swallowed these words
just before they emerged. Of course, it was Nicola that Alois should have been
apologizing to and asking for more of her time, not Sieghart.
“I guess it can’t be helped,” said Sieghart,
taking it upon himself to grant permission. Nicola glared at Sieghart and Alois
out of the corner of her eye.
“Very well, let us proceed at once,” said
Nicola, urging Alois.
“Right. Ah, you said that the more I learn
about this world, the closer its inhabitants will be, didn’t you? Does that
mean that I’ll find them easier to see from now on?”
“That is a possibility,” admitted Nicola.
Whenever one turns the knob on a radio to
adjust the frequency, even randomly, one might arrive at frequencies close to
those of existing stations. People may hear the frequencies transmitted with a
mixture of noise, but one would hardly ever land on an exact broadcast
frequency. However, this time, Alois had landed on an apparition’s frequency
perfectly.
Such entities would not overlook this kind of
occurrence, as they mainly craved the beautiful and pure. There was every
possibility of the nonhuman continuing to harass Alois in the future.
“For that reason, I will tell you the bare
minimum necessary to prepare you. Sieghart, for starters, please tell him the
five fundamental articles of conduct.”
“You want me to tell him?” said Sieghart.
Nicola could feel him tilt his head in confusion above her own. His needlessly
smooth and glossy silver locks tickled her cheeks, so she brushed them aside
with her hand.
If you’re so bored, you can take part in our
conversation,
thought Nicola.
“Article One: Never give your name to nonhuman
beings. Do I have that right?”
“Indeed. It is especially taboo to give your
name when it is asked of you. Please be sure to never give your real name in
such situations.”
Having your name discovered was just as
dangerous as giving an apparition a name. A name could bind a being and make it
easier to control. The concept was widely known in Japan, partly thanks to
fiction. But the people of this world were unfortunately not so familiar with
it.
“Article Two: Do not put anything from the
other side in your mouth... Right?”
“Correct. If you eat something that is not of
this world, you will find yourself unable to return home.” By breaking this
taboo, those who could otherwise be easily saved forfeited their lives. This
rule was present in Yomotsu Hegui from Japanese
mythology, Persephone’s descent into Hades from Greek stories, and many other
legends around the world. In these stories, eating the food of another world
made one an inhabitant of it too. That was the point of no return.
As a brief aside, it was for this very reason
that Nicola had been reluctant to eat anything when she was reborn in the world
she currently inhabited for this very reason. Such behavior had worried her
parents a great deal.
“Article Three: If you make a promise, make
sure that you keep it,” resumed Sieghart.
“While you would ideally avoid making any
promises in the first place, you must follow through with them if you make one,
no matter how small.”
A promise amounted to a contract. Those who
dwelt outside the human realm were particularly strict with breaches of
contract.
“Article Four: If you make a wish, decide for
yourself what price you will pay. Is that right?”
“Yes, you are right. Whether you present your
hair or blood as an offering, spirits are always willing to offer something in
return. But you must never allow them to name their price. Even though it is
best not to ask anything of them in the first place, you might do so as a last
resort. Please remember this rule should you ever find yourself in such a
bind.”
Be they fairies or devils, those who sought
compensation for their help were seldom upstanding citizens. Even if one had no
choice but to ask for their help, allowing them to set the price was a sure
path to hell.
“The last one is to never anger the gods, I
think,” said Sieghart.
“Yes. This rule is the most important of all.
There is nothing more fearsome than the power of the gods. If you ever
disrespect the gods, I will be the first to cut ties with you.”
“Eh? By gods, do you mean the ones people
worship at temples?” Alois blinked a few times. The shocked expression on his
face asked “Do gods really exist?”
Nicola nodded solemnly. “They certainly exist.
Not only have people given them names but there are myths describing their
personalities. Sculptures and paintings have also established a shared
understanding of their physical appearances. The act of thinking shapes an
image, or what we call imagination.”
The official religion of the Kingdom of
Daustria was polytheistic, much like the religions seen in the Japanese Kojiki myths, Greek mythology, Nordic mythology, and
Egyptian mythology of Nicola’s former world. With neither a founder nor
scripture, how they practiced this religion was similar to Japanese Shinto.
Their mythology contained no clear doctrine or commandments to follow.
Though they might be fewer in number than the yaoyorozu—the eight million kami
spoken of in Shinto myth—the people of this kingdom could hardly be expected to
pay their respects to all the seemingly countless gods in this world.
Most people seemed to only vaguely recognize a
few pillars of the pantheon and their particular spheres of influence. It
seemed rare for people to worship them fervently. So it was not as if Nicola
did not understand Alois’s confusion. But wherever there were myths, one could
always find gods.
Nicola had not yet interacted directly with
anything resembling a god in this world. She, however, had felt as if a godlike
being was observing her from a specific nearby location several times in the
past.
As long as she knew gods existed here but did
not take appropriate measures against them, she would one day face their wrath.
“Those are the five articles of conduct. I
reserve the right to abandon you without mercy if you intentionally break any
of them and land yourself in trouble. Please keep them firmly in mind, Your
Highness.”
Even though Nicola had brought Sieghart into
this conversation in part to remind him, Alois was still her main target.
With a serious expression, Alois nodded gently
and said, “Understood. I will make sure to never break any of them.” It seemed
that Alois had not been lying when he said that he would follow Nicola’s
warnings from now on.
Nicola thought bitterly, If
only his attitude had remained carefree until now, I could have abandoned him
without feeling guilty. Despite his flippant attitude, Alois was at
least not fatally stupid. Nicola sighed heavily.
“As for the other forbidden acts, I will tell
you those little by little whenever we have the opportunity.”
“You really forbid lots of acts, don’t you,
Nicola?”
Nicola turned around to look at Sieghart, only
to see him gazing off into the distance. She pinched his porcelain-white cheeks
to get his attention.
Just who do you think you have to thank for the
fact that you’ve survived to the age of eighteen? she thought.
“Ow ow ow, that hurts, Nicola.”
“You have failed to show proper gratitude and
restraint toward me.”
“I really am grateful. But if I showed
restraint, you wouldn’t meet with me anymore, would you?”
“I do not see any problem with keeping our
contact to the bare minimum.”
“You see. That’s why I need to be a little
pushy when it comes to you, Nicola,” said Sieghart, as he sulked like a small
child, pouting and resting his chin on Nicola’s shoulder.
“Hey, Miss Nicola. Maybe you can tell me what
this is next?” asked Alois. The serious expression he had worn until a moment
earlier had suddenly vanished, replaced by a look of open curiosity. In one
hand, he brandished the person-shaped paper figure Nicola had used the previous
day to fetch Alois—her shikigami. Nicola remembered
she had failed to retrieve it yesterday. She scowled, thinking that such an
oversight was not like her.
“That exceeds the bounds of the bare minimum
you need to know, so I cannot give you an answer. There is really no need for
you to know what it is.”
“Oh, no need for me
to know about it, you say? Would that mean that there isn’t any harm in me
being aware of it?”
Nicola was silent. There was something
indescribably irritating about Alois’s expression as he celebrated having
tripped Nicola up. Alois lightly flicked the scrap of paper with his finger.
She had drawn pictograms in dark-red ink representing eyes and a mouth on the
piece of paper.
“Please do not treat that so roughly,” Nicola
finally said.
“Oh, why not? I guess if you told me what it
is, I could treat it appropriately.”
Nicola clammed up again. She weighed the
myriad pros and cons of giving Alois this information and watched the scales in
her mind tip to one side.
“Very well. I shall tell you. In exchange,
please return it to me first.”
“Sure. Here you go.”
As soon as Nicola nodded her approval, Alois
easily obliged her request. Perhaps because she had already told him to treat
it more carefully, he grasped the piece of paper very gently as he handed it
over.
Once the piece of paper was safely back in her
hands, Nicola held it before her eyes. After confirming that it had sustained
no damage, she set it down on the desk in front of her.
The two drawings on the paper figure, one
resembling closterium algae cells and another looking almost like an inverted
letter “A,” had been drawn in Nicola’s own blood. These were all, in fact,
Japanese pictograms.
“Written here are old letters meaning ‘eye’
and ‘mouth.’ Writing ‘eyes’ will allow the shikigami
to share its vision with the user, writing ‘ears’ will cause it to share its
hearing, and writing ‘nose’ will share its sense of smell. Since I didn’t write
‘mouth’ here, then it didn’t speak.”
“I wondered why it didn’t answer me when I
spoke to it yesterday... You’re telling me that it really couldn’t hear me?”
“I suppose not. I did not write ‘ears’
anywhere on it, after all.” Huh? Noticing Sieghart
peering down at her, Nicola looked straight up. His long, silver hair
surrounded her like a curtain. “What do you want?”
“The letters on that one are different from
those written on the one you gave me to carry around, aren’t they?” Sieghart
took a similar person-shaped paper figure out of the inside pocket of his
school uniform jacket. He was right. Instead of pictograms, the name “Nicola
von Weber” was written in cursive.
“When used, a shikigami with
my full name written on it will become a perfect clone of me. The one I gave to
Sieghart can act independently with my exact personality and intellect.”
Nicola had given the paper in question to
Sieghart when he first entered the academy. She had enchanted it so it would
activate automatically in times of peril. Knowing that Sieghart would stay
there for two years by himself, she really had no choice.
“A clone, huh? Miss Nicola, could it be that
you wanted that back so badly because any damage inflicted on it would be
reflected on your own body?” asked Alois.
Nicola said nothing, but frowned, thinking to
herself that Alois was unfortunately perceptive in certain matters. He was
absolutely right. Although very useful, Nicola’s shikigami could
not be deployed too recklessly. It would reflect some portion of any damage it
received back on the user.
The proportion of damage that was reflected
depended on the number of powers Nicola granted to the shikigami. Because she
had only written “eyes” and “mouth” on the one in front of her, even if it were
to be torn to pieces, Nicola would merely feel fatigued, or her mouth might
suddenly feel dry. She still believed it’d be preferable to retrieve it rather
than let it be destroyed without her knowledge.
Still holding the shikigami with Nicola’s name
inscribed on it, Sieghart looked down at Nicola and spoke.
“Since we’ll always be together from now on,
shouldn’t I return this?”
Nicola was silent for a moment. “No, we
definitely will not always be together, so please hold on to it.” They were not
even in the same year, so it was impossible for them to spend every hour of
every day together.
“That’s a bit harsh...”
Looking up at Sieghart was starting to hurt
Nicola’s neck, so she returned her gaze to Alois. She thought Sieghart was
probably wearing that dejected expression she found so difficult to resist. As
long as she did not see it, there was no need to worry about it.
“Ah, come to think about it, something else
bothered me,” said Alois. “When we left this empty classroom yesterday and went
to the garden behind the school, why didn’t any students we passed in the hall
look in our direction? I would have thought that, given my status, the sight of
me being dragged around by a girl would attract attention...”
This was true. Under normal circumstances, a
mere viscount’s daughter dragging around the Golden Lord by the hand would
inevitably attract attention. However, it was not as if Nicola had taken any
special measures to prevent this. A shikigami only allowed to use its eyes and
mouth simply had a very faint presence.
But Nicola had finally grown tired of
answering Alois’s questions. She almost felt like she was humoring a child in
that stage of development where any answer you gave them was followed by
another question: “Why?”
Nicola finally answered, “I am afraid that is
a trade secret.”
“Trade? Hey, why
can’t you tell me?”
Nicola was not a particularly patient person.
Without thinking, she finally clicked her tongue in irritation, then covered
her mouth in shock when she remembered who she was talking to.
“Ah! There! There it is! The same rude
attitude you always have when talking to Sieg! You can talk to me the same way,
you know? No need to hold back! Come now! Please?”
“You’re really getting on my nerves, you know
that, Prince?!” This most recent masochistic request from Alois finally
prompted Nicola to speak her mind.
Given her naturally short temper, Nicola
thought she had done quite well to put up with Alois from their initial meeting
until now. Nicola’s tolerance for stress had finally maxed out. If Alois said
there was no need for her to tolerate him any longer, then she was more than
happy to go along with that request.
“Very well, but please sign a written oath
first. It will be an oath saying that no matter how disrespectful my words or
my attitude to you might be, I will not be charged with any crime!” she added.
“Sure, I’ll sign that! If that’s all you need,
I’ll sign as many as you want!”
Nicola stared at the freakishly masochistic
prince. She felt as if she were looking at a dehydrated frog under the
sweltering sun.
“Sieghart, give me some paper. Paper.
Quickly.” When Sieghart opened his school bag to take out a sheet of paper,
Nicola escaped from her place on his knee. She then thrust the fountain pen
Sieghart had recently given her into Alois’s face.
While Alois used the fountain pen to write his
written oath on the paper Sieghart had taken out, Sieghart pointlessly offered
a few meaningless explanations for Alois’s behavior.
“Well, you see, Alois is used to being waited
on hand and foot. So being treated as rudely as this must be novel for him... I
suppose.”
“The reason really does not matter to me,”
said Nicola, covering her face with a hand. She had unintentionally presented
herself as an “amusing woman” in the eyes of the prince. But she had
established her rudeness toward Sieghart over the course of a friendship
lasting many years. The thought that her attitude had immediately ensnared this
masochistic prince made her head hurt.
“All right, Miss Nicola. I’ve finished,” said
Alois.
Nicola wordlessly accepted the sheet of paper
from Alois before checking the date, his statement, and his signature one last
time.
“I acknowledge that I have received your
written oath. Now then, please keep our interactions to the necessary bare
minimum. Not only that, but if you land yourself in trouble with the nonhuman
through your own carelessness, I will totally abandon
you.”
“Got it. If that’s all, I look forward to
working with you again,” said Alois, grinning at Nicola.
No longer needing to hide how she felt about
the wretched prince, Nicola clicked her tongue forcefully.
After a moment’s silence, Nicola said, “As for
you, Sieghart, please do not talk to me unless no one else is around. If it
became widely known that I, a dreary viscount’s daughter, acted familiar with
the Silver Lord, it would only lead to trouble.”
“Even now that we’re finally attending the
same school?”
“Because we are
attending the same school.” After snatching her fountain pen from Alois, she
stowed it away in her brand-new school bag and stood up. The circumstances were
different now from how they had been when Nicola and Sieghart visited each
other’s estates. If they acted too carelessly where strangers might see them,
they would only attract more resentment and envy. Nicola wanted no part of
that.
Tap, tap. A reserved knock sounded at the door.
Good timing, thought Nicola, as she headed for the door herself.
“Ah, please excuse me. In order to use a
vacant classroom, please submit a request to the student coun— I mean, if it
isn’t Prince Alois and our student council president? This will not do. It sets
a bad example for the other students when a senior student and the president
himself break the rules.”
A senior student with lush, light blonde hair
flowing behind her walked into the classroom. As Nicola attempted to slip past
the older girl and into the corridor, the sound of the girl snickering, almost
as if she were mocking Nicola, stopped her.
“My, this is a rare sight. I have never seen
those two alone with a female student before. Just what might your relationship
with these two be, young lady?”
“No relationship whatsoever.” Though she did
not know the rank of the girl, Nicola thought it was safe to assume she
belonged to a family of higher rank than her own, the house of a viscount.
After a brief but polite gesture, Nicola turned on her heel and walked away.
But a nagging doubt stopped her in her tracks.
“Huh?” Tilting her head to one side, Nicola
tried to figure out what was bothering her. She could not put her finger on it.
“Hmm... Well, probably nothing.”
She thought everything paled in comparison
after suffering the misfortune of being given yet another student to protect.
As such, Nicola started walking again.
Nicola’s Little Occult Lectures: Lesson 2
Shikigami
Unlike a doppelgänger, these can be controlled
by one’s own will and are one of the many useful tools in an exorcist’s
arsenal. The “shiki” in shikigami is found in the Japanese words for “equation”
and “formula,” which bears the meaning “in accordance with law.” Based on the
privileges granted to them, the abilities of a shikigami change.
If one writes “eyes” on the paper doll, the
shikigami will share its vision with the practitioner using it. If one writes
“ears,” it will share its hearing.
If one writes their full name on the paper
doll, not only will the practitioner be able to share all five senses with the
shikigami, but it will even be able to act independently. Of course, this would
be within the bounds of the practitioner’s own personality and knowledge. Isn’t
that super convenient? The one I gave to Sieghart is of this kind.
The one downside is that if the medium for its
creation, the paper, is damaged, that effect will rebound onto the
practitioner.
Chapter 3: Pale, Blue, and Frail
1
With a shrill clang,
a sword flew from the hands of the count’s son. The practice sword’s crumpled
blade traced an arc in the air before landing on the finely manicured lawn and
sticking into the earth.
“The victor... Ernst von Mueller!”
Ah, I thought he’d end up
being my next opponent, thought Sieghart, as he sat
resting against the wall of the western tower. Showing no sign of being
particularly surprised, he stood up and, after one last stretch, prepared
himself for his next fight.
Though Sieghart excelled in all things to
quite a high degree, he could not take the top spot in just two subjects: the
swordsmanship and horsemanship practiced by future knights. This was entirely
because he was in the same year as Ernst. Noticing that his hair was loose,
Sieghart briefly untied it before firmly fastening it in a high knot again.
As Sieghart gathered his hair, in his mouth
was a hair tie that Nicola had given him as a birthday present. Though Nicola
had not picked it for this reason, Sieghart liked that the deep navy blue of
the velvet ribbon matched her eyes very well.
The next bout in the tournament, conducted as
part of their swordsmanship training, would be the last for the day. The match
would be between Ernst and Sieghart. Sieghart was used to settling for second
place, but today he faced Ernst with renewed resolve.
“Ernst, you really are strong.”
“No, I just come from a long line of military
officers. With my studies, I am quite hopeless. To display such martial prowess
while excelling in your studies makes you far more impressive than me, Your
Grace.”
Sieghart smiled wryly, knowing how sincere a
personality Ernst possessed and that this was surely not flattery on his part.
He also knew all too well that he was a jack of all trades and a master of
none. Though he excelled to some degree in every discipline, he would never
stand out as a true genius. He would always remain in the realm of generally
accomplished mediocrities.
Though Sieghart knew he was asking too much
from life, he could not help but envy people who were not merely skillful like
him but had thoroughly mastered a particular skill and thereby become
extraordinary.
The class was nearing its end. As it was also
the final round of the tournament, Sieghart suddenly noticed that the other
male students had gathered around them to watch as they fought.
“Those two again?”
“But this is Ernst’s first tournament since
recovering from his injury, right?”
“You’re right. Today, it could be that...
Well, it just might be...”
Sieghart could not help but overhear the
crowd’s comments. Though it was a forgone conclusion that they gave Ernst
better odds than him, it still stung. Given that he was altogether useless
within Nicola’s territory of the supernatural, he wanted to become strong
enough to protect his childhood friend from anything in the physical realm.
Even though it was early autumn, Sieghart
still winced at the midday sun beating down from the sky. Beneath the western
tower and blue sky, there was nothing to provide shade from the sun on these
training grounds. Sieghart slowly exhaled and waited for the signal to begin.
“Both combatants, en garde... Begin!”
The moment the signal was given, Sieghart took
a big step forward and unleashed three thrusts in a flurry at Ernst. But Ernst
evaded these with minimal effort, bending back slightly, forcing Sieghart to
retreat with a single stroke. Without pausing for even a moment, Ernst leaped
back into striking range as he raised his long sword.
Despite Sieghart having trained himself, he
naturally had difficulty putting on muscle. As Ernst was blessed with the wits
for battle and physique, attacking head-on would surely result in defeat.
Their swords clashed. Sieghart slid his blade
along Ernst’s, blocking his strike and parrying his blade. Without a moment’s
delay, Sieghart stepped diagonally past Ernst. He feinted as if to cross swords
with Ernst before sweeping his leg to trip him up. However, he ultimately could
not overcome Ernst’s formidable core strength. Instead, he narrowly evaded a
counterattack by ducking and rolling. At some point, the sachet around his
neck, which had been tucked away under his shirt, dangled in the air. The tip
of Ernst’s sword caught it, cutting the cord and sending it flying. But
Sieghart knew he did not have time to worry about where it ended up landing.
Without delay, Sieghart planted one hand
firmly on the ground and leaped to his feet. He swiped his sword as he aimed it
at Ernst’s neck However, Ernst easily anticipated this strike—which Sieghart
knew was reckless—and deflected it with the hilt of his sword. But Ernst had
lost his footing too.
To regain their footing, the two leaped away
from each other before simultaneously breaking into a run to cross swords
again. The restless heartbeats and ragged breathing of both combatants were all
too audible.
Before Sieghart’s blade could hit Ernst’s
chest, Ernst had already fixed the tip of his sword at Sieghart’s throat.
“The victor... Ernst von Mueller!” announced
the fencing instructor. A cheer erupted from the crowd.
The two combatants, having finished their
match, eyed each other as they struggled to relax their heavy breathing.
“It’s frustrating, but I guess I never stood a
chance against you, Ernst.”
“No, I had cause to worry a few times
throughout that match. If you shared my same physique, Your Grace, I think we
would have been evenly matched.”
Sieghart could not help but wonder about that
as he smirked to himself. They were only on equal footing because Ernst had the
handicap of having recently recovered from an injury. He would probably never
be able to match Ernst in peak condition.
If Ernst was the type of man to sit about and
neglect his training, that might have been a different story. Unfortunately,
Ernst was not only gifted with wits and a large physique. His steadfast
personality, which ensured that he always tried his hardest, made him
especially strong.
Sieghart was silent for a moment. “Thanks. I
wonder if I can spar with you some other time.”
“Of course you may.”
Sieghart held out his hand toward Ernst, who
gripped it powerfully in return. The fencing instructor directed the students
to put away the practice swords and announced the end of the class.
Their class had run overtime without Sieghart
realizing it, as the crowd of onlookers already contained female students
taking their lunch break. Other students were even spectating from afar or down
the corridors connecting the west tower to the rest of the school. Without
Sieghart’s knowledge, the crowd had expanded quite a bit.
Once Sieghart paid attention, he suddenly
noticed eyes gazing at him, accompanied by shrieks of delight. He muffled a
sigh. Although he would not let it show on his face, he had disliked the
attention of large groups of people from a young age.
But Sieghart’s fencing instructor, apparently
not picking up on how Sieghart felt, said, “Popular as ever, I see.” He looked
at Sieghart curiously and followed this with something more vulgar. “You don’t
have a fiancée yet, do you, Edelstein? A word of advice. If you’re going to
have a fling with a girl, pick one who knows her place. Otherwise, she’ll make
trouble for you afterward.” With a suave wink, the instructor patted Sieghart
lightly on the shoulder before leaving.
As the instructor was still fairly young and
tolerant of the male students’ bad behavior, he was the subject of their
enthusiasm because they looked up to him as an older brother. However, Sieghart
did not belong to that group and preferred to avoid the man.
The school’s founding principle was: “There is
no social rank at this school. Instead, students will treat each other
equally.” It was only natural that the relationship between students and
teachers would take priority when considering this.
That said, it did not sit well with Sieghart
to have someone with whom he was not especially close to speak to him so
casually in such vulgar terms. Besides, his heart was already so strained by
his unrequited love for Nicola after many years that there was no chance of him
having a fling. Sieghart said nothing but bitterly watched the instructor walk
away, unable to say a word in protest.
“Ernst, I plan on meeting up with Alois in the
dining hall after this. You’re coming too, right?”
“No, about that... I must pick up the
assignments I missed while I was away from school, so I am afraid I cannot have
lunch with you.”
Sieghart looked back at Ernst to see him
frowning and looking genuinely apologetic.
“I see. I’ll tell Alois that, then.”
“Thank you very much. I will take my leave.”
After bowing gracefully, Ernst quickly walked away, leaving the training
grounds beneath the western tower.
Sieghart noticed he had gotten quite out of
shape during the summer break. He was suddenly overcome by tiredness following
his first serious bout in quite some time. His body felt sluggish and his legs
felt heavier than usual.
The mix of boys and girls in the crowd of
onlookers, which had grown to twice the size it had been at the outset, broke
off into smaller groups as they sought their own lunch. Following that flow,
Sieghart soon became surrounded by a group of female students.
The girls unanimously praised Sieghart’s
technique with his sword, but he could not help but think that it was Ernst
whom they should have gathered around if that was what they valued. With an
ambiguous smile and a noncommittal response, Sieghart freed himself before
casting his now heavy head around and muttering to himself, “Maybe I’ll start
training a bit more often.”
2
After embroidery class, which was mandatory
for female students only, Nicola headed for the dining hall. She made small
talk with Karin, who had been assigned to the same class as her.
“Oof, my shoulders are sore after that,” Karin
declared. “I really hate doing fiddly work for long stretches of time!”
“I think people who enjoy it are probably in
the minority.”
“But Nicola, you made twice as much progress
as me with the design they gave us to work on.”
“It’s not like I work faster because I enjoy
it.” Even if one did not enjoy elaborate work, one could learn to do it faster.
Nicola, who regularly had to sew together sachets for Sieghart, had naturally
grown used to it, no matter how little she might care for the process.
“Still, at least you’re more skilled than I
am.”
“Well... That much is probably true,” agreed
Nicola, half-smiling as she remembered the other girl’s handiwork, which was
difficult to call neat by any standard. In all honesty, it would probably have
been tough to find someone with less dexterity than Karin. Once, Nicola had
stayed after class to help Karin, who was lagging far behind the rest of the
class, and had noticed that the hands on the nearest clock showed that
lunchtime was already halfway through.
“Won’t you do my assignment for me, Nicola?”
“No way.”
While the two girls made idle chitchat just as
they were stepping onto the staircase landing that led to the dining hall, a
tall male student coming the other way suddenly stopped right next to Nicola.
“Are you Miss Nicola? Viscount Weber’s
daughter?”
Nicola took a moment to find her words. “Yes,
I am. What of it?” Being called “Miss” Nicola brought that wretched prince to
mind, so she had already learned to scowl reflexively upon hearing this term of
address.
Although Nicola and this male student were not
previously acquainted, he seemed dissatisfied with her response and scowled
menacingly in her direction. The furrows in Nicola’s brow grew deeper still.
They did not appear friendly, no matter how
you looked at the two of them. Apparently, Karin still somehow misconstrued
this interaction as she beamed and whispered mischievously in Nicola’s ear.
“Nicola, tell me all about it later!”
Not noticing the ominous atmosphere around
Nicola and the boy, Karin showed an entirely unexpected form of consideration.
Karin excused herself, saying, “I think I left
something in the classroom.” She then withdrew before Nicola had a chance to
stop her.
All that remained was an awkward silence.
Nicola said nothing. Neither did the male student.
The young man had such an impressive physique
that the diminutive Nicola could not tell what he looked like. She already
strained to look up at Sieghart when they talked, but this angle threatened to
really hurt her neck.
Besides his lean features, Nicola could tell
that his body was muscular beneath his school uniform. The young man’s
short-cropped, dark brown hair contributed further to his military appearance.
He continued to glare down wordlessly at Nicola with his blue-gray eyes.
Finally, he approached her, closing the distance between them in a single step.
Not wishing to tilt her head back any further
or avert her eyes, which would have made her feel as if she had lost, Nicola
edged defiantly away from the young man. Yet she fixed her eyes on him even if
she felt like a rabbit cornered by a bear.
A voice suddenly rang from the bottom of the
staircase, interrupting this outlandish and inexplicable situation.
“Hey, you can’t do that. Do you know whose
woman you’re picking on?”
Nicola gazed over as she recognized this
carefree voice she had regrettably come to know so well recently, followed by
an overly familiar hand placed on her shoulder from behind. She could tell
without even turning around it was Alois.
“She’s Sieg’s woman, you know?”
Nicola took a moment to respond to this.
“That’s awfully novel. Usually, you would say that when someone puts their
hands on your woman. Incidentally, it is not as if I belong to Sieghart
either.” Nicola snapped her head back to glare at Alois. As always, her words
fell on deaf ears.
Alois even saw fit to crack a joke. “Ah ha ha,
aren’t you just disappointed that it wasn’t Sieg who came to save you?”
Nicola paused. “You really are a
disappointment as a prince.” Having received Alois’s written oath that nothing
she said or did around him would be considered a crime, she no longer had
anything to fear. She knew that holding her displeasure in would be bad for her
health.
Alois responded to Nicola’s rudeness by
smiling cheerfully and saying, “Yes, yes, this really is a fresh kind of
treatment!” This prompted Nicola to look at Alois even more like he was a worm
crawling over her shoe.
“Why, you! Show His Highness some respect!”
snapped the taller boy. Funnily enough, it was not Alois who objected to
Nicola’s attitude. Instead, it was the militaristic young man standing in front
of her.
Nicola rummaged in her bag for the written
oath she had received a few days prior before silently thrusting it under the
young man’s nose. After intently reading the oath from top to bottom, he turned
to look at Alois with a look of disbelief.
“Y-Your Highness... Did you really write such
an oath?”
“Yeah, I did. This is Miss Nicola. Isn’t she
fun?”
After realizing that this young man was
subjected to the whims of this wretched prince daily, Nicola could not help but
feel a bit sorry for him. However, her more pressing feeling was that she could
no longer wait to find out the unfriendly man’s identity.
Nicola finally said, “So, just who might you
be?”
“I... I am the prince’s bodyguard!” cried the
young man, snapping to attention.
This self-introduction failed in many ways, so
Alois smiled and said, “Well, this man is Ernst von Mueller. My personal
attendant.”
Though students at a boarding school were not
usually allowed to bring their servants with them, it appeared the school made
an unsurprising exception for members of the royal family.
I see, mused Nicola. That’s why he addressed me in a way
so reminiscent of that wretched prince. But if the two of them were
really old acquaintances, did that not make Alois and the servant’s greetings
toward one another an unbelievable farce? Nicola glared at Alois in disbelief.
A look suddenly came over Alois’s face as if
he had just remembered something. “Oh, wait, that’s right! We don’t have time
for this! I came here to fetch you!” Without hesitation, Alois grasped both of
Nicola’s arms. She felt herself shudder.
“I took my eyes off of Sieghart for one minute
and suddenly he was engulfed by this creepy, pitch-black haze. Save him!”
“Not again.” Nicola sighed and covered her
face with one hand. Her childhood friend in his senior year was apparently
still very attractive to apparitions.
Nicola paused before saying, “The shikigami I
gave to Sieghart will activate automatically if his life is ever in peril. The
fact that it hasn’t means that this is not urgent. Let’s meet up after school
somewhere no one else is around.”
Alois’s face seemed to say that he wondered if
Sieghart would really be all right, but he nodded reluctantly.
“In that case, let’s meet in the student
council room since the council isn’t active at this time of year. Don’t forget,
all right?” That final reminder was probably something Sieghart had taught
Alois to do.
Nicola shrugged, as if to imply that she was
obviously not so heartless as to abandon someone heavily haunted. Out of the
corner of her eye, Nicola noticed Ernst glaring at her and heard him growling.
He clearly disapproved of her treating Alois so casually. It seemed he wanted
to say something about it, but Nicola did not care.
After pretending she did not see the dark
entity writhing just outside the window and peering in, Nicola quietly sighed
to herself.
3
And so the school day came to an end. Just as
promised, Nicola headed to the student council room, only to find there was no
one there besides Ernst. She nearly groaned but hastily stifled it.
Though there were several chairs and desks
available, the ever-solemn Ernst stood in a corner of the room. The moment he
saw Nicola enter, he immediately took on the same sullen demeanor that he had
approached her with earlier.
Nicola felt quite uncomfortable receiving such
hostility from someone she had only met that day. She found Ernst’s bad mood
contagious and could not help but scowl. However, she could not bear the
awkward silence any longer and broke the ice.
“Excuse me! I wonder, have I done anything to
offend you?” Nicola was not so mild-mannered as to stay quiet while being
treated so harshly for no apparent reason. When she asked Ernst for a reason,
not attempting to hide the venom behind her words, he glared at her with his
eyes wide open and growled in a low voice.
“I don’t believe in anything that I have not
seen with my own eyes! I don’t believe your claims! Do not deceive His Highness
with your shady nonsense any longer!”
Nicola was silent for a moment. “Ah, I get it
now. So that’s your problem?” Nicola had finally connected the dots, and struck
the palm of her hand with her fist in that moment of realization. You could have told me that from the start, she thought,
smirking slightly as if to dismiss Ernst’s concerns. “If you don’t believe me,
that’s just fine. Not a problem at all.”
“Wha—!” Ernst could not even finish speaking.
Nicola had accepted there would always be
realists in the world. Even if that kind of person saw that their friends, or
even their lord and master, believed in the supernatural, they could not bring
themselves to understand such things. Nicola was confident that even if she
brought out a shikigami before Ernst’s very eyes, he would continue to doubt
her, putting it down to some trick or ingenious device. She almost felt like
asking Alois, “Did you really have to tell anyone? Especially this jerk?” But she
did not mind if Ernst believed her or not.
She knew all too well that people like him
made up the majority of the population in the world, so she was used to this
attitude. Regular people had their own version of reality. Nicola, who could
perceive what lay beyond the physical realm, defined her reality by what was
there in front of her. Ernst, who could not see, defined his reality by what wasn’t there. Unless something shook his rigid sense of
reality, he would probably never encounter an apparition.
As Nicola gazed at Ernst with her eyes
narrowed, as if looking at something too bright to bear, someone wildly opened
the door to the student council room.
“Miss Nicola, you’re here already?!” It was
Alois, half dragging Sieghart behind him by the hand as they entered the
council room.
After quickly looking Sieghart over from top
to bottom, Nicola sighed openly.
“Is that it? This is how he always is.” Quite
literally, this was Sieghart’s typical condition. A black haze covered him from
the neck up, nearly obscuring his radiant visage. However, he was not haunted
by anything so unpleasant as to be worth making such a fuss about, and there
were not even that many apparitions.
When Sieghart visited Nicola during extended
vacations from the academy, this was almost always how he appeared. There was
nothing here to get so worked up about.
“I told him I could cope with this much. Even
right now, my shoulders feel a little heavy. But I don’t feel especially
inconvenienced,” said Sieghart, idly scratching his cheek. Or so it appeared
from where Nicola stood, as it was difficult to see him clearly with the black
haze in the way.
This was quite a blockheaded remark from
Sieghart, totally lacking any sense of urgency, but that was understandable.
Hauntings were such an everyday occurrence for Sieghart that he had long since
grown used to them.
“What, so you feel fine with all that
pitch-black stuff around you?!” cried Alois frantically as he turned around to
look at Sieghart in disbelief. He then backed away as far as he could. “Hey,
does that mean that whenever I saw Sieg before, he was in the same state, and I
just didn’t notice...?”
“If you really hadn’t noticed until now, I
suppose so. This fellow spends about half of every year haunted by
something...” said Nicola. It seemed that Alois truly had become more
perceptive of the other world. Nicola could not tell whether this effect would
be permanent or merely temporary, but she was sure that the world he used to
know would look very different now. Though she had warned him, and he had
merely reaped what he had sown, Nicola still cast a glance filled with pity at
Alois.
Unable to understand what his lord and master
were talking about, Ernst scrutinized Sieghart repeatedly, each time looking
doubtful as he puzzled this scene over. Finally, he glared not at Alois—who had
remarked on Sieghart’s haunting—but at Nicola, with eyes full of suspicion.
What a nuisance, thought Nicola.
Wishing to return to the matter at hand, she
swiftly exorcised the apparitions around Sieghart. As she turned to look
squarely at the black haze, the feeling that something was not quite right
suddenly struck her.
“Although you are often haunted by something,
I just gave you a new sachet. This apparition doesn’t look as if it would have
had the strength to overcome the potency of a brand-new sachet...”
“Ah!” Sieghart and Ernst exclaimed in unison
before looking at each other as if they had just had the same thought.
“I completely forgot...” said Sieghart.
“Forgive me, Your Grace! I shall go and look
for it!”
“Ah, Ernst, hold on...! Oh, he’s gone
already...”
Without heeding Sieghart’s plea to wait, Ernst
hurried out of the room and soon vanished entirely.
“What, what? What’s going on?” asked Alois,
looking puzzled. Apparently, Nicola was not the only one who did not grasp the
situation.
“When Ernst and I had our bout during our
afternoon swordsmanship lesson, the point of his sword caught the sachet and
sent it flying. We’d both forgotten about it entirely...” Sieghart explained to
Nicola, his eyebrows drooping apologetically.
Nicola
thought, At least this explains why Sieghart ended
up haunted again so quickly.
“Oh, by the way, who won that bout?” asked
Alois, inquisitive as ever.
Smiling wryly, Sieghart replied, “Though it
pains me to say it, Ernst did.”
“I guess beating Ernst really is a tall order,
even for you, Sieg...” replied Alois, unsurprised by the outcome.
Huh? Nicola stared off in the direction in which Ernst had departed. She
was also aware that Sieghart was fairly skilled in swordplay. Despite her
childhood friend’s elegant appearance, he could easily wield with one hand a
sword whose weight would cause Nicola to keel over, even if she used both
hands. On top of that, she had seen him win several bouts against professional
knights. Ernst, that stubborn knight, was clearly capable if Sieghart could not
defeat him.
Still, Nicola could only think of Ernst’s
departure from the room as a blessing. Having someone cast doubt on her
techniques and area of expertise while glaring at her as if she were a fraud
would not do wonders for her mental defenses as she performed her exorcism
rites.
When inspecting the haze around Sieghart, she
saw it sprout two arms, which wound tightly around his neck. It then beat what
would be its fists against his head. But because the haze was simply too weak,
or Sieghart was simply so used to being haunted, this seemed to have little
effect as he remained nonchalant.
As Nicola approached, the black haze loosened
its grip on Sieghart and reached out for her with two protrusions that looked
like arms.
Nicola braced herself, but what happened next
surprised her.
“Huh...?” For some reason, the black haze’s
arms gently stroked Nicola’s head. All of Nicola’s occult knowledge could not
have prepared her for this. Most of the apparitions that haunted Sieghart were
attracted to his beauty like moths to a flame, and they acted hostile toward
any woman that came close to him, including Nicola.
Yet this one was hostile toward Sieghart while
having an affinity for her. She could not help but smirk at the emergence of
this rare pattern of behavior.
“How interesting. Would you mind explaining
yourself?”
4
Nicola eagerly rummaged through her school bag
for a piece of paper before writing the words “YES” and “NO” on it, followed by
the alphabet and a set of numbers. Finally, she handed Sieghart a smaller scrap
of paper and instructed him to cut a hole in the middle using the scissors from
her sewing kit.
Alois peered at Nicola’s handiwork before
asking, “Hey, what are you making there?”
Nicola nearly replied, “This is a ouija board,
the European equivalent to and the origin of Kokkuri-san.”
That was before she realized this would make no sense to him. She had also
learned that if she indulged Alois by answering every question he asked, she
would be stuck doing so until the sun went down. So she really had no intention
of explaining herself in any detail.
The ouija board in front of Nicola was also
known as a Kokkuri-san, or Japanese table reading. “Kokkuri-san” could be
written phonetically using the Chinese characters for fox, dog, and tanuki, or raccoon dog. This reflected the fact that, in
Japan, this technique was reserved for summoning animal spirits. However, the
original form of the ouija introduced via Western tradition was a form of
necromancy used to communicate with the souls of the departed. The world in
which Nicola had found herself appeared to be European in style, so she felt
that she really ought to use a ouija board rather than the Japanese
Kokkuri-san.
She would do so according to the following
method:
Have several people gather around the board in
a circle, then have the participants place their hands together on the
planchette—or movable indicator—on top of the board.
Should the participants succeed in contacting
a spirit, if someone then poses the spirit a question, the planchette will move
by itself to spell out the response.
Nicola’s mentor had taught her this method
after telling her there was little difference between it and the Japanese
equivalent. She always wondered how on earth she would ever put this particular
piece of occult knowledge to use. It turned out that all she’d had to do was
transmigrate to a new world. As she completed her handiwork, Nicola briefly
thought about her past life.
With the impromptu ouija board finished and
placed atop one of the needlessly heavy desks in the student council room,
Nicola looked at the other two participants.
“In the past, I have told both of you that
names are very important, have I not?” said Nicola.
“Yeah. You said that they represent the nature
of things,” replied Alois.
“You also said we should not give things names
too casually, right?” said Sieghart.
Nicola nodded firmly. “That is exactly why I
want us to give a name to a presence that is still indistinct this time. Ah,
though this is not something you should ever try without my supervision. We’ll
do it just this once.”
Sieghart nodded obediently, followed by Alois,
who seemed more disappointed. The difference between the personalities had
never been so vividly on display. Nicola glared exclusively at Alois. Once she
had done so to her satisfaction, she looked steadily at the black haze coiled
around the back of Sieghart’s head.
The black, hazy apparitions that ran rampant
here and there could be separated into two categories. First, there were those
coagulated from the negative emotions that leaked from the minds of humans. For
the most part, these lacked the capacity for complex thought and chiefly acted
according to emotion.
The other category comprised the souls of the
dead, typically referred to as earthbound spirits or ghosts. At first, the soul
of a departed person would think and act much like the person did while they
were still alive, but this does not continue indefinitely. They experienced
isolation like no other, such that they could reach no one, powerless to
interpose themselves in any matter. These souls could not even see themselves
reflected in mirrors or water.
As months and years went by, these apparitions
finally forgot their own names. Their former figures crumbled away and they
became nothing but vague clouds of haze. The memories and desires they had
gradually faded until only the simplest of emotions remained. Though both the
former and latter types of apparition eventually turned into a black haze, the
starting point for each was different.
Nicola glanced up at the black haze before her
once more. The apparition clinging to Sieghart was hostile toward him, but
seemed to have an affinity for her. Rather than acting based only on simple
emotions, it seemed more likely that the apparition’s memories and
consciousness from life were still at work. That was why Nicola had figured
that it was more likely to have started out as a ghost.
If her hypothesis was correct and the haze
really had once been a human spirit, helping it remember its name may be enough
to bring back its original form. Nicola was so used to exorcising ragtag, hazy
spirits, both living and dead, whose mental faculties drew them to Sieghart,
that she had long since grown weary of this task.
She was more than willing to deal with a
departed soul of a different disposition and perhaps learn something of its
past.
Nicola placed the paper planchette Sieghart
had made right in the middle of the finished ouija board.
“This is a tool for conversing with spirits.
We are about to ask this one to tell us its name. I want both of you to place
your hands on the planchette. You need only touch it lightly and not think
about moving it. It will move all by itself.”
After receiving only a rough explanation from
Nicola, the two boys rested their fingers on the planchette. The spirit was
already in front of them, so there was no need to go to the trouble of
summoning it again.
Nicola took a deep breath to prepare herself
before resting her fingertips on the planchette.
“I know this is sudden, but please tell us
your name.”
For the first ten seconds, nothing happened.
Nicola ignored the two boys as they glanced at her during the silence, keeping
her eyes fixed squarely on the board. The planchette shuddered slightly before
it moved as if pulled by an unseen force, making a rustling sound as it
traversed the board.
“Huh, it really did move...”
“All we did was rest our fingers on it!”
Nicola grinned to herself. However, after
wandering around the letters A, B, and C for a moment, the planchette began
circling an area outside of where any letters or the words YES and NO were
written. It appeared that the spirit could not remember.
I didn’t think that would
work, thought Nicola, as she had only inquired an
idle question. This outcome was well within her expectations. After collecting
herself, Nicola spoke once more.
“Then I will ask a different question. Were
you a student at this academy?”
In response to that, the planchette slid
straight to YES. The two boys gasped before staring intently at the ouija
board.
“So, were you a man?”
The planchette indicated NO. This caused
Nicola to raise an eyebrow in surprise. Usually, the spirits of women who clung
to Sieghart, drawn in by his gorgeous looks, menaced Nicola for being a woman
who came near him. In this case, the exact opposite had happened, and the
spirit was hostile toward Sieghart. Therefore, Nicola had been convinced that
the spirit had once been a man, but this had apparently been off the mark.
“So, was your family a noble one?”
YES
“Was your father a count or higher?”
NO
“A viscount?”
NO
“A baron’s family, then.”
YES
“How many people were in your family?”
4
“Including your parents?”
YES
“Was the fourth your older brother?”
NO
“A younger sister, perhaps?”
YES
Nicola had asked a series of yes or no
questions up to this point, thinking these would be easier to answer and might
help the spirit remember. Even so, the spirit responded to some of these slowly
and others instantly and without hesitation.
Sieghart and Alois could only watch with bated
breath as Nicola’s exchange with the possessed planchette proceeded.
After Nicola had asked about the spirit’s
personality, likes, dislikes, and anything that could roughly ground it in its
surroundings and inner life, she was silent for a moment before narrowing her
eyes.
“Now then, I would like to ask you again.
Please tell us your name.”
Although the planchette still faltered, it
kept to the letters of the alphabet.
A...N...N... Nicola noted the letters
displayed by the planchette and read out the name as it was revealed to her.
“‘Anne von Bülow.’ Your name is Anne. Is that
right?”
The black haze coiled around Sieghart suddenly
contracted, then expanded again, before forming a whirling vortex. It then
reshaped itself. An apparition that had forgotten its name could not maintain
its form. Conversely, it could regain its shape if one helped it remember that
forgotten name.
Sieghart and Alois gasped as the black haze
completely cleared away and a girl with fine chestnut-brown hair floated in its
place. The girl wore the same uniform as Nicola, but her translucent body
declared she was no longer of this world.
Both friends opened their eyes so wide that
they looked as though they might fall out. Still, no words emerged from their
flapping mouths.
Without so much as a glance at the two boys,
the translucent girl murmured, “Ahh, that’s right, I remember now... I’m Anne.
I threw myself from the top of the western tower...”
“Hmm,” intoned Nicola, placing a hand on her
chin. The girl’s death had decidedly not been a peaceful one. As such, Nicola
paid no attention to the boys that sat with their mouths open like suffocating
goldfish and resumed questioning the translucent girl. “So, what made you do
that?”
Anne cast her eyes down before answering, her
voice trembling. “I carried out a secret relationship with the son of a
count... I truly loved him, and he told me that he loved me. He said we should
forget about the difference in rank between our families and elope together!
But in the end...”
Nicola watched the girl, who had not been much
older than her, look down before gently stroking her stomach. She grimaced as
she understood what had befallen the girl without needing to ask any further
questions.
The shock on Sieghart’s and Alois’s faces
finally diminished as they glanced at each other, wearing frowns instead.
There certainly was a high degree of freedom
of association at the academy. Sieghart and Alois proved that friendship could
blossom between students of wildly different social statuses. In only one month
since enrolling, Nicola had made a friend in the merchant class and another
whose father’s rank exceeded that of a viscount.
Even though friendship between students of
differing social statuses was encouraged, there was an unspoken taboo against a
romance between such students. In this world, a morganatic marriage—a marriage
between people of different social statuses—resulted in legal and social
penalties levied against the couple and any children they might have.
It was not impossible to have a marriage that
was equivalent to eloping, but doing so would cause the bride and groom to be
cut off from society. Their children would also lose any prospect of inheriting
a peerage or any other entitlements, so the disadvantages were many and great.
Society would, therefore, harshly reject a
budding romance between young people of differing status, which could lead to
such a marriage. Yet there was no denying that flings between the unmarried
boys and girls who attended the academy—playing with fire, as some would have
it—were rampant.
Even in broader society, romance novels
featuring lovers of differing social statuses were incredibly popular. This had
stoked the aspirations of young men everywhere, who already were idealistic.
And so a surprising number of students enjoyed
fleeting love affairs, with the added spice of knowing that it was a forbidden
love. Sieghart explained this with a sorrowful expression, showing the student
council president had a lot to think about with this matter.
“I really thought that we were the one and
only pair in this school who had something like the true love found in
storybooks,” murmured the spirit of the girl quietly. “But in the end, he
decided that it was just for fun after all, and cast me aside. Not only that,
from that day forth he spread the rumor that I constantly made advances on him.
With everyone at the academy talking behind my back and no one to confide in...
I suppose I must have had a nervous breakdown.”
Anne’s words may have been slightly
self-deprecating, but it was clear from her tone of voice that she reminisced
as she spoke. Still, Nicola had expected a greater sense of despair considering
the circumstances.
“I was stupid, wasn’t I? I was so caught up in
my forbidden love and let that good-for-nothing man manipulate me,” Anne added.
“I can see that now. But back then, it meant everything to me.”
Sieghart and Alois appeared to be at a loss
for words with which to respond to this. After sharing a glance, they closed
their mouths. Nor did Nicola venture to either affirm or negate the girl’s
self-criticism. Romance between lovers of differing social status only ever
went well in fairy tales.
Although Anne had been still a teenager and
prone to dreaminess when she’d unfortunately lost her life, Nicola would not go
so far as to defend the girl. However, she was not so heartless as to tell the
girl what she really thought and kick her when she was well and truly down. So
Nicola intentionally changed the subject.
“Come to think of it, why on earth did you
decide to haunt Sieghart?” This question caused not only the afflicted Sieghart
to lean forward in anticipation of the girl’s response, but Alois as well.
Anne hesitated for a moment, as if she had
just remembered Sieghart, then opened her mouth to answer.
“Well, I’m pretty sure I was beneath the
western tower when... That’s right, I saw that man. I heard him tell the
silver-haired pretty boy, ‘If you’re going to have a fling with a girl, pick
one who knows her place.’ So I thought that this pretty boy was probably no
good either, and I quietly followed him around.”
“Who was ‘that man’?” asked Alois, parroting
the girl’s manner of reference.
Sieghart furrowed his brow in irritation. “I
think she probably means Lord Bellmar, our fencing instructor. I’m pretty sure
he said something like that to me once our lesson was over.” Sieghart’s tone
was bitter.
“I see. The training grounds for fencing
students are right below the western tower, right? And Count Bellmar is famous
throughout noble society for being quite bold in his amusement with women,”
said Alois with a shrug.
In other words, Sieghart had spoken with
Bellmar at the precise location of Anne’s death and had summoned her wrath in
doing so.
Meanwhile, Anne bobbed through the air around
the student council room before performing a twirl right in front of Nicola.
“After following this pretty boy for a while
and listening to his conversations, I heard him introduce himself as a
marquess. Despite that, he was always saying this and that about a viscount’s
daughter. So I thought, ah, this fellow must be a playboy as well. I felt I had
to punish this good-for-nothing man for deceiving a girl below his station!”
“And that’s why you haunted him?” asked
Nicola.
“Probably? That sounds about right,” said Anne
unapologetically while impishly pressing a finger against her cheek.
“How outrageous. I’m completely serious about
Nicola,” said Sieghart before sighing as if he felt disappointed beyond words.
Alois snickered before whispering in Nicola’s
ear, “Oh, that Sieg of ours. He always talks fondly of you when we have lunch
together.”
Nicola responded to this with a frown. “What
kind of farce is this...?” she muttered with her shoulders slumped.
5
“Maybe we shouldn’t have made her remember her
past...” mumbled Nicola. Everything suddenly seemed so ridiculous that she
collapsed face-first on the desk before her in the student council room.
In front of her, Sieghart conversed at length
with the ghost floating in the air about how he and Nicola had met, and the
memories they shared. Nicola could not help but cringe. Sieghart had already
recounted the same memories to her enough times that she had grown tired of
hearing them.
Upon hearing someone chuckle, Nicola raised
her head to see Alois gazing at her happily with his elbows resting on the
desk.
I really can’t stand him, thought Nicola as she glared at Alois, but he did not seem at all
bothered. He simply smiled back at Nicola.
“What are you looking at me for?”
“I was wondering, Miss Nicola, why won’t you
return Sieg’s feelings for you? Unlike the man who dumped Miss Anne, you know
that Sieg is serious about you. Going by what he’s said, he has felt the same
way about you for the past ten years. Isn’t that so?”
Nicola
paused before saying flatly, “I can’t return his feelings because of the
difference in social standing between us.” We’ve
just heard a perfect example of how these love affairs across social strata
don’t lead anywhere good. What the heck are you talking about?
Alois blinked for a moment.
“What sort of reaction is that?” asked Nicola.
“Is that all? I mean, I thought there must be
some other... In that case, am I to understand that if something can be done
about the difference in your standings, you’d be willing to marry Sieg?”
“Your question is based on an assumption that
cannot possibly become true, so I feel no need to answer it,” Nicola declared
coldly.
But with a look on his face like a child who
had just thought of some prank to play, Alois said something unthinkable.
“Well, as a member of the royal family, shall I make an exception and permit
your engagement?”
Nicola saw nothing funny about this joke and
frowned as deeply as she could. “There is no need for you to do that.”
“I’d be happy to.”
“That’s OK.”
“Ah, you mean you’re OK with me granting
permission?”
“I’m fine, thank you.”
“Fine with me granting permission, you mean?”
“Aren’t you persistent?” cried Nicola before
slamming her fist on the desk. “I mean I must decline, you stupid prince.”
“Ah ha ha, you’re a tough nut to crack.”
Even after Nicola glared at him with open
disdain, Alois was unfazed and even more delighted. Nicola’s head started to
hurt as she decided it had been a mistake to fight Alois directly. She then
collapsed again onto the desk in front of her.
Looking in Sieghart’s direction, Nicola saw he
was still subjecting Anne to a barrage of his tales of love. Nicola thought, I feel so sorry for you, Anne. Even as Sieghart continued
shooting words, her concerns turned out to be unfounded. Unbelievably, Anne
seemed to enjoy listening to Sieghart.
Anne blushed so brightly that the redness in
her cheeks was visible despite her translucent body.
I get it. He is good-looking, thought Nicola with a brisk smile.
As always, Sieghart’s face was so composed
that it beggared belief. Every feature was in precisely the right location,
together constituting the epitome of beauty. There was no greater feast for
one’s eyes.
“You seem to like Sieg’s face, at least, Miss
Nicola,” said Alois, teasing. He then chuckled.
“Well, I mean...! Show me someone who doesn’t
like beautiful things,” Nicola said, scowling and glaring up at Alois as if to
say, “What’s wrong with that?”
“You also seem to have something of a soft
spot for Sieg,” said Alois, folding his arms and closing his eyes. Nicola was
stunned.
“I have nothing of the sort.”
“I wonder about that. You didn’t hesitate to
give Sieg that shikigami, did you? Even though it would pose quite a risk to
you if it got damaged?”
“That’s because...Sieghart attracts spirits
far too easily.” However, Alois and Sieghart now both faced the possibility of
encountering apparitions. Nicola realized this was a poor excuse as her eyes
wandered away from Alois.
Alois smiled even wider, as if delighted by
Nicola’s reaction.
“Your childhood friend loves you, and his face
is to your liking. It is not as if you hate him...” he said. “You really are
stubborn, aren’t you?”
Strictly speaking, Sieghart’s face had
attained a truly miraculous level of beauty, transcending the realm of
individual preference. Saying that his face was merely to Nicola’s liking was
not quite right.
It was unfair to say that Nicola had fallen in
love with Sieghart because of his face and for Alois to state that she did not
“hate him.” She could not deny that she felt affection for Sieghart as her
childhood friend either, as it would have been refuting her ten years of
friendship with Sieghart. Rather than do that, she shut her mouth and looked
away from Alois.
After a moment, Nicola said, “Regardless, I am
only a viscount’s daughter.”
“The daughter of a viscount, you say.” Alois
looked meaningfully at Nicola. “Miss Nicola, are you not the granddaughter of
Marquess Elsheimer?”
This surprised Nicola. “Well, yes, I am.” Well done for committing the unfathomably complex relationships of
the aristocracy to memory, she thought bitterly, before narrowing her
eyes at Alois.
Just as Alois had said, Nicola’s grandfather
was indeed a marquess. There were, broadly speaking, two reasons for
elevation—being granted a higher peerage within the aristocracy.
First, a nobleman could distinguish himself in
a way that the crown would recognize. Second, a noble could inherit his
father’s peerage. In this world, it was not rare for a single noble to hold
multiple ranks. Nicola’s grandfather was a marquess, a count, and a viscount
all at once. The rank of count had already been inherited by his eldest son and
Nicola’s father had inherited the rank of viscount.
If the unthinkable were to happen to Nicola’s
uncle, the current heir to the title of marquess, her father, would advance to
the rank of marquess. Nicola’s standing would leap from the daughter of a
viscount to the daughter of a marquess. There was a chance, theoretically.
She slowly shook her head. “My uncle will
inherit the rank of marquess. That has nothing to do with me.”
“If all goes as expected, that is.”
“Quite. But if the unexpected happens, my
entire family may well be assassinated. I will only end up in peril if things
do not go as expected.”
In this world, Nicola had often heard stories
of contests over noble estates awash in blood. Nicola’s uncle, her father’s
elder brother, seemed to be quite a greedy man. To indicate the extent of his
greed, her uncle had once been only the second oldest son. One day, his crucial
elder brother had had an “unnatural accident,” along with his wife and
children, sending them all to the next life.
Once Nicola saw the former eldest brother’s
family whispering words of resentment in her newly elevated uncle’s ear, it was
not difficult for her to imagine what had happened.
Nicola was suddenly aware of a familiar
fragrance that caused her body to freeze up. After speaking to Anne of his love
for Nicola to his heart’s content, Sieghart had sneaked behind Nicola. By the
time Nicola hastily turned around, it was already too late.
After lifting Nicola like a cat, Sieghart
swiftly occupied the chair she had been sitting in and placed her on his lap.
Nicola could not help but click her tongue in annoyance at this
characteristically blatant criminal act.
“Please don’t get carried away just because
you’re visually appealing,” said Nicola.
“Thank you for complimenting me on my
appearance,” replied Sieghart. Paying no mind to the fact that Nicola had
tutted at him, his needlessly brilliant, florid face broke into a smile. Nicola
continued to huff and puff.
Sieghart had apparently been listening to
Nicola and Alois’s conversation, as he spoke past Nicola to Alois.
“Regarding my father-in-law—”
“Don’t call him that,” snapped Nicola.
“Right, right. Regarding Viscount Weber, he
seems to be a peaceful fellow with no greed. He has even said that if the
alternative is to expose his family to danger, he is happy to remain a
viscount. So the chance of removing the obstacle of rank between Nicola and me
is low.”
“Oh? I was convinced that you sought to marry
Miss Nicola because there was a chance of her becoming the daughter of a
marquess,” said Alois, blinking in surprise.
While hugging Nicola tightly, Sieghart
continued, “The bond between us is much simpler than that. Nicola and I are
really not concerned with matters of nobility, so we are prepared to throw away
our entitlements. Even as a farmer, I think I would do surprisingly well.”
To be fair, thought Nicola, considering that Sieghart performs
virtually any task at an above-average level, he really might do well as a
farmer. Nicola herself had worked in a very rare profession in her past
life, but she came from an average household in Japan. She certainly was not
very concerned with matters of nobility. Still, as if I’d let
someone so gorgeous end up as a farmer.
She looked bitterly at Sieghart and noted he
was a work of art from the top of his head down to the tips of his toes. The
very thought of his skin becoming deeply tanned from working under the sun and
his fingers chapped or covered with dirt made Nicola think he should remain a
nobleman.
“My father-in-law was even kind enough to
say—”
“I told you not to call him that.”
“Viscount Weber was even kind enough to say
that if I convinced Nicola to elope with me, he would happily provide me with
citizenship within his realm.”
Nicola simmered with rage toward her father,
wondering what he thought he was doing, making a promise involving her without
consulting her first. But he was not around for Nicola to voice her complaints,
so she scowled instead.
Sieghart stroked Nicola’s head, expecting this
to soothe her, but it did not make any difference coming from the prime cause
of her woes. She tried to slap Sieghart’s hand away, but he apparently expected
this and intercepted her hand, leaving her growling and looking very foolish.
Seeing this, Alois and Anne looked at each
other and chuckled, Anne seeming particularly amused. There were even tears in
her eyes as she clutched her stomach and laughed. Once Anne was finished
laughing at Nicola and Sieghart, she flew into the air and circled them.
“Ah ha ha, I feel so much better after a good
laugh! I suppose that I simply chose the wrong man. True love really does
exist, even between lovers of different ranks.”
“Please, spare me...” said Nicola. The words
“true love” did not convince her and sent a shiver down her spine.
Despite being translucent, Anne blushed like a
maiden falling in love and was red as a rose. She even looked a tad envious as
she half-closed her eyes. Starting at the extremities, her body appeared
fainter, little by little.
“Don’t you have any unfinished business? Like
paying back the man who dumped you, for example?” asked Nicola.
“I really no longer care what happens to that
worthless man. When I look at you two, I think that perhaps I should have
become a commoner and raised that child by myself.” Anne cast her topaz-colored
eyes down and rested her hands on her stomach again. “Even if I had to face
disownment and expulsion from the academy, if I had the courage to die, perhaps
I should have chosen another path in life instead... Only kidding, of course.”
The thought of a girl who had lived her whole
life in a noble family being thrown out to live as a commoner one day and
raising a child by herself was not realistic. But Nicola did not feel like
disenchanting her of that fantasy just because she had to live in reality. Even
if the notion was nothing more than a dream, Anne was free to revel in it as
she was no longer part of this world.
Nicola took a moment before speaking up again.
“I don’t see the soul of the lost fetus...of the baby you lost by your side.
Your baby probably went to the afterlife first and is still waiting for you.”
“If we should meet, first I’ll have to
apologize. I wonder if I’ll be forgiven.” After performing a twirl around
Sieghart, Anne met Nicola’s gaze once more with a lovely smile. “I’m glad I met
you. Thank you for making my last experience here a happy one.
“Live happily ever after, you two,” Anne added
with a whisper. These were kind words, but Nicola still did not wish to hear
them. Anne then dissolved smoothly into the surrounding air until even Nicola
could no longer see her.
After a moment, Alois asked, “What happened to
her?” having witnessed a spirit pass on for the first time.
Nicola looked up. “She’s returned to the place
where she belongs.” She then silently cast her eyes down again. Perhaps Anne,
like Nicola, would be reborn and begin a whole new life. An inappropriately
jovial voice suddenly broke the solemn silence between the three of them.
“Your Highness, Your Grace! My deepest
apologies for taking so long!” Ernst had returned to the student council room
in high spirits holding the sachet that Nicola had recently given to Sieghart.
If Sieghart had held on to the sachet, she would not have needed to deal with
an apparition so soon. After thanking Ernst, Sieghart took the sachet back.
Nicola looked up at Sieghart reproachfully and
said, “Please don’t let it out of your sight this time.” Having needlessly
tired herself out by uncharacteristically working on a whim, Nicola let out a single
heavy sigh.
Out of the corner of her eye, Nicola saw a
cloud of black haze jumping up and down to stay in view as if asserting its
presence. Nicola turned to glare at it, as if to say, “Don’t cause me any more
trouble.”
But the entity, seeming to rejoice in
receiving Nicola’s attention, wound itself up into a ball before bouncing even
more enthusiastically onto a windowsill. While massaging her temples, Nicola
slumped forward onto the desk and rested her head on her elbows.
6
Although Nicola thought that yet another
spiritual matter had been settled, this was not the case. Nicola would find
this out a week after Anne’s spirit had supposedly passed on.
“A ghost appeared in the western tower?” The
topic suddenly arose at a tea party arranged within Karin’s social circle.
“I heard about that! They say that a female
pupil at this academy who committed suicide still wanders the grounds, seeking
revenge on the man who dumped her, don’t they?”
“I heard about it too!”
Girls on either side of Nicola recounted the
same rumor. Apparently, Nicola was the only one who had not yet heard about it.
As the guests at this tea party were exclusively the daughters of lower
nobility and wealthy merchants, the girls somewhat lacked manners and were all
too willing to engage in shrill gossip.
“I believe that I actually saw that ghost with
my own eyes,” said Elsa von Ratzel, the daughter of a count.
“Really?! What did it look like?” Karin
prompted Elsa to speak further, her eyes sparkling.
After setting down her teacup on its saucer,
Elsa glanced at the faces gathered by the round table with her amber eyes. She
then lowered her voice, as if to lend gravitas to her story, and continued.
“Around dusk, I saw a girl crouching on the
top floor of the western tower, so I tried calling out to her. If I remember
correctly, the girl had wavy hair like mine, which was chestnut-brown, and eyes
the color of topaz.” As Elsa said this, she pointed to her soft, dark brown
hair.
Nicola recalled Anne’s appearance and frowned.
From the description Elsa had given, it really sounded like she had seen Anne.
Elsa continued, “And then, I heard her
muttering something to herself, so I strained my ears to hear what it was. The
whole time I was there, she kept repeating, ‘You’ll pay, you’ll pay, you’ll
pay, you’ll pay, you’ll pay, you’ll pay.’ Then I took a closer look at her and
realized that I could see right through her legs! So in the end I was too
frightened to call out to her, and I just got out of there.”
“Oh my!” exclaimed Emilia Rois, a merchant’s
daughter. “Well, that was definitely a ghost! Leaving without talking to her
was the right move!”
The other girls around the table nodded in
agreement following Emilia’s declaration.
Nicola could restrain herself no longer and
asked, “Hey, how long ago did you see it?”
Without hesitation, Elsa answered, “It was two
days ago.”
Nicola tilted her head feeling puzzled, as
there was no doubt in her mind that Anne had passed on to the afterlife a week
ago. However, the witness account matched Anne’s appearance and the haunting
that had taken place at the western tower where she had died.
The only details that did not sit right with
Nicola were that this sighting had occurred after Anne’s spirit had passed on,
and that the ghost still harbored a powerful grudge against the man who had
cast her aside.
When Anne told Nicola that she was no longer
concerned with her former lover, she had not sounded like she was lying.
Perhaps after a change of heart, her spirit could not pass on.
Or perhaps... Nicola must have spaced out while she mulled over this mystery because
Karin, sitting next to her, grabbed her arm and shook her out of her idleness.
“Nicola! Hey, Nicola! Have you been listening
to me at all?” exclaimed Karin.
“Eh? Ah... What were you talking about?”
replied Nicola.
“For the last time! Why was it that Ernst came
to talk to you the other day? I won’t let you off even if you pretend to not
hear me. It’s time to fess up!”
Nicola noticed how every other girl around the
table gazed at her with curiosity. With a far-off look, she remembered what a
friend in her past life had once told her: “The conversations of high school
girls are like word association games.”
The first thing I think of when I hear “banana”
is “sweet,” “sweet” makes me think of an apple, an apple is red... At some point, these
conversations would always veer off in unexpected directions.
But Nicola, who was not even sure where she
stood with Ernst, found it difficult to respond. She was pretty sure that she
was not supposed to give an honest answer like “He threatened me for being
suspicious and getting too close to his master.”
Feeling defiant, Nicola gave them a completely
made-up answer. “Ernst fancies a girl who happens to be an acquaintance of
mine, so all he wanted from me was a promise to introduce the two of them.”
Disappointed sighs sounded around the table at
this merely adequate explanation. For half of the girls, the reason they sighed
was that they had hoped for saucy details. The other half was disappointed to
hear that Ernst already fancied someone.
Nicola blinked in surprise. She would not have
expected Ernst to be so well-known or popular. Karin noticed her look of
surprise and seemed shocked herself.
Then Karin furtively whispered in Nicola’s
ear, “Nicola, haven’t you heard? Ernst is famous as the most skilled swordsman
currently attending the academy. Quite a lot of girls from the lesser nobility
have their hearts set on him as he is a sure bet for future advancement and is
not yet engaged.”
“Oh?” replied Nicola, unable to summon any
enthusiasm for Ernst. She would not have expected someone so uptight to be
popular with girls. While she pondered this, the free-association conversation
swayed into new territory.
“Now that you mention Ernst,” Elsa began
cheerfully, “we saw him sparring with the Silver Lord in fencing class! Didn’t
we, Susanna?”
“Yes, we did!”
Elsa and Susanna, who was the daughter of
another count, held their heads high with pride.
“Our class finished early that afternoon, so
we were lucky enough to get a really close view of the action!” boasted Elsa.
“How lucky!” the other girls around the table
shrieked in excitement.
“A muscular man is more my type than an
elegant lord.”
“I find men like that a bit intimidating.
Scary, even...”
“Oh, but that’s what makes them so exciting!”
“I know what you mean!”
“Eh?!”
Nicola gulped down her tea, which had gone
entirely cold, as she watched the girls gossip about what they sought in a man
with a look of disdain. She scrupulously ignored the girls’ frivolous conversation
and cast her mind back to the report of a ghost appearing in the western tower.
◇
After school the very next day, Nicola visited
the top floor of the western tower alone. From the outside, one could see that
it had a large clock embedded within its walls. Once inside, she saw a large,
dark gray bell hanging from the ceiling and walked directly beneath it.
Nicola looked inside the tower and through its
stained-glass windows at the school grounds below, but she saw no sign of Anne.
Just to make sure, she searched all the lower floors as well, yet the result
was the same. She could find no ghost muttering words of resentment.
She frowned when she noticed the dark entity
peering in through the window but ignored it for the time being and headed
straight for the student council room.
◇
Nicola opened the door to the student council
room and felt lucky to find the very person she was looking for.
“It’s not very often that you decide to come
and see me, Nicola.” A smile of pure delight bloomed across Sieghart’s regal
visage before he beckoned Nicola inside. She felt less fortunate and more
irritated, however, when she noticed that there were two unwanted guests by
Sieghart’s side. But there was nothing she could do about it.
To no one’s surprise, a fearsome look came
over Ernst’s face the moment he saw Nicola, wanting desperately to growl at
her. She quickly turned her gaze away from him. Alois looked at each of them in
turn, saucer-eyed, before smiling broadly as if he had just discovered
something that amused him greatly.
However, Nicola quickly realized that these
familiar three were not the only people in the student council room.
“Oh, do we have a guest? My, aren’t you the
new student who was here the other day?” a voice called out.
The student council room comprised two
connected spaces. After reacting to Nicola’s arrival, a female student appeared
in the doorway to the back room. Nicola recognized her as the senior student
who had reprimanded Alois for using a vacant room without permission. That had
happened on the day Nicola met with Alois to explain the truth about her
shikigami and other supernatural matters.
Sieghart grabbed Nicola’s hand and dragged her
in front of the older girl.
“Miss Olivia, this is my childhood friend,
Nicola.”
Nicola was quite sure that she had told
Sieghart that she wished to conceal the fact that they knew each other as much
as possible within the academy. So what did he think he was doing by
introducing her so casually? She looked awestruck up at Sieghart, but he just
smiled.
“You don’t need to worry about her,” said
Sieghart. “Nicola, meet Miss Olivia. She is the daughter of Marquess Lüneburg
and the deputy president of our student council.”
After hearing this explanation, Nicola’s
shocked expression shifted almost imperceptibly to one of wonder. The Lüneburg
family was powerful enough that even Nicola had heard of them.
“She is also my fiancée,” added Alois in an
offhand manner.
Nicola had expected the firstborn prince of
the kingdom to be engaged to the daughter of a duke, not the daughter of a
marquess. But as far as she knew, no duke in the kingdom presently had a
daughter of marriageable age.
Olivia laughed softly with an air of
refinement, sending waves through her long, blonde hair.
“You are truly blessed to call such an
adorable young lady your childhood friend, President. I’m so envious!”
Still, Nicola wondered if Olivia’s use of the
word “adorable” implied that her size was adorable.
This keen insight from Nicola was helped by the fact that Olivia’s proportions
were indeed formidable. Although she was far smaller in stature than most,
Nicola took a good look at Olivia. She could not help but be astonished by the
pair of plump fruits that loomed over her and almost threatened to burst out of
Olivia’s uniform.
After assessing Olivia’s voluptuous, womanly
frame, Nicola silently looked down at her own diminutive, slender body. The
most charitable thing one could have said was that there was not an ounce of
unnecessary tissue on it. Not only were her arms and legs skinny, but her chest
and backside were all but absent.
Nicola thought bitterly that it would make
much more sense for Sieghart to prefer a glamorous woman like Olivia rather
than one of modest proportions like herself.
But, well... Maybe I should try padding my dress
out with something. I am only considering this out of my vanity as a woman. It
definitely has nothing to do with Sieghart. Nicola vigorously shook her head to snap
herself out of her trance.
After further consideration, she realized that
Sieghart and Olivia would indeed make the perfect couple. As Sieghart was a
marquess and Olivia was the daughter of one, their families were equal in rank.
Nicola also thought that they looked the part, and it was very unfortunate that
Olivia was already engaged to Alois.
“I don’t have any friends who are younger than
me. I’d be so pleased if we could get along,” said Olivia with a charming
smile.
Thanks to the bountiful pair of fruits that
Olivia carried with her, Nicola’s initial impression had been entirely focused
on her body. After giving a noncommittal reply to Olivia’s offer of friendship,
she looked up at the girl’s face.
Having grown used to Sieghart and Alois,
Nicola was no longer impressed by a merely attractive set of features, but
Olivia had quite an attractive face.
“I have somewhere to be very soon, so I will
have to take my leave for now. But first I shall serve our guest some tea.
Nicola, darling, you came to see our president, right? Come, sit, sit.” Olivia
grabbed Nicola by the hand and sat her down in a nearby chair before
withdrawing into the adjoining room in a hurry.
“Alois and I can’t help but attract crowds as
we walk about the academy. Olivia was the one who suggested that we use the
council room as a hiding place during periods when the council has no duties to
perform. Ever since, this place has really come in handy.” From his tone of
voice, Nicola could tell that Sieghart really was grateful.
This was certainly not a place where the
general student population could easily come and go unless they had business
with the council or were invited by a council member.
“We tend to be here just to pass the time, so
if you ever need us, come and visit.”
Nicola could do nothing but nod reluctantly
while privately hoping that she would never have cause to return to this room.
This world without smartphones really was quite inconvenient.
“By the way, Miss Nicola. Is anything the
matter?” asked Alois, peering down at Nicola.
After a moment, Nicola answered him directly,
“Have you heard the rumors about a ghost appearing in the western tower?”
Perhaps this question immediately reminded
Sieghart and Alois of Anne, because a look of suspicion came over both of their
faces. From this, Nicola inferred that they had not yet heard the rumors.
Ernst, who simply disliked rumors of this kind, also frowned deeply.
“To avoid drawing attention, we spend most of
our time holed up in this room, so we miss out on most of the rumors
circulating throughout the academy,” said Alois with a shrug.
“Oh, hadn’t you heard?” said Olivia as she
returned carrying a tea set. All the eyes in the room turned to her. “You’re
talking about the ghost of the girl who committed suicide at this academy,
right? It’s the talk of the whole school at the moment.”
Olivia looked around at the room’s occupants
as she served the tea.
“Although...” Olivia continued, sounding
perplexed, “I only heard this rumor exactly one week ago. I’d never heard about
it before, and no students have committed suicide in the time we’ve been here.
So I have to wonder why such a rumor began so suddenly...”
Sounds like the rumor really
started right after Anne’s spirit had supposedly passed on to the afterlife, thought Nicola, narrowing her eyes. However, she could not continue
pondering this for long. Once Olivia had finished serving the tea, for some
reason, she took Nicola’s hand and squeezed it tightly.
“I’m afraid I must leave for today... But
since we are now acquainted, I hope we can have a much longer chat next time!
Darling Nicola, let’s have a tea party on our next day off! Okay?”
“Eh, eh? Yes, I’d love to...” Despite her
reservations, Nicola nodded, unable to resist her pushy senior schoolmate.
“Wonderful! I look forward to inviting you
back here soon,” said Olivia before cheerfully leaving the student council
room.
As Nicola watched Olivia leave, Alois chuckled
and said, “You’re such a pushover that I can’t help but laugh, Miss Nicola.”
Who asked you? Nicola though. Instead of saying anything, she stepped on Alois’s
foot.
Nicola then turned back to Sieghart and asked
him to investigate something for her. Sieghart nodded cheerfully and
disappeared into the back room. Though Nicola did not wish to be left alone
with one person who irritated her and another who detested her, she was willing
to make that sacrifice.
Just as she had expected, Alois hassled her
the moment Sieghart disappeared into the adjoining room. Without a hint of
pretense, she sighed.
“Ah, Miss Nicola. Come to think of it, I
wonder if you could give me one of those sachets that Sieg has for protection.
Those seem to be surprisingly effective.”
“No way,” Nicola said, immediately refusing
his request. “In the first place, you should really not desire handmade gifts
from other young ladies since you already have a fiancée. It would be frowned
upon.”
But Alois merely laughed at this and got a
twinkle in his eye. “Hmm, I think it would probably be fine. It’s not as if we
have any romantic feelings for one another, so I don’t think Olivia would
mind.”
Even if that’s the case, Nicola thought, isn’t there such a thing as
reputation? The total lack of consideration in Alois’s words left Nicola
dumbfounded.
Standing upright just behind Alois and off to
one side, Ernst suddenly leaned forward and said, “With all due respect, Your
Highness, if I might suggest something! If you require protection, then I am
already by your side for that very purpose! There is no need for you to enlist
the help of someone as dubious as her!” Ernst then pointed at Nicola and
growled.
But Nicola nodded enthusiastically and said,
“He is quite right. In all honesty, I think he would be much more effective
than a sachet.”
“Eh?” Ernst and Alois both looked astonished
and gasped comically.
“Was it not always the times when Ernst was
not by your side that the strange apparitions presented themselves to you, Your
Highness?”
“Eh? Hmmm... Now that you mention it, I’m
pretty sure...you’re right?” Ever since one of those things
first came into focus for Alois, he had become extraordinarily perceptive of
entities outside the human realm. Perhaps he always had the makings of someone
who could contact the dead.
If so, Nicola thought, it’s even more amazing that he
survived this long. But after meeting Ernst and hearing that he was
Alois’s attendant, everything suddenly made sense.
Nicola took another look at Ernst but had to
squint, almost as if she were dazzled by the sun. She told herself that Alois
would have better protection if Ernst stayed by his side than one of her
hand-sewn sachets could provide.
“Oh, so what are you saying? Is Ernst strong
even against nonhuman opponents?” Alois turned around to look at Ernst with his
eyes shining.
Nicola felt the need to make one small
correction. “Strictly speaking, it is Ernst’s guardian spirit that repels them.
It is ridiculously powerful.”
“Guardian spirit?”
Nicola nodded firmly. The term referred to any
spiritual being that attached itself to a particular person to protect them.
She recited the explanation that her mentor had given her in her past life.
Whether in spiritualist circles, Christendom,
or Japanese folk beliefs, each faith contained its references to guardian
spirits and described them differently—making it an incredibly vague concept.
This vague definition meant that there were
countless variations. Sometimes a guardian spirit was the departed soul of
someone connected to the beneficiary of its protection, like an ancestor. Other
times it was the ghost of a beloved pet. And in some cases, entities that could
be referred to as phantoms or deities protected people, though this was
extremely rare.
“Hey, do I have one of these guardian spirits
as well?” asked Alois, brimming with curiosity as he leaned across the table.
Nicola reflexively pulled away from him.
“Well, you do, but it seems fickle and
probably doesn’t work very hard.”
Alois goggled at Nicola. “Eh? It
doesn’t...work very hard?”
“Correct. It probably thought the matter I
asked Sieghart to investigate was more interesting than what we’re discussing
now. It wandered off in Sieghart’s direction and is no longer with us in this
room.”
Nicola pointed toward the back room, where
Sieghart currently was. She reasoned this spirit often wandered off when it
found something more interesting than protecting the object of its
guardianship. It was probably often absent at crucial moments.
“I... I see,” murmured Alois, an indefinable
expression on his face. “Well, then what about Ernst’s guardian spirit?”
“Ah... It is a profusely luminous entity, I
would say.”
“A profusely luminous entity.”
“Yes. It is transcendently bright. I would
even go so far as to say that he looks like he is bearing the sun on his back.”
Annoyed by Alois’s meaningless parroting of her words, Nicola fixed an icy
stare at him.
“Why, you!” cried Ernst. “Is this some kind of
joke?!”
“No, I’m being totally serious...” Nicola
muttered, irritated after Ernst lashed out at her. As if responding to Ernst’s
mood, the luminous body behind him suddenly flashed far brighter, enough that
Nicola had to shield her eyes with her hand.
Normally, Nicola would have had to consciously
search for guardian spirits to see them. But Ernst’s spirit was so assertive
and aggressive that she did not need to strain her eyes when it appeared.
Each time Ernst threatened Nicola, his
guardian spirit shined needlessly brighter than she could stand. So she visibly
recoiled each time this happened and found it a nuisance. That was how powerful
his guardian spirit was—so powerful that feebler apparitions would be blown
away the moment they approached him. If Nicola had to compare Ernst’s nature to
something, she would have to say that he approached the power of a god.
“Hmph! I don’t believe in anything that I
can’t see with my own eyes, be it ghosts or guardian spirits. However, if what
you call my guardian spirit is really so strong, then it will defend His
Highness as well, won’t it? So we won’t be needing you!”
Nicola was silent for a moment. “I wonder
about that. As far as I can see, your guardian spirit will only protect you.”
From Nicola’s perspective, the guardian spirit, like Ernst himself, regarded
its charge as having the utmost importance. It could only prevent anything it
regarded as strange from getting close to Ernst, so any protection Alois had
received was merely an unintended consequence.
“Therefore,” continued Nicola, “the best
course of action available is for you to always remain by Ernst’s side, Your
Highness.”
“Always? Day in, day out? That might be a
little much.”
“Wh-What is that supposed to mean, Your
Highness?!”
“Ah ha ha.”
“Y-Your Highness?!” Ernst was almost clinging
to Alois at this point.
“I meant nothing by it,” said Alois,
attempting to comfort Ernst before turning back to Nicola. “Yeah, could you
give me a sachet after all?”
“No way.”
“I shall defend you, Your Highness! Please do
not place your trust in such a suspicious person!”
And so this fruitless, foolish discussion
continued to repeat itself in circles until Sieghart returned.
◇
“How unfair. You all look like you’ve been
having quite a lot of fun,” said Sieghart, peering down at Nicola, Alois, and
Ernst. In one hand, he carried a sheaf of documents that had been yellowed by
the sun.
“Yeah, it’s been lots of fun,” replied Alois,
stifling a chuckle.
“No, it really hasn’t,” said Nicola and Ernst
in unison, both of them sulking.
Sieghart also chuckled before looking at
Nicola and Ernst and saying, “You two are quite friendly, aren’t you? I feel a
little jealous.”
“No, we aren’t. As if we’d get along.”
“That’s right, Your Grace!”
Sieghart smiled cheekily as if to say, “See
what I mean?”
Nicola glared at Sieghart before pressing him.
“So, were the documents still there?”
“Yeah, they were.” A slightly cloudy
expression fell across Sieghart’s regal visage as he thumbed through the sheaf
of sun-yellowed pages and found the one Nicola had requested.
“Seven years ago...” Just by skimming the
page, Nicola learned it was not so long ago that Anne von Bülow had died.
“Ah, I see. So that’s what you wanted to
know,” murmured Alois, staring at the page beside Nicola and running his eyes
across the name at the top. Only Ernst, who had not been present on the day of
the séance, looked confused because they had left him completely out of the
loop.
“By the way, Nicola. I had a look and could
not find any staff or students currently at the academy with the surname
Bülow.”
Nicola gasped. Sieghart figured out what she
had been thinking and had taken the initiative to investigate the matter. But
with this result, the mystery had only deepened. If someone connected to Anne
was not responsible for the recent ghost sighting, then who was? And why had
they done this? Nicola had just lost herself in deep contemplation when
Sieghart interrupted her.
“Although,” he said, “if I remember correctly,
I’m pretty sure...”
The words that followed prompted Nicola to
open her eyes wide in shock.
“I see,” said Nicola in a low voice, after
dropping her gaze. “Thank you, Sieghart.”
Sieghart smiled awkwardly, then patted
Nicola’s head. “Don’t do anything dangerous, all right?”
“As long as nothing goes wrong, I won’t do
anything.” As long as nothing goes wrong. In her past
life, no job was more certain to go wrong than one that followed that very
wish. If Nicola had not completely forgotten that fact, she would not have
uttered those fateful words.
7
Nicola raced up the stairs of the western
tower, already out of breath, following a vaguely humanoid paper doll that
could as well have been modeled on a Clione genus sea
slug.
Her heart pounded so hard that it hurt to
breathe due to her lack of daily exercise and natural absence of coordination.
“W-Wait up...”
The paper doll seemed shocked by the lack of
fitness present in the very occult practitioner who had created it. After
stopping a few steps in front of Nicola, it turned its head and waved one of
its tiny hands to beckon her forward. It appeared that the doll would not allow
Nicola to stop and rest. Though Nicola had indeed commanded the doll to alert
her if it detected any movement, it was perhaps too committed to its task. It
was strict, even with its master. But the fact of the matter was that, at this
pace, they might not make it in time.
Nicola took a few pieces of paper out of her
pocket before staggering to a window. After she gently blew on the scraps of
paper, they transformed into pigeons in the blink of an eye before flying away.
Nicola told herself that this would at least buy her some time. She wanted to
stop and catch her breath, but the paper doll leaped and gave her a reproachful
smack on the cheek.
“Dammit, I know, I know...” Nicola summoned
her last ounce of strength and forced herself to move her arms and legs. She
felt like she was walking through a swamp. The paper doll performed a little
twirl of satisfaction before taking the lead in their mad dash once again.
As they finally reached their destination, the
top floor of the western tower, Nicola almost collapsed across the finish line.
The girl lurking there, to whom Nicola’s paper pigeons had flocked, seemed far
too occupied to pay attention to this clumsy intruder. Even though Nicola had
released the paper birds in the first place, she felt very fortunate, as this
gave her a chance to lean against a windowsill and catch her breath.
A cloud of black haze bobbed past just outside
the open window, asserting its presence. Nicola looked down beneath the tower
and could also just make out the outline of a person standing there. She
realized this was the very count whom the ghost had supposedly remained to
haunt.
Looking back inside, Nicola saw a broken vase
at the girl’s feet. Judging by the number of shards on the floor, it had been
fairly large when it was still intact. Nicola was relieved to see that she had
made it just in time.
After she whipped out a comb and fixed her
disheveled hair, Nicola sneakily directed the birds so that the girl could not
see her do it. Nicola watched the last pigeons fly out of the open window, then
turned to face the girl and spoke.
“Tell me. Were you planning to drop that vase
from this window?”
The girl took a moment to respond.
“What are you talking about?” said the girl
dismissively as she tidied up her fine locks of hair, which the pigeons had
disturbed.
“Were you seeking revenge for Anne?”
“What?! You know about my sister...?” said
Elsa von Ratzel as her eyes widened.
In contrast, Nicola narrowed her eyes upon
hearing the word “sister.” Elsa had dark brown, wavy hair and amber eyes.
Changing the brightness and saturation of Elsa’s hair and eye color just a few
degrees would have yielded Anne’s chestnut-brown hair and topaz eyes.
There is no smoke without fire. But if that
was true, then it could be said the fire had come from made-up rumors. Nicola’s
guess turned out to be right. Of particular importance was the fact that the
ghost of the rumor matched Anne’s appearance exactly. This made perfect sense
if Anne’s younger sister had been the one who spread the rumor.
“I believe Anne bore the surname Bülow, but
you don’t, do you, Elsa?” Though Nicola already knew the answer, she
deliberately posed the question.
“After my father died...my mother remarried,
this time to Count Ratzel. So a few years ago, I became the daughter of a
count.”
Besides his other qualities, Sieghart was a
good student and had an impeccable memory. Sieghart, who even remembered the
most trivial pieces of gossip he heard in high society, had given Nicola the
name of someone related to Anne. By sheer coincidence, this was someone she
knew very well.
Now I get it, Nicola thought. That’s why she spoke to me in such
a familiar way. Typically, as one climbed the ranks of the noble
hierarchy, one was more likely to find the likes of Olivia or the daughter of
Count Flügel, another girl Nicola had met. These girls spoke in a manner that
one might have deemed ladylike.
The daughters of lesser nobles, such as
viscounts and barons, spoke more like members of the merchant class who
inhabited the downtown areas of cities. Despite being the daughter of a count,
Elsa spoke in the same downtown dialect as Nicola and Karin.
“Tell me, Nicola. If you know about my sister,
you also know she killed herself by jumping out of this window, right? All
because that man toyed with her emotions,” said Elsa, walking up to the window
and pointing down at the ground.
Nicola looked out of the window once again.
She saw the training grounds used for swordsmanship lessons and saw a man
carrying practice swords. The man was Count Bellmar, the fencing instructor.
His name, too, appeared in the records documenting the uproar over Anne’s
suicide that Sieghart had found in the student council room. Then, Nicola
recalled Anne’s words.
“I carried on a relationship in secret with the
son of a count... I truly loved him, and he told me that he loved me. He said
that we should forget about the difference in rank between our families and
elope together!”
“Well, I’m pretty sure I was beneath the western
tower when... That’s right, I saw that man. I heard him tell the silver-haired
pretty boy, ‘If you’re going to have a fling with a girl, pick one who knows
her place.’”
By “that man,” Anne really had meant to
indicate a specific person.
“Say, do you remember what I told you at the
tea party the other day? I told you I got a very close look at the Silver Lord
sparring with Ernst, didn’t I? Directly after that, I heard that man say to the
Silver Lord, ‘If you’re going to have a fling with a girl, pick one who knows
her place.’ He added, ‘Otherwise, she’ll make trouble for you afterward.’ Even
after having driven a girl to her death indirectly, how could he say such a
thing? That man doesn’t feel a shred of remorse.” Elsa gritted her teeth and
clenched her fists.
“So you started that rumor?”
“That’s right. Then the rumor spread so
quickly that it even shocked me. I guess everyone is starved for gossip. No one
wondered why a ghost from seven years ago would suddenly appear now,” said
Elsa, with a hint of sarcasm in her voice.
Nicola closed her eyes. One week prior, on the
day of Sieghart and Ernst’s match, Anne had begun haunting Sieghart. After
school that very day, she had passed on to the afterlife. At the same time,
Elsa had picked that very day to start her rumor. The two sisters had
coincidentally picked the same time and place to act and had been motivated by
the words of the same person.
“At first, I simply thought that it would be
enough for that man to catch wind of the rumor, just to scare him a little,”
Elsa continued. “But the rumor spread far more quickly than I expected. It’s
still the talk of the school. So I thought if he had an unfortunate accident
beneath the western tower, people might really think it was the work of the
ghost.”
As Nicola quietly listened to this confession,
her gaze turned to the shattered vase on the floor. Certainly, they could not
test for fingerprints in this world. Without a witness, finding the culprit
would have been difficult.
Count Bellmar was unquestionably related to
what happened to Anne. If anyone besides Nicola had looked into his past, then
the rumor would have really taken on a life of its own.
Nicola gazed out the window and muttered, “I
don’t think...Anne would want you to take revenge for her.”
“Oh, how can you be so sure?” Elsa said as she
frowned deeply, clearly feeling uncomfortable. “You can’t, can you? After all,
the dead cannot speak!”
What Elsa said was true. Absolutely so. Elsa’s
argument was completely unassailable. Nicola could only groan in response, as
most people obviously could not see ghosts. Unfortunately, Nicola was just
special in this regard. Fundamentally, it was not possible to converse with
departed souls.
But on this occasion, Nicola had spoken
directly to Anne. She would not be able to sleep soundly at night if she
allowed one of Anne’s surviving relatives to dirty their hands with a crime,
murder or assault.
The two girls stood alone at the top of the
western tower at dusk, with the sun just setting on the horizon. Suddenly,
Nicola sensed a presence behind her.
“Eh? Anne...?” murmured Elsa, looking
startled.
She looked not at Nicola, but behind her.
Nicola turned around to see Anne floating in the air, as she had no feet. The
translucent girl, with her soft, wavy hair, was the very same person Nicola
thought had passed on following the séance in the student council room.
“But I made that rumor up. This can’t be
happening...” Elsa said hoarsely. “I don’t believe it... Is it really you?”
The translucent girl smiled faintly and nodded
slightly. Anne then gently floated over to Elsa.
“Listen, Elsa. Thank you for standing up for
me. But, you know, I don’t care about that worthless man anymore. So please,
don’t do something you might regret,” said Anne before stroking Elsa’s cheek.
Elsa opened her amber eyes so wide that they
looked as if they might fall out. She stared at Anne, completely forgetting to
blink.
“Nothing would upset me more than the thought
of your heart being held captive by that man, even a little. So, Elsa, I hope
you can forget all about him and live a happy life.”
After hearing these words from Anne, Elsa bit
her lip and scrunched up her face.
“Elsa, please don’t look so upset. I’ve long
since put that worthless man behind me. I’m also done regretting my poor choice
in men! So please, cheer up?” Anne held her head high, putting on such a brave
face it was almost amusing. “That’s why I don’t want you worrying about him
either. It’s almost like he has held your heart captive too. That’s what
frustrates me. Please, for your big sister, won’t you put those thoughts of
revenge out of your mind? Won’t you, please?” An imploring tone crept into Anne’s
cheerful voice.
Elsa said something in protest but quickly
closed her mouth. She repeated this action several times before a long breath
escaped her.
Then, with her lips trembling, Elsa said, “No
fair. This isn’t fair, Anne. What else can I do now that you’ve said all of
that?” Tears finally escaped from her eyes and ran down her cheeks.
Nicola simply watched this unfold without
saying a word. She even tried to breathe quietly.
“Tee hee. The most important words were, ‘for
your big sister.’ I wouldn’t want you to make the mistake of doing anything for
that man’s sake,” Anne said with an exaggerated gesture of dismissal, almost as
if she were playing it for laughs. A half-smile broke across Elsa’s face, even
through her tears.
This run-of-the-mill lecture would not have
made a bit of difference coming from Nicola, no matter how carefully she chose
her words. But when these words came from her departed sister, Elsa could not
ignore them.
Nicola would have been lying if she said that
she did not feel at least a bit guilty. To avoid interrupting the reunited
sisters as they spoke, she did everything she could to remain unobtrusive.
“You’re so much bigger than you used to be,
but I guess you’re still a crybaby,” teased Anne.
“Who wouldn’t cry after meeting a dead family
member?” retorted Elsa in between sobs.
“You’ve really started to look like me, Elsa.
I hope your taste in men won’t also resemble mine.”
“No need to worry about that. I love you,
sister. But as for your taste in men, you’ve given me a great example of what
not to look for.”
“Oh, really? Though I suppose you’re right.
You seem more sensible than I was, so I think I can rest easy.”
Though Elsa’s cheeks were stained with tears,
the sight of the two sisters laughing together was truly a beautiful sight.
Under normal circumstances, such a scene could never have happened. As for
Nicola, all she could do was watch in silence.
After a final glance at Elsa, Anne’s gentle
smile widened. She then extended her arms to embrace her sister.
“Listen, Elsa. I want you to be happy. I look
forward to the day when you can tell me a truly happy love story.”
As if answering Anne’s invitation, Elsa
extended her arms to wrap them around her sister. But her arms sadly passed
right through Anne. In the space between Elsa’s arms, Anne’s translucent body
started to lose its definition before dissolving into the air while shining
dimly.
“Bye for now.” Even as she faded away, Anne faintly murmured those words. Nicola was
not sure whether Elsa heard them. Yet Elsa’s arms were still outstretched, and
she wore a look of frustration on her face. Finally, she let her arms drop.
“Hey, Elsa.” Nicola gently offered a
handkerchief to Elsa. “Are you still thinking of taking revenge on Count
Bellmar?”
Elsa was silent for a moment. “No.” After
taking the handkerchief and wiping the tears from her eyes, she slowly shook
her head. “I can’t argue with what my sister said. If she is willing to leave
that man behind, then I should also stop looking at the past.”
Nicola breathed a sigh of relief when she saw
Elsa’s expression, as it seemed a spirit that had possessed her had finally
left.
“Say, Nicola. Could it be that you brought my
sister back to see me...?” asked Elsa.
“Who knows? That’s a secret. A secret.” Nicola
then held her index finger up to her lips. “Shhh... A mysterious, very pretty
lady once told me that there is no accessory that makes a woman appear as
beautiful as a secret.”
Elsa furrowed her brow before bursting into
laughter. “Why would you make such a needlessly complicated excuse?”
“It’s nearly time for our curfew back at the
dormitory. Shall we go?”
“I suppose so... Besides, it looks like it
might rain.”
The two girls looked up to see a heavy carpet
of clouds hanging in the sky. They then turned to face each other and nodded in
agreement. As they made their way back to their dormitory, Elsa looked as if
she wanted to ask Nicola something but did not do so. Instead, she amused
Nicola with stories about her departed sister.
She told Nicola how Anne had taught her to
read and write or had often joined her in playing with dolls. Anne, that dreamy
young lady, had been a wonderful sister.
As she had been unable to form any new memories
with Anne for seven years, Elsa’s recollections had likely become somewhat
idealized over time. However, Nicola still enjoyed hearing Elsa’s heartwarming
stories about her sister.
The two finally parted ways when they reached
their rooms in the dormitory. Feeling exhausted, Nicola was about to dive into
her bed when she noticed the ball of black haze just outside her window.
“Thanks for your cooperation earlier,” said
Nicola. Considering how much the apparition had just helped her, she felt it
would be heartless of her to leave it out in the cold. She spurred her tired
body on long enough to open the window. After Nicola beckoned the ball to enter
the room, it cheerfully bounced inside.
The apparition, which had watched Nicola from
outside for some time, was the doppelgänger that had impersonated Sieghart and
that she had hurled out of a window on her first day of school. It had
apparently interpreted Nicola’s promise that she would not exorcise it to mean
that as long as it stayed outside the building, it would be safe. It had not
entered the school building since then but had stuck to simply watching Nicola,
so she had been willing to leave it alone until now.
When investigating the recent rumors of a
ghost, Nicola realized the doppelgänger had almost certainly been watching her
on the day that Anne finally passed on to the afterlife. Thus, she’d asked the
doppelgänger for its cooperation in “staging” Anne’s visit to Elsa.
“Still, I wonder why you ended up being quite
so friendly,” muttered Nicola. The apparition overheard this and immediately
floated into the air again and landed on Nicola’s writing desk.
On the desk was the ad hoc ouija board Nicola
had assembled for the séance with Anne. The apparition bounced across the
letters on the board, spelling out entire sentences as it went.
“I have nowhere else to go.”
“I have nothing else to do.”
“You’re the first person who has ever noticed
me.”
“I want to be helpful.”
“I’ll work hard.”
“Keep me by your side.”
The doppelgänger had spent its entire
existence impersonating others, but no one else had recognized it for the
impostor that it was. It therefore considered Nicola to be the first person to
ever recognize it as an individual, which made it very happy.
“Well, then... How would you like to be my
familiar?” asked Nicola. The doppelgänger swiftly hopped over to the spot on
the ouija board where the word “YES” was written. “All right, all right.”
Nicola forced a smile as she said this.
In order to form a contract with the
apparition, Nicola would first need to give it a name. Having gotten far more
exercise than she was used to that night, she was far too tired.
After collapsing into her bed, Nicola said
weakly, “Sorry, but let’s leave your name and our contract for tomorrow...
Though, can I ask you one more favor before I go to sleep?” Even Nicola’s
eyelids felt heavy, such that she could not keep them fully open. Her body felt
like it might sink into the earth. “I want you to stand by Count Bellmar’s bed
while impersonating Anne. Just to scare him a little...”
Anne had definitely said she did not want
anyone to seek outright revenge on the man. Although she did not care about
Count Bellmar anymore, she hadn’t said she no longer held a grudge against him.
She certainly hadn’t forgiven him either. Nicola had only stopped Anne’s sister
from getting her hands dirty for the sake of a man whom Anne had long since
written off.
Personally, Nicola did not take kindly to a
world in which only women paid a price for their mistakes. She had her own
thoughts about a scumbag who had driven a girl to death but felt no remorse.
The rain finally came in heavy drops that
pelted the window of Nicola’s bedroom. Moments before her weary eyes finally
closed, the last thing Nicola saw out of her half-closed eyelids was the black
ball bouncing away. She then fell into a deep slumber.
On this appropriately stormy night of rain and
thunder, there was no guarantee that she would have been able to listen in on
the man’s grating scream of terror. She only heard about the doppelgänger’s
successful haunting the next day. The apparition had been pleased to serve
Nicola, but it may have been a bit too enthusiastic about the execution of its
duty. Nicola realized that she might have made a small miscalculation.
8
“And so, that’s what happened.” Though the
previous night’s thunderstorm had abated, remnants of the rain continued to
pour down. While watching the water droplets run down the window, Nicola told
Sieghart everything that had happened. “Thank you for telling me that Anne and
Elsa’s mother remarried.”
“If I was able to help you, then I’m glad,
Nicola,” Sieghart said, smiling innocently.
It was thanks to Sieghart’s incredible memory
that Nicola had prevented Elsa from exacting her revenge. The moment Nicola
realized Elsa was Anne’s younger sister, she had been able to make a plan to
stop her. Without that information, she was not sure that she would have gotten
to her in time.
When Nicola arrived in the student council
room to report what had happened and thank Sieghart, she saw Alois accompanying
her childhood friend.
Ah, you again, were the casual words that first came to Nicola’s mind. Then she
realized Alois was becoming a familiar face to her and felt so shocked that she
struggled to say anything. According to Nicola’s social status, Sieghart and
Alois were supposed to belong to an entirely different realm. What a terrifying
thing it was to adapt to one’s environment.
“All that being said, the way you talked that
girl down is impressive, Miss Nicola,” said Alois with a perplexed look on his
face. “Surely it’s quite difficult to change the mind of someone already
committed to revenge?”
“Well, to be honest, I don’t think my words
alone would have made any difference. So I employed something of a ‘cheat.’
Hey, Gemini, come here.”
A name represents a being. When Nicola
summoned her familiar with that in mind, it smoothly assumed the form of Anne
and stood in front of them. After dancing in a circle, causing the hem of
Anne’s uniform to flutter, it vividly changed its appearance to that of
Sieghart.
“Hey, Nicola, don’t tell me... Is that my
impostor from the start of the school year?” said Sieghart, gawking as he
pointed at the doppelgänger.
Nicola shrugged and confirmed his suspicions.
“Indeed. Well, a lot happened and now it’s my familiar. It won’t cause you any
more trouble.”
“A lot happened? What does that mean?”
“By a lot, I mean a lot.”
Still under the guise of Sieghart, Gemini
grinned and nodded. It then smoothly gave up its mimicry and returned to being
a black ball before resting on the palm of Nicola’s hand.
“Oh, so that little black thing is its natural
shape?” said Alois, his eyes shining as he peered down at Gemini.
Looking on, Sieghart seemed perplexed. “Alois,
what exactly can you see?”
“What do you mean? I see a round, black orb...
Eh, can’t you see it, Sieg?” asked Alois, blinking in surprise.
Sieghart smiled wryly and said, “I’m afraid
not. Although I can see apparitions that might harm me, others I can’t see so
well. When it comes to harmless apparitions, all I have is a general awareness
of their presence.”
“Eh?! So there is a difference in the way we
perceive them as well?!” Alois cried hysterically with genuine shock
Sieghart’s good looks deviated from the
average to such an extreme that he attracted more apparitions than anyone else.
In other words, he had come to perceive them over time out of necessity. That
being the origin of Sieghart’s ability to perceive apparitions, there was
really no reason he would have learned to see entities that did not threaten
him.
Nicola thought that Alois’s supernatural
senses were likely of a different type altogether.
She then said, “Your Highness, I am convinced
you have always had the potential to see apparitions. Since Ernst was almost
always near you, you miraculously avoided dealing with them until recently.”
After all, Ernst had a guardian spirit so strong that things from outside the
human realm would flee at the first sight of him. As long as Alois had Ernst
close by, he would not have had many opportunities to see apparitions. For that
very reason, that world first came into focus for Alois when Ernst was not around.
If Alois was innately attuned to the spiritual
realm, it would be difficult for him to retreat from it. From now on, he would
most likely always be able to perceive things outside the human realm.
Sieghart and Alois were troublesome in their
own ways. With the two friends in front of her, Nicola could only shrug in
exasperation.
“Ah, by the way! I only realized this since I
could see these weird things, but you know the ruins just outside the royal
capital? Whenever I so much as pass by them, I feel a shiver run down my spine.
I’ve wondered if perhaps they might be dangerous,” Alois said pragmatically.
But Nicola and Sieghart immediately looked at each other.
“Ah, you know, I think I do know that
place...”
Nicola’s Little Occult Lectures: Lesson 3
Ghost
A spirit that remains in the world of the
living, unable to find rest. I guess ghosts really can be found anywhere.
Regardless of the country, wherever there are people, there are ghosts.
Fundamentally, spirits are not reflected in
mirrors or water. As they spend year after year idle, they forget their own
faces, then their names, eventually failing to keep their shape altogether.
When it comes to defining one’s individuality,
I guess names really are important.
Chapter 4: The Portrait Inside the Chest
1
Sieghart recalled a summer three years ago,
just before he entered the Royal Academy. Seeking refuge from the heat, he had
spent that summer on Viscount Weber’s land.
As it was not rare for Sieghart and Nicola to
sojourn on the properties of each other’s families, Sieghart felt that he was
already on quite familiar terms with the viscount. But he knew that he would
soon be unable to visit Nicola as frequently as he used to once he enrolled at
the academy in the coming autumn, as all students were required to board there.
To make up for the fact that he’d have fewer
opportunities to see his childhood friend, Sieghart was particularly clingy
around Nicola during that sojourn, staying by her side no matter where she was
or what she was doing. At the height of that summer, Nicola had told Sieghart
something that surprised him.
After tiring of reading books by the side of a
lake on her father’s property, Nicola had suddenly challenged Sieghart to a
game of “Who can balance more matches on their eyelashes?” Sieghart took Nicola
up on her challenge and obediently closed his eyes.
Nicola, who at thirteen had been even more
petite than she was today, offhandedly muttered, “Oh, by the way. You know
those ruins just outside the royal capital, the one with the walls covered in
wisteria? Please don’t go anywhere near there—not even to save your own life.”
“After all,” she’d continued, “even I cannot
exorcise a god.”
2
On a day with no classes to attend, when the
autumn rain that had fallen incessantly for three days finally stopped, Nicola
enjoyed afternoon tea with some students who occupied high ranks in society.
The attendees included a man who had attained
the rank of marquess while still a student, the daughter of the marquess with
the greatest influence in the kingdom, and the daughter of a very minor
viscount—practically a complete nobody. The party consisted of only three
people. Olivia’s invitation to Nicola from a few days prior, which Nicola had
desperately hoped was a mere social pleasantry, had regrettably come true.
Though one of the other students in attendance
was Nicola’s childhood friend, the other was the daughter of a bona fide
high-ranking noble as well as a senior student whom Nicola could reasonably
claim she had only just met. This was nothing like the after-school chats she
had previously called tea parties, which were between students in the same year
and had looser etiquette.
Nicola fretted, wondering if she had made any
errors according to the etiquette she barely remembered. As such, she broke out
in a cold sweat underneath the simple but somewhat formal dress she wore
instead of her uniform.
Contrary to Nicola’s turbulent emotions, no
cloud in the sky was visible outside the European-style gazebo they sat under.
Thanks to the rain that had fallen throughout the previous night, the remaining
heat of the recent summer had finally settled down. It was pleasantly cool
outside. Dew drops resting on the leaves of nearby trees sparkled so brightly
that they dazzled Nicola’s eyes.
In this world, a student’s primary duty was
not to study but to build social connections. Within the campus and dormitories
of this academy, there were many salons and gazebos ideal for social functions.
If one made an application beforehand, they could even have their tea party
catered with a light meal. Olivia had picked one of those very gazebos for
today’s tea party.
Arranged on a three-tiered cake stand was a
selection of sandwiches, scones, and a veritable rainbow of cakes and sweets.
Even the teacups were gorgeous and decorated with delicate patterns, as
expected from a party hosted by the daughter of a marquess. Nicola recognized
these as being of very high quality and could not even risk guessing how much
they might have cost. Still, she felt her hand tense up as she grasped her
teacup.
“By the way, Nicola, did you trim your bangs?”
asked Sieghart.
Nicola paused before responding, “Yeah... I’m
surprised that you noticed. I only took a few millimeters off.”
“You look cute,” said Sieghart in a voice so
sweet that anyone hearing it would have been embarrassed. In front of Olivia,
it made Nicola feel very uneasy.
Olivia followed up with a well-meaning
interpretation of this interaction and said, “Aren’t you two close? You’re like
brother and sister.”
Sieghart’s expression indicated that he wanted
to correct Olivia, but a sharp glance from Nicola dissuaded him from saying
anything unnecessary. So he simply shrugged, telling Nicola that he got the
message.
“Ah, by the way. Nicola, darling, I believe we
spoke about the ghost in the western tower the other day. Have you heard
anything since then?” said Olivia. She then touched her blonde hair, which fell
in gentle waves upon her shoulders, and elegantly brushed it behind her ears.
“Yes, I did hear something... Something about
the fencing instructor having a very scary experience.”
“That’s right! He was so frightened that he
could not continue working here as a teacher. In the end, I believe he
resigned.”
“Oh, did he really?” said Nicola in a monotone
voice before sipping her tea with a nonchalant expression. The doppelgänger had
been so delighted by the opportunity to serve Nicola that it had gone about its
work a little too enthusiastically.
Sieghart gazed steadily in Nicola’s direction
as if he wanted to say something. Even though Nicola thought his face ought to
be registered as an artifact of cultural importance, she averted her gaze from
him. But it instead fell on Gemini, currently in pigeon form, who thrust out
its chest with pride.
Is that what they call being
pigeon-chested? Nicola thought, trying to escape
reality by entertaining such pointless ideas.
“Ah... This tea really is delicious,” said
Nicola, concealing her discomfort by taking a sip from her cup. As she did so,
a sweet aroma and a mellow astringency gently rose into her nostrils. Though
she had only said so to change the subject, the tea was genuinely delicious.
Olivia beamed with delight after seeing Nicola
take a deep breath to enjoy the tea’s fragrance.
“Why, thank you! My family trades in tea, so I
used our connections to procure some. I am so glad that you found it to your
liking,” said Olivia with a hand placed daintily over her mouth as she
chuckled.
A sudden sense of familiarity struck Nicola
when Olivia carried out that gesture as she spoke, but even after racking her
brains, she could not recall why she recognized it.
“Oh, is something the matter?” asked Olivia.
“N-No. It’s nothing. Ah, by the way, I’d like
to give you this. Apricots are the specialty crop grown on Weber land. This is
a jam made from those apricots...” said Nicola, holding a large, transparent
glass jar for Olivia to take. The jar was full of jam with a translucent,
refreshing orange color that refracted the sunlight and sparkled enticingly.
Even Nicola smiled as she thought about how tasty the jam looked.
When attending tea parties held within the
academy, it was common practice to bring foodstuffs made from produce grown on
the property of one’s family or products sold by the family business. This was
an opportunity to introduce the unique products one’s family could offer and
perhaps even make a sale.
Leaving aside its suitability as a tourist
spot for those seeking refuge from the summer heat, the lands of the Weber
family offered nothing special apart from its apricots. Whenever Nicola was
invited to a tea party, she would always take something made from processed
apricots to present to the hostess.
“This jam made from Weber apricots has the
perfect balance of sweetness and sourness. It goes very well on scones, but it
is even delicious when added directly to tea,” said Sieghart, who was
mysteriously enthusiastic about helping Nicola promote her family’s specialty
goods.
Perhaps Nicola should have expected as much
from a man who had often said that he would elope with her and start an apricot
farm. He was even ready to sell them.
“My, it really sparkles in the sunlight! It
looks delicious too. I will have to try some immediately!” exclaimed Olivia,
whose eyes also sparkled as she held the jar up to the light. She then took a
small spoonful of the jam and stirred it into her tea. “Let me have a taste...
Mmm, delicious! The soft pieces of pulp left inside are especially tasty.”
Olivia then placed a hand on one of her cheeks and half-closed her eyes,
overcome with delight.
Huh? Something did not seem quite right to Nicola, but again, she could not
identify what it was. She decided there was no point in continuing to think
about it right now, instead electing to nod slightly and respond with an
appropriate pleasantry.
“I am so glad that you seem to be enjoying
it,” replied Nicola. Though if we’re talking about delicious
things, your tea leaves are of the very highest order. Nicola thought of
following up with these modest words, but managed to swallow them.
“I’m sure it would be delicious with scones as
well. It’s a pity that Alois could not make it today,” said Olivia, glancing at
an empty chair.
“It sure is,” agreed Sieghart with a somber
demeanor.
But Nicola did not know what the other two
were talking about. Sieghart noticed her confusion.
“You see,” Sieghart began saying, “Alois and
Ernst were also invited to today’s tea party. But, well...”
“Indeed, Alois has been having a hard time of
late...”
Olivia and Sieghart shared a glance while
wearing ambiguous expressions on their faces. When Nicola asked for more
details, they explained that the thirdborn prince of a neighboring kingdom had
come to the academy as an exchange student in the same year as Alois, Sieghart,
and Olivia. They said that Alois, in his capacity as the sole representative of
the royal family at the academy, had taken full responsibility for entertaining
this guest. But apparently, the thirdborn prince was quite the rascal—some might
even have said a spoiled, selfish brat—and had so far taken a carefree approach
to his life as an exchange student.
Nicola had to admit that, having often been at
the mercy of Alois’s malicious whims, she was actually pleased to hear that
Alois had found himself at the beck and call of another disagreeable prince.
“Until this morning, he had intended to join
us... But he was forced to accompany the visiting prince into town at the last
minute,” said Olivia before frowning sympathetically.
Nicola could not feel the same amount of
sympathy. This was the same Alois who always seemed to delight in her
bewilderment, often going so far as to deliberately provoke her. She felt
immensely satisfied as she imagined Alois looking miserable while the spoiled
prince dragged him around town. The already delicious tea tasted all the
better.
Nicola pretended not to notice Sieghart
looking at her reproachfully as she put a scone to her mouth. If Alois was
looking after this prince from a neighboring kingdom, that automatically meant
that Ernst would also be with them. Given the blinding effect of Ernst’s
guardian spirit, Nicola could hardly stand to be around him, so she was quite
thankful for the absence of both young men. Though there was one detail that
troubled her.
“Would this be the neighboring Kingdom of
Legrand, by any chance?” she asked. She was fairly sure that, two generations
prior to the reign of the current king, the Kingdom of Legrand had gone to war
with Daustria over territory.
“That’s right,” said Sieghart. “Prince Lucas
is the thirdborn prince of that kingdom... But after looking at him, I can’t
help but think that Alois is an upstanding member of our royal family by
comparison. I know Alois might seem flippant, but he performs his official
duties very well. He is able to separate public and private life...”
“You are quite right. I am not sure whether to
describe His Highness, Prince Lucas, as a free spirit or a naughty boy...”
mused Olivia.
From Sieghart and Olivia’s sour expressions,
Nicola wondered if they had suffered merely as students in the same year as
Lucas or if they’d been required to spend more time with him as members of the
student council.
Nicola resolved that if she ever saw someone
matching Prince Lucas’s description, she would run away as fast as she could.
As she pondered this, something rustled behind her. She instinctively turned
around and saw a black tabby cat leap out of a bush five or six meters away.
The cat looked unusually plump and well-groomed for a stray, so Nicola wondered
if it might have received food from students at the academy.
However, the cat’s fur bristled when it came
within a few meters of the group of humans and finally noticed them. It hissed
at them menacingly with a nasty look on its face before disappearing into the
bushes once more.
“Perhaps she’s a mother with a few kittens.
That might be why she seemed so nervous. What a pity.”
“I don’t think so, Miss Olivia. It was
probably because Nicola is with us,” said Sieghart with a chuckle.
Nicola slumped her shoulders dejectedly before
frowning slightly and saying, “Cats just don’t seem to like me...”
In her past life, Nicola had had a great love
for cats. Even as an exorcist, she’d enlisted the help of nekomata,
a type of supernatural cat present in Japan. During her free time, she often
visited cat cafés. Such a strong fondness of cats had not changed when she was
reincarnated, but she was surprised to discover that cats in this world hated
her. Being despised by the thing she loved the most was a bitter pill to
swallow.
Although, it’s not as if I have no guesses as to
why they hate me,
Nicola thought.
“Nicola likes cats, but they never seem to
feel the same way. Ever since we were little, she’s always been getting
scratched by them, but that hasn’t stopped her from trying to pet them. So she
keeps getting scratched, again and again, ha ha...” Sieghart said as he
laughed, no doubt recalling such an instance.
“Please don’t laugh,” said Nicola glumly.
Olivia looked envious of the two childhood
friends and murmured, “You two have always been close, haven’t you?”
“I wonder,” muttered Nicola.
“If that’s how we seem, then I’m very
pleased,” said Sieghart.
Despite these contrasting reactions, Olivia
quietly said, “I really do envy you two.”
“But Miss Olivia, haven’t you and Alois been
together since you were small?”
“Indeed. But from the moment we met, it had
already been decided that we would be joined in a strategic marriage... So we
merely saw our relationship as part of our duty,” answered Olivia before slowly
averting her eyes. “That’s why I admire you two so much, for being so genuinely
close. I would have liked to be someone’s childhood friend...”
A little while ago, when Alois had insisted on
receiving one of Nicola’s sachets, he had certainly said, “It’s not as if we
have any romantic feelings for one another.” Perhaps the couple really was not
on good terms.
After struggling to come up with a response,
Nicola off-loaded that burden onto her childhood friend and remained silent.
She looked down at her hands folded in her lap and thought about how her nails
had grown a little longer as she waited for the subject to change.
3
Despite the vast difference in social standing
between her and the other guests, Nicola somehow made it through the tea party.
A few moments later, though it was already suppertime and nearly past curfew,
she was behind the dormitory building. She stood with her arms folded, as tall
as she could make herself appear, making no effort to conceal her irritation.
In front of Nicola were Sieghart, with whom
she had only just parted a few moments prior, and Ernst, who wore plain clothes
and a terribly serious expression. After some prompting from Sieghart, Ernst
reluctantly handed Nicola a note, which looked like it had been hastily
scribbled down. The note had faint lettering in a few places and messy
handwriting. This suggested that the writer had had little time to spare and
hadn’t stopped to add more ink to their pen.
Nicola quickly skimmed the note.
Dear Miss Nicola,
Let me get straight to the point. I ended up
having to go to the ruins just outside the royal capital. I’m so sorry. The
exchange students from the neighboring kingdom said they were going there to
test each other’s nerves. I told them not to go, but they wouldn’t listen.
I tried everything I could think of to stop them.
But if anything should happen to a prince from another kingdom, it would become
a diplomatic incident. I knew I couldn’t let them go alone since they were
persistent. And so, I ended up accompanying them...
If the ruins really are as dangerous as you say,
then could you come after me as soon as you’ve read this letter? I know I’m
asking too much, but please come. I’m sorry.
Alois
Once she had finished reading the letter,
Nicola silently crumpled it up.
“Why would you go there?!” she screamed.
“N-Nicola, calm down,” said Sieghart. “It’s
not as if Alois went out of curiosity. You see, he was dealing with a prince
from a kingdom that was at war with our own only a few generations ago. If
anything happened to Prince Lucas, we really could have a diplomatic incident
on our hands. So try to see it from Alois’s point of view... Okay?” Sieghart
desperately interceded on Alois’s behalf, probably remembering what Nicola had
once said about mercilessly abandoning Alois if he broke any of her rules of conduct.
This was not enough to convince Nicola, who
groaned in the lowest voice she could muster, “Well... I suppose that’s true.
And it was good of him to attempt contacting me before going... Besides that,
everything about this is awful. Even if I wanted to help him, it’s already far
too late.”
Ernst furrowed his brow and looked down at the
ground.
Yes, it’s too late. The note Nicola held crumpled up in her hand had only made its way to
her as the sun was about to set and just before her curfew. Conversely, Alois
had headed out for the ruins with the group of idiotic exchange students before
Olivia’s tea party had even begun. With curfew just moments away, Alois was
still nowhere to be seen.
In summary, the stupid prince from the
neighboring kingdom had wanted to go somewhere frightening to test his nerves
against the other exchange students, and the ruins seemed appropriate enough.
Unable to stop them, Alois had no choice but to go with them.
Alois had entrusted the hastily scrawled
letter to Ernst, who did not trust Nicola one bit, had refused to pass it on,
and arbitrarily joined the game of chicken instead.
As a result of Ernst’s unwillingness to share
the letter with Nicola, and the exchange students preparing to leave the ruins,
Alois had suddenly vanished. Thinking this was one of Alois’s pranks, Ernst and
the exchange students had returned to the academy. But no matter how long they
waited, Alois had yet to return to join them.
Ernst eventually decided that something must
be amiss and sought help from Sieghart. Given his understanding of the
situation, Sieghart had reached out to Nicola, bringing all three of them to
the present standoff.
There was only one location with ruins on the
outskirts of the royal capital. Nicola massaged her temples to alleviate her
headache. The ruined estate, the one with the buildings covered in wisteria,
was not a location that Nicola ever wished to approach.
A few years ago, Nicola and her family had
taken a brief vacation to visit the royal capital. They’d passed very close to
those ominous ruins, which seemed to emit a noxious miasma that sent shivers
down Nicola’s spine. Deep within one of the buildings and past the vines of
wisteria so dense that there was hardly a visible gap, Nicola had sensed a
presence. Although faint, there was a certain purity to it that was almost
holy. Therefore, Nicola had assumed a fallen god most likely occupied the
ruins.
It was surprising just how quickly a god, an
object of faith, could descend into a cursed existence. Especially in a
polytheistic tradition like that of this world, faith was a fickle thing.
After a god experienced such a fall, they
became something malevolent, and inhabited ominous places like the ruins. So it
was not uncommon for people who visited that place to vanish. In other words...
“He was absolutely spirited
away, wasn’t he?” muttered Nicola with a profound sigh. “Very well. For now, I
will ensure that Alois isn’t counted absent during the curfew roll call.” As
all students were required to board at the academy, the dormitory wardens
conducted a roll call every evening after curfew. It went without saying that
if the firstborn prince of the kingdom was missing one night, it would cause
quite a commotion.
“Gemini! Do you think you can turn into the
prince?”
Nicola’s familiar, presently in the form of a
pigeon, hopped down from a tree behind her onto the ground.
“Of course I can, Miss Nicola.” As soon as
Gemini had spoken, standing in its place was a blond-haired, blue-eyed young
man indistinguishable from Alois.
“Y-Your Highness?! Where have you been all
this time?!” cried Ernst, his wide-open eyes seeming to ask how this was
possible. He approached Gemini, but Nicola quickly seized the hem of his jacket
and pulled him back.
“Ernst, that is not the real Alois.”
“Wha— What are you talking about?!” Ernst
whirled around at a dizzying speed to look back at Nicola. She knew that Ernst
would not believe her if she explained things to him, so she kept her mouth firmly
shut. It would only be a pain in the neck to try and explain these matters to
someone who firmly refused to believe them.
Upon further consideration, she realized that
Gemini’s form was visible to regular people, which was very convenient. Unlike
her shikigami, it also required no mental effort from Nicola for it to go to
work.
When she gave Gemini a pat on the head, it
half-closed its eyes with pleasure and rubbed its head against her hand
reciprocally.
How cute, Nicola thought, almost like a cat. She
quickly came to her senses when she remembered Gemini was still in the form of
Alois and withdrew her hand in a hurry.
“It’s already late today, so I will go to the
ruins tomorrow.”
“Tomorrow?! How can you be so complace— I
mean...” said Ernst, looking furious for a moment. But then he choked back his
words as if he had remembered his folly.
“There is a possibility that we are dealing
with a god, which means trouble, and that I cannot simply handle it using my
techniques. Depending on the god’s desire, we may have an opportunity to speak
with it and convince it to release Alois if we pray to it properly. That is our
only hope. I will need to make appropriate preparations for this approach.”
When praying to the gods in Japan, it was
necessary to bring offerings of water, sake, uncooked rice, or salt. But Nicola
was unsure what to bring in this Western setting.
Early in her career as an exorcist, her mentor
had forced her to learn about the occult in Japan and the West. Since she
seldom used the latter in her day-to-day work, her memory of it was hazy.
With faith and offerings, it was often the
thought that counted the most. So it was not as if she had to do everything in
a strictly correct fashion. Nicola considered applying for permission to hold a
tea party and receive whatever refreshments she could. She would buy anything
she could not get that way at the morning markets the next day. As she mulled
this over, she heard Sieghart speak in a lower voice than usual, and raised her
head.
“Hey, Nicola. You’re not thinking of going by
yourself, are you?”
“Eh? I was,” Nicola responded.
A deadly cold smile crept across Sieghart’s
face. Nicola was not sure why, but she realized that she had angered Sieghart
and felt her body freeze.
“Absolutely not. I won’t let you go alone. So
I’m coming too.”
“But—”
“Absolutely not.”
“But, well...”
“No way.” Though Sieghart wore an elegant
smile on his lips, there was not even the suggestion of a smile in the amethyst
gems of his eyes. Instead, a perilous light danced within them. Nicola flinched
when faced with this sudden anger from Sieghart, who usually never got angry
with her no matter what she said to him.
She swallowed her objections and said, “Very
well.”
“I... I will also go,” said Ernst.
“Ernst, you too...?”
“It is only because I took my eyes off of His
Highness that this terrible thing happened. Let me accompany you. I beg of
you,” said Ernst, before bowing at a right angle. Perhaps influenced by Ernst’s
expression of remorse, the light from his guardian spirit dimmed and seemed
dejected. While it was still too bright for Nicola to overlook, she sighed and
wished it could always maintain that level of luminosity.
Nicola then spoke softly, “In your case,
Ernst, I am afraid that you would be unable to make it to the prince’s side
even if I took you with me.”
“And why is that?”
She paused before she said, “This may be hard
for you to believe, but try not to interrupt. With that in mind, please
listen.” Her gaze then met Ernst’s blue-gray eyes. “The truth is that your
guardian spirit is very strong. If you try to go to where His Highness is now,
there is a high chance of your guardian spirit sending you flying back in an
attempt to protect you.”
What the party sought to do with Nicola’s plan
tomorrow was tantamount to intentionally getting themselves spirited away.
Ernst’s guardian spirit, which was nearly as powerful as a god, was unlikely to
allow its ward to meet with another godly entity.
“It matters not. Let me accompany you.”
“If that doesn’t bother you, I guess you can
come...”
Given that Ernst never believed what Nicola
said, he likely did not put too much stock in the idea that he would not reach
Alois. Yet he nodded approvingly.
Well, thought Nicola, even if
his guardian spirit bounces him back, the only downside will be that he will
find himself left outside. She did not consider this to be much of a problem.
Nicola sighed heavily. One day of her precious
weekend was dedicated to an exhausting tea party, and she would spend the
remaining day rescuing Alois. She sulked and wondered if she would ever find a
day to relax.
As she considered where and when they should
all meet the next day, Nicola thought bitterly about what compensation to
demand from Alois when this was all over.
4
The next day, the three met in front of a
water fountain in the royal capital city, a local landmark, and walked through
the bustling crowds. Having entrusted all the supplies she had either prepared
the previous night or purchased in the city to Ernst, Nicola was physically
unburdened. Of course, she was not relieved of her mental burden.
She was going to have to deal with a god this
time. When practitioners in Nicola’s line of work in her past life were polled,
such a task reliably occupied the number two ranking in the list of “Jobs I
Want Nothing To Do With.” Gods were big trouble because they were unreasonable,
quick to curse people, tough, and simply nuisances.
Incidentally, the number one spot went to jobs
involving curses, but these were mainly avoided because they left a bad taste
in one’s mouth. Gods were still overwhelmingly considered the more annoying
class of assignments. Ultimately, they were just depressing.
However, Sieghart did not look so downcast as
he walked by Nicola’s right side. Quite the contrary, he almost looked like he
was enjoying himself while he held her hand.
“You look quite chipper today,” said Nicola in
a scathing manner.
“Eh? Ah, well, now that I think about it, it’s
been a long time since we’ve walked through town together like this, hasn’t it?
From one point of view, this could be considered a weekend date.” As Sieghart
turned to look at Nicola, an innocent smile broke across his gorgeous face,
showing his marble-white teeth.
Nicola quickly shook her head before looking
to the horizon after realizing she was once again in danger of being bewitched
by Sieghart’s honeyed tone and open affection.
Just behind Nicola on her left, she heard
Ernst mutter, “His Grace has quite eccentric tastes...”
To be sure, Nicola’s looks were very average
and she could not boast about a plump pair of ripe fruits. She could
wholeheartedly affirm the claim that Sieghart’s tastes were eccentric, but
hearing this from an almost perfect stranger still irritated her.
Nicola turned back to look at Ernst and
retorted, “If you will forgive me for saying so, I think your lord and master
also have quite eccentric tastes.”
Though Alois did not fancy Nicola in the same
way as Sieghart, the fact that he had taken such a keen interest in her marked
him as a true eccentric.
Ernst seemed to try and muster a rebuttal of
his own, but he fell silent after opening and closing his mouth a few times.
His dejected expression did not suit his gallant features, and Nicola could not
help but snort with laughter.
“By the way...” Nicola said. “After you all
went to test your nerves at the ruins, what became of the main culprits, the
morons who suggested it in the first place?”
“Hey now, you’re talking about the prince of
another kingdom and his retinue...” said Sieghart, chiding Nicola softly before
patting her on the head.
While frowning as he looked on next to Nicola,
Ernst answered, “Prince Lucas must still think that this was just one of His
Highness’s pranks. The other exchange students seem to think so as well. They
have spent the day so far acting as if nothing happened.”
In all fairness, Gemini, in the guise of
Alois, had returned to the dormitory in time for curfew. Nicola was more
inclined to criticize Alois, whose everyday behavior allowed others to think
that he would commit such a prank.
As the three conversed in this fashion, they
soon found themselves at the very ruins in question.
“This is it...” said Nicola.
Just outside the royal capital, a short
distance before one of its brick-paved roads ended, there was a building
covered in wisteria vines with verdant leaves. At the kingdom’s center,
buildings stood near each other within the royal capital. But the further one
went outside the city center, the greater the distance between buildings grew.
Here, on the outskirts, even the plots adjacent to the ruined estate were
vacant.
The nearest intact building was diagonally
opposite the ruins, back in the direction of the city center, but it was over
twenty meters away. The whole area was deathly quiet.
Thick, green vines of wisteria covered the
long-abandoned estate as Nicola grasped a vague impression of its outline by
looking at it from the outside. Around the spacious garden surrounding the
building was a rusted iron fence, but weeds grew through the gaps in the
fence’s ornamental lattice.
The more Nicola looked at the place, the more
it looked like the perfect spot for young men to test each other’s nerves. She
was almost impressed that the boys had ventured inside. Not only did it look
like a nasty spot at first glance, it also looked like she would find a lot of
bugs inside. She absolutely did not want to get any closer.
“When you all came here yesterday, did you cut
through this garden, Ernst?”
“No, there was another entrance around the
back that servants probably used. So we went through it as we thought we
wouldn’t have to pass through the garden to get in.”
“Well, then, let’s do the same.”
Following Ernst’s lead, they circled to the
back of the estate and found an opening in the rusted ornamental fence. This
also brought them closer to the building itself.
It looked like those playing chicken tended to
use that entrance because they had trampled on the weeds a few meters between
the fence and the building, making it appear like a trail left by animals.
Through a tiny gap in the wisteria, Nicola saw a small door that looked like it
might be a service entrance.
“Shall we go?” asked Ernst.
“No, not yet. We still need to prepare,”
replied Nicola, shaking her head. She then rustled through the bag of supplies
she had entrusted to Ernst, searching for something she had prepared the
previous night. “Ah, here we go.” Nicola pulled something paper-thin out of the
bag and handed it to Sieghart.
“What’s this? It looks like a rather
unusual...mask?”
“Yes, it is a mask. Please put this on before
going inside, Sieghart.”
What Nicola had handed Sieghart was a sort of
square mask often used in traditional Japanese court music. On a rectangular
piece of paper covered with white silk, Nicola had drawn triangles and swirls
that symbolically represented eyes, a nose, and a mouth. She had to admit that
it looked a bit funny.
“The gods love things that are pure and
beautiful. If you were to go in there with your face visible, Sieghart, there’d
be a high chance of you taking Alois’s place,” she continued.
“Taking his place?”
“The god might take a liking to you and not
allow you to leave.” Nicola knew full well that if the only objective was to
hide Sieghart’s face, she need not have put so much effort into decorating the
mask. But since she was being forced to rush in somewhere she would not usually
dare tread, she had added some visual humor to the situation as a small act of
rebellion on her part.
Sieghart placed the mask over his face and
fastened it behind his head with the cord Nicola provided. Once Sieghart had
hidden his face, she immediately noticed the dazzling halo that the early
autumn sunlight cast around the full head of silver filaments that made up his
hair.
Nicola grasped a lock of that hair and said,
“Sieghart. I hate to say this, but we may need to cut your hair...”
For a moment, she considered covering his hair
in dust to remove its luster. But she ultimately contemplated that the
offerings she had brought might not satisfy the god. In that event, Sieghart’s
hair would make a worthy trump card. Hair was the easiest and least painful
offering a human could provide from their own body. Unlike Nicola’s boring
black hair, Sieghart’s silver hair, with its mirror sheen, would probably be
considered quite valuable. Seeing how glum Nicola looked, Sieghart placed a
hand on her head to reassure her.
“I don’t mind cutting it. Personally, I’m not
attached to this long hair of mine at all. I only grew it out in the first
place because you once said it would be convenient if my gorgeous hair was
longer.” Sieghart’s mask moved slightly as he spoke. Without a hint of
sentimentality, he added, “I want to be useful in any way that I can.”
Nicola took a moment and answered, “We do not
yet know how the god will greet us. Frankly, we may have a fight on our hands
if it emerges... But I will avoid cutting your hair as much as possible.”
Did the god have some objective or meaning in
mind when it spirited Alois away, or was it acting on a whim? Is it the kind of god we can talk to or not? Without knowing the answer to these
questions, they would need insurance.
Nicola knew that she probably put a greater
value on Sieghart’s hair than Sieghart did himself, but she could not help but
think that it would be a shame to lose it.
“As for you, Ernst, there is a possibility
that you might not reach wherever His Highness is or even be able to enter the
building. You could also find yourself separated from us inside. If that
happens, wait for us. But if you think you might not make it back in time for
curfew, please return to the academy then.”
Ernst was silent for a moment before simply
saying, “Understood.”
Nicola did not want to think about the fact
that this might not be over and done with today, but with the gods, that was a
real possibility.
“Well then, shall we go?” said Nicola.
The three of them then finally slipped past
the rusty gate.
5
Although from this side of the ornamental
fence there was no need to pass through the garden to get to the building,
there were still five or six meters of undergrowth to walk through. As Nicola
drew closer to the building, brushing aside tall weeds as she went, she noticed
that the wisteria had bloomed out of season. Here and there, she could see
clusters of flowers hanging from the vines. Her eyes widened at the tiny
creatures gathered around the flowers.
HUMANS AGAIN? HOW RARE A SIGHT. THERE ARE MORE
OF THEM. NEW FRIENDS FOR US.
TEE-HEE. WHAT A FUNNY MASK. YOU MUST BE VERY
BRAVE TO COME HERE. BRAVE INDEED. HAHAHA, HOW CURIOUS YOU HUMANS ARE!
Unsurprisingly, in this world whose culture so
closely resembled that of Europe, fairies were far more common than they had
been in Japan. Countless tiny beings swarmed around the unseasonable flowers.
The sight of them flitting about with glowing scales falling from their wings
really was like something out of a fairy tale. For that very reason, Nicola
felt uneasy and stopped in her tracks.
A few years ago, the aura around these ruins
had been so ominous that Nicola had felt every one of her hairs stand on end.
It had emitted such a repellent miasma that there was no way that fairies would
have thought to approach it.
However, looking at the building with fresh
eyes, Nicola finally realized she no longer felt the same terrifying chill that
she had the last time she’d passed by the ruins.
Closing her eyes and honing her senses, Nicola
could tell that there was still a divine presence, though it was weak. Yet the
veil that had once hung over the building, that had sent a chill down Nicola’s
spine and caused her to never approach it, was not entirely gone, but had
diminished. Perhaps it was only a residue. It felt quite different to how it
had been a few years ago.
“That ominous feeling might not have come from
the fallen god after all, but perhaps...something else...”
“Nicola?” After seeing Nicola abruptly stop,
Sieghart looked perplexed. Nicola put aside her peculiar feeling of unease and
sprinted through the foliage toward the building.
Facing the small service entrance, the three
looked up at a manor covered in wisteria vines.
“From up close, it actually looks
magnificent...” murmured Sieghart. The three could barely glimpse the exterior
wall of the manor through the wisteria that constricted the entire building.
Starting at one of the wisteria’s gnarled trunks, they could see cracks running
through the wall like a spider’s web. They even thought they’d heard the
building creak.
The vitality of the plant known as wisteria
was truly formidable as it extended its leaves toward the sun after putting out
vines to constrict competing plants. In the worst case, the plants it
constricted would wither and die. Though wisteria looked like a delicate,
ephemeral plant, it was in fact quite robust.
As a brief aside, these properties were the
reason forestry workers considered wisteria a harmful plant species.
Sieghart, Nicola, and Ernst stood side by side
in that order from left to right, with Nicola in the middle and taking
responsibility for pulling the service door open. The door was unlocked, and
even as it squealed unpleasantly, she opened it with no difficulty.
“On the count of three, let us all step across
the threshold,” said Nicola, holding both Sieghart and Ernst by their hands so
they would not get separated. One of these hands squeezed back in response,
clearly used to this custom. The other hand almost pulled away as if its owner
had been surprised, but Nicola ignored this and gripped it firmly. “Here we go.
One, two, three.”
The moment they stepped through the doorway
and made contact with the floor, Nicola was struck by a feeling of being
suspended in midair. She could not tell forward from backward, left from right,
or up from down as her sense of space was distorted and her vision was shaken.
It was an uncomfortable feeling. Then the warmth of one of the hands holding
her own receded, as if suddenly pulled away.
“Huh?!”
“Wha—!”
Nicola ground to a halt, barely maintaining
her balance, as Sieghart stumbled beside her. After waiting for the feeling of
discomfort to pass, she looked around again and noticed that they stood inside
a kitchen. The service door they had entered was already closed behind them and
Ernst was nowhere to be found.
“I thought there was no point in Ernst coming
with us,” said Nicola, shaking her head slowly and sighing. Thinking that there
was no harm in having a look outside, she tried opening the door behind her,
but it would not budge. Even when Sieghart attempted to open it, the result was
the same. It appeared something had already beckoned them into another realm.
“Sieg, from this point on, we should take care
to avoid using each other’s real names. My name will be Nica or Nieka. Please
use whichever one you prefer.”
“In that case, I’ll call you Nica. As for the
person we’re looking for... How about we call him Alo?”
Perhaps because of the number of times they
had dealt with apparitions together, Sieghart was quick on the uptake, which
was a relief to Nicola. After nodding firmly, she knelt on the bare stone
floor, pressed against it, and quietly recited a prayer that helped find a
missing item. This would allow her to roughly determine Alois’s location.
Fortunately, it did not take her long to discern in what direction she should
search for him. After shaking the dust from the floor off her hands, she
quickly stood back up.
“First of all, let us go and recover Alo.
Please do not stray from my side, Sieg.” If she took her eyes off Sieghart and
the god suddenly took him, that would really be a nuisance. After she implored
Sieghart to stay close, he suddenly climbed onto her back.
“Is this okay?”
“As if... You’re too heavy; I can’t even move.
Please get off.”
“Perhaps that’s just the weight of my love?”
“My legs... Come on, let’s get going.”
Sieghart chuckled and quickly stepped away
from Nicola. At least he listens to reason, she
thought, but she still let out a hmph of irritation.
Dragging Sieghart by the hand, Nicola stepped
out of the cramped kitchen with stone floors into a hallway. The moment she did
so, the smell of mold and dust one might expect from a long abandoned building
caused her to wrinkle her nose in disgust.
The carpet in the hallway had probably once
been red, but years of dust had piled up on top of it like snow, and it now had
an unpleasantly dull hue.
The rampant growth of wisteria outside the
windows had almost completely covered them up, so it was dark inside the
mansion. A couple shafts of light shone through the few tiny gaps in the vines,
allowing them to see with some effort. Still, it was an extremely
claustrophobic setting.
“I want to get out of this unhygienic place as
soon as possible. Quickly now, let’s go. Quickly now,” said Nicola as she
pulled desperately on his arm, and he just continued walking cautiously. This
left Nicola feeling prematurely exhausted. “Enough quivering! You don’t have to
proceed with that much caution. There’s nothing in this corridor.”
“You’re kidding, right...? Doesn’t this look
like exactly the kind of place where we’d find something?!”
Sieghart replied and turned to Nicola with a look of disbelief. A moment later,
Nicola realized how he must be feeling.
I guess it’s understandable, she thought, with a sigh. The fact that Sieghart could not easily
perceive apparitions made a place like this all the more frightening.
Nicola had always been able to see the other
world very well—too well. She was often frightened growing up; nowadays, she
saw her surroundings with extreme clarity. Despite only seeing a moldering and
dirty ruined mansion, she was certain nothing else was with them in the
corridor because of her keen supernatural senses. However, things were
different for Sieghart, who could only see apparitions that attempted to harm
him directly. When it came to apparitions besides these, his eyes were no
sharper than a regular person’s eyes.
Inside this moldering old house, which seemed
like spirits might inhabit it, the very fact that Sieghart could not see
anything meant that he could never be certain there was nothing there.
Everything seemed suspicious to him. Stains on the walls and ceiling would
appear to leap out at him like ghosts, and wind blowing through a hole in the
wall might sound abnormally loud. It was this state of mind that sometimes
caused people to identify innocent, inanimate objects as ghosts.
This was especially true of Sieghart, whose
previous encounters with entities outside the human realm gave him the
certainty that ghosts existed even if he could not see them. Knowing that they
might be there, but not knowing whether they were there, made this environment
all the more terrifying for him.
Even though Nicola understood how Sieghart
felt, she could not humor him and wanted to leave this place as soon as
possible. This aim would not become a reality if Sieghart insisted on tiptoeing
around.
“I’m telling you, there really isn’t anything
here. It’s okay,” said Nicola, squeezing Sieghart’s hand tighter to reassure
him.
The interior of the abandoned mansion was so
eerily quiet that even Nicola found it strange. Simply calling it quiet was
misleading because nothing lived there. Just as worms multiplied in fertile
soil, a good ruin gathered souls. Ghost stories started as rumors, and as
rumors spread, they started to sound real. Once they sounded real, they were
real.
Regardless of their past circumstances, it was
normal for ruins to attract beings from outside the human realm. So these
ruins, which seemed to contain none, could only be described as
abnormal—although the reason for it was obvious to her. After glancing at the
wisteria growing outside out of the corner of her eye, Nicola came to a halt
and turned to face Sieghart, looking him straight in his amethyst eyes.
“Listen, Sieg. The sachets I give you every
year during this season contain dried wisteria flowers. The wisteria plant
itself has the property of repelling harmful spirits. When its flowers are
picked and dried, their effect wears off over time, but the vines outside are
far from withering. As long as they continue to draw nutrients from the ground,
the warding effect of the plants will continue.” Nicola held up her index
finger to emphasize her next point. “In other words, nothing strange will make
its way inside this mansion covered in wisteria. There is really nothing else
here.”
“I see your point...”
“If you understand, then let’s get moving.”
Nicola tugged on Sieghart’s hand and resumed walking.
When they reached the end of the corridor,
they found a spacious entrance hall, which seemed to have been constructed to
show off the staircase in its center. Nicola stole a glance at her childhood
friend standing beside her. Although she still sensed some resistance from
Sieghart’s hand as she dragged him along, he was finally matching her pace. But
this was not enough to show that the fear had gone out of him entirely.
A partly broken chandelier hung from the
ceiling of the entrance hall. Walking underneath it frightened Nicola in a
different sense, so she walked around it. As she moved closer to the wall, she
saw that the wallpaper had peeled away, revealing bricks and wooden beams
underneath.
“Why did you come along this time?” asked
Nicola after a pause.
“Eh?”
“You rarely insist on coming with me, even
when it frightens you. Why did you come along this time? Is it because I once
told you how dangerous this place was...?”
When it came to Nicola in particular, Sieghart
had a habit of imposing his presence. But he ultimately knew his place and
would do nothing that upset her. He knew full well that he was not of any use
in Nicola’s territory, so he was always ready to stand aside and leave Nicola’s
business to her.
So Nicola was surprised that he had insisted
on coming this time. The entire time that Nicola spent making Sieghart’s mask
the night before, she had wondered what she had said to anger him, but she
failed to arrive at an answer.
Sieghart came to a stop, which forced her to
do so too as she held his hand.
“Hey, Nica. Though there may or may not be a
god lurking in here, this is still an abandoned building. Did you ever think to
yourself for one second that bandits and vagabonds might have holed up in
here?”
Nicola was briefly silent and responded, “No,
I never considered that.” Now that Sieghart had brought it up, she realized how
careless she had been. From the perspective of vagabonds, Nicola realized she
was the young daughter of a family that looked like it might have money. There
were scoundrels out there who dirtied their hands in human trafficking. They
would probably think a young woman strolling into an abandoned building alone
would be the perfect prey.
“The fact that the building is abandoned means
that we can guess that it is probably severely dilapidated. One wrong step and
you could fall through the floor and injure yourself, rendering you unable to
move... Did you ever consider that possibility?”
Nicola was silent again before simply stating,
“No.” She pursed her lips and said nothing further. Sieghart’s mask moved
slightly, but Nicola was not sure whether he had sighed or laughed wryly.
“I know all too well that you are strong when
it comes to the nonhuman, but you see the world differently. You can do things
that normal people can’t, so sometimes your way of thinking is a bit
dangerous.”
Nicola could say nothing to refute Sieghart’s
words.
“In physical terms, you are just a slender
young woman. You should be a bit more aware of the threat of bodily harm.”
Though Sieghart scolded Nicola with his words, the hand that stroked her hair
and the look in his eyes as he gazed down at her were unbelievably gentle.
“Well, I just need to make up for the areas in which your sense of caution is
not enough.”
After a moment, Nicola finally said, “Your
words don’t carry as much weight when you’re wearing that mask.”
“Ha ha, I guess not.”
Nicola felt grateful for having chosen to give
the mask such a comical expression when she’d made it the previous night.
6
Nicola and Sieghart walked straight past the
staircase in the center of the entrance hall, proceeding directly to the
passage on its right, which led deeper into the first floor of the mansion.
Despite her skills in the occult arts, searching for lost items and people was
not her strong suit. Therefore, she only had a rough idea of what direction she
should head in to find Alois.
After reaching a dead end at the back of the
first floor, they, unfortunately, found no sign of Alois.
“If he isn’t on the first floor, I suppose
we’ll have to look upstairs... Though I hope we don’t have to wander around
here for too long.” As luck would have it, they did not need to double back to
the central staircase in the main hall. What they had thought was a dead end
had its own staircase leading up to the next floor, which they went up through.
The stairs were simpler than those in the main
hall, and the effects of decay on the wood were far more apparent. As they
climbed the stairs, the steps creaked under the weight of their footsteps,
causing Nicola to worry that they might fall through them at any moment. If we’re not careful, she thought, these
boards could snap.
The two could not find the courage to climb
these precarious steps together, so they gingerly went up them one at a time.
It looked like anything of value in the house
had either been taken by the former owner upon abandoning it or looted in the
years since. There were patches of wallpaper less faded by sunlight, showing
that vases had once been displayed on the landing and paintings had hung on the
walls, but these seemed to have all vanished.
Once Nicola and Sieghart had reached the
second floor and found their feet on solid flooring, they breathed a sigh of
relief. The very moment that they did so, an unexpected shriek pierced their
ears.
“Ahhhh!” screamed someone barely visible in
the gloom, apparently half-crying. Nicola prioritized bashing whoever did that
with the bag she was carrying instead of covering her ears.
“Sieg! Nico—Gah! Eh? Eh? Why...?” The distance
between them was not too great, as Nicola had dealt Alois a critical hit with
her bag.
Alois lay sprawled on the floor and glanced up
at Nicola with a look of bewilderment. She marched over to him and crouched
down to speak to him.
“We do not. Use each other’s names so
carelessly. In a place such as this. Repeat what I just said.” Each time Nicola
paused for emphasis, she prodded Alois’s forehead with her finger.
“Ooh, sorry... We do not use each other’s
names so carelessly in a place such as this.”
“Very good. As long as we’re here, please call
me Nica, Prince Alo.”
“Got it.”
“Well then. Just to make sure, you haven’t
drunk or eaten anything while you’ve been in this realm, have you?”
“We mustn’t eat anything we find in another
world... Right? Don’t worry, I haven’t. In the first place, it doesn’t look
like there’s anything to eat.”
Nicola stood back up and crossed her arms in a
huff as Sieghart lent Alois a hand and Alois rose to his feet. Alois then
looked timidly at Sieghart.
“More importantly, is that you, Sieg? You do
have silver hair and you’re with Miss Nica, so I cried out ‘Sieg’ without even
thinking...”
“Yeah, it’s me.”
“Erm, what a distinctive mask you have on...”
“Oh, you mean this? Nica said that, since
there’s a god here, I ought to cover up my face.”
“I... I see...” said Alois, with a glance at
Nicola.
Nicola shrugged and said, “There is probably
no point in wearing a mask unless it was from the very start, but would you
like one, Alo?” She then pointed at the bag she had just used to hit Alois,
indicating that she had made an extra mask, but Alois shook his head
forcefully.
I guess he really doesn’t want to wear one. Pity, I think these masks are quite charming once you get used to them, thought Nicola while
pursing her lips slightly.
“All things considered,” said Alois, “you
really came after me straight away. Thank you, both of you.” Alois’s shoulders
seemed to shrink as he cowered in fear, looking at his gloomy surroundings.
Sieghart opened his eyes wide in amazement.
“Straight away? At least a whole day has gone by since you went missing...”
“Eh?! A whole day?!” Alois opened his green
eyes even wider as if competing with Sieghart. “You’re joking, right? I mean,
it’s only been about an hour since I first set foot in these ruins...”
With carefully subdued expressions on their
faces, Sieghart and Nicola both shook their heads.
“Dealing with the gods means occupying another
time and space apart from the here and now. You could spend three days in that
other space while only one second has passed in reality—the reverse is also
possible. These things often happen when interacting with gods or fairies,”
said Nicola as she shrugged.
“But that would mean... No, it can’t be! Don’t
tell me that selfish Lucas and his retinue have been lost this whole time as
well?!” Alois turned uncharacteristically pale. To calm him down, Sieghart
explained that there was nothing to worry about on account of Prince Lucas. In
the meantime, Nicola’s opinion of Alois changed very slightly.
Alois looked genuinely relieved to hear that
the visiting prince and his retinue had safely returned to the academy the
previous day. From where Nicola was standing, Alois seemed to take his official
duties as a member of the royal family seriously.
In all honesty, Nicola could not have imagined
that this side of Alois existed, given his typically frivolous disposition and
the way he hassled her. Here, she had to admit that Alois was not at fault.
Since he had really only been caught up in this while trying to avoid a
diplomatic incident, then it was probably unavoidable.
Nicola had once stated that if Alois stuck his
nose into supernatural affairs out of curiosity, she would abandon him. But the
reverse side of that statement was the guarantee that she would rescue him if
he found himself in trouble for any other reason. Having already accepted Alois
as her ward when it concerned the supernatural, Nicola’s pride prevented her
from failing to protect him as long as he remained faultless.
Nicola let out an exasperated sigh now that
she had found the person she was looking for. Next, she needed to meet with the
god lurking in the ruins.
After urging Sieghart and Alois to get moving,
Nicola started walking again. She thought to herself that they could not afford
to be separated again, and she firmly grasped each of them by the hand. They
proceeded in a row, with Nicola in the middle.
Perhaps because Alois was so relieved to have
been reunited with the others, he was more talkative than usual.
“Say, Miss Nica. Given that Lucas was the one
who decided to come here in the first place, why could he and his retinue leave
without a problem while I was trapped here?”
“Who knows? Probably because you have such a
pretty face?”
“But that idiot Lucas has quite a nice face
too, you know? Though he is a complete egotist, he is at least good-looking. At
least he’s good-looking...” Nicola could detect barbs in Alois’s words whenever
he spoke about the visiting prince. Clearly, he resented being dragged around
by Lucas.
“Then I suppose your face was simply more to
the god’s liking, Alo,” said Nicola.
Alois suddenly got a suspicious look in his
eye as he turned to look at Nicola.
“Eh? Could a god have such a half-baked reason
as that?”
“If that’s the case, then this god is quite
irrational,” said Sieghart with a smirk as he walked to Nicola’s other side.
Still holding both boys by their hands, Nicola shrugged.
“Whatever do you mean? More often than not,
gods are irrational.” Nicola looked up at Alois and Sieghart in turn. “Listen.
Every act a god performs is considered ‘good.’ Even if their actions cause
people trouble, or at least are not to the people’s benefit, it does not
matter, as the gods decide what is good and bad. Being irrational and
unmerciful is what makes a god a god, and it is what makes them an object of
faith... Which is why I hate dealing with them. If it were possible, I would
choose to have nothing to do with them.” Nicola spat these last words bitterly.
All polytheistic traditions began in a similar
way: with people praying to be spared from nature’s formidable threats, which
were beyond the understanding of early humans.
For example, imagine a typhoon approaching, a
flood occurring, or any other catastrophe befalling people. People who believed
the gods controlled nature would assume “This is the anger of the gods.” And
their thoughts would eventually take shape.
The origins of gods typically went something
like that. For that very reason, it was almost guaranteed gods were irrational.
It was not for nothing that they had taken second place in the “Jobs I Want
Nothing To Do With” ranking.
“But, well,” continued Nicola, “consider what
I said about your face being to the god’s liking a joke. In actuality, what’s
more important is whether someone has interacted with beings from outside the
human realm before.”
If the god had only spirited Alois away
because it favored his looks, then it would not have invited Nicola, with her
mediocre looks, or Sieghart, who wore a mask, into its realm. Despite the
differences in their genders and their social standing, what did all three of
them have in common? This was, of course, the fact that they all knew about the
existence of the nonhuman realm.
It was a reasonable hypothesis that the more
one knew about the nonhuman, the closer those unknown entities would approach
daily and meddle in one’s affairs.
The structural integrity of the second floor
was even more dubious than that of the first floor. Every step produced an
unpleasant creaking sound. There was no third floor. Looking up at the ceiling,
Nicola could see countless holes where the rain had leaked through. Perhaps due
to the damp conditions, the walls appeared terribly decayed. Overall, the
second floor gave an even worse impression than the first. Nicola knitted her
brows as an even stronger smell of mold assaulted her nostrils.
“This place was once the estate of a count who
really liked wisteria. After racking up too many debts, he ran away under the
cover of night,” said Alois, telling the others what he had discovered before
Nicola and Sieghart had found him. Generally, Western manors were constructed
so that the first floor was a place to welcome visitors, whereas the second
floor was the resident’s private domain. Apparently, Alois had investigated the
study upstairs and found that some diaries and ledgers were still there.
“That being said, I never would have thought
that wisteria would grow so out of control if not properly tended to. I was
shocked.” Alois continued to speak loquaciously. Nicola and Sieghart shared a
glance as they thought that, though they were used to Alois speaking with a
complete lack of context, something about him seemed different.
Suddenly, two or three meters back the way
they had come, there was a loud creaking sound, as if the whole house had
shuddered.
“Eek!” screamed Alois in fear. Nicola opened
her mouth to tease him as payback for the way he always treated her, but a
moment later she found herself quite unable to do so.
“Eh? Wait a—Aah!”
“Alo?!”
Still holding Nicola’s hand, Alois suddenly
ran forward at full speed. Even when compared to other girls her age, Nicola
was extremely petite, so her legs were naturally far shorter than Alois’s. On
top of that, in both her past life and this one, she was catastrophically bad
at sports because she was fundamentally uncoordinated.
Considering all this, what would become of
Nicola when dragged along by Alois with his radically wider gait and sprinting
at full speed? The answer was obvious.
Nicola did not even have time to scream at the
sensation of her body suddenly lurching forward, placing a greater strain on
her limbs than they could reasonably stand. Naturally, she could not explain to
Alois that the noise that had startled him was merely a result of the house’s
deterioration. She desperately flailed her legs to keep up with Alois as he
sprinted from the second floor down the central staircase and half-dragged her,
but it was useless.
“Alo, stop, stop! At this rate, Nica will die
from exhaustion!”
Halfway through Alois’s flight, Sieghart had
decided that he could not stand by and watch, so he had run after them,
supporting Nicola from behind by pushing her. With one hand still on Nicola’s
back, Sieghart overtook her and grabbed Alois by the arm to stop him.
With her legs suddenly tangled together,
Nicola nearly toppled over. But Sieghart deftly positioned himself to support
her, averting this disaster. However, Nicola could barely breathe, let alone
speak.
“Alo, you can’t be doing that. When it comes
to sports, Nica is catastrophically and hopelessly inept. If you make her run
at that speed, she will very quickly expire.”
While Nicola thought Sieghart’s choice of
words was extremely rude, he was right. Nicola could find no words to refute
them—besides, she was still a long way away from being able to speak at all. It
took all of her efforts to regain control of her breathing gradually, with her
shoulders rising and falling dramatically with each breath for the time being.
Alois finally calmed down after Sieghart
consoled him. Then, looking flustered, he looked down at Nicola and apologized.
“Miss Nica, I’m really sorry! Um, but wait a
minute. Are you really that tired after running such a short distance? Are you
kidding? How could you have so little stamina?”
With an expression of utter disbelief, Alois
turned to look at the stairs they had just descended before turning back to
Nicola again. She could not help but feel irritated by this, so she glared back
at Alois.
To be fair, they had only run a distance of
about twenty meters. Neither Alois nor Sieghart looked to be even slightly out
of breath.
Nicola certainly lacked any athletic ability,
but this treatment still imbued a mixture of anger and frustration inside her.
She alleviated this by stomping on Alois’s foot with all her might. She then
took five whole minutes to calm her breathing before groaning.
“First of all... Why did you feel the
need...to freak out like that? You should be able to see...at a glance...that
there isn’t anything here.”
“Eh?” Alois blinked.
Once again, Nicola was confused. She could not
understand why Alois seemed so surprised. Alois should have been able to “see”
almost as well as Nicola, so why was he so shocked by her assertion that he
ought to be able to tell the house was empty?
“But this place is so ominous... Is there
really nothing here? Are you sure...?”
“Ah... I see.” Nicola covered her face with
one hand before looking up in the air. Alois’s sense of terror had been stoked
in a different fashion compared to Sieghart.
The fearsome miasma that had once caused even
Nicola to decide to avoid the place had largely faded away. At present, only
the last vestiges of that presence still hung in the air.
From Nicola’s perspective, because she could
compare the current remnants of that fearsome presence to what they had been a
few years ago, she could judge that the source of the miasma had already left
this place.
However, for someone with no knowledge of its
previous state, the remnants of the miasma would likely still be quite
disturbing. Even though Alois could sense that disquieting presence, he still
saw nothing but an empty house. That might have made this place even spookier
for him. Nicola let out a heavy sigh, the force of it expelling all the air
from her lungs.
“I’m telling you, there really isn’t anything
here besides the god. That ominous feeling you’re getting is just what
something completely different has left behind. Everything is fine,” Nicola
said reassuringly before taking Sieghart and Alois by the hand once more. “Now
then, all we need to do is go and greet the god. Let’s get this over with
quickly and go home.”
Their new destination was at the back of the
first floor, on the other side from where they had passed through to get to the
second floor earlier. Through that passage was the divine source of the
purifying energy Nicola barely sensed emanating from these filthy ruins.
7
When they came to the end of the hallway on
the first floor, a door that had once been stylish but was now filthy stood in
front of them.
Most of the door’s paint, which had probably
once been white, had peeled away. The stained glass fitted in the very center
of the door, however, still seemed quite vibrant, though somewhat dimmed by the
layer of dust upon it.
After a brief pause, Nicola said, “Most
likely, the god is just beyond this door.” From either side of her, Nicola
heard each boy gulping nervously. “Let’s go.”
She then released the boys’ hands and slowly
opened the door, which revealed a greenhouse connected directly to the mansion
via that single door. It looked like glass windows had been fitted all over in
the past.
The frame that had once held the glass windows
remained even after decades of neglect had made it nothing more than a
supporting structure for the wisteria that grew wild around the estate. The
panes of glass that had probably once rested inside the metal frame now lay
scattered in shards on the floor of the greenhouse.
A series of square tiles formed a harlequin
check pattern on the floor. Here and there, in between the tiles, were flower
beds surrounded by stone edging, but not a single plant grew in any of them.
Perhaps that was to be expected.
After all, the dense wisteria vines outside
the greenhouse blocked any sun from reaching the interior. Any plants that once
grew in the flower beds would have long since withered and died before
returning to the soil beneath them.
The floor, with its harlequin check tiling,
was also in miserable condition. They had probably once been laid out
perfectly, without a single gap between them. Yet the wisteria vines had
extended their roots into the ground beneath the greenhouse, eventually
protruded through the ground, and displaced some tiles. It almost looked as if
moles digging through it had disturbed the ground.
With the few shafts of light that could make
their way through the gaps in between the wisteria leaves shining down upon it,
an enshrined statue of a goddess stood in the middle of the miserably
dilapidated greenhouse. Though it appeared corrupted, a mystical air surrounded
the statue.
No one needed to say a word as the three
visitors understood what the goddess wanted from them.
Wisteria vines that had overturned the tiles
on the floor tangled around the stone statue of the goddess. Nicola’s group
approached the shrine.
The statue was small. If one excluded the
pedestal on which it stood, it was less than one meter in height. Nicola gently
ran her fingers along the vines that crept over the statue. The vines that
wound around the pedestal had constricted it so tightly that many cracks ran
across the stone surface.
The vines around the statue itself were still
green and slender, but it was not difficult to imagine what the future held for
it. In the event that the statue still had consciousness, then this prospect
was probably most unwelcome.
“Meatol. The goddess of fertility, I believe.
By extension, she is also the goddess of mercantile prosperity,” recalled
Sieghart.
“Of course you would know that...” said
Nicola, looking up at Sieghart as she had stopped to breathe.
Out of fear of provoking the wrath of the
gods, Nicola had attempted to at least learn the basics of this world’s
mythology. But this did not include religious sculptures. They all looked the
same to her; she could not tell one from another. At times like these, she was
grateful for Sieghart’s needlessly powerful memory. Though now that he had
identified the goddess, Nicola could see that the statue held some kind of
grain to its chest.
Fertility and prosperity were the functions of
the goddess Meatol. These overlapped significantly with the kami Ukanomitama,
which was worshipped at Inari shrines throughout Japan. Given its direct
connection to the lives of common people, Meatol was a fairly major deity
herself.
Because of her prominence, there were
undoubtedly many temples dedicated to Meatol. The manor’s former master had
probably requested that the statue be transferred here from such a temple.
“Should you invite a god into your home, you
had better be willing to worship it to the very end. If you cannot do that,
then you had better make it up to the god...”
Though Nicola did not know whether the former
master of this estate was even still alive, she sighed as she thought of his
careless decision to run away in the night. She then rolled up her sleeves.
“All right. Shall we start by removing these
vines?” said Nicola.
“Yes, let’s do so,” said Sieghart and Alois.
The three divided themselves up to perform the
separate roles of cutting the vines and pulling them away. Bit by bit, they
eliminated the wisteria entangling the statue.
As Alois used the knife Nicola had concealed
in her bag to cut away the vines, he suddenly murmured, “You know, at the end
of the day, anyone could have removed these wisteria vines, couldn’t they?”
“True. I think anyone could manage this,
whether they had strange powers like Nica here,” said Sieghart, nodding in
agreement even as his hands worked.
Indeed, the goddess could have just as well
spirited away the boys who had come here to test their nerves, thought Nicola. However...
She then said, “It is not uncommon for those
taken in by a god to come unprepared to undertake such a task.” Nicola traced
the delicate clothing patterns carved into the statue with her fingers. “If the
goddess herself appeared with all her strength, that would be one thing, but
there is only a small part of her spirit here... If she invited people who do
not question their belief that there is nothing beyond our human realm, they
would probably never know why they were brought here. They would see nothing but
an inanimate object covered in vines and pay no mind to it.”
That was the reason the goddess had put her
hopes in Nicola and her friends, who had all been involved with beings beyond
the human realm before, and spirited them away to this world.
“So we’re at quite a big disadvantage, aren’t
we?” said Alois with a glance at Nicola while pouting discontentedly.
“Didn’t I tell you as much? That nothing could
be better than for you to live your life without getting involved with the
other side.”
Alois was silent for a moment and responded,
“I think I might finally understand what you and Sieg actually meant when you
said that.”
“Still, it’s too late now...” said Sieghart,
smiling wryly.
Nicola slumped her shoulders, and the three
continued working in silence after this exchange. It did not take them long to
remove all the vines that they could reach with the knife.
8
“I think we’re just about done.” After cutting
away the last vine tangled around the statue, Sieghart rose to his feet. Thick
vines still wound around the pedestal on which the statue stood, but cutting
these would have involved a considerable amount of labor. If they wanted to
remove these, exchanging the knife for something like an axe would probably
have made the process quicker.
At the very least, they had cut away the vines
tangled around the statue and brushed the dust off it. It was so much cleaner
that it was almost recognizable, so Nicola hoped the goddess would let them off
at this point.
To represent the blessings of the earth,
Nicola brought sweets made from fruits and grains as her offerings to the
goddess. After placing these on the pedestal, she poured wine on the
surrounding ground. Once this was done, Nicola noticed that her bag felt much
lighter as they had used up most of its contents.
“All that’s left to do is to have someone from
a temple come and take this statue back with them.”
“Well, a member of the student council is the
son of a priest. I’ll tell him about it,” offered Sieghart.
“Please do,” said Nicola, accepting Sieghart’s
offer without hesitation, as she could finally relax. As she began to stretch
to relieve the fatigue of the labor she had just helped perform, she suddenly
realized that she could hear Ernst’s voice. He had been searching for them this
whole time and calling out to them. It appeared that the goddess had returned
the group to their original space and time, satisfied with their offerings.
The voice calling out to them steadily grew in
volume and clarity. Ernst was getting nearer to them.
“Your Highness! Your Grace! Where might you
be?! Miss Weber! Where are you?!”
“Hey, Ern! We’re at the back of the first
floor! In the greenhouse connected to the mansion!” exclaimed Alois.
“Your Highness!” screamed Ernst. At the sound
of his thundering footsteps, the three members of their party who had made it
into the mansion exchanged glances and shrugged. It looked like it would be
better to simply wait for Ernst to catch up rather than rush to meet him.
“Still, it’s strange,” murmured Sieghart as
the three decided to at least step outside the greenhouse. Nicola overheard him
and looked over her shoulder at him.
“What’s strange?”
After noticing that Sieghart was staring back
thoughtfully at the statue, Nicola suddenly looked quite perplexed.
“Well, I mean, the master of this manor was a
count, right? I was thinking that it’s rare for a nobleman to worship the
goddess of commerce.”
“You’re right, it is.” Now that Sieghart had
mentioned it, Nicola realized it was remarkable. She could understand why
farmers and merchants worshipped the goddess of fertility, but it was very
peculiar for an aristocrat to do the same thing.
Alois did not seem to share their confusion.
After walking up to a corner of the greenhouse, he looked down at several
rotting wooden boxes that sat there before speaking up.
“I could be wrong, but I think that he really
wished for his business to prosper.”
Nicola and Sieghart approached the same corner
and peered down at the wooden boxes that black mold had eaten away. There were
roughly thirty of them, lying toppled in a pitiful heap on the floor. On closer
inspection, there was a wooden frame fitted inside each box. After slowly
pulling the frame out of one of the boxes, Nicola noticed it was made up of a
regular pattern of hexagons.
“Is this...?”
“A beehive?” Nicola turned to look at
Sieghart.
“Yeah. It looks like the master of this house
tried keeping bees inside this greenhouse. He intended to raise money before he
fled in the night to escape his debts. I remember reading something about that
in the ledgers and diaries I found in his study,” explained Alois. Despite his
earlier freak-out, it seemed that he had carried out a fairly sensible
investigation until Nicola and Sieghart arrived.
“I see,” murmured Nicola.
In this world, people often enjoyed honey
spread on scones or stirred into tea. Though it was something of a luxury item,
there was still plenty of demand for it. On top of that, beeswax was a
versatile substance when processed and had applications as varied as sealing
wax, candles, flooring wax, and even the manufacture of cosmetics like
lipstick. Beekeeping must have seemed like a genuine possibility when the
master considered how to recover the financial stability of his declining
household. In the end, it appeared the count had been unsuccessful in this
attempt and had genuinely struggled to make a living until the night he fled.
Upon further examination, the floor was
scattered with what looked like bee wings. Nicola’s thoughts took on a somewhat
mournful perspective.
The bees would have been fine even after the
count fled... As long as flowers still bloomed inside the greenhouse, that
is... But without someone around to water them, the flowers eventually
withered and died. Of course, after that, the bees, confined to this glass
greenhouse, began to starve.
The moment Nicola realized this, she felt the blood
suddenly drain out of her face. She stood rooted to the spot.
Bees are related to wasps and hornets. Like the
hornet, they possess a venom that can induce anaphylactic shock, albeit in
smaller quantities. A vast number of these venomous insects were trapped in
this greenhouse’s confined space. Assuming they killed and cannibalized each
other, there could only have been one result...
If her thinking was correct, Nicola finally
had an explanation for that feeling of terror that had chilled her to her very
core a few years ago. But even if she was right, the source of that terror was
no longer within these ruins. This left her with the question: why had it left?
She thought she could confirm whether the bees
had eaten each other by taking the remains of one of them and looking closely
at its abdomen. However, nature must have already done its work by decomposing
the bees’ remains. Besides the wings scattered on the floor, Nicola could find
no trace of them. There was, therefore, no way for her to test her hypothesis.
“Your Highness! Are you all right?”
The formerly stylish door to the greenhouse
suddenly swung open with such force that its hinges finally reached the end of
their lives.
Ernst bounded into the room like an enormous
dog before immediately rushing over to Alois to ensure that the prince had not
been hurt in any way. He then bowed in Sieghart’s direction.
“I am relieved to find that you also appear to
be unhurt, Your Grace. However, I must apologize for my impatience in saying
this... If we do not return to our dormitories at once, we will break our
curfew.”
“This is bad!”
“No way! I’m sure we entered the ruins this
afternoon.”
Nicola shook her head at Alois and Sieghart
and said, “I told you, that’s how being spirited away works. Incidentally,
Ernst, how long do we have until our curfew?”
“Fifteen minutes!”
“Huh...? Eh? Only fifteen minutes?” It was
Nicola’s turn to look foolish as her mouth hung open in disbelief.
All four of them rushed through the broken
door to the greenhouse, then through the corridor leading to the mansion’s
entrance.
“Did you say fifteen minutes? If we run as
fast as we can, I think we can make it, but with her legs, that’s absolutely
impossible for Nicola!” cried Sieghart.
“Your Grace! If I run while carrying her, I
think we can still make it in time!”
At first, Nicola had no words with which to
respond to this. Like the other three, she ran toward the service door through
which they had entered the mansion, but she could only watch helplessly as the
boys far outpaced her. She decided she was willing to make a sacrifice in order
to get home in time.
“Please carry me...”
They ran through the corridor, the kitchen,
and out the service door. Looking up at the sky, they could see that dusk was
fast approaching.
Once they passed the iron fence that
surrounded the manor, Nicola quickly found herself carried atop Ernst’s
shoulders. She felt like the daughter of a wealthy merchant, suddenly kidnapped
by bandits.
Ernst lifted Nicola with no apparent effort
and continued to run without slowing down in the slightest. This was quite a
shock to Nicola, who felt her eyes roll back in her head. She was subjected to
a regular rocking motion as Ernst ran more than twice as fast as she possibly
could. Once she became accustomed to this, she glanced back at the ruins as
they receded into the horizon.
The wisteria vines that tangled together as
they grew toward the heavens seemed to utterly envelop and confine that place.
Nicola’s Little Occult Lectures: Lesson 4
God
The very act of thinking gives an image form,
or what we call imagination. In mythology, gods are given names and
personalities. People then create sculptures and paintings that establish a
common understanding of a god’s outward appearance. The very words “The gods
exist” could be said to form an incantation that makes them real.
People’s prayers for protection from nature’s
formidable threats, which are beyond human understanding, are the foundation
for their faith in gods. With origins like this, it is all too common for
irrationality to be at the very core of a god’s identity... In most cases, the
gods are more than the average human can handle.
Chapter 5: If You Curse Someone, Dig Three, Four Graves
1
“I feel like you might be bringing me a few
too many pieces of unfortunate business lately,” said Nicola. This was after
she and her schoolmates had somehow just barely made it back before curfew,
following their tour of the ruins where Alois had been spirited away.
Hiding in a blind spot between the boys’ and
girls’ dormitory buildings, Nicola stood with her arms folded, making no
attempt to conceal her displeasure. In front of her were three young men who
had just finished sprinting as fast as their legs could carry them for fifteen
minutes straight—one of them with an added burden named Nicola. They were all
understandably quite out of breath and needed to lean against a wall to remain
standing.
One of them possessed a beauty bordering on
the sublime; another had sweeter, boyish looks; and the last was more ruggedly
handsome.
The sight of these young men in their abundant
variety, breathing heavily, with their cheeks all flushed and their eyes
watering somewhat, was a very tempting sight for Nicola. However, though they
resembled an oil painting, there was something that she desired more
desperately at this moment—some tranquil time to herself.
In this world, Nicola was not a professional
exorcist or any other kind of professional. She was a mere first-year student
at this academy. Why should she have to persist in doing this miserable work
for free, dealing with beings from beyond the human realm? An exorcist was
supposed to be able to demand generous compensation to make up for the danger
involved.
But when it came to helping Sieghart—and now
Alois—she was a complete volunteer. If they continued to ask her for help as
frequently as this, she would be unable to keep up with her studies.
In fact, the assignment Nicola had been given
for that weekend still rested on the desk in her room, completely untouched.
She believed she was entirely justified in her feeling of discontentment.
“Please give me some time to myself. Do not
bother me with any pointless complaints. If you have a genuine problem, but it
is only a small one, please just be patient for the time being. All right?”
After Nicola finished getting this off her chest, inviting no objections,
Sieghart and Alois reluctantly nodded.
“Got it,” they said.
Only Ernst was completely silent, but Nicola
thought there was no chance of him coming to her with concerns about the
supernatural anyway, so she did not mind.
“Well then, everyone. I bid you adieu,” said
Nicola. Then, after giving them a deliberately abrupt curtsy, she headed
straight to the girls’ dormitory.
Once back in her room, Nicola could not help
but notice the untouched weekend assignment sitting on her desk. She slowly
turned her gaze away from it, then sat in silence for ten seconds.
After taking off her dusty clothes and
throwing them in a messy pile on the floor, she immediately collapsed onto her
bed.
“Just a quick nap... Surely I can at least
take a nap...” Though Nicola marveled at her lack of stamina, no one was around
to criticize her for making excuses. In no time at all, she fell into a deep
sleep.
◆◆◆
Now that I think back on it, the nightmares
had most likely already started at that time.
Though they were unpleasant enough that I
nearly leaped out of bed upon waking up each time, I could not remember any
details of them at first.
Only when I rolled up the sleeves of my
pajamas could I see that sweat covered my arms and the downy hair on them
glistened gold in the moonlight.
2
Nicola’s eyelids trembled as a bright light
roused her from her sleep. After half opening her eyes, she realized the rays
of the morning sun streamed into her room through a gap in the curtains.
“Ah, it looks like I messed up,” she murmured,
hardly able to believe what was happening to her. Though she had only intended
to take a nap, it appeared that she’d slept soundly through to morning.
Nicola glanced at the clock, then at the
assignment on which she had yet to make any progress, before sighing heavily.
The hands on the clock told her that she still had plenty of time to complete
her morning routine before attending her first class of the day. However, there
was decidedly not enough time for her to complete her assignment.
After stretching her arms far above her head
and groaning as she fully awakened, she quickly bathed while thinking of an
excuse to tell her teacher.
Despite filling the tub with hot water as
quickly as she could, Nicola could tell that it would go cold before she had
filled it all the way, even though it was still only autumn. In a state of
half-desperation, she took a quick dip in the lukewarm bath and returned to her
room freezing. When she looked at her desk again, she noticed Gemini rolling
around on top of it.
“Ah, welcome back. Thank you for your work
over the past couple of days.”
Gemini performed a little hop of pleasure when
Nicola praised it for its work in impersonating Alois. It then rolled across
the letters of the ouija board that still lay open on the desk. Nicola quickly
leaned across the desk to make out the message Gemini spelled out.
CHECK UNDER THE DOOR
THERE IS A LETTER
Just as Gemini instructed, Nicola turned
around to look at the door to her room. A piece of paper was indeed lying on
the floor beside it. After picking it up, she found that calling it a letter
might have been too generous. It was far simpler and rougher than the letters
Nicola was used to, being nothing more than a sheet of notepaper torn out of an
exercise book and folded in half. She opened the note, then involuntarily
whistled in surprise at its contents.
“Wow.”
It read:
I sincerely hope that misfortune befalls you.
Nicola could only smirk at the formality
present in this piece of hate mail. It was so overly formal that it took her
back to her past life.
“Gemini, did you see who delivered this?”
Nicola looked back at the desk as Gemini bounced over to the word NO on the
ouija board.
“I see. Well, whatever.”
As Nicola dismissed the letter as nothing more
than a childish prank, not even amounting to a curse, she folded it up again.
If thinking could make one ill, it could also
make a curse come true. Humans were such clever creatures that they could even
die simply because of overthinking things.
Less severe curses were only activated once
the cursed individual began to think, “Someone has cursed me.” The very notion
that one had been cursed would eventually harm one’s health, which would
naturally lead to further misfortune.
They had a saying in Japan: “If you are going
to curse someone, dig two graves.” However, this was the kind of curse that
might never even be activated. Everything depended on the state of mind of the
one who was cursed, so any rebound effect on the one who’d made it would also
vary. Really, it was mere child’s play, far from what Nicola would deem a
curse.
As she knew it was just a gimmick, there was
no chance of this working on Nicola. Therefore, she had little interest in
determining who the culprit was.
Though she no longer felt tired, Nicola yawned
as she changed into her uniform. With more time to spare than usual, she
strolled to her classroom in a leisurely fashion.
Although... Nicola thought. Though she might not have felt like trying to find the
culprit earlier that morning, feelings could be fickle.
“After thinking about it, I’m actually pretty
angry,” she muttered, frowning while ignoring the last lesson she had that
morning.
When she really thought about it, it was quite
unnerving to have someone unknown and unseen wish her misfortune. Although the
curse was not active, whoever had sent that letter had succeeded in offending
Nicola.
“Hey, Nicola. Do you want to get told off for
talking in class? You’re already in the teacher’s bad books for failing to get
that assignment done,” said Karin.
“Well, the teacher was pretty sarcastic about
it. I can understand how she feels,” replied Elsa.
Luckily, since this lesson was being held in a
lecture hall with students from several classes, Nicola’s mutterings were not
overheard throughout the room. It seemed, however, that her immediate neighbors
had heard her perfectly.
Karin and Elsa, sitting on either side of
Nicola, apparently thought she was directing her anger at the teacher, so they
did their best to comfort her. None of this surprised Nicola.
After giving her teacher the excuse that she
had fallen ill over the weekend and failed to finish her assignment, she was
subjected to some nasty remarks in front of everyone at the start of the class.
On top of that, it was not as if the assignment had gone away. She had merely
managed to extend the deadline to tomorrow.
Internally, Nicola seethed with irritation at
the teacher’s unnecessary level of nastiness. It was not as if she had simply
squandered her weekend. This was added to her discomfort at someone unknown
wishing misfortune upon her, the two injustices swirling together in a vortex
of negative feelings. She was on the verge of turning nasty herself.
“You’re too cute to keep pouting like that,
you know?” said Karin.
“Hey, was that sarcasm?” Nicola was so on edge
that she snapped at her friend for these well-meaning, if empty, words of
flattery.
“My, no. You are always putting yourself down,
Nicola, but your facial features themselves are really not too bad. I think you
would look lovely with a bit of makeup.”
“Yes, yes. But despite that, you won’t wear
makeup at all. Hey, are you trying to look unfashionable on purpose?” agreed
Elsa.
With two girls who were definitively cuter
than her staring intently at her face, Nicola edged back as far as she could in
her narrow seat. She would have liked nothing better than for the two girls to
be told off for whispering to her during class, putting an end to their
chitchat. Regrettably, as their group was near the back of the lecture hall,
the teacher had not noticed their behavior. Nicola cowered as Karin and Elsa
leaned toward her.
It was probably fair to say that Nicola’s
looks were only very middle-of-the-road. Her features were not so fatally
misshapen to not be amenable to some trickery. A plain face like hers really
could look quite a bit better with makeup. Having worn makeup every single day
in her past life, she knew this all too well.
Nothing Nicola knew required more experience
and familiarity than applying makeup. Of course, there was a vast difference in
the results she had achieved as a teenager in her past life, when she had only
just started wearing makeup, versus what she had achieved in her twenties when
she knew very well what would and would not suit her.
But in essence, wearing makeup would do
nothing more than make her look slightly more refined. Her two friends had hit
the nail on the head. By deliberately remaining unfashionable, she could
continue to look common.
“That’s not true at all,” Nicola said in a
complete monotone voice. The other two girls looked at her reproachfully, so
she decided she could only stare off into the distance while she waited for
them to stop.
Nicola hoped, however, that no one would
observe her speaking to what appeared to be an empty space. If anyone saw that,
it would surely be difficult for that person to continue to think of Nicola as
common. The fact that, without makeup, Nicola was neither pretty nor ugly was
actually quite convenient in that way.
With perfect timing, the school bell rang at
the end of the class. Feeling fortunate, Nicola rapidly gathered her textbooks
and rose to her feet.
“Look, I’m really hungry. How about we head
straight to the dining hall?” suggested Nicola.
“Ah, Nicola, you’re always changing the
subject!” remarked Karin.
“Let us give you a makeover this weekend,”
said Elsa.
“No thanks,” responded Nicola.
The three girls allowed themselves to be
carried out of the classroom by the wave of students clamoring behind them.
After walking through the hallway for a little while, they heard a shrill voice
cry out somewhere ahead of them, prompting them to look at each other. The
shrieking spread among the crowd in a domino effect, eventually making its way
back to the three girls.
Karin, who stood on her tiptoes with her head
above the crowd to better see the front, looked back at her friends with an
innocent smile.
“If we wait just a little longer, it looks
like we’ll get to walk past the Silver Lord!” reported Karin to the other two
girls. It seemed that she was as loyal to the Sieghart bandwagon as ever.
It was just as Karin said. It took almost no
time at all for Sieghart to appear in front of them on the other side of the
hallway. Today, as always, his noble visage—which was so gorgeous that it could
conceivably even tip the balance of the entire kingdom—appeared to be in
outstanding condition.
Nicola could not see Alois or Ernst walking
beside Sieghart. In their place was a flock of over ten female students
surrounding Sieghart as he walked toward Nicola’s group.
Although it should have been difficult for
both Sieghart and the young ladies to walk in this fashion, they all maintained
it with composure, never once breaking formation. Nicola could not help but be
a bit impressed.
The girls surrounding Sieghart were most
surely eligible young maidens from the most respectable families in the
kingdom. Their flock also boasted a variety of hair colors, hairstyles, and
facial features.
What they had in common was that had they been
born in the world of Nicola’s past life, their looks would have placed them in
a sufficiently high percentile to become television announcers.
But Sieghart simply wore a smile that,
although exquisite, was clearly manufactured, worn like a mask to humor the
young ladies. He was polite but remained an island that they would never reach.
He did not, however, even so much as glance at
Nicola as he walked by her. As to why this was, Sieghart was simply respecting
Nicola’s desire that he should never give off the slightest hint of their
connection in front of regular students. He had never once done so since Nicola
had arrived at the academy.
Sieghart only ever approached Nicola after
first checking thoroughly to make sure no one else was around. Nicola always
trusted her childhood friend to take these measures because she had faith in
his commitment to their agreement. That was the only reason she was remotely
willing to tolerate how he sometimes bounded toward her like an oversized dog,
even at school.
With the exception of Alois—who was probably
Sieghart’s most trusted friend—only Ernst, his retainer, and Olivia, Alois’s
fiancée and Sieghart’s fellow student council member, knew of their
relationship. So Sieghart had never once broken his promise to Nicola on any
occasion.
In the end, Nicola and Sieghart passed each
other in the hall without their eyes meeting once, and he just walked away
until he was out of sight. From members of the crowd in front of and behind
Nicola, she could hear sighs to the effect of, “His look of melancholy is
especially lovely,” and “His clouded countenance is truly captivating.” This
was all enough to prompt Nicola to cast her eyes down slightly. She could not
help but feel a little sympathy for her childhood friend when the girls who
crowded him interpreted his stone wall of a smile, which had almost no
expression, in such a manner.
Sieghart’s external advantages—his outward
beauty and demeanor, which accentuated his charm to its fullest—were all
nothing more than a suit of armor to him. What lay underneath was a boy who, in
private, acted very much his age.
As a result of years of unwanted affection and
malice born of that affection once spurned, he acted mature beyond his years in
public. But he behaved more childishly than he really ought to and was his true
self in front of those he felt comfortable around. Having grown up alongside
Sieghart and observing the unfortunate circumstances under which he had matured
firsthand, Nicola struggled to clearly reject his affections.
Despite this, she did not reciprocate them
either and was also aware that her personality was quite flawed.
“You know, the Silver Lord doesn’t have a
fiancée yet, does he? I really envy whoever gets to marry such a gorgeous man,”
said Karin while blushing.
In response, Elsa followed up with a blunt
remark, “Really? As a piece of artwork, I do think he’s beautiful, but I would
never want to be by his side. Don’t you find the very thought of being placed alongside
a face as beautiful as his unbearable?”
After hearing Elsa say this, Nicola nodded
violently, as if shaking the idle thoughts from her head.
“It totally is, for real.”
“Totally?”
“For real?”
While the two other girls racked their brains
to process these unfamiliar phrases, Nicola ignored them and proceeded
absentmindedly toward the dining hall.
◆◆◆
There was a spider.
It was about the same size as the palm of my
hand. I rarely saw somewhat large spiders like that in my dormitory or around
the school building. But I came across them once in a while in a setting
surrounded by nature, like the royal village.
Compared to the average person, I have never
particularly liked or disliked bugs. For some reason, I really did not wish to
get anywhere near this spider and I turned around to walk away.
After glancing back over my shoulder, I saw
the spider seemingly crawl straight toward me. The very moment I was overcome
with an indescribable feeling of dread, I was already awake.
When I shifted in my bed, a cold breeze from
outside made its way through a gap in my pajamas, causing me to shudder. I
seemed to have become drenched in sweat without even realizing it. I looked at
my bedside clock and found it was not yet morning. After lying back down to try
and go back to sleep, sleep soon enveloped me once more.
Once my dreams returned, so did the
spider—this time at twice the size.
3
Perhaps because her weekend had not felt
restful in the slightest, or perhaps because this week had just started, Nicola
paid little attention to her afternoon classes that day as well. She spent the
remainder of her day in a daze.
Once her final lesson had finished, Nicola
chatted with her friends after school before having dinner and taking a bath.
She ended the day still in a stupor, her head somehow not clear enough to work
on her assignment, whose deadline had only been extended to tomorrow.
She instead worked on routine mathematics
problems, sluggishly dragging her fountain pen across the pages of her
notebook. It was not as if she had to give this homework much thought, but from
time to time she folded her arms and gazed vacantly up at the ceiling or rested
her arms on her desk.
The deep indigo fountain pen her childhood
friend had given her fit her hand perfectly, as one might have expected from a
product of such high quality. As she twirled it around with her fingers, a
flash of silver appeared in the back of her mind, as much as she tried to
suppress those thoughts.
Nicola remembered the scene from that
afternoon.
Just as the girls around him had said,
Sieghart did not have a fiancée just yet. Unlike Nicola, who had only just
started at the academy that year, this was Sieghart’s last year. Graduation was
on the horizon, so his days of freedom to put off choosing a fiancée would soon
come to an end. Though he probably wished he could forsake this duty, this was
the time to pick his prospective wife.
For a fiancée, Nicola thought he might as well
pick freely from the flock of girls with television announcer looks who had
surrounded him that very day or any other daughter of an aristocrat he fancied.
Sieghart had the good fortune of choosing his
bride, so he should cease chasing after this surly girl who was not even cute.
He should just hurry and get engaged to a beautiful young lady from a suitable
lineage. Nicola could not help but feel this way.
But if Sieghart found himself a fiancée, it
would certainly be difficult for Nicola to protect him in the way she always
had.
Nicola would also have difficulty giving
Sieghart her handcrafted amulets once he had a fiancée. Any potential bride he
found would most certainly frown at the sight of her fiancé carrying a handmade
gift from another woman.
Nicola had given Sieghart a shikigami that
would automatically activate if he ever found himself in mortal danger. Should
it ever appear in front of his fiancée with Nicola’s face, Sieghart would not
know where to look.
That could not happen. From the perspective of
Sieghart’s unknown future fiancée, the shikigami would seem like nothing more
than an intruder ruining one of their dates.
“Really, what am I to do...?”
The drawn-out, ambiguous relationship that
Nicola and Sieghart had continued until this point would have to definitively
change its nature fairly soon.
Gemini, who today had taken the shape of
something like a triangular building block, tumbled across Nicola’s desk,
clearly hoping to be given something to do. As Nicola gently patted her
familiar to comfort it, a knock came at the door of her room. Tap, tap.
Nicola turned around to face the door,
wondering who it could possibly be at this hour. The clock hanging on the wall
caught her eye. The hands would soon point to two o’clock in the morning. In
the Japanese tradition Nicola was familiar with from her past life, this was
considered the witching hour.
Certain that she had not arranged for anyone
to visit her room so late at night, Nicola racked her brains for an
explanation.
Tap, tap, knocked the visitor again, more forcefully this time. A thought
suddenly occurred to Nicola, and she approached the door.
Just to be sure, without opening the door, she
knocked back four times from inside. Tap, tap, tap, tap.
Two knocks responded once more. Tap, tap. Nicola
frowned; this confirmed her suspicions.
The knocking seemed to come from a spot at a
height that was surprisingly close to Nicola’s feet.
That was not all. Compared to the rather muted
sound that Nicola’s knuckles would produce when knocking on a door, this sound
was somehow more rigid in quality.
If she had to compare it to something, it was
almost like the sound of someone tapping a piece of pottery.
“Gemini, go around the door from outside and
see what’s there.”
After twirling atop the desk, Gemini’s form
changed from a triangular block to its pigeon form. Nicola opened the window
for it.
Nicola’s room was situated in a corner of her
building. Where the corridor to her room ended, there was a window. If Gemini
peered in through that window, it should be able to tell her whatever was
standing outside her door.
It was not long before Nicola welcomed the
pigeon back into her room. After shaking off its pigeon form, Gemini hopped
onto the ouija board.
A DOLL
“Seriously?” Nicola then muttered, “Gimme a
break.”
Judging from the rigid sound that was almost
like tapping on porcelain, it was probably something like a bisque doll.
Come to think of it... Nicola recalled the malicious letter she had received in the
morning. Looks like I’ll have to deal with that now,
she thought with a scowl.
“Hey, about that doll. Do you think it can
open the door by itself?”
Gemini spun atop the word NO on the ouija
board.
“Really? Right then, we’ll leave it alone for
today. I don’t have time to be dealing with anything like that right now.”
She recalled that the assignment that was
mostly made up of blank pages still sat atop her desk. The thought of it made
her head hurt.
Nicola could hear the doll scratching at the
door coming from behind. Scritch scratch scritch scratch
scritch scratch scritch. She did not bother turning around again.
“Shut up. I’ll play with you tomorrow, so be
quiet for now,” said Nicola, resolving to ignore the doll completely.
◆◆◆
Without fail, each time I slept, the spider
appeared once more at twice its previous size and chased after me again.
Thinking that bad dreams do sometimes recur, I
did not consider this further and foolishly went back to sleep several times
the first night it happened. By now, the spider was already as large as an
average dog. It crawled much faster than before.
As I fled as fast as my legs could carry me, I
heard it coming after me, its claws scratching against the cobblestones. Snick-snack-snick-snack-snick-snack. The sound made me feel
sick. I was frightened, disconcerted out of my mind.
I woke up struggling to breathe.
My heart pounded violently in my chest. Sweat
poured down my entire body, soaking through my pajamas.
My heart truly sank when I thought to myself
that the next time I slept, the spider would be twice as large again.
4
After school the next day, Nicola wandered
around the area behind the school building.
“Our ancestors once said: Most matters can be
settled with fire... Kidding.”
With supernatural beings like this, burning
them was usually the best solution.
In search of a place to build a fire, Nicola
had come to a place where she could be sure no one would see her. She also
wanted to hide what she had burned afterward and be fairly confident that the
fire would not spread.
But there were not many places at the school
that fulfilled those requirements. People frequented most places without
vegetation that might cause a fire to spread. The inverse was also true, which
meant that meeting every precondition was surprisingly difficult.
“Mrow...”
Looking over her shoulder, Nicola saw the
brown tabby cat that had hissed at her during her recent tea party with Olivia.
Her gaze snapped in line with that of the cat.
Nicola slowly approached the cat, which was
sitting under a gazebo not two meters away with its legs and tail tucked
underneath its body. She knew it would hiss at her if she continued staring at
it, so she averted her gaze.
Once she was close enough to reach out and
stroke its fur, she waited for a moment to confirm that it would not run away.
Nicola decided to reach out and touch the cat, but the cat scratched her again
without mercy.
The cat stood up and let out a slightly
derisive “Mrow,” after glancing back in Nicola’s
direction, then scampered away.
Looking down at the three red lines running
across the back of her hand, Nicola sighed and muttered to herself, “I guess
there’s no use in trying anymore,” before letting her shoulders slump.
Cats hated Nicola as much as they would a
venomous serpent. In her past life, stray cats she had never met had often come
up to her of their own accord to seek her affection. She had been quite the cat
lover. However, circumstances had changed completely since she had been
reincarnated.
After letting her get close enough to touch
them, cats scratched her without fail once she actually reached out to do so.
She had only one guess as to the reason—the fact that her life had been offered
as a sacrifice in the transition from her previous world to this one.
She could still remember the smell of the
blood that she had choked up with her dying breaths, as well as another foul
stench that permeated the room. Even now, she sometimes saw her final moments
in her dreams, meaning her memory had not faded in the slightest.
“Probably... Whoever killed me used cat’s
blood as well...”
Nicola remembered the letters written in blood
on every surface of the room. It was a huge quantity of blood. Nicola’s killer
must have also killed a lot of cats to obtain it.
Cats had nine lives. This meant that they were
of great value to offer as sacrifices, so they were used in rituals to summon
demons here and there. Or so her mentor in her past life had told her.
“It’s so unfair. I was a victim too,” said
Nicola while pouting, but this changed nothing.
Now that she was marked with the smell of
blood their brethren had spilled, cats would most definitely never like her
again.
Still crouching by where the cat had been, she
gazed off in the direction in which it had fled.
As far as true cat lovers were concerned, just
the chance to be near their lauded masters was precious. Even if she could not
touch them, just looking at cats up close was still very restorative.
But then Nicola remembered that, at the tea
party the other day, the cat had hissed at her when she was five or six meters
away. She sighed and hung her head.
“Eh...? Uh... Huh? Hold on... No... No, no,
no, that can’t be right, can it?” muttered Nicola, opening her eyes wide as a
completely baseless bit of speculation suddenly occurred to her. “But, well,
come to think of it...”
Nicola felt as if she had seen the answer to a
mathematical formula in advance and was just now seeing the corresponding
formula.
Almost paradoxically, she could identify what
had been bothering her this entire time.
“Whoa... I don’t really want to know if I’m
right. But even if I am, what am I supposed to do about it? Yeah, forget about
it. That would be best.”
Nicola finally stood back up, her joints
popping as she stretched her body.
In the first place, I still haven’t found a place
to build a fire.
Thinking that if the gazebo area was no good,
then the western tower might be appropriate. Nicola set off in another
direction, only to be unlucky enough to bump into another person. The contents
of her school bag were scattered across the ground and she sighed deeply.
“Excuse me.” After apologizing properly,
Nicola looked up. It seemed that she had bumped into a young man walking at one
end of a group of several other male students.
“Ah, that’s all right,” said the young man,
picking up one of the textbooks that had fallen out of Nicola’s bag. Nicola
crouched down hurriedly to gather her study materials.
However, the young man ran his finger across
the spot inside the cover of Nicola’s textbook where she had written her name.
He then muttered the following, sounding like he had just discovered a new toy
to play with.
“Huh, you’re Nicola von Weber, are you?”
Nicola was confused. She was not so
conspicuous that a boy she had never met should know her name. An instinctive
feeling of dread overcame her once another shadow fell across her.
“Oh, so this is the girl?”
“She’s plainer than I thought she’d be.”
The shadows cast over Nicola grew rapidly in
number. She realized it would be a bad idea to look up now. As she backed away,
she saw a pair of leather shoes that were too well worn to belong to another
first-year student.
She realized that she must be dealing with a
group of senior students, though she still had no idea why they knew her name
or why they were bothering her.
After counting the feet on the ground, Nicola
saw that there were about four of them. One of them grabbed her arm and roughly
pulled her to her feet. The boy leaned down low before rudely peering at
Nicola’s face from below. His gaze then slowly fell, almost as if he were
dragging his eyes across Nicola’s body. Being examined by this young man’s eyes
made Nicola terribly uncomfortable. She frowned as her skin began to crawl.
“Hmmm. Looks like their taste in women sucks,
despite their standing.”
“Maybe she makes up for it with her
technique?”
“Now you’ve got me excited.”
“What do you think you’re doing walking around
here by yourself? You’re asking for it, aren’t you?”
There was not even the slightest shred of
refinement in the vulgar laughter that followed among the boys. From the way
they spoke, they either belonged to the merchant class that occupied the
downtown district or were sons of lower nobles. So Nicola thought to herself,
perhaps to escape from the horrid reality before her. And there was no sign of
the situation improving. Nicola bit her lower lip tightly.
“How about you play with us this time? Give us
your head.” The boys continued to cackle vulgarly.
Nicola was not so dense as to fail to
understand that by “play,” they were not referring to a game of checkers. She
was not about to feign innocence either.
“I am afraid that I cannot remove my head at
will, so I will not give it to you. Please ask someone else.” Nicola twisted
her body to shake off the hand grasping her arm, but it did not even budge. On
the contrary, the boy strengthened his grip further, causing Nicola to bite her
lip again from the pain. At that point, Nicola truly felt foolish for coming
here alone.
“What might you be doing?” said a sudden
frosty voice. Nicola’s assailant loosened his grip on her arm. Though the voice
had caused the boys to recoil, it was the most reassuring voice Nicola could
have heard.
“Didn’t you hear me? I asked you what you’re
doing here. Have you forgotten your words?” Even describing the voice as icy
would have made it sound lukewarm compared to the coldness it contained. As the
young man with the transcendently beautiful visage walked toward the young man,
the other boys backed away.
He wore a smile that was simply too gorgeous,
without a single flaw. With each step he took, the sense of power he exerted
over the boys only increased.
“Ah, uh...”
“Eh? Edelstein! Y-You’ve got the wrong idea!
The bitch tempted us first... Ah! Ah, wait, you’ve had your fun with her along
with Müller and the prince, haven’t you?! It’s our turn!” This boy, who seemed
to be the leader of the gang of four, babbled pathetically. Nicola still winced
upon hearing the uncomfortable contents of his imploration.
After hearing that, even Sieghart lost his
smile and was entirely expressionless. A blank face reminiscent of a Noh mask
replaced the cold smile he had donned for the sake of appearances. Not even
Nicola had ever seen him like this, and she felt a chill run down her spine.
“You seem to be laboring under a
misapprehension, so let me explain something. This young lady here, daughter of
Viscount Weber, is not the woman of loose conduct you have heard about in
rumors. Her half sister happens to work in the royal palace as a maid in
waiting for the crown prince. That sister fell ill the other day, so Miss Weber
and Alois looked after her together. Ernst attended as Alois’s bodyguard, and I
merely went to refer them to an able physician I know. Your rumors are
completely baseless.”
“Rumors...?” Ah, now I see,
thought Nicola, finally understanding. At the same time, she felt like tutting
at Sieghart. Nicola was an only child. The half sister Sieghart was talking
about did not exist.
But when Sieghart said, “the other day,”
Nicola could guess what had happened. She had been at the center of a vicious
rumor without even realizing it.
“When it comes to ‘free romance’ within the
academy, I think you can do what you like. But as student council president, I
can’t overlook an assault on a woman.” Sieghart glared at the boys with disdain
in his amethyst eyes. The male students took the full brunt of his glare and
cowered beneath it. “In the coming days, you will be dealt an appropriate
punishment. For today, you can simply be gone from my sight.”
Anger on the face of a beautiful man like
Sieghart seemed even more severe and fearsome. The gang of boys, overwhelmed by
his presence, finally clicked their tongues in frustration before leaving the
scene in a hurry, never once looking back over their shoulders.
Nicola, who had stopped breathing for a while
without realizing it, finally exhaled slowly and quietly. To hide the fact that
her hands were shaking, she thrust them behind her back and clenched them into
fists.
Once she could no longer see the male students
who had assaulted her, the tense atmosphere hanging over the scene finally
dissipated.
“Miss Weber. I would like to explain the
details of what just happened to you. May I have a moment of your time?” asked
Sieghart in a stiff, aloof voice.
“Very well,” was all Nicola could say in a
quiet manner.
After returning to the school building via the
nearest entrance, they went up the closest staircase. As they entered an empty
classroom on the second floor, Sieghart urged Nicola to sit down. She
immediately obliged.
“There were no applications to use rooms in
this building after school today, and since I’ve been asked to monitor the
halls this evening, I can assure you that there won’t be any other council
members on patrol. You can relax.” Despite having just stated that there was no
one else around to see them, Sieghart did not cling to Nicola like he usually
did.
Nicola took a moment to find her words and
said, “That day, when we managed to return just before curfew, somebody saw us,
right?”
Sieghart silently nodded in response. His
shapely eyebrows were knitted together in consternation.
“Yesterday and today, rumors of that sort
spread almost instantly throughout the boys’ dormitory. I was looking for you
today to tell you.” Sieghart kept the fine details of those rumors to himself,
but in broad terms, Nicola thought she had probably been called a floozy who
had Sieghart, Alois, and Ernst wrapped around her little finger. She recalled
what Anne had told her about what had happened to her. That was a case of a
fling between a boy and a girl of differing social ranks.
Without knowing it, Nicola had put a target on
her back as one such girl who “didn’t know her place” in such a romance. At
least she now knew why those jerks had bothered her.
“I’ve already made the rounds to squash those
rumors, but it would be better if we avoided attracting any more attention for
now. I’m really sorry.” With a clear spirit of deep repentance, Sieghart
repeated that apology over and over.
Nicola suddenly blurted out, “It wasn’t...your
fault, Sieghart. I was careless too.” In the case of Alois being spirited away,
Sieghart truly was without fault.
Besides, when they’d made it back just in time
for curfew, there were no students around as far as Nicola could see. They had
all conferred among themselves to make sure of that.
If someone had spotted them even after they
went to such great lengths, that person must have very keen eyes indeed. It
would not have been fair to only blame Sieghart and his friends for what
happened.
“It wasn’t...your fault, Sieghart. Please
raise your head.”
“Nicola...” Sieghart started to reach out
toward Nicola before quickly pulling back his hand. A shockingly awkward smile spread
across his face. “Sorry. I won’t touch you carelessly for a while... I saw how
your hands were shaking after what happened with those boys.”
But I hid them... He is
sharp. It was Nicola’s turn to smile awkwardly.
It was not as if she had particularly objected
to Sieghart touching her until now. She had only worried about someone else
seeing them, which could lead to trouble in the end. That was all.
Nicola reached for the hand Sieghart had
withdrawn with both of her own hands, gripping it tightly.
“Do I really need to tell you this?” Despite
herself, Nicola bit her lower lip once again, and her eyes wavered. “I know I
can trust you. So I’m not at all frightened.”
Nicola only said this because she could not
stand for Sieghart to lump himself with those uncouth, vulgar young men who had
assaulted her that day. She had no ulterior motive.
Sieghart’s silver hair brushed against her
cheek, falling over Nicola’s face, almost like a curtain. Silver suffused her
field of view.
In a slightly hoarser voice than usual,
Sieghart whispered from above Nicola’s head, “I only wish that...at that time,
I would have said, ‘What do you think you’re doing to my Nicola?’”
Sieghart gently embraced Nicola’s slender
frame, as if cradling something fragile.
“Hey, how about we quit the aristocracy and go
somewhere far away from here? We could grow apricots on the borders of your
father’s land. We could even offer shelter to Alois from time to time.”
Sieghart buried his face in Nicola’s shoulder,
happily talking about his dreams with a lovely voice that matched his gorgeous
looks.
“Without my social rank in the way, I can
protect you openly, Nicola. Whether it be a beast or bandit, I know I can
protect you from anything. And I will no longer have to walk home from fancy
balls covered in malicious spirits. It would definitely save you a lot of
work.”
Nicola knew that if she only nodded, things
would go off without a hitch. Her parents had been over the moon when they’d
seen Sieghart continue to pursue Nicola over the years. If she eloped with
Sieghart, she was sure that her parents would send them away with their
blessing.
The skilled and clever Sieghart would probably
have no trouble doing the work of a farmer. He would probably really stay by
Nicola’s side until his dying breath.
Yet Nicola did not nod in agreement because
she still lacked the resolve to go through with this dream of his.
“What you feel for me, Sieghart, is merely a
case of imprinting.” Nicola slowly turned her eyes away from Sieghart.
The reason Sieghart yearned so deeply for
Nicola was due to a case of early imprinting. She had thought about this for a
very long time. Just as a hatchling develops a bond with the first thing it
sees, by pure coincidence, Nicola had simply been the first person to save
Sieghart from his torment.
“Imprinting, you say. Perhaps in the first
place, that really was the case.” Sieghart showed no sign of being hurt by
Nicola’s comment. Instead, he smiled slightly as he gently caressed her cheek.
“But you know, Nicola. Human beings are not such simple animals as to hold on
to a mere imprint for ten years.”
Seeing Sieghart wistfully half-close his eyes,
Nicola drew her lips into a jagged grimace. When he saw this, he chuckled wryly
and pulled away from her.
Even so, Nicola did not feel prepared to join
Sieghart in his dream.
If it had not been for her, Sieghart might
well have spent his whole life as a nobleman. Nicola could still not bring
herself to take responsibility for interfering and changing someone’s entire
life.
◆◆◆
I thought that if I changed my pillow or the
place where I slept, the nightmares might end. With that thought in mind, I
submitted a request to spend a night outside the school. However, this did not
change anything.
The spider was now twice as big as the average
dog. I could no longer outrun it in a straight line, so I had no choice but to
force myself to dodge and weave as I ran away.
It’s going to catch me. That was the only thought in my head. As I fretted, I lost the
ability to think straight.
The harsh noise of its claws scraping against
the cobblestones was already behind me.
5
“There is something I would like you to help
me with,” Nicola eventually mumbled, her eyes darting from side to side. She
had spent the last few moments in Sieghart’s arms, turning red and cycling
through a myriad of awkward facial expressions.
These were not the words Sieghart had been
hoping to hear, but they still constituted a concession on Nicola’s part.
This was the greatest concession Nicola could
make for Sieghart, who had found himself unable to openly protect her even when
she was nearly assaulted. Nicola, who was opposed to relying on others, was
begging for Sieghart’s cooperation, involving him in her problems of her own
accord.
The fact that this alone was enough to delight
Sieghart—that his love for Nicola was such a weakness for him—actually
frightened her.
When Nicola told Sieghart that she had been
looking for a place to burn something discreetly and where it would be easy to
conceal the act, Sieghart suggested the garbage dump behind the western tower.
The garbage dump was an unassuming hut made of
bricks, and beside it was a furnace used for burning garbage. No weeds or trees
grew around it, and—even more importantly—the student council was in charge of
the key to its door. Nicola immediately decided to employ Sieghart’s
suggestion.
They elected to meet in the dead of night, at
2 a.m.
At the agreed-upon time, Sieghart slipped out
of his dormitory without a sound, wearing a hooded cloak.
He would have liked to walk to the meeting
place with a lantern in hand. But Sieghart realized this would be too
difficult, as he’d risk being discovered by the dormitory warden.
Luckily, the moon was bright that night,
though whenever he stepped into a building’s shadow, the darkness suddenly
deepened. Sieghart felt his way to the meeting place with one hand on the
nearest building. When he arrived at the garbage dump, he found Nicola was
already waiting for him and spoke.
“Did I keep you waiting?”
“No, I only just arrived myself. I see you
came wearing a cloak.”
“Well, my hair does tend to stand out...”
“I suppose it would.”
Sieghart’s silver locks strongly asserted
themselves even in the darkness of night. His hair certainly was not suited for
clandestine operations.
In stark contrast, there was no need to take
any measures to hide Nicola’s smooth, luscious black hair, which billowed
softly in the nighttime breeze.
“Let’s go,” said Nicola, taking Sieghart’s
hand and setting off.
For a while, they proceeded along the walls of
the buildings that led to their destination in silence. When the buildings came
to an end, they slipped between the gaps in the trees that followed. Finally,
they came to the main thoroughfare that led to the schoolhouse, and the light
of the moon poured down upon them once more. Having made it this far, they were
now in a blind spot when viewed from the dormitory buildings and were able to
breathe a sigh of relief.
Nicola stepped lightly across the cobblestone
path as if dancing beneath the shining moon. Her gait was as light as a cat’s,
showing how she seemed to be in a good mood.
“Autumn is very short, is it not? I like to go
walking this time of year when the weather is neither hot nor cold, but just
right. Look, the moon is lovely as well.”
“You’re right. It is a lovely full moon.”
With nothing to block out the moon, their
surroundings were so bright that they almost did not need a lantern.
“Sieghart. Please hurry up and find yourself a
fiancée,” muttered Nicola as she looked up at the moon.
“No way. I won’t have anyone but you, Nicola.”
“You cannot go on saying that forever, can
you? I will try to think of a way for me to go on protecting you in the way I
always have, so please hurry...” Nicola turned her gaze away from the moon
hanging directly overhead to stare straight through Sieghart with her deep
ocean blue eyes.
The moonlight seemed to twinkle as Nicola’s
eyes reflected it. Sieghart gently traced the outline of her eyes with his
fingers.
“What is your expression meant to tell me?”
Nicola hesitated for a moment. “My expression
isn’t meant to say anything.”
Sieghart did not find tears clinging to his
fingers. But he still wished to believe his subjective observation—that
something had caused Nicola’s eyes to moisten.
“Really... But whether I am to be engaged or
even married, I won’t have anyone but you.”
“You are so darn stubborn.” Nicola’s eyebrows
lowered very slightly. It was difficult to judge whether she felt troubled or
relieved.
Sieghart chuckled bitterly, wondering who the
stubborn one here really was.
“You know you have as many options as there
are stars in the sky,” she continued.
“The sky could grant me any star, and it would
mean nothing. After all, I already have my eye on the moon.”
“Who asked you to say something so witty?”
Sieghart just chuckled. After that, they both
fell silent.
They had had the same exchange many times
before. The outcome had been the same every time until now, so a resolution
certainly was not likely to appear out of the blue. They knew this all too
well, so the silence that followed was not especially tense.
Once they had both closed their mouths, their
attention turned to the sound of the undergrowth swaying in the cool night air
and crickets chirping.
After walking for a while with their ears
trained to these sounds of nature, Sieghart noticed another sound blended with
them. Realizing something was amiss, he stopped in his tracks.
Tap tap tap tap.
Scrape scrape scrape scrape.
The sound appeared to be footsteps, but they
were so faint that Sieghart had to strain his ears to avoid missing them.
Whatever was being dragged behind those footfalls grew steadily louder and
seemed to gradually draw closer.
“Nicola, I think I heard something.”
“Oh, it looks like our guest has finally made
an appearance.” Nicola turned to look behind her with a pleasant smile as if
she had been looking forward to this moment.
As if lured by Nicola’s enthusiasm, Sieghart
also turned around to see what stood there.
The tiny figure, which seemed out of
proportion with the broad thoroughfare they all stood upon, dragged behind it a
pair of rugged dressmaker’s shears that were as long as it was tall. With each
step it took, the blades of the scissors it carried rasped against the ground.
It stood just over ten meters away from Sieghart and Nicola.
“A-A doll is walking around...”
It looked to be about thirty centimeters in
height.
A patina of dust had rendered its hair
somewhat dull, but its blonde, curly hair still glittered dimly in the
moonlight. Its pallid face was smooth as porcelain and its large eyes never
blinked. Instead, they remained unnaturally wide open.
The hem of the deftly made bisque doll’s
wine-red dress, which was also dusty, swayed as it slowly walked toward
Sieghart and Nicola.
A creepy shadow fell across the doll’s face as
it bathed in the moonlight. Though the faint smile carved into its face should
not have changed, the corners of its mouth now curled upward in a foolish grin.
“I’ve... Found... You!”
Sieghart felt his throat close up as the
unnatural scene unfolded in front of him. He could not even scream. He
shuddered in terror as he felt a sensation like a cold hand running its fingers
down his spine.
When he came to his senses, the night air was
still. Nothing but dead silence surrounded the ground where they stood.
“Hey, Sieghart. I’d quite like to destroy or
capture this little one. It might be a bit hard to confront her here, so let us
move to the garbage dump at once,” said Nicola, pointing to the doll. She
seemed to think nothing of the abnormal scene before them. Her tone was so
casual that she might have been talking about tomorrow’s weather.
“How can you be so calm and collected?!”
Normally, dolls could not move by themselves.
Nor did they smirk devilishly or approach people holding deadly weapons. Seeing
how calm Nicola looked, Sieghart briefly wondered if it might be his sense of
normality that was wrong.
“I mean, well, she came to see me yesterday as
well. Since I couldn’t play with her then, it looks like she got angry and
decided to come armed this time,” said Nicola, ignoring the dumbfounded look on
Sieghart’s face for the time being. She then pursed her lips dejectedly and
muttered, “I couldn’t play yesterday. I had to finish my assignment... You
really are impatient.”
There was not a shred of tension behind these
words, which came straight out of left field as far as Sieghart was concerned.
He felt his sense of shock and terror fade away. His tensed muscles relaxed,
and he even managed to smile, though it was bitter.
Sieghart looked down at Nicola’s head, which
did not even reach his shoulder. Despite the fact that she had quaked in fear
when surrounded by strange boys, she did not exhibit the slightest hint of fear
when confronted with the kind of apparition that would make any normal person
shudder in terror. Sieghart saw how unbalanced his childhood friend really was.
Now that he thought about it, with Nicola by
his side, there was nothing he should fear in this world. In that case, it was
simply unnecessary for him to act frightened.
He had received a rare request for help from
Nicola. He knew he needed to do whatever he could to assist her. After taking a
deep breath, he took full command of his senses.
“Nicola, our objective is just around that
corner. You want to confront her in the storeroom, don’t you? Let’s run.”
Though Nicola was small, she was the only person who could rescue Sieghart from
his terror. He grabbed her dainty hand and ran.
Judging how fast he could run without
exhausting Nicola was one thing Sieghart was best at.
◆◆◆
The next time I slept, I knew it would be
twice as big and twice as fast. At that point, I was certain that it would
catch me.
And so I greeted the next day without having
slept a wink. As I returned to the academy by horse-drawn carriage, the regular
rocking motion caused my consciousness to fade away for an instant. The moment
I drifted off, I found myself being chased again.
I desperately ran back and forth to escape the
spider that was now the size of a lion, but I could already tell what the
outcome would be.
I awoke with a sharp pain in my arm and felt
the fabric of my sleeve clinging to it, wet with something. The fluid dripping
from the end of my sleeve was red. This left me with no choice but to accept
that whatever wounds I sustained in my dreams would be reflected in reality.
With the specter of death creeping upon me, my teeth began to chatter, the
sound clearly escaping from my lips.
Something welled up from inside my stomach,
but then I felt my throat close up. In the end, I only choked rather than
actually vomiting.
6
With Sieghart pulling her forward by her hand,
Nicola turned a corner to find the building she was looking for directly in
front of her.
The rubbish dump was an extremely simple hut
built out of bricks. Next to it was another brick structure that roughly looked
like an incinerator or a large kiln.
The academy probably had its garbage collected
and stored in the hut before incinerating it in the hearth next door. The
latter structure had a prominent chimney on top of it—even in the moonlight,
Nicola could see that soot covered it.
She also noted that the surrounding area was
uniquely free of any vegetation, even though there was a large pile of firewood
next to the furnace.
“Sieghart, would you like the use of a
weapon?”
“If my opponent has scissors, I guess I’d
rather not be unarmed. Let me borrow that.” After taking a comparatively long
and slender instrument in hand, Sieghart swung it lightly a few times to get
used to his weapon.
“Now then, let us wait inside the hut,” said
Nicola.
The hut’s interior differed in no way from
what one might imagine when looking at it from the outside. It was nothing but
a simple square space.
Perhaps some garbage had just been incinerated
that weekend, and that was why there was so little of it inside the hut. The
foul stench Nicola had prepared to speak of was not present either.
After they closed the door behind them, the
only light source was the moonlight peeking in through the skylight above them
and a small hole there for ventilation. Perhaps because it was a full moon that
night, it was not so dark that they could not see anything.
Nicola slapped a paper talisman that read
“ward off all evil” on the piece of firewood Sieghart was carrying before
handing him a second talisman that read “seal.”
“You can either destroy her limbs, head, and
torso or stick this slip of paper on her the first chance you get. I don’t mind
which method you use. I know it’s a little late to ask since I’ve already
involved you in this, but can I count on you?”
“Leave it to me,” said Sieghart with a
fearless smile. It was a far more pleasant smile than the one he always wore
around the academy, which made him look like a doll himself. He also looked
more like his own age. Nicola nodded in satisfaction.
Tap, tap. As expected, the knock on the door came from a height not too far
above their own feet.
Nicola grasped the doorknob and found a blind
spot behind the door that she could hide in once she had opened it. Sieghart
stood just off to the side of the doorway, holding his firewood in both hands.
After the two exchanged a glance, Nicola
yanked the door open. The moment she did so, the bisque doll leaped inside with
frightening speed, holding its shears in both hands. It moved to stab Sieghart
straight in the eyes with the blades of its scissors.
But with a swing of a piece of firewood,
Sieghart casually repelled the doll’s attack. Once the doll was slammed against
the wall of the hut, it rose to its feet again with surprising agility. It was
not like muscles or springs were at work beneath its porcelain exterior.
“Are you supposed to be Chucky or something?”
muttered Nicola, paying the doll a certain amount of respect.
The battle was not to be won in a dramatic
fashion as it would be in a movie. It would be decided so easily it was almost
disappointing.
Or at least, that is what Nicola had hoped.
From the moment the battle had begun, except for the initial strike at
Sieghart’s eyes, the doll had directed every swing of its dressmaker’s shears
at Nicola.
Sieghart should have beaten the doll, which
continued aiming its blades at Nicola, with his arms that were longer than the
doll’s by far. There should not have even been a contest.
After Sieghart had sent the doll flying with
his length of firewood a few times, the scissors fell out of its hands. That
very instant, Nicola kicked them away, then Sieghart slapped the talisman
reading “seal” directly onto the doll’s face.
The bisque doll’s arms and legs writhed one
last time before it fell totally still, as if something had snapped inside it.
“Thank you so much, Sieghart.”
“I’m glad I could be of service.” Sieghart
gave a happy, innocent smile. He had not even broken a sweat.
“Now, then...” What followed was in Nicola’s
wheelhouse. Seizing the bisque doll with one hand, it surprised her to find
that she stumbled as she tried to lift it. “Huh, wait a minute, this is heavy!”
Putting aside the fact that it was a bisque
doll—and therefore made of porcelain—it still had far more weight than Nicola
had imagined. Still, she found it difficult to lift with one hand as she had
puny muscles. After dragging the doll over to the brick furnace with both hands
and giving it a final, insincere, “I’m so sorry,” she grabbed its head firmly.
Nicola pulled on the doll’s head while
twisting it. After a few seconds, it popped right off. Standing beside Nicola,
Sieghart looked quite taken aback, but Nicola ignored him.
“What is this...?” Nicola wondered. Looking
down at the doll’s neck, she could see that it was stuffed full of wheat.
Grabbing the doll’s neck with one hand and its feet with the other, Nicola
turned the doll upside down and shook it. Following gravity, the wheat filling
inside the doll’s torso fell through the neck and to the ground, rustling as it
went. At the same time, the hem of the doll’s velvet dress flipped over its
head, revealing that someone had tied a red string around its waist. This made
Nicola think about a haramaki, a cloth band
traditionally worn around the waist for warmth in Japan.
Nicola’s expression stiffened as an unpleasant
sense of déjà vu suddenly came over her.
“Sieghart, could you bring me the shears the
doll was carrying?”
Sieghart did not need to be told twice. He
immediately handed Nicola the dressmaker’s shears, which she used to cut the
red string. It seemed that the doll’s torso had been broken, leaving a wide
hole open. The string had been wound around its waist to close up that hole.
The frown on Nicola’s face grew steadily
deeper.
“Is this some variant of Hide and Seek
Alone...?” Nicola muttered.
Hide and Seek Alone was an urban legend that
was popular in Japan in the 2000s. The rumor claimed that by playing hide and
seek with a doll that one had specially prepared, one could experience a
supernatural phenomenon. The legend spread like wildfire.
Nicola could not help but think that the state
this bisque doll was in resembled the preparations involved in Hide and Seek
Alone.
Step one: Give your plush doll a name.
Step two: Tear the doll in half and take out
any cotton or other stuffing you find inside.
Step three: Replace the cotton by stuffing it
with rice instead, along with your own nail clippings, hair trimmings, or
blood.
Step four: Sew the torn body back together
with red thread. Make sure to leave enough length in the thread to wrap around
the doll a few times.
These were the steps involved in preparing a
doll for Hide and Seek Alone.
Though Nicola could not tell whether this doll
had been given a name—and, being a porcelain doll, it would have been
impossible for the one who prepared it to sew it back together—there were
simply too many elements that reminded her of Hide and Seek Alone. Nicola said
nothing and frowned heavily. Although she had shaken all the wheat out of the
doll, it still rustled when she shook it.
Nicola gently reached inside the doll and
searched its contents once more. Her fingers touched something—a scrap of
paper. She pulled it out and unfolded it, only to gasp in shock.
It was a small but thick piece of parchment
that displayed a tiny portrait of a black-haired girl wearing the Royal
Academy’s uniform. When Nicola turned it over, she saw her name and date of
birth written there.
Life did not give one many opportunities to
have one’s portrait drawn on a piece of paper that could fit in the palm of
one’s hand. Nicola immediately recognized it as the portrait they had forced
her to sit for when she enrolled at the academy.
Sieghart gently cradled Nicola’s shoulders in
his arms.
“Who would do something so spiteful?” he
wondered.
Nicola could understand why Sieghart had
chosen the word “spiteful.” Her face in the portrait appeared to have been cut
to shreds with a knife.
She felt a slight chill go down her spine—the
intent to curse Nicola was far clearer here than it had been in the letter she
received praying for her misfortune. In all honesty, she was grateful for the
warmth Sieghart’s embrace provided. She took the hands resting on her shoulders
in her own hands and squeezed them tightly.
Nevertheless, she could not help but continue
to marvel at the intent behind the curse—it certainly was spiteful.
Nicola’s eyes wandered as she tried to find
just the right words to express the vague image that had emerged inside her
head.
“Well... How can I put it...? It’s not only
this or that detail, but... Right behind the nastiness, I feel a certain
stuffiness that reminds me of Japan... Something like that.” As she thought out
loud, her mind became clearer. Suddenly, she opened her eyes wide in
wonderment.
Putting a lid on the thought that had just
crossed the back of her mind for the time being, Nicola slapped her own cheeks
to rouse herself from her reverie.
“Right, let’s burn it. Burning it would be
best,” Nicola muttered, sounding rather like a firebug, before rising quickly
to her feet.
While issuing instructions to Sieghart, Nicola
piled up firewood in front of the furnace in a crosshatch pattern. What she
ended up with was the basis of a small campfire.
She laid the doll in the center of the
campfire before thrusting a branch that the school gardener had probably pruned
into it and lighting it with a match. In the blink of an eye, the fire blazed
aggressively.
“In all times and all places, fire has been
said to possess the powers of destruction and regeneration. It can also cleanse
the unclean and return it to a state of purity, I suppose.”
“Aaaah! Aaah! Aaaah! Aaaah! Aaah! Aaaah!
Aaaah! Aaah! Aaaah!” As the fire incinerated it, the doll in its death throes
let out a scream that did not sound like it belonged to anything in this world.
Nicola silently averted her eyes but felt no sympathy for the doll.
“I feel like I’ve just remembered something
from when I was little. Before I met you, Nicola, I remember dolls around me
often moved by themselves. But at some point, I simply forgot about it,”
Sieghart quietly murmured while gazing at the fire.
“By its nature, it is very easy to insert
one’s will into dolls. They have heads, they have limbs, and are typically
hollow on the inside. Even without putting an explicit curse on someone, like
in this case, it is not rare for dolls to start moving by themselves.”
“Nicola, by any chance, did you do something
about the bisque dolls that my little sister used to keep in our mansion?”
Nicola took a moment to respond. “Erm,
well...”
She recalled her first time visiting Edelstein
Manor. When she arrived, it was already on the verge of becoming an appalling
example of a haunted mansion. In horror, she cradled her head in her hands and
nearly fainted.
“I pulled the dolls’ heads off one by one and
stuffed them full of talismans.”
“So that’s why you pulled this doll’s head off
with such a practiced hand... I know this is belated, but thank you,” said
Sieghart, a smile breaking across his needlessly composed visage.
Nicola let out a sniff of disappointment upon
seeing Sieghart try to recompose his expression, which had melted to an almost
slovenly extent. Once again, she thought his smile just now had been preferable
to the unassailable, masklike smile he usually wore.
“Ah, come to think of it...” Nicola fished
around in her pockets for a moment before taking out the letter she had
received, the one that prayed for misfortune to befall her. She tossed the
scrap of paper on top of the dancing tongues of flame, which landed over the
doll—whose death cries had already ceased. The fire then singed it black,
starting around the edges, before disintegrating it completely.
“Sieghart, please promise me that you will
never curse anyone. If you are going to curse someone, you must dig two graves.
If you wish misfortune on another, that misfortune will return to you
undiminished. You cannot escape this principle.”
Sieghart was silent for a moment. “Does that
apply to the person who sent this doll to kill you?”
“In this case... I am afraid not,” replied
Nicola, shaking her head as she looked down at the dancing flames. “The
instigator has the penalty for inflicting a curse on another reflected on them
upon its fulfillment. This doll failed to harm me, so the curse remains
incomplete. Whoever cursed me will receive no penalty.”
“I see... I think it is a bit unfortunate that
someone who wished for your misfortune will not pay the price for their
actions. But I understand. I will never curse anyone.”
“Please keep that promise.” Though Nicola had
given Sieghart a firm warning, she was not especially worried about him. Due to
other people’s unrequited affection for him, he’d had to deal with their
negative emotions throughout his life, which had manifested as apparitions and
attacked him. Not only that, but even fairies and gods had even harassed him.
Nicola looked up at her childhood friend’s face out of the corner of her eye.
She knew very well that, despite all this
misfortune, Sieghart had never resented any of the people or other beings
responsible for it. He was simply too affable a person. And so Nicola believed
unconditionally that, having never held a grudge before, he would never curse
anyone in the future.
When Nicola’s attention returned to the
surrounding room, she noticed a few fairies happily flitting around the fire
she had built. As tiny scales fell from their wings over the flames, they
glittered beautifully in the air.
The sight of this gave Nicola the irresistible
urge to hold Sieghart’s hand, so she did and gripped it firmly. At first,
Sieghart opened his eyes wide and gasped, but then a childish twinkle appeared
in his eyes.
“Beautiful, aren’t they?” he said with a
smile.
◆◆◆
The next time I fall asleep, it might be my
last. So I thought as I lay restlessly in my bed before deciding I would be
less likely to fall asleep if I went for a midnight walk. I stumbled unsteadily
down the hall and slipped out of the dormitory.
7
When the doll had finished burning, Nicola and
Sieghart gathered the charred remains and threw them into the nearby furnace
before standing up to leave.
Now that the fire was out, they naturally felt
their surroundings turn somewhat chilly and headed back to their dormitories
much faster than they had come.
Along the way, Nicola became tired from
walking so quickly and her pace slackened again. When Sieghart offered to give
her a piggyback ride, she unexpectedly nodded in agreement. From how her
eyelids kept drooping, Sieghart could tell she was sleepy.
After lifting Nicola onto his back, Sieghart
draped the cloak he had brought over her. Perhaps thanks to this added warmth,
Sieghart soon heard Nicola breathing gently in her sleep and chuckled wryly to
himself.
Taking advantage of the fact that Nicola was asleep,
Sieghart slowed his pace, taking his time strolling along the cobblestone path.
With the peaceful sound of Nicola breathing in her sleep next to his ear,
walking along the deserted path on a moonlit night was more enjoyable than he
could have imagined.
Making up for his everyday lack of time with
Nicola, Sieghart walked along the thoroughfare without a care in the world.
Confident that no one else would have dared to
sneak out of their dormitory and go to the schoolhouse in the middle of the
night, Sieghart completely let down his guard.
By the time Sieghart and his fellow delinquent
were aware of each other’s presence, they were already close enough to make out
each other’s faces. Then their eyes met.
“Sieg...?”
“Alois...?”
The two boys blinked as they each saw a
familiar face beneath the moonlight. It still took a few seconds for them to
find their words once they had recognized one another. Alois was the first to
come to his senses.
“So the student council president likes to
walk at night—what kind of example is that? Having trouble sleeping, huh?” said
Alois in his normal jocular tone before chuckling to himself.
But even with the moon as his only light
source, Sieghart could clearly see the dark circles around Alois’s green eyes.
Sieghart narrowed his own eyes.
“You look to be having a hard time yourself.
Just how long have you gone without sleep?”
“Just a little while, I guess...”
“You don’t seem aware of this, so I think you
should know. Whenever you say ‘just a little,’ you really mean a heck of a lot.
Always.”
Alois took a moment to respond. “You might be
right about that.” Then, as if he had just realized something, Alois raised his
hands and admitted, “The truth is, I’m in trouble.”
Once his eyes fell on the bloodstained
bandages peeking out from under Alois’s sleeve, Sieghart gently shook Nicola,
who was still resting on his back, to wake her up.
After being lowered to the ground, still
bleary-eyed from her slumber, Nicola looked up at Sieghart, then slowly turned
her gaze toward Alois. Then she blinked a few times.
She then fell to her knees upon the
cobblestones before covering her face with her hands and wailing, “I thought I
told you. Yes, I definitely told you. I asked you not to come to me with any
more unfortunate business for a while... It’s only been three days. The moment
I take my eyes off of you...”
8
The unexpected late-night encounter between
the three friends occurred at 3:30 a.m. After this, they proceeded immediately
to Alois’s bedroom.
The dormitory warden’s patrols were most
frequent on weekends. On weekdays, the schedule was more lenient. This was even
more true today as it was smack-dab in the middle of the week.
While marveling at the fact that they had
sneaked into the boys’ dormitory with surprising ease—without crossing paths
with the warden—Nicola removed the hooded cloak she had borrowed from Sieghart
and returned it to its owner.
By the time they had made their way to the
dormitory building, Nicola and Sieghart already heard everything that had
happened to Alois over the past few days. Straight out of the mouth on his
ghostly pale face.
According to Alois, from the very night after
they had returned from the ruins outside the city, he had had the same
nightmare constantly. He dreamed about running for his life from a spider that
chased him—Nicola and Sieghart could not help but shudder.
The worst part about it was that each time he
awoke and slept again, the spider came back twice as big, then twice as big
again the next time. Of course, the speed at which it pursued Alois was also
proportional to its size.
Though only three days had passed since the
nightmares began, the spider was already the size of a lion. Naturally, the
next time Alois slept, it would be twice that size. And its speed would be
astonishing even when compared with the brown huntsman spiders found in
Japanese homes. Simply put, the past three days had been hell for Alois.
Nicola had to admit that it was almost a
miracle that Alois was still alive. Just hearing about it was enough to keep
her perpetually covered in goose bumps.
Moreover, his dreams were lucid—though Alois
knew he was dreaming, he could not run faster than he could in reality, let
alone fly through the air.
“So I really can’t do anything but flee in the
same state I’m in right now... I don’t quite know how to say this, but it is
almost like someone has entirely taken control of my dreams. That’s how it
seems to me,” admitted Alois, with a dejected look.
Regardless of where he tried sleeping, such as
at the palace under the pretense of having to perform official duties or in his
carriage, he could not escape the nightmares. For all his struggles, he had
finally sustained a wound in the dream that carried over to reality once he
woke up. Nicola could only cradle her head in her hands at the hopelessness of
Alois’s circumstances.
She could only think of two possibilities. Either Alois brought something strange back from those ruins, or
else... But if he did pick something up in those ruins, surely I would have
noticed something at the time... Nicola racked her brains. But after
pondering this nagging doubt for a while, she realized she was getting nowhere.
She reflected on the fact that the apparition appeared in Alois’s dreams and
inspected the area around his bed.
Nicola opened the curtains, letting in enough
moonlight to allow her to look around Alois’s room.
One look at the room’s furniture and other
amenities reminded Nicola that she was dealing with a member of the royal
family—the academy had treated him much more favorably than it had her, a
daughter of lower nobility. The size of the room alone was clearly more
generous than that of the one Nicola occupied.
The first thing Nicola inspected was the duvet
on the bed. When she turned it over, she was struck by how soft it felt on her
skin.
“Wow...” she quietly murmured to herself.
Next, she pushed down on the mattress with her
finger. It was surprisingly springy, bouncing back immediately when she
withdrew her hand. She felt deeply envious of Alois at the thought of him sleeping
on such a bed every night. She then picked up one of the equally luxurious
pillows. But nothing she inspected indicated why Alois had been cursed with his
nightmares.
On the brink of giving up on this line of
investigation, Nicola casually turned over the pillow in her hands before
realizing that the underside was slightly uneven.
“Oh, bingo?” whispered Nicola. Perhaps thanks
to the moonlight, the bump cast a dark shadow on the pillowcase, which was
probably why she’d noticed it.
Once Nicola removed the pillowcase, a small
scrap of paper fell out of it. She turned back to look at Alois, who shook his
head in puzzlement. He did not seem to know anything about the piece of paper.
When Nicola took the folded piece of paper
over to the window, her only light source, Alois and Sieghart went over and
peered down at it too.
Something about the texture of the paper gave
Nicola a feeling of déjà vu. Once she unfolded it, she found something black
and crumpled in its center.
“Wah, what is this shaggy thing?! Gross!”
After holding the black object to her eyes, Nicola finally realized what it
was. She reflexively averted her eyes and threw it away.
“Eh, what?”
“What was it?”
Nicola was much shorter than the two boys.
They were fortunate enough to have their eyes far removed from Nicola’s hands
and apparently could not identify the object themselves.
In a strangled voice, Nicola cried out, “It’s
a spider! The dried carcass of a spider! Waah, that’s so gross. After taking a
moment to think about it, it feels even more gross... Urgh...”
The only reason she had not immediately
identified it as a spider was because its legs had crumpled up when it’d died.
She strongly regretted having held the thing up so close to her face.
Nicola gingerly picked up the paper that had
enclosed the spider with her fingertips. After shaking it open again and
looking at its contents, she unreservedly screwed up her face with displeasure.
It was only natural that the paper felt
familiar to her. Just one hour earlier, she had held a note with the same
texture—this was yet another scrap of parchment.
On the back were Alois’s full name and date of
birth. On the front, a portrait had been drawn. Just like in Nicola’s case, his
face had been mercilessly shredded with some kind of blade.
“Don’t tell me... Is this the portrait I sat
for when I enrolled here?” Alois took the scrap of parchment from Nicola and
frowned. As he did so, Sieghart furtively stole a glance at Nicola’s face.
However they looked at it, this was the modus
operandi of the person who had cursed Nicola. Nicola knew what Sieghart wanted
to point out, but she silently shook her head. There were still too many things
that she did not understand. Besides, the incident involving her curse was
already over. There was no need to give Alois further information to worry
about.
Though Sieghart seemed to have a hard time
accepting this, he eventually opened his mouth to say, “Hey, Nicola. If we burn
this spider’s carcass like the doll from earlier, maybe Alois’s nightmares will
end.”
Nicola took a moment to respond. “No,
unfortunately, I don’t think they would... After all, he could not escape them
by sleeping in a different location. The curse has already manifested entirely
as an apparition within His Highness’s head.” She shook her head as she refuted
Sieghart’s suggestion.
“Then what should we do? Is there no way to
put an end to my nightmares?” asked Alois, looking at Nicola with an entreating
glance.
Nicola placed her hand on her chin and, with
some hesitation, said, “Fundamentally, one can end a curse by destroying
whatever object served as its medium, by fire, or by some other means. But
well, in this case, I think you would have to kill the spider in your
dreams...”
“You want me to kill that by myself? And
without a weapon...? You’re kidding, right?” Under the pale moonlight, a look
of despair fell over Alois’s haggard face. He looked at Nicola like the subject
of a grim painting, but she could not look directly at him.
Nicola thought that if someone told her she
had to kill a ridiculously huge spider unarmed, she would likely have the same
expression on her face. Even she could not help but feel guilty, so she quickly
followed up with a few words of encouragement.
“I think you might be able to take a weapon
with you into your dream... Besides that, well, I think
I could enter your dream as well... Although...”
When Nicola started speaking, Alois was all
smiles, as if someone had finally offered him some hope, some expectation of a
resolution. But as she trailed off, his expression turned to one of even more
abject despair than he had shown before.
Nicola felt especially guilty realizing she
had inadvertently gotten his hopes up and let him down. Yet she finally
delivered her conclusion.
“That is to say, to be honest... I think I
would only get in your way...”
Alois’s spirit seemed to have been completely
snuffed out at this point—his face turned as pale as ash. Sieghart kindly
placed a hand on Alois’s to comfort him before turning to look at Nicola.
“So, Nicola, you mean to say that, even if you
enter Alois’s dream, you won’t be able to defeat the apparition the same way
you always do?” asked Sieghart, who seemed absolutely shocked by this
revelation. He had never once seen Nicola fail to vanquish something from
outside the human realm.
Though the faith Sieghart put in her made
Nicola proud of her accomplishments as an exorcist, she could only sadly nod to
confirm his suspicions.
“For better or worse, the dreamer’s
consciousness forms the basis of their dreams.”
People could not dream of things they had
never seen or even heard of in their lives. In other words, dreams consisted
entirely of things the dreamer had seen before.
“Right now, the spider’s curse has interfered
with His Highness’s dreams and seems to have taken control of them, but what
lies beneath all of that is His Highness’s own consciousness. Incidentally,
Your Highness, where do you find yourself fleeing from the spider in your
dreams?”
Alois slowly raised his head to answer
Nicola’s question.
“The palace... It is a wide open space, and I
know it well, so until now I have managed to escape by the skin of my teeth,”
he answered in a parched voice.
“Most likely, that is because it is the place
you are used to and can find your way around most easily. The fact that the
palace is the setting for your nightmares is mostly because of your own
defensive instincts, Your Highness.” Alternatively, it could
be that his shiftless guardian spirit has finally shown up for work.
Nicola squinted hard but saw no sign of
Alois’s guardian spirit anywhere, then she then looked at the two boys.
“Your Highness, please consider what you
already know about me. I have no stamina and cannot exert myself physically at
all. Do you really think someone as physically puny as me could do anything
against a spider twice the size of a lion, even if I entered your dreams? And
in the palace, a location I am entirely unacquainted with, at that?” said
Nicola.
Alois and Sieghart, sitting next to each other
on the bed, quickly averted their eyes from Nicola at the same time. This was a
little rude, but it was the right reaction.
“Besides, you are not fully aware of just what
I can and cannot do. Are you, Your Highness? In other words, there is a
possibility that I will not have all the techniques I typically employ at my
disposal in your dreams. Honestly, I will be nothing but a normal, puny girl
within your dreams. I probably won’t be of any help to you...”
Alois and Sieghart both hung their heads in
disappointment.
Of course, Nicola wanted to help. However, she
really would not be of any use if she entered Alois’s dreams. If she was not
careful, she would only contribute another body to the spider’s casualties. She
hung her head in shame. After the despondent trio had pondered their
predicament for a while, Sieghart suddenly raised his head as if he had thought
of something.
“Hey, Nicola. A moment ago, you said that we
might be able to take weapons into Alois’s dream, right?”
“Well, I can probably at least manage that.
But that alone wouldn’t...”
“In that case, can you send me into Alois’s
dream rather than yourself?”
Nicola and Alois both looked up in surprise,
their eyes wide open.
“I think... I probably could,” replied Nicola.
“Thank goodness. In that case, we can confront
the spider together, armed with swords. If we defeat it, the nightmares will
end, right?” With a smile, Sieghart added he had been to the palace a few times
before and knew the layout.
From the look in his eyes, Nicola could see
that he had already made up his mind. She could say nothing to dissuade him.
It certainly sounded like a better plan than
having Nicola cross over into Alois’s dreams. If a weak person would not be of
any help, then there was nothing else for it but to send someone strong to
support Alois.
“Your Highness, would you say that you are
skilled in swordplay as well?” asked Nicola.
“I’m only average,” replied Alois.
“Nicola, he’s being modest. If you placed him
among the swordsmen of this kingdom, he would definitely rank in the top half.”
Sieghart rarely flattered others for such matters. If Sieghart appraised him as
such, then Alois must be fairly skilled.
“I can never match up to Sieg or Ern, so I’ve
still developed a bit of a complex,” explained Alois before pouting like a
spoiled child. His complexion was still sickly, but Nicola could definitely see
some color returning to his cheeks. She felt just a little relieved. Though
Alois was often a nuisance to her, it was not as if she actually wanted him to
die.
A part of Nicola had even begun thinking of
Alois as her annoying older brother when she considered how unreservedly he
always teased her. She had to admit that there was a bond between them now.
Still, she could not help but sigh when she realized what a pushover she was.
“It would be very reassuring if Ernst could
come with us as well,” noted Sieghart.
“It will be a bit of a gamble whether Ernst
can cross over into Alois’s dreams... But I think it would still be worth it to
ask him,” said Nicola.
“I’ll try asking Ern, then,” said Alois.
The three looked at each other and nodded.
“For the time being, Your Highness, please try
to make it till morning without falling asleep.”
“I’ll stay with him until then. I’m already
awake at this hour. It won’t make much of a difference if I hold out for that
time,” said Sieghart with a gentle smile, looking out toward the mountains far
off in the distance and noticing that the sun had just started to illuminate
them.
“I will return to my room for now and gather
the things we shall require. Your Highness, do you think you can hold out until
after school?” asked Nicola, peering closely at Alois’s face.
Alois cheekily narrowed his big, round, green
eyes and said, “Of course. I’ll be just fine,” before nodding.
Nicola borrowed Sieghart’s cloak again,
pulling the hood over her head so that her face was concealed, before turning
back to take one last look at the two boys.
“Please prepare three swords—real swords, not
fencing foils. Well then, I shall see you here again after school,” said Nicola
before turning on her heel again to leave.
“Thank you so much, both of you...” said
Alois.
Without looking back, Nicola waved goodbye and
silently closed the door to Alois’s room behind her.
9
The next day seemed to pass in the blink of an
eye. Even during her classes, Nicola furtively prepared for the task ahead,
hiding her instruments from her teachers. As soon as the day ended, she made a
beeline for Alois’s room.
Even though it was still daytime, Nicola
realized it would be scandalous for her, a girl, to be seen striding into the
boys’ dormitory by herself. Now that there were already deeply uncomfortable
rumors that she had all three boys wrapped around her little finger, she could
not enter the boys’ dormitory without some countermeasures.
Let me not walk in the
waking world but on the other side of the veil.
Nicola quietly recited an incantation inside her head, casting a spell of
invisibility upon herself. With this, she would be completely hidden and no one
would be aware of her presence.
Nicola felt something like a cold membrane
envelop her body, then nodded in satisfaction. Seeing nobody being able to
condemn her, Nicola stepped across the threshold into the boys’ dormitory.
Unlike the previous night, when it had been
dead silent, the boys’ dormitory was a hive of activity in the daytime. Nicola
passed quite a few students in the hallway. However, they all walked by her
without giving her so much as a glance.
Thanks to the spell she had employed, Nicola
easily made it to Alois’s room. Without knocking, she opened the door and
quietly slipped inside. There she found Alois, Sieghart, and Ernst already
assembled. It seemed that Nicola was the last to arrive.
“Excuse my lateness...” said Nicola,
dispelling her invisibility. When she did so, each of the boys reacted
uniquely.
Alois’s eyes shone with curiosity; Ernst’s
eyes widened in shock, his mouth hanging open; and Sieghart, who was clearly
used to this, greeted Nicola with a gentle smile.
Although Nicola had broadly expected each of
these reactions, what surprised her was what Alois did next. She had been sure
that he would, as always, pester her with an endless series of questions. Even
though she had come ready with a series of answers to humor him, Alois’s look
of unbridled curiosity almost immediately receded.
Defying Nicola’s expectations, Alois turned to
her with a serious look on his face.
“Let me say this once more. Miss Nicola, thank
you, really,” said Alois, taking Nicola’s hand and squeezing it. With only the
moonlight to go by, Nicola had only understood Alois’s face to be pale the
previous night. Now, in the daylight, she could see that he was deathly pale.
The circles under his eyes were pitch black. They stood out all the more thanks
to his naturally marble-white skin. His gauntness could not have been any more
conspicuous.
Nicola had often heard that a true beauty
could be attractive even in the deepest gloom, but now she knew it to be true.
Although the way Alois always teased her was irritating, she missed it now—she
preferred him when he was in sound health.
She exhaled heavily before readying herself
for the challenge ahead. It hadn’t been long since she’d started to count Alois
among her wards. After deciding that she would save him no matter what it took,
she squeezed his hand back with all her strength.
She took a quick look around the room.
Everything seemed quite different in the light of day compared to the moonlight
of the previous night, but this was not so remarkable. Finally, she fixed her
gaze on Ernst, who was standing by the window, then looked up at the other two.
“Have you explained the situation to Ernst
yet?” asked Nicola.
Alois and Sieghart nodded firmly.
“What about the swords?” she asked.
“They’re right here,” said Ernst, pointing to
a wall across the room. When Nicola turned to look where he was pointing, she
saw that there were indeed three swords leaning against the wall. These were
not the weapons aristocrats often wore for show, covered in far too many
decorations. These were a more functional and practical kind of sword.
Nicola put her hands on her hips before
nodding magnanimously and smiling fearlessly.
“Very good. Well then, shall we go nightmare
hunting?”
◇
Nicola busily laid the items she had prepared
after returning to her room the night before across Alois’s bedside table.
Even if the curse had taken control of Alois’s
dreams, his consciousness still formed the foundation of his nightmares. For
better or worse, his preconceptions and assumptions would come into play.
“Surely Nicola will have some technique to
allow us to use weapons in my dream.”
“I’m sure Nicola will be able to send Sieghart
and Ernst into my dream.”
Indeed, whether Nicola really could do these
things depended on if Alois believed them. It was all up to Alois’s state of
mind. She was not, in fact, going to use any of her exorcist techniques to
provide the bridge into his dreams.
Though she could not help feeling like a bit
of a charlatan, she did not give voice to these feelings. Instead, she
proceeded to clearly and eloquently explain the knowledge that she hoped Alois
would believe she was going to employ.
She spoke of Shinto and esoteric Buddhism, the
way of Yin and Yang, and all the other techniques she employed as an exorcist
to seal away evil spirits.
Of course Nicola was not omnipotent. While
there were many things she could do, there were also many things she could not.
However, she needed to appear like a sorceress capable of any mystical feat
before Alois.
From among the items laid out on Alois’s
bedside table, Nicola took a red string to tie it around the pinky fingers of
each of the three boys, connecting them all to Alois in the center of the trio.
Nicola did not know whether or not the
folklore of this world spoke of an unbreakable red string of fate. But she
chose a red string so that it would be clearly visible, making them aware of
their connection.
“Now that you are bound by this thread, I
would like you all to sleep on the pillow containing that cursed spider. Once
His Highness is dragged back into his nightmare, Sieghart and Ernst should be
automatically drawn in after him.” Nicola declared this with absolute
conviction as if explaining a universal truth. She almost sounded like a cram
school instructor explaining a mathematical formula. “Once you are inside the
dream, please kill the spider.” To keep the vision of victory clear in their
minds, Nicola spoke slowly and imbued her words with spiritual energy. “Even a
ridiculously huge nightmare spider will slow down significantly if you cut off
one of its legs. Do not worry. Once you’ve cut off all its legs, the spider
will be nothing more than a silly round lump.”
Alois looked back at her with a serious look
in his eyes and nodded.
“Fundamentally, the medium carrying the curse
will pay no attention to anyone but the object of the curse,” said Nicola,
recalling the encounter with the bisque doll the previous night.
The doll had looked comical when it had
stabbed at her relentlessly with its scissors, only for Sieghart to easily send
it flying in the air with a blow from behind. Thus, she summarized the event
while explaining this concept to the others.
“If the spider pursues Alois single-mindedly
in the same way, it will not pay any attention to a third party. In that case,
it shouldn’t be difficult for Sieghart or Ernst to blindside it and take one of
its legs off, right?” added Nicola as she glanced at Sieghart and Ernst, who
nodded firmly. As the last confrontation with a curse had only occurred the
previous night, this vision of victory was probably clear to Sieghart.
Nicola pointed at the items she had prepared
in her spare time during the school day and gave the boys a smile brimming with
confidence.
“I shall support you from out here. For
example, with this.” Nicola picked up several large, flat pieces of wood carved
out in the outline of a human figure before fanning them out like playing
cards. “These will be your stand-ins. All we need to do is write your names on
these, so each one will take damage in your place exactly once. For example, if
one of you received a wound to your arm, the arm would snap off of one of these
pieces of wood. If your leg is wounded, one of these will lose its leg instead.”
“That’s amazing,” murmured Alois.
“Those would be most welcome,” said Sieghart.
Both of them peered at the pieces of wood in
Nicola’s hands, their eyes shining with hope.
The highly fragrant wood used in making the
sacrificial stand-in was frighteningly expensive, even from the perspective of
a viscount’s daughter. For that reason, Nicola would only use them in very
desperate situations. Unfortunately, the present circumstances required her to
pull out all the stops.
“While you are sleeping, each time I see a
stand-in break, I will be sure to supply a new one.” Nicola smiled while
swearing an oath to herself that she would bill Alois for their cost once this
was all over.
As for Ernst, he continued to listen to
Nicola’s explanation with an expression halfway between acceptance and complete
doubt.
I can’t expect too much from
this one. Though it looks like he’s halfway to believing all this, so I guess
he’s made some progress. She then reached out for
another of the items. “The final item I can offer in support is this. This is
called a dream catcher. It is a charm said to entangle bad dreams.”
The dream catcher, which Nicola had neatly
woven during one of her classes, was a string tied like a web around a hoop in
its center. It was a charm that originated among the Native Americans.
Although the idea of trapping a spider with a
string woven in the shape of a web sounded a little strange, it was still
unquestionably a bad dream. The dream catcher should provide some protection.
“With these items, I will make every effort to
impede the spider from outside the dream... Please, try to finish it off as
quickly as possible while you are in there.” Though Nicola would have liked
nothing better than to swiftly exorcise the spider as she usually did with
apparitions, Alois’s life was just barely hanging by a thread. She had no
choice but to entrust him and his two friends with saving him.
All she could do right now was speak
eloquently in the manner of a charlatan while throwing support items their way.
While she would not admit it, the truth was that Nicola felt extremely
frustrated.
“And please... Please come back soon.” Nicola
bit her bottom lip before closing her mouth tightly again. Sieghart and Alois
looked at each other before chuckling softly and ruffling Nicola’s hair.
10
Nicola sat at the very head of the spring
mattress on Alois’s bed and looked down at the outlandish scene before her.
Just beside her knees was a single pillow, which the three young men shared as
they slept, forming tight parallel lines across the bed.
Their pinky fingers were tied together with a
red string. In their dominant hands, they each held a sword meant for combat.
Nicola could not help but giggle at the bizarre scene, which looked almost like
an altar prepared for some ritual.
“I wonder what would happen if someone barged
into the room right now... Undoubtedly, they would start an even crazier
rumor,” she muttered.
Alois and Sieghart, having stayed up through
the previous night, fell asleep about thirty or forty seconds after closing
their eyes. Seeing the two furrow their brows as they continued to breathe
regularly in their sleep, Nicola laid three wooden stand-ins upon their chests,
with their respective names written upon them. No sooner had she done so than a
small crack appeared in one of Alois’s stand-ins.
The spider’s claws must have scratched him,
but as the stand-in had not completely snapped, Nicola judged that he must be
fine and turned her gaze away from Alois. Next to the two who were already
asleep, Ernst alone sat up, still fully awake. Looking down at Alois in the
middle, then Sieghart on the other side of Alois, and noticing their strained
expressions, Ernst’s own expression clouded as he quietly came to a
realization.
“It looks like His Grace has made it inside
His Highness’s dream,” said Ernst. Just as he said this, Nicola saw a crack
appear on the arm of one of Sieghart’s wooden stand-ins.
“It would appear so,” she quietly agreed. There’s not much point in having them tied together if Ernst cannot enter Alois’s dream. As such, she untied the
string around Ernst’s finger.
After slowly getting off the bed, Ernst looked
down at Sieghart and Alois and remained silent thereafter.
Nicola finally wrested her gaze away from
Ernst, then muttered to herself, “Well then, perhaps I’ll see what I can do to
hinder the spider,” before grinning widely. Even after she began rummaging
inside the pillowcase, Alois and Sieghart showed no sign of waking up. As soon
as her fingers brushed against a scrap of parchment, she seized it and pulled
it out. This was the portrait of Alois used to wrap the spider carcass.
She could not completely rid herself of the
disgust she felt when touching the spider, even through the parchment. But she
had no choice except repressing her revulsion and pressing the dream catcher
she had made against the parcel of parchment.
“Ah.” However, the white string inside the
dreamcatcher immediately turned dark red until it snapped apart entirely. “Oh?”
Nicola murmured to herself, raising an eyebrow before a smile that some might
have described as wicked crept across her face. “I hate to tell you this, but I
didn’t just make one dream catcher! Take this, and this, and that!”
Reaching over the bedside table, Nicola picked
up five dream catchers at once and rubbed them all together, with the parchment
in the middle of them. The string around one or two snapped, but given that
they had not all snapped, the remaining ones were bound to have an effect.
“I mass-produced these without even thinking
during class. Eat this! And that! And this, for good measure!” Perhaps spending
the night with no sleep had gone to Nicola’s head, but she grew steadily more
excited. She continued to pile on one dream catcher after another while rubbing
them all against the parchment. While she did so, she felt someone’s steady
gaze on her, and they clearly wanted to say something to her.
“What is it? I did not get any sleep last
night, so I might be a bit excitable. Do you have a problem with that?” Nicola
quickly shot back at Ernst.
“No...” conceded Ernst. However, his evasive
answer disturbed Nicola’s rhythm enough that she opened her eyes wide in
surprise. Ernst was normally so aggressive that every line he spoke ended in an
exclamation mark. He was unexpectedly meek today.
Nicola did not mind being hard on Ernst when
he was his usual oppressive self, but he now appeared almost like a puppy that
had been scolded. She felt somewhat apprehensive about abandoning him in that
condition. So, she decided to try and draw something more out of him.
“If there is something you would like to say
or ask, please tell me.” Once she had laid out this fertile ground for
communication, she had a hard time calming herself down.
Ernst looked up in surprise, but then his eyes
wandered, as if he were a lost child. Then he looked down at the bandages
around Alois’s arm and finally broke his silence.
“His Highness was injured right before my
eyes. In a carriage where we were the only two passengers, I heard him cry out
in his sleep. By the time he opened his eyes, he was already wounded. I could
see no sign of his assailant anywhere!” Ernst frowned heavily, then groaned in
a low voice. “The same thing happened the other day. I know I stepped into
those ruins holding your hand, but the next thing I knew, I was standing inside
the mansion by myself... I looked all over the abandoned house. I even searched
the greenhouse. But in the end, you and His Grace reappeared with His Highness
in tow...”
Ernst bit his lip in frustration before
completely baring his soul.
“The same thing has happened again. Why is it
that when His Highness is truly in peril, I cannot be by his side? Is it
because of the guardian spirit you say follows me around? If that’s the case,
then I do not need such a guardian spirit!”
“Hey now, you must not say such a preposterous
thing.” Nicola shook her head, admonishing Ernst even as she wrote Alois’s name
on a new wooden stand-in after throwing one of the three that had already
broken underneath the bed. “Your guardian spirit is truly powerful. If you had
entered the dream, I think you could have helped His Highness more than anyone.
Adding your martial prowess would have also turned the tables very much in His
Highness’s favor. I think the nightmare would have been over before it started.”
Nicola had not mentioned that there was always
a high probability of Ernst being unable to enter Alois’s dream. On the other
extreme, Alois could have hidden behind Ernst if he had been able to enter. In
a roundabout way, the guardian spirit had likely protected Alois while
attempting to protect its wielder.
Though Nicola knew little of martial arts, she
understood Ernst to be so skilled that even Sieghart had to admit that he could
not compare to him.
If Ernst had been able to cross over into
Alois’s dreams as well, then the spider might have been vanquished in mere
minutes.
“It was not your guardian spirit that
prevented you from entering His Highness’s dream today, Ernst. The problem
rests within you.”
“Within...me?”
As Nicola fiddled with another dream catcher,
she looked up at Ernst and cut straight to the heart of the matter.
“It was only to be expected. After all, your
eyes are closed.” As she resupplied Sieghart by placing another wooden stand-in
on top of his chest, replacing an almost broken one, she fixed her gaze
squarely on Ernst. “You still reject the world that we inhabit. In your heart
of hearts, I think you still believe that nothing exists except that which you
can see with your own eyes. No matter how hard you look, you will not be able
to see things you do not believe in. You certainly will not be able to touch
them.”
Ernst was silent. He looked down at the sword
in his hand—the sword he had had no chance to use—and gripped it even more
tightly.
“But you know,” concluded Nicola, “there are
many mysterious things in this world. Bizarre things that might surprise you.”
While holding up one of the broken dream catchers over one eye, peering at
Ernst through the hole, she smiled wryly at him.
Until now, Ernst’s guardian spirit had always
kept him away from the stranger things in this world. As a result, nothing
truly inexplicable had ever happened to him, so he had grown up a realist.
Yet Ernst had witnessed some events that could
not be explained away with common sense. Such instances involved Alois being
spirited away and later getting wounded in front of his very eyes.
Compared to when he first met Nicola, Ernst
had most likely developed something of a foundation for believing in the
supernatural.
“If you really want to protect His Highness...
Do not reject the other world. Open your eyes wide and focus on whatever it is
that means to harm your master. How about it?”
“Open my eyes...and focus...” said Ernst to
Nicola before he was lost in thought, though he continued to mutter to himself.
After this, Nicola’s voice no longer seemed to reach him.
He really is earnest but
perhaps too serious. Still, Nicola much preferred
this Ernst to the meek individual she had found a short while ago.
She noticed Ernst’s guardian spirit searing
with light behind him—perhaps it wanted to tell her, “Don’t put any strange
ideas in his head!” In any case, it was shining most aggressively.
Nicola believed it was fine to tell Ernst
anything he wished to know about, so she turned away from the spirit
dismissively.
Even if Ernst got involved with entities from
the other side, he would probably not encounter any that could get past his
spirit. There would be no problem there.
When Nicola finally looked back down at the
two dreamers, she saw both of their eyelids flutter at the same time. The
strained expressions on their faces and the furrows in their brows finally
softened. Nicola realized that the conflict on that side looked to have ended.
She let out a sigh of relief.
“Ernst. It seems that the battle is over.”
“R-Really...?”
All that was left to do was untie the string
binding Alois and Sieghart.
“Watch out for cooties... Kidding,” said
Nicola as she leaned across the bed to untie the string.
At that very moment, without warning, something else appeared. Nicola’s heart leaped forward in
her chest. She began to sweat in terror. All of the wooden stand-ins resting on
Sieghart’s and Alois’s chests began to loudly snap in half, one by one. The
shikigami in Sieghart’s jacket pocket fell out and manifested itself
spontaneously.
“Y-You’ve got to be kidding me...” Nicola
suppressed her immediate physiological response of vomiting. With her hands
still shaking, she swiftly formed a sign in the air.
In the blink of an eye, despite being at the
center of all the layers of protection Nicola had woven, Alois and Sieghart
doubled over in their sleep and threw up blood.
Amid all these ill omens, Nicola felt her lips
tremble as a wave of terror washed over her. From behind all of the barriers
she had prepared...
Her eyes met those of the bee.
A Certain Interlude, From Before She Was Nicola
Rikka Kurokawa tried to open the windows with
surprising force, but whoever had incompetently fitted them prevented her from
doing so. She clicked her tongue in irritation. After a long, agonizing
struggle, she finally managed to open the window slightly and saw a thin trail
of smoke seep outside.
“You know. I wouldn’t have thought anyone
would smoke without even opening a window. Don’t you have any common sense?”
said Rikka, frowning and looking over her shoulder. Behind her was a man in his
thirties with the magical combination of long hair he had casually tied back, a
stubble beard, and sickly eyes. The man held his cigarette deep between his
middle and index fingers as he exhaled a plume of smoke. He took another drag
and covered most of his mouth only to exhale again. Following this, he gave Rikka
a cynical smirk.
“Shut up, dumbass, and say what you like.
Though I guess you already did, huh? But this is my office, meaning I’m the law
around here, huh?” The man elongated each “huh” to accentuate his sarcasm.
“Could you not talk like that? It’s really
irritating.”
The rude man was Sousuke Matsukata, who Rikka
bitterly called her mentor. Moreover, he was the one who first instructed her
in the art of opposing beings from beyond the human realm. These circumstances
certainly made their relationship unusual.
She had met Matsukata a long time ago and
could trace her time with him all the way to when she was about ten years old.
They really did go back a long way, and she felt fairly indebted to him. As his
apprentice, she had to acknowledge his skills and wisdom as an exorcist.
Putting all that aside, Rikka had an answer
for anyone who asked her if she respected Matsukata as a person. Considering
his conduct, she would say “no.”
“But really, in the first place, my whole job
is to teach you brats the kinds of conjuring tricks that common sense can’t
explain. Why the hell would ya expect common sense from the likes of me?” said
Matsukata, reclining in his chair while rudely resting his feet on the desk
beside him.
“Hey, your feet...”
“My legs are long, aren’t they? Sorry about
that!” Despite Rikka’s reproachful glare, Matsukata remained undaunted, a smirk
still plastered across his face.
Fed up, Rikka turned her gaze from Matsukata
to a sofa he used for client meetings. The leather upholstery had begun to peel
away in places. A junior apprentice lay sprawled on the sofa, counting
talismans and looking very bored.
“Youta, say something,” insisted Rikka.
“Huh? But I really don’t mind the smell of
cigarettes. And isn’t it kinda late to complain about Sousuke’s lack of manners
or his general disdain for humanity?” The junior apprentice lazily turned his
head toward Rikka before yawning to display his lack of interest.
Looks like I have no allies
here, thought Rikka. She sighed deeply before
looking out the open window at the street below. Beyond that was a narrow alley
where no one passed through a block away from the main street. Though shabby
buildings with various tenants crowded the area, it was awfully quiet here.
One such building across the alleyway had
windowpanes full of cracks covered with duct tape. A poster advertising
vacancies for new tenants had started to peel away from one of the windows,
hanging freely and rattling against the glass as it flapped in the wind.
Among their other neighbors were a massage
parlor that had clearly already gone out of business and a consumer loan firm
whose slogans, at least, sounded kind—both part of a row of businesses all
displaying dubious pink neon signs.
The exorcists’ office stood in the middle of
this tableau, crammed with all manner of dreariness.
The inconceivable and abnormal were phenomena
following unknown principles that reason alone could not explain. However, the
people in this office were experts who could resolve any such trouble caused by
beings from beyond the human realm.
The exorcists’ clients often paid quite well
when they were at their wits’ end. As far as Rikka could see, there was no real
need for them to keep an office in such a filthy, crowded building just to save
a few dollars on the rent.
“Hey, hey, novice, have you really thought
about it? What’d you think would happen if we tried running a business like
this in a clean, trendy little office? We’d look so damn suspicious that nobody
would come near us,” Matsukata had said one day. Despite her reservations,
Rikka had really found this explanation extremely convincing.
Though she could not help but think that this
line of work—one where she could not freely discuss anything she saw with
others or have a nice office since it would actually put people off—was not
respectable. She looked at the alley again before sitting down on the sofa
opposite the junior apprentice with an air of resignation.
“Hey, by the way, Sousuke. Out of all the jobs
you’ve had ’til now, what was the worst problem you had to deal with?” asked
Youta, the junior apprentice, as he sat up on the sofa. He appeared to have
grown bored of counting talismans on which the ink had dried, then been thrown
on the desk in front of him. A glance at them revealed that, as always, the
characters scrawled on them were a mess—looking as if an earthworm dipped in
ink had crawled on them.
Matsukata removed his cigarette from his
mouth, looking up at the ceiling briefly as if lost in thought.
“Ah, well, that’s easy. Definitely the kodoku. It comes up in fiction now and then, so I bet you
have a pretty good idea of what it is,” answered Matsukata in an
uncharacteristically serious manner, scowling and spitting the name as if it
tasted bitter in his mouth. After a pause, he muttered, “Well, I guess this is
a good opportunity to show you.”
He slowly rose to his feet and walked straight
to a nearby bookshelf from which he took out a well-used, slightly yellowed
volume titled The Modern Apparition Compendium before
quickly flicking through its pages.
“The kodoku is the
curse of venom—also known as kojutsu, the cursed art,
and fuko, a form of witchcraft. After trapping several
venomous insects or other small animals in a vessel and encouraging them to
cannibalize one another, the last one remaining will become a spirit known as maji, the cursed. It will proceed to curse and kill someone
of its creator’s choosing... So it says. Well, it’s a really shitty kind of
curse.” Matsukata puffed more smoke before explaining further. “It’s considered
orthodox to use snakes, centipedes, spiders, frogs, ants, somethin’ like that.
“It originated in ancient China and was
introduced to Japan no later than the eighth century, only to be banned under
the Ritsuryo legal code. Hmm, what else... Few people
know this, but as a simple byproduct of the curse, the user’s family will
supposedly prosper... Or so some people say.”
“Huh,” muttered Rikka. The kodoku
had often been used as subject matter for fiction, but she had never heard of
this byproduct of its use.
“But, well...” added Matsukata. “Even so, we
all know that if you curse someone, you’d better dig two graves. Any surviving
family will enjoy said prosperity once the curse has rebounded and killed the
one who used it.”
“Ah, I guess it would. However you look at it,
the curse would have to rebound before any prosperity came, wouldn’t it?”
agreed Youta, apparently satisfied by this explanation.
Certainly, there are almost
no cases of righteous people using it in fiction,
mused Rikka. It was almost a given that the villain in a story would use it.
Reassuring the reader that, “After the death of the villain, his family enjoyed
newfound prosperity,” would be superfluous exposition at best. It was
understandable that this property of the curse was not widely known.
“Okay, Youta. For example, can you tell me how
this curse is different from the one placed by visiting a shrine in the dead of
night?” asked Matsukata.
“Huh, I wonder how... Rikka, do you know?”
“I think I do, but try thinking about it
yourself,” Rikka replied with a look of exasperation. She was sure he would get
it if he really tried thinking about it, but the junior apprentice had very
little patience for thinking.
“Hmm... Ah, wait a minute. I think I’ve got
it! Is it that the effect is restricted? After all, when you curse someone with
a visit to a shrine at night, you’d call it successful no matter what
misfortune befalls your target. But with kodoku, the curse is only successful
if your target dies.”
“That’s exactly right. For once, you’re
correct,” Matsukata responded. “The nastiest thing about kodoku is that you can
only kill your target using it, and the only outcome when it rebounds on you is
death. As a bonus, it’s a real pain in the ass to dispel a curse that makes use
of an animal. After all, animals have thoughts and feelings too. Ah, right...
In other words, this is my point.”
Matsukata scowled while running his fingers
through his casually tied-back hair before staring deep into the eyes of each
apprentice.
“What I really wanna say is that if you take a
request that deals with this curse, there’s a high chance that you’ll end up
seeing both the curse’s target and the one who placed it on them die. If you
don’t like how that sounds, think twice before accepting such a request. Choose
your own jobs.”
He took a moment to squint and continued,
“Supposing you take on a job like that, you’ll never escape that principle.
Don’t go into it with mercy in your heart for the one who placed the curse. You
should just let some people die and not need to feel so bad about that. There’s
no need to break your back just because you accepted a job. Anyone who curses
someone is bad. That’s all.”
Rikka and the junior apprentice exchanged a
silent glance, surprised by how serious Matsukata’s tone had been as he
delivered this final warning.
After a moment, Youta said, “Hey, Rikka. Is it
okay if I assume that he’s concerned about us, no matter how out of character
that might sound?”
“Maybe tomorrow it’ll rain land mines.”
“Hey, you two, I can hear you. You know, I
really can’t stand you two when you aren’t acting cute.” As if to hide his
embarrassment, Matsukata roughly gave each of his apprentices a noogie. “Say
what you like. The fact that I would go so far as to warn you about kodoku
tells you what a sickening nuisance they really are. No one who makes or uses
one of those is right in the head. If you ever actually see one, you’ll know
what I mean.”
These words, delivered with a shocking amount
of gravitas, were burned into the back of Rikka’s mind and had never really
left her.
The Final Chapter: A Contemptible End
1
As she gasped for breath, Nicola glared at the
honeybee hovering on the other side of the barrier. She was relieved, seeing
that she had barely raised the barrier in time. Noticing that her hands were
shaking, she clasped them together to keep them still.
“This is...Kodoku.” It was no ordinary
apparition but a most stupefying example of abject malevolence. Nicola gulped
as a heavy omen of death crawled over her. The pressure emanating from it
seemed to wring the sweat out of her—a feeling of terror that would not abate. It looks like the worst-case scenario I predicted in the ruins
surrounded by wisteria was correct, she thought while biting her lip.
As honeybees were related to wasps and
hornets, they also possessed venom that could induce anaphylactic shock, though
in comparatively small quantities.
Following the escape of the ruined manor’s
former master, the large colony of honeybees trapped in the glass greenhouse
had fought and eventually cannibalized each other to survive. Surviving this
battle had transformed the bee into the kodoku, a venomous creature bearing a
curse.
“Your Highness?! Your Grace?!” cried Ernst.
It looked like the many-layered barrier Nicola
had frantically put up, surrounding her and the other two on the bed, had
separated Ernst and the shikigami of Nicola that had just manifested itself.
While banging on the invisible wall in front
of him, Ernst raised his voice and cried, “You, Miss Weber! What’s going on?!
Isn’t the nightmare over?!”
“The spider is over and done with! Now it’s
this bee’s turn!” Within her mind, Nicola knew that this would mean nothing to
Ernst. But she was in a state of confusion herself. In the absence of a
rational explanation, this incoherent babble was the best she could muster.
“Look at the bee behind you!” she continued.
“We’re not dealing with a spider now, but a
bee!” said the other Nicola.
“Ah, gimme a break! Please, open those eyes of
yours and look! The thing that’s making your lord and master vomit up blood is
right there at this very moment!”
The shikigami Nicola had given to Sieghart to
carry, which she had enchanted so that it would activate whenever he was in
mortal danger, at first only approximated what Nicola said. But with this last
appeal to Ernst, they said exactly the same thing in perfect unison.
With the two Nicolas looking at him
threateningly, Ernst did what they told him and turned around. At first, he
kept his eyes firmly shut but soon found his nerve and opened them wide.
“A bee?! Did you mean this honeybee?” After
zeroing in on the correct direction and adjusting the inclination of his head,
Ernst looked straight at the bee.
“Yes! That’s it!” cried both Nicolas.
“Wha—? Come to think of it, why are there two
of you now?! Did you have a twin this whole time?!”
“No!” said the original Nicola.
“I’ll explain later!” added the shikigami
Nicola.
There’s really no time to
get into that now, thought Nicola. The original
Nicola turned the still unconscious Alois and Sieghart so they were both lying
on their sides to not choke as they continued coughing up blood.
Luckily, the menacing bee could not get any
closer to them, thanks to the barrier Nicola had created. It looked like
matters would not get any worse for the time being, and she was able to calm
down just a bit.
When Nicola turned Alois and Sieghart over on
their sides, their wooden stand-ins fell off their chests. She noted that three
of Alois’s had snapped, whereas only one and a half of Sieghart’s had broken.
Besides her instinctive aversion and disgust
toward this unspeakable menace, she was not particularly affected by its
presence. Ernst did not seem affected by it either. That being the case, she
could only think of one explanation: Someone had used this kodoku to curse
Alois specifically.
The bee had appeared just before Nicola had
finished untying the bond between Alois and Sieghart. Because of Sieghart’s
continued connection to Alois in his dream at that moment, he’d ended up
sharing a portion of the damage suffered by Alois. At least, that was Nicola’s
hypothesis.
I did find it a bit mysterious this whole time.
No, perhaps it would be more correct to say I felt uneasy about it. How did the
menace known as the kodoku—the last bee left that was reborn as an
apparition—manage to escape from that manor, covered from top to bottom as it
was in wisteria, which has a warding effect against evil? Perhaps someone who knew its value and how to use it must have taken it
with them...
“Hey, Miss Weber! I don’t exactly understand
what’s going on here, but if I kill that bee, will that change our situation?!”
barked Ernst, turning back to look at Nicola.
Nicola exchanged a glance with her shikigami,
but she had no answer either.
This was only natural. The shikigami was a
clone of Nicola with the same knowledge and the same memories. If the original
Nicola was uncertain about something, there was no way that her clone could
judge the matter any better.
After a moment, Nicola answered, “We won’t
know unless we try.”
“Then I’ll just do it!”
Nicola wrote Alois’s and Sieghart’s names on
all the remaining wooden stand-ins before removing the barrier between Ernst
and the kodoku. At that very instant, Ernst suddenly vanished from sight and
had already cut the honey bee down in the blink of an eye.
“D-Darn, he’s fast...!”
Even after the honeybee was sliced in two, it
did not fall to the ground. Instead, one of the remaining halves began to
regenerate from the cross section left on its side, the unnerving buzzing of
its wings not ceasing for one second. With another two, then three flashes of
his blade, Ernst cut the bee into shreds, but it regenerated again. The buzzing
still continued.
“Hey, me!” cried Nicola.
“Leave it to me, me!” answered her shikigami.
After Nicola glanced at the shikigami, the
clone immediately grabbed Ernst’s hand to run out of the room, leading him
behind her. Before the bee could regenerate completely, she formed a sign with
her hands in the air, restoring her barriers.
“No one who makes or uses one of those is
right in the head. If you ever actually see one, you’ll know what I mean.”
Suddenly, the words of Nicola’s mentor crossed her mind.
With the unspeakable menace of the kodoku that
could make its target cough up blood just by getting near them before her,
Nicola could only mutter to herself, “He was so right.”
She felt a trail of cold sweat run down her
spine as this was the beginning of a deeply unpleasant endurance battle.
2
Without delay, “Nicola” grabbed Ernst by the
hand and rushed into the corridor. As she started running, she cast a spell of
invisibility over them.
“Hey! Miss Weber, where are we going?!”
“No matter how many times you cut that thing
up, it won’t get us anywhere. But if we can find the culprit behind this curse,
the chance of us making some progress is...not entirely absent.” She could not
quite bring herself to say that the chance was “not zero” and bit her lip with
anxiety.
Nicola, in this case, was Nicola’s copy. This
shikigami was not the usual pawn but could carry out her own spontaneous
actions. She would do so with the same intellect, personality, knowledge, and
memories as the one who had summoned her into being.
Against her own will, the warning her past
mentor had given her regarding this very situation replayed in her head: “If
you deal with the kodoku, you’ll end up seeing both the target of the curse and
the one who placed it on them die.” To put this out of her mind, she ran as
fast as she could, which was unusual for her.
“You said there was a culprit, right? Do you
have some idea who it might be?” asked Ernst.
“It’s not. As...if I have no idea,” she
panted. “Though I don’t know why...that person...would do such a thing!”
Ernst ran alongside Nicola as he spoke—not
breaking a sweat—with a look that seemed to say he was shocked by how slow she
was. Nicola had never cursed her own lack of athletic prowess as much as she
did at this moment.
But one explanation for her sixth sense was
that it had developed in order to make up for her outstanding physical
shortcomings. Should she be asked to accept her lack of coordination as the
price for having her spiritual abilities, she would just have to give up on
athletics. If she had any chance to save the two lives in front of her, only
her knowledge and experience could pave the way to a solution.
“We’re going to see the person you think is
the culprit now, right?!”
“Y-Yes!”
Currently, the only clue was the scrap of
paper used as the medium for the curse, which had the portrait of the target’s
face slashed up. On the reverse side was written a name and a date of birth.
This element resembled that of whoever had cursed Nicola with the bisque doll.
The very instant that the spider had been
rendered useless, the kodoku had appeared without delay. Therefore, Nicola
believed that the same person had placed both curses. Yet the thought that
there really could not be more than one person at the school capable of
enacting such a curse was also prominent in her mind.
In any case, she had no choice but to use the
clues she had at her disposal. She decided that if she was wrong, she would
cross that bridge when she came to it. With that in mind, Nicola kicked the
ground with even more force as she ran to her destination.
By the time they came crashing through the
door to the boys’ dormitory, Nicola’s breathing was so ragged that she could no
longer hold a conversation. Ernst, understandably finding this difficult to
watch, suggested that she take a short break. Though she felt pitiful for doing
so, she accepted his suggestion.
“Come to think of it, I don’t think anyone
noticed us running through the dormitory just now,” mused Ernst.
Nicola took a moment to respond. “Ah...
Th-That’s true. That’s because...I cast a spell...to that end...” Though her
breathing was still somewhat ragged, she was able to answer with a nod. She
leaned against a wall as she continued to catch her breath.
“A spell, you say?”
“Earlier. When I arrived at His Highness’s
room...it looked like I appeared out of thin air. Did it not? You may consider
me to have been invisible at the time... If you like...”
Strictly speaking, she had not become
invisible but merely insusceptible to being noticed by others. Though it would
have been accurate to say this, she did not need to explain every little detail
to him.
Ernst listened to Nicola’s rough explanation
in silence, though he went through a myriad of facial expressions as she spoke.
For once, he’s quiet, but
his face still won’t shut up, thought Nicola, even
if she had to admit that this demonstrated skill on his part. He probably
wanted to say, “That can’t be!” but had long since lost the confidence to deny
Nicola’s claims.
“Please believe that this is the case. Please
do not doubt me. Please, accept it.”
“Grr. All... All right.” After Nicola glared
at him, Ernst nodded reluctantly. It seemed that he was steadily adapting to
his new environment. Though there were still some facts of this new world he
could not quite bring himself to accept, he did not voice any further
objections.
After much waiting, Nicola’s breathing finally
calmed down. As she peeled her back away from the wall she had been leaning
against, she suddenly detected movement out of the corner of her eye. When she
reflexively turned to see what it was, she noticed the brown tabby cat she had
last seen the other day. It still looked slightly too well-groomed to be a
stray.
Just like the day she had first met it, the
cat stared up at Nicola from four or five meters away. When Nicola moved, the
cat’s gaze followed her. Even though she had not yet removed her spell of
invisibility, it seemed that the cat could still see both of them.
As folk wisdom would have it, cats could see
ghosts. Perhaps this old superstition was not mistaken after all.
Nicola silently tugged on Ernst’s sleeve
before saying, “Ernst, there is something I would like to confirm. Please catch
that cat for me.”
“The cat? Hey, is that really necessary?!”
“It is. Please do it.”
Though Ernst did not seem entirely convinced,
he did not object further. He approached the cat and extended his arms toward
it. It looked like the cat really could see him too. But it did not try to run
away or resist as he picked it up.
It really was too fat and well-groomed to be a
stray, seeming used to humans. Perhaps some of the students at the academy had
been taking care of it. Once the cat was in Ernst’s arms, it seemed to search
for a more comfortable position, acting more and more like a figure of
importance and dignity.
Nicola placed her spell of invisibility on the
cat as well, then looked up at Ernst.
“Ernst, our next destination is the girls’
dormitory.”
“In other words, you’re telling me the culprit
is a female student?”
“I don’t know for sure yet. That’s what we’re
going to confirm.”
Although classes had finished for the day, she
could not be certain that the one she sought was presently in her dormitory.
If she was not there, they would have no
choice but to scour the entire schoolhouse. Considering that she had likely
just set the kodoku on Alois, it was more likely that she would be in her room
rather than wandering around the school.
“Is there something I can do?” asked Ernst.
Nicola quietly shook her head. “Nothing in
particular. Only... If I, the shikigami, am destroyed, the original Nicola will
have roughly the same damage reflected upon her. Ernst, you should only help me
if it looks like I am about to be killed. Otherwise, please just stand by and
watch.”
Ernst looked as if he was going to object to
this begrudging request from Nicola, but in the end, he kept his mouth shut.
Nicola continued, “No matter how surprised you
might be by the suspect I reveal or how little of our conversation you
understand, please stay silent. If you want to save His Highness and Sieghart,
please keep this promise. I beg you.” Nicola bowed deeply to Ernst. Given that
he inhabited a world that resembled Europe, he was probably not used to this
Japanese gesture. Indeed, he seemed perplexed for a moment, but he ultimately
said nothing to object to this.
After exhaling heavily, Ernst said, “All
right. I assure you that I’ll keep that promise.”
“Thank you very much.”
Nicola set off again for the girls’ dormitory
as fast as she could move without getting out of breath again.
There isn’t a moment to
lose. We need to make a breakthrough, thought
Nicola before running. Slowing herself down so as not to exhaust herself again,
she headed for the suspect’s room.
3
“We definitely are invisible, aren’t we?”
muttered Ernst doubtfully as he looked down at his body.
Nicola’s spell of invisibility was in full
effect. As Ernst was a male student holding a cat in the middle of the girls’
dormitory, he should have stood out. But no one looked at him suspiciously. The
two of them passed through the hallway without drawing attention from anyone,
almost as if they were not there. Seeing what a good job she had done, Nicola
allowed herself to feel a modicum of pride as she led Ernst through the girls’
dormitory.
Finally, they arrived on the floor with the
room Nicola was looking for and noted that it was over six meters away from
said room. The cat in Ernst’s arms immediately hissed and bared its teeth
before growling menacingly. Once they came within five meters of the door to
the room, the cat’s fur stood on end, as if it could not stand to get any
closer. It extended its claws and fought to escape Ernst’s clutches.
When Ernst hurriedly let go of the cat, it
immediately jumped down and ran away as fast as its legs would carry it.
Ah, just as I expected, thought Nicola, silently averting her eyes from the cat. The cat’s
behavior spoke more convincingly to the veracity of her theory than any
evidence she had found yet.
Nicola removed the spell of invisibility from
only herself before knocking on the door. Tap, tap, tap, tap.
In this European-style society, knocking twice was reserved for toilet doors.
She recalled that the first time she had encountered the occupant of this room,
she had knocked in such a manner.
“This is Nicola von Weber. There is something
I simply must check. Won’t you please let me into your room?”
The door opened slightly, and the room’s
occupant, with her long, luxurious locks of blonde hair, peeked out from behind
the door. Once she recognized Nicola, she smiled gorgeously.
“My, what’s the matter? Let’s see... I have an
appointment a little later, but if you don’t mind only staying for about twenty
minutes, please come in,” replied Olivia von Lüneburg, the daughter of a
marquess. She was a young lady whose body boasted such voluptuous proportions
that even other girls could not help but envy her. Showing no signs of caution,
she readily beckoned Nicola into her room. “The private rooms in this dormitory
are a bit too cramped, aren’t they? For the moment, please feel free to sit
anywhere you like. Ah, right, would you like some tea—”
“No, thank you,” said Nicola, ignoring
Olivia’s hospitality and cutting her off. She would get straight to the point
because every minute, every second, was precious right now. There was no time
for a long-winded preamble.
Knowing her words might sound disjointed,
Nicola suddenly said, “You know, cats hate me too. That wasn’t the case in my
past life, but in this world, they always end up scratching me. Putting it
another way, while I can get close enough to them that they can scratch me with
their short little front paws... They seem to hate you even more.” With a hint
of sarcasm, Nicola allowed her lips to form a smile.
On the day of Olivia’s tea party, the very
same cat had started hissing when it was only five or six meters away, as if it
could not stand to come any closer. It had not been because of Nicola that the
cat fled, but because of Olivia’s presence.
Nicola continued, “In your past life, you
offered me and a cat as sacrifices, right? And you made a wish to the devil. Am
I wrong?”
Olivia’s hand froze just as she was about to
pick up a teapot resting on her desk.
“Past life? Devil?” Olivia looked at Nicola
with a look of confusion, and her head tilted to one side as if she had not the
faintest idea what Nicola was talking about. “Ah, I get it! Nicola, darling,
could it be that you’re writing a story? That must be it!” Olivia clasped her
hands innocently in front of her chest, pretending this thought had genuinely
just occurred to her.
But Nicola did not really mind if Olivia
wanted to play dumb, as she had no intention of entertaining this farce.
Ignoring everything Olivia had just said, Nicola continued undeterred.
“At first, I had only a vague sense of déjà
vu. Something that was familiar, something that didn’t sit right. Yet I
couldn’t quite put my finger on what it was.” The sensation had been like
having a tiny fish bone caught in her throat. It was only a momentary feeling
of unease, which she had forgotten each time after a short while.
Nicola remembered what had happened after
school the previous day when she was searching for a place to burn the bisque
doll. When she’d tried to touch that cat and it had scratched her, that had
been the catalyst for her epiphany: “What if Olivia was the one who sacrificed
me in my past life?” Paradoxically, her awareness of that possibility explained
every little feeling of unease she had experienced up to that point.
“Hey, can I tell you something? Only the
Japanese cover their mouths with their hands when laughing. I think it goes
without saying that no one besides the Japanese will explicitly say, ‘Let me
have a taste’ before trying some food.”
During their tea party, Olivia had explicitly
announced her intention to try the apricot jam once Nicola had offered it. This
action had happened soon after Olivia had chuckled to herself with a hand
placed daintily over her mouth. At the time, Nicola could not explain what had
bothered her. She had simply felt something was out of place, seeing certain
familiar mannerisms for the first time in over a decade.
“I do understand. Such deeply ingrained
customs are hard to get rid of,” said Nicola, taking a step toward Olivia. In
the past, Nicola too often unconsciously repeated habits from her past life.
But in her case, the young Sieghart had been
there to innocently remark on her habits, saying each time, “That’s unusual.”
Thus, Nicola realized her actions were not in keeping with this world, whose
culture closely resembled that of Europe. She remembered how, little by little,
she had adjusted her behavior in order to fit in.
At some point, she had become entirely used to
the customs of this world and chided herself for not having discerned the
source of her unease sooner. She smiled grimly as she noted it was simply the
consequence of how much time she had spent in this world.
“Hey, you were the one who cursed me, weren’t
you? Sending that bisque doll to kill me.” Nicola reminisced about the urban
legend of Hide and Seek Alone. She’d noticed how the doll had been stuffed with
wheat instead of rice and tied together with red string.
That doll, too, had knocked only twice on
Nicola’s door when it had come for her, and it had arrived at precisely 2 a.m.
Although Western culture held the concept of twilight being a time of
misfortune, it had nothing that precisely matched the Japanese witching hour.
For these reasons, Nicola’s thoughts had immediately turned to Olivia when she
understood the curse had been carried out in a distinctly Japanese fashion.
Even so, Nicola did not initially think of
going to Olivia herself to confirm this or working to uncover the truth at all.
Supposing she discovered what had happened to her in her past life, it was not
as if she would get that life back. No matter how many times she found herself
cursed, she was content to deal with it herself.
As long as Nicola was the object of these
curses, she was confident that they would not succeed. As long as the curses
were not successful, they would not rebound on the one who’d cursed her. She
had no intention of taking further action as long as she was the target. This
was why she felt terribly conflicted when Alois was cursed under much the same
circumstances.
“Hey, Olivia. Why did you curse His Highness?
Why did you wish for your own fiancé’s death?” Nicola drew closer to Olivia’s
writing desk. On one side of the desk, Olivia had haphazardly placed the jar of
jam Nicola had given her at their tea party.
Nicola picked up the jam jar and held it up to
the light. Through the glass, she could see no jam left inside. In its place
were a few strands of golden hair—which had grown very familiar to her as of
late—that sparkled in the sunlight streaming through the window. An echo of the
same dreaded miasma she had detected in the ruins outside the capital also
resided in the jar. She grimaced, as the circumstantial evidence had already
confirmed almost everything she wanted to know.
“Hey, why did you do it... Olivia?” Wiping any
trace of emotion from her face, Nicola returned her gaze to Olivia, who was
already looking at her. There was only one thing left that Nicola could not
understand, no matter how hard she tried. Why would Olivia have wanted Alois to
die? That was the only thing.
Olivia raised the corners of her mouth in a
disturbing smile that looked like a crescent moon.
“Why? Because God made a mistake, that’s why.”
“Eh?”
For a moment, Olivia seemed to stare off into
space in an ecstatic trance, only to suddenly stomp on the floor like a child
having a tantrum.
“I mean, it’s not fair! I did what I was told!
I sacrificed a cat and an exorcist, then made my wish! But God had me reborn in
the place of Alois’s fiancée! ‘Olivia’ is not even the protagonist! She’s a
supporting character! In the first place, it wasn’t Alois I wanted to romance,
but Sieghart!”
Nicola was dumbfounded for a moment. “Huh?”
She could not understand what Olivia was saying and her mouth hung open in
shock.
However, Olivia did not seem to notice
Nicola’s reaction. She simply continued as if talking to herself.
“I mean, Alois was in the way.” Olivia’s
expression was calm now, like her fervor from only a moment earlier had never
happened. In fact, all the emotion seemed to have fallen from her face. This
sharp contrast sent a shiver down Nicola’s spine, especially as Olivia resumed
her childish rant. “After all, as long as Alois is alive, I won’t be able to
progress along Sieghart’s route. He’s in my way.”
Olivia’s warped state of mind asserted itself
with the infantile tone accompanying her words, making them sound even more
eerie. Now that she had entirely abandoned her affectations as a young lady,
she was susceptible to violent fluctuations in her mood. At this stage, Nicola
could only stare at her in shock.
Romance. Route. These words seemed somehow familiar
to Nicola. All of a sudden, it hit her like a slap in the face.
“Don’t tell me... Are we inside a game?”
“You’re telling me you lived this long without
figuring that out? That’s funny.” Olivia began to cackle as if she thought this
was the most amusing thing she had ever heard. Raising both arms, she threw her
head back as she laughed before facing heavenward in a most exaggerated
display. “That’s right, this is a dating sim for women! I wished for the chance
to throw away the garbage life I had in reality and be reincarnated as a
character in my favorite game. Despite being granted this new life, not only
was I not made the protagonist, but I became the fiancée of a character I never
even liked. Isn’t that messed up?”
She’s not right in the head. Actually, you’re the one who’s messed up,
Nicola thought. After shaking her head, she managed to swallow these words.
At the moment, Olivia’s eyes were entirely
those of a maniac as she had dilated pupils and her eyes seemingly unfocused.
Everything she said sounded completely unhinged and definitely did not seem
sane to Nicola.
Nicola could not help but feel enraged when
she learned Olivia had killed her for such a stupid reason. She could not
imagine for one second why Olivia would have been willing to kill another
person just for the sake of a pointless game.
As much as it pained her, she understood that
directing her anger at this clearly deranged person would achieve nothing.
Nicola bit her lip and exhaled heavily, waiting for her rage to subside. She
then tried to stay calm as she opened her mouth to speak again.
“But why now? You’ve been engaged for a long
time. Why wait till—” Before Nicola could finish speaking, Olivia slapped her
across the face. A muted sound echoed throughout the room.
Olivia seized the front of Nicola’s uniform,
shook her violently, and snapped, “Because you appeared! You, a mere background
character!” She glared at Nicola with her mouth open so wide as she wailed that
her teeth were visible.
In another corner of the room, Ernst started
to move, but Nicola bade him stay with a glance. Nicola pushed Olivia’s arms
away from her body by herself. Olivia breathed so heavily that her shoulders
rose and fell with each breath, still glaring resentfully at Nicola.
“You know, when I first came here, I hoped for
an ending where I could elope with Sieghart myself! That’s why I allowed Alois
to remain as my fiancé while I joined the student council and worked to gain
Sieghart’s favor, little by little! But in spite of that, you had to show up! A
close childhood friend of Sieghart’s who didn’t even exist in the game! That’s
why!”
“So you decided you would be happier if your
fiancé died, then?” asked Nicola in a low voice.
The corners of Olivia’s mouth curled up once
again. With an absentminded smile, she said, “Well, when you look at our
families’ social standings, Sieghart and I are a match, aren’t we? If Alois
dies, we will naturally end up together as two children of marquesses who are
still unbetrothed.” Just for her desires, Olivia was willing to trample on the
lives of many people and animals. The more Olivia spoke, the more nauseated
Nicola felt.
Having taken Olivia’s hands off of her
clothes, Nicola shoved her. She pushed Olivia away with less effort than she’d
expected, making the older girl stumble back and plop down on top of her bed.
After a brief silence, Nicola asked, “How did
you obtain that honeybee?”
“Hmm, I wonder? God must have caught it for
me. All I’ve done is follow God’s advice,” said Olivia, looking away from
Nicola as if she had no further interest in this background character.
Nicola frowned, then closed her eyes. A being
that would seek a sacrifice for granting a wish as vulgar and foolish as this
could not possibly be a god.
“The one who granted your wish was not a god.
It was the devil himself.”
“Either way, I couldn’t care less. As long as
he could grant my wish,” muttered Olivia, without so much as a glance at
Nicola, still staring into empty space.
Facing Olivia from one side, Nicola quietly
asked her, “You know that we say, ‘If you curse someone, dig two graves.’ You
will most definitely pay a price for the curse you enacted on someone to kill
them, and will not escape your own death. In the Heian period, fortune tellers
commanded by aristocrats to hex someone always dug two graves—one for the
target and one for themselves. They faced their fate... Are you prepared to do
the same?”
Olivia looked up at Nicola, wearing a derisive
expression. With a snort of laughter, she said, “That’s just a moralistic story
people told each other. They just wanted to stop people cursing each other,
right? I mean, I killed you, offered you as a sacrifice, and I’m just fine! So,
I can curse you and Alois, and I’ll be just fine! Aha ha ha ha!”
The act of offering a sacrifice to the devil
was a contract; this curse was another matter entirely. Only an amateur like
Olivia could conflate two such different things. Despite her ignorance, she had
stumbled into territory she should have never ventured into and had run wild
with her half-baked knowledge of the occult. There was no point in Nicola
making any further effort to explain this to her.
“Is that so?” was all Nicola said.
The perpetrator only received the penalty for
cursing another person when said curse was successful. Nicola had to share some
of the blame for Olivia’s misapprehension.
After making eye contact with Ernst, Nicola
turned on her heel and left Olivia’s room.
4
Still sitting on Alois’s bed, Nicola quietly
cut herself off from her shikigami’s sight and hearing as she waited for her to
bring back Ernst.
The duo had stopped to visit Nicola’s room on
their way back. She was sure they would bring back an item that she wished she
had right now, but had omitted to get when she arrived at Alois’s room that
afternoon.
Finding herself with nothing to do for the
time being, Nicola gently stroked Sieghart’s head. Sweat, which was brought on
by the fever induced by the curse, currently drenched his usually silky-smooth
strands of silver hair and made them heavier.
“Guess what? Olivia told me that we’re in a
game right now. It sounds like you’re one of the romanceable characters,
Sieghart. There is apparently a route where you elope with your lover. I guess
that’s why you were always talking about doing that. As if...” Nicola bit her
lip suddenly.
She had thought of the past fifteen years she
had spent in this world, following her reincarnation, as a second chance at
life. Even if someone told her now that characters in a game surrounded her,
she had long since come to see them as people whose lives were equal to hers.
When they got injured, they would bleed; if their hearts stopped, they would
die. All of this and more made them living, breathing human beings.
Alois’s face contorted in agony as his
nightmare continued. Nicola wiped the blood staining his mouth before looking
at the wooden stand-ins on the two boys’ chests.
Each of them had only two left—all the others
had already been broken. On the other side of Nicola’s barrier, the bee still seemed
intent on hunting them down as the disquieting buzzing of its wings continued.
Once the stand-ins were all broken, Sieghart
and Alois would start coughing up blood again. When Nicola’s spiritual energy
ran out, she would no longer be able to maintain the barrier keeping the bee at
a distance. She was nearly at her limit.
Ernst and the shikigami returned to Alois’s
room in less than ten minutes. The shikigami was clutching the crucial glass
jar, which she must have snatched from Olivia’s room, and shared a glance with
the original Nicola.
Both knew each other’s minds as if they could
read them, even if that was not the case. If the shikigami had brought that
thing back, she must have done so with the same resolve Nicola felt. Nicola
hopped down from the bed and stumbled toward the edge of her barrier.
“I’m sorry, me.” Nicola and her copy both
placed their hands on either side of the barrier before letting their foreheads
rest on the same spot.
The shikigami closed her eyes and smiled
awkwardly. She then said, “It’s okay. We’re exactly the same, so I get it.”
In one synchronized motion, Nicola and the
shikigami looked at the bed.
Ten years. Nicola looked down at her slightly older childhood friend, who always
called her name in such a sickly sweet tone. Despite his perfectionism, he
acted like a spoiled child only around Nicola. She could not help but be
touched by the innocent way he trusted her, even as he longed for her.
Alois was not at fault either. If anyone was
to blame here, it was Nicola for having allowed Olivia to run wild for this
long.
There was a limit to the number of lives she
could protect. She had never been so overconfident as to believe she could save
every life by herself. In this life and her previous one, Nicola had always
been careful not to overextend herself. But she had also decided long ago whose
life to prioritize under these circumstances, and she could not let Sieghart
die.
The shikigami, who had the same face as
Nicola, grinned to bolster her courage and said, “I can only say one thing—do
not waver.”
“Sorry. I’m counting on you.”
“Yep, I know. Leave it to me.”
All I can do is seek the
best outcome possible. Although Nicola knew it was
arrogant of her, she reached out to tip the scales of life and death.
On the other side of the barrier, Nicola’s
shikigami opened the glass jar and tipped it upside down to shake out all of
Alois’s hair. After purifying it with an incantation, she whipped the jar
through the air and trapped the bee inside.
Fundamentally speaking, the medium of a curse
would pay no attention to anyone besides the target of the curse. Even with her
meager physical prowess, it was not too difficult for the shikigami to catch
the honeybee, which was intent on continuing to hover over Alois, from behind.
The shikigami held the lid over the jar while
leaving a tiny gap, into which she dropped a lock of blonde hair.
She must have snatched that from Olivia when she
grabbed her,
thought Nicola.
Once the hair was inside the jar, the
shikigami closed it completely.
What Nicola had just done was “overwrite the
curse.” Olivia was now the target of the curse, and Nicola was its perpetrator.
After the shikigami slowly opened the jar’s
lid again, the bee no longer paid any heed to Alois and Sieghart. Instead, it
flew straight out the door, which Nicola’s shikigami had left open.
Suddenly, the air in the room felt much
lighter.
The kodoku was bound to be headed for Olivia
now, with its guiding principle being to fight for its own survival. Simply to
go on living, it would kill whatever opponent was placed alongside it in a
confined space.
Fundamentally, occult theory stated that
destroying or burning the medium for a curse would end it. However, the curse
had not ended despite Ernst’s successful attempt to cut the bee to shreds.
The fact that he could not kill the bee was
probably because Ernst, existing as he did outside of the jar, had no right to
end its life. Only Alois, part of whom was placed inside the jar, and Sieghart,
who was bound to Alois via his dream, could kill it.
And now Olivia, whose hair was inside the jar,
had the right to kill the bee. As for Nicola, she hoped in vain that Olivia
would indeed kill it, but it had become such a potent menace that it prompted
its target to cough up blood just by coming near them. Killing it would likely
be impossible for Olivia.
Nicola silently cast her eyes down. If the
curse had succeeded in killing Alois, the original target, the kodoku would
have rebounded fatally on Olivia anyway.
Knowing that she could not protect Alois and Sieghart
forever, Nicola had reasoned that there was no way to spare Olivia’s life. Of
course, it went without saying that if the curse now killed Olivia, the bee
would then return to finish off Nicola.
If you curse someone, dig
two graves. There was no escaping this law of
nature.
“Hey, Miss Weber. It’s time you explained
what’s going on!” demanded Ernst, who could no longer conceal his irritation
after having been kept out of the loop this whole time. Nicola deliberately did
not answer him.
Instead, she directly instructed him on which
action to take next. “That honeybee will surely be back very soon. As soon as
that happens, please kill it to end the curse. You should be able to do it this
time.” When the curse was successful, the penalty would be inflicted upon the
one who made it. The kodoku would then temporarily lose its immunity to attack.
Once “rights” no longer mattered, Ernst should be able to kill it.
After a moment, Ernst said, “All right.”
Nicola turned back to Alois and Sieghart. “If
you’re going to tend to these two, give them medicine and a cold compress for
their fever. If they develop a chill, warm them up instead. It should be fine
for you to treat their symptoms that way as their condition is sure to mend
quickly.”
Nicola borrowed a fountain pen and a scrap of
parchment from Alois’s desk before swiftly writing something down. She used her
other hand to stop her writing hand from shaking, managing to write several
letters worth of Sanskrit.
“My shikigami must have brought a piece of
paper with these letters written on it from my room. Please place that under
the pillow. You may see a lot of similar characters, but please don’t get them
confused.”
A deathly chill ran through Nicola, as if she
were running a high fever herself. Her fingertips were so cold they felt like
they had frozen solid. She was scared.
Unable to breathe steadily, the inside of her
mouth started to dry up. Still, Nicola pretended nothing was wrong and
continued to issue instructions.
“Ah. Besides that, I think she probably
brought back a sachet filled with wisteria. Place that under their pillow as
well. They will be better off with it than without.” Nicola was jabbering at
the end, but she had given Ernst the minimum degree of instruction he would
need.
Ernst frowned heavily and groaned, “Don’t just
say everything all at once! How am I supposed to remember all of that?!
Besides, that thing is coming back, right? Why not tell me all of that once
this is over?!”
Nicola hesitated for a moment. “If I wait
until then, it will be too late.”
The air in the room changed again. The smell,
the humidity, turned the air damp and murky. It had returned.
The shikigami suddenly lost her form, turning
back into a piece of paper. Finally, the person-shaped piece of paper, which
now had a hole in it, gently fluttered toward the ground. It was singed around
the edges, as if it had caught fire. Nicola would feel almost equally the
effects of any damage it sustained.
A sudden wave of nausea, a deathly chill, and
the smell of rusty iron overcame Nicola Warm, vivid red blood trickled between
her fingers as she clasped a hand over her face.
Unexpectedly, she wanted a hand to hold and
reached out toward her childhood friend. But she hesitated slightly at the
thought of staining someone so beautiful with her blood, making her hand waver
in midair.
Her vision started to shake violently. She
could not tell whether the hand she had extended lost its strength first or the
rest of her body.
Realizing how much sorrow she was about to
cause Sieghart, she tried to say, “I’m sorry.” Instead, blood gushed from her
open mouth.
5
As Sieghart faced his desk and wrote a
solution to a homework problem, a polite knock came at his door. Recently, his
friends visited him every evening around this time, just before lights out.
Sieghart cast a glance at the small lump on
the bed next to his desk, before standing up and inviting the two visitors into
his room. He had no real reason to interrogate them about who they were. As he
did so, he gently withdrew his left hand from the bed, which had rested there
while he worked on his assignment. He met no resistance from the slender hand
he had been holding—it just fell away as it had not gripped him in response.
When he let go of the tiny hand, an unspoken feeling of anxiety tugged at Sieghart’s
heart.
The warmth of that hand, which he had felt on
that moonlit night, was now truly faint. He worried that if he let go, even
that slight hint of warmth would disappear. This scared Sieghart out of his
wits, as he sensed his hands beginning to shake and balled them tightly into
fists.
With a brief sigh, he put aside that
frightening premonition and slowly reached for the doorknob. Alois and Ernst
slipped inside as soon as he opened the door. His two friends immediately
walked over to the bed and looked down at the girl sleeping there.
“Sieg, how is Miss Nicola?” Alois asked
hesitantly. The question was already part of their routine.
Just like every other day, Sieghart could only
shake his head and gaze downward.
“I see...” murmured Alois. He and Ernst also
looked down with gloomy expressions. The night sky, which was visible through a
gap in the curtains, was just as bleak as their hearts and without a single
star.
A week had passed since the case of the curse
had been closed. Nonetheless, Nicola von Weber still lay fast asleep in this
dim room with the lamp turned down low.
◇
When the time for lights out came, Alois and
Ernst returned to their rooms. After seeing them off, Sieghart extinguished his
lamp and quietly climbed into bed. He then gently embraced Nicola, who was so
cold that he was worried about whether she was still alive. He hoped that he
could at least transfer a bit of his warmth to her.
Nicola had always been extremely slender, but
she still felt pleasant to hold, unlike a muscular man’s body. Although she had
always denied this.
“There’s no way that’s true,” she always said.
However, she had become emaciated during her
coma. Sieghart was worried he might easily break her in two if he was not
careful. With each passing day, her life felt ever fainter, ever more
temporary.
After brushing the hair away from her pale
forehead that had no hint of blood coursing underneath, Sieghart placed his own
forehead against hers as if praying. As he did so, he noticed Nicola’s eyelids
flutter slightly. During the brief glimpse of her deep ocean blue eyes,
Sieghart saw they did not focus on anything.
In a parched voice, Nicola whispered, “Am
I...dreaming?” Her voice was so faint as she drifted between her dreams and
reality that she sounded like she might perish at any moment.
Occasionally, Nicola’s consciousness did
surface as she dozed, but each time she fell back into a deep, deep sleep.
Sieghart gave Nicola a slight nod, at which her deep blue eyes crumpled up
slightly as if she were about to cry. Still, she also smiled very slightly.
“I...see...” was all she said before closing
her eyes again. When Sieghart gently stroked her cheek, he found a faint warmth
against his palm. As soon as Nicola brushed her cheek against his hand in
reciprocation, almost like a cat, his expression softened substantially.
Feeling as if his heart had just been grasped
by an unseen hand, Sieghart pulled Nicola closer still.
“Even if you think it’s a dream, I would have
thought you’d put up more of a fight. Hey, Nicola...” As if to hide his own
face and keep from having to look at Nicola’s, he buried his face in her
shoulder. “Don’t leave me... You can’t leave me. I’m begging you.”
Sieghart knew all too well that Nicola had
lost the will to live. That was the very reason he hugged her, however weakly
and desperately, on this night, as he had every other night since she became
sick.
Nicola was having a dream that took her back
many years, one of a little girl being bullied.
She saw flashes of disembodied hands resting
on the shoulders of people who passed her in the street.
Severed heads floating in midair.
Arms sprouting out of the ground.
A murky black haze writhing in a corner of the
schoolhouse.
The little girl was frightened by things no
one else but her could see. Those around her thought she was creepy, so she
became an easy target for bullying.
“You’re lying.”
“I’m not lying.”
Though she now knew, both of them had been
telling the truth.
Each person had their own “reality.”
Whatever two people could see would be part of
their shared reality. If their visions ever differed, it was only natural to
view this as a contradiction between their realities. Objectivity and
subjectivity would never really be compatible.
By the time she entered elementary school, the
little girl realized that what she saw differed from what other people
perceived. Still, it was difficult for her to fit in with others.
She could not knowingly step on the bloody
woman she once saw collapsed on the crosswalk. When the same woman lunged at
her, she could not help but flinch. If strange things chased after her, she had
no choice but to run away.
From the perspective of those who could not
see what she could, her behavior seemed very odd indeed. That was inevitable.
Eventually, the little girl could no longer
withstand the bullying. She became depressed and ended up confining herself to
her home. It was then that Nicola finally realized that something was not
right.
At first, she had been convinced that her
lives were flashing before her eyes. She had watched this dream go by
absentmindedly, but with this, the story she was watching had deviated sharply
from her memory. This caused her to panic.
“You mustn’t just stay at home. If you never
leave the house... You’ll never be found.”
In her past life, Nicola had always killed
time after school at a local shrine. As long as she was within its grounds, she
was less likely to be harassed by strange beings.
But it was there that, perhaps by sheer
coincidence, Nicola met her mentor.
“Hey, you little rug rat. You can see real
well, can’t you? Life has to be hell when your eyes are that good. You’ve got a
tough road ahead of you.”
On the day Nicola first encountered him, she
became certain that she was not just a weirdo. Meeting him had really changed
her world to the point she could well have called it a paradigm shift on par
with the Copernican Revolution. Learning that other people could see the same
things she did and even occupied a specialized profession moved her beyond
words.
The days she spent surrounded by her mentor
and other apprentices who saw the same world that she did had, at one point,
seemed utterly unattainable. Had it not been for this chance meeting, Nicola
would have surely cursed the world around her.
Supposing for a moment that she had not met
someone else who saw what she did, her life would have proceeded in a
completely different manner—the wrong direction.
Precisely because Nicola had once had similar
experiences, she felt that she needed to call out to the child whose life so
resembled her own.
“You mustn’t stay cooped up at home. If you go
outside, someday, someone will surely find you.”
There were limits to how long one could go on
pretending not to see. As if by some sudden mutation, there was no way for them
to lead a decent life. When children who could “see” were born into normal
households, being discovered by other people with the same ability gave them
hope.
Though this was certainly the case, if one
stayed cooped up in their house, there was no chance of meeting people who
shared the same view of reality.
“I know it’s hard. But you can’t just stay at
home by yourself. Someone who sees the same world you do may be closer than you
think. So, please... Go outside. I’m begging you!” With all the words at her disposal,
Nicola tried to convince the child.
Yet, Nicola’s words never reached the child
who could not see her. At a loss for what to do next, she stood there
motionless.
“You can’t stay there, you can’t... If you
stay inside, no one will find you...” Overcome by a feeling of powerlessness,
Nicola shook her head helplessly. She appeared to be entirely invisible here,
unable to intervene in any way to save the child’s future.
Eventually, after barely attending middle
school or high school, the young girl became an adult.
Still by herself in a room meant for a small
child, she lamented her life, “I’m not crazy! It’s the people around me, the
ones who can’t see, who are strange! The world is wrong! I am...completely
sane!”
She felt so isolated—there was no one who
understood her, no one with whom she could share her experiences. She
inevitably became more and more self-conscious.
Ah, thought Nicola. If I
hadn’t met someone that day who could see the same things I did, I wonder if I
might have ended up the same way. With that, she found
herself unable to say anything more.
“Each person has their own reality—that much
is inevitable.” Nicola was only able to develop this outlook because she had
met someone who shared her view of the world. Going through life without ever
finding proof that she was not simply insane would have been a kind of hell she
could not even imagine.
The young woman spent her days vilified by her
parents, who called her a “loser.” Every day, she despaired at the thought of
her apparent mental abnormality. As she grew increasingly introverted, her
world eventually became entirely confined to that tiny room.
Not having adequately experienced romance
might have contributed to the young woman’s descent into an obsession with
dating simulation games. This natural consequence allowed her to experience
pseudo-romance without ever leaving the house.
Her favorite was set in an academy with a
fictional, Europe-esque setting. This was the same world that Nicola had lived
in these past fifteen years, thinking she had been granted a second life by
chance.
In the game’s story, a girl who was once a
commoner was somehow granted the opportunity to attend a school meant for the
upper classes. Through her relationships with a wide cast of male characters,
she would rejoice in her life as a student. That was the gist of the plot.
One of the cast was a classic prince, who
acted aloof and whose true feelings were difficult to ascertain. Also included
was the son of a marquess, whose excessively refined features had made him
distrustful of women. Other characters were a stubborn but faithful knight, a
mischievous prince from a neighboring kingdom, and a teacher with a reputation
as a playboy, notable for his more mature charm.
That teacher is probably the
same man who drove Anne to commit suicide, thought
Nicola. Without meaning to, it seemed that Nicola and Gemini had forced a
romanceable character out of the academy.
Certainly, the titles of the many characters
scrolling across the screen were familiar to Nicola. But that was only true of
their titles. In fact, Sieghart was not nearly as distrustful of women as his
biography in the game suggested. Another character described as a mere
“playboy” had actually driven someone to suicide.
There was no doubt that some deviations had
occurred because of the involvement of Nicola, who, in essence, was a new
character. And outside of what had been depicted on-screen, there must be
countless people who had lived and died.
Even if the basis for this world was the
game’s setting, the people who lived there were not characters but human
beings. The people she had met here were real humans, true to life.
Some characters from the game’s cast, whom
Nicola did not recognize, were introduced later, but she decided not to delve
any deeper into the game’s story. She was not interested in who the protagonist
really was or how things might have unfolded if she had made different
decisions.
At the end of the day, that story was nothing
more than a series of events focused on only one person. Whatever the results
of the unknown protagonist’s decisions might have been, they had nothing to do
with the life of Nicola, who existed outside of that story.
Though her observation may have been
pedestrian, she realized everyone was a supporting character in someone else’s
story and the protagonist of their own lives. Nicola had lived her own
life—nothing more and nothing less.
While taking a break from the games she
enjoyed so much, the young woman had stumbled upon a certain rumor while
surfing the Internet. The claim was about “a ritual that will grant your wish”
if one offered appropriate payment, which she found most enticing.
Beings that people called demons were more
tangled up in society than one might think. It was not at all rare for gods
worshipped by cults to turn out to be demons once one took a closer look. As
the trend of globalization proceeded, the boundaries that once existed between
supernatural beings from different countries became as fuzzy as the
international borders themselves.
Dealing with demons from abroad was indeed
part of any exorcist’s job these days, but Nicola could not quite claim to have
had a great deal of experience with them. She thought the young woman had made
her way to the site of a cultist group controlled by a demon that went
unchecked by exorcists.
Though anyone could have seen at a glance that
she was conducting a ritual to summon a demon, in her ignorance, the young
woman had gone through with it. Under normal circumstances, most amateurs would
have failed to execute the summoning ritual. Perhaps because of her natural
affinity for the supernatural, she had been unfortunately successful.
In the end, the young woman bestowed her
offering to the demon, just as she had been asked, before making her wish.
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“Aha!” came a mocking laugh, prompting Nicola
to look behind her.
“Hey, how did that feel just now? How did it
feel to see the life of the girl you killed and who killed you flash before
your eyes? Hey, hey, tell me!”
However, when Nicola turned around, she could
see no one behind her. With the drawling voice—which rubbed her the wrong
way—still echoing around her, Nicola scowled.
“Are you the one Olivia called ‘God’?” she
asked. After a beat, the formless voice started to cackle shrilly. Only a
simple, unadulterated malice in the laughter resounded in Nicola’s eardrums
most unpleasantly.
“Aha—Aha ha ha ha ha! Ah, that’s funny! Me, a
god! Really, she was stupid, wasn’t she?”
The voice sounded so delighted, so pleased
that it could not help but laugh. It bounced around the room, sounding
genuinely cheerful. Nicola found the shrill voice, which contained more than a
hint of villainy, seriously uncomfortable to listen to.
She scowled and furrowed her brow before
asking, “What is your name?”
“Oh, me?” replied the voice, before falling
silent momentarily. After a short spell, the voice without a shape answered.
“Yeah, right. I guess you can call me Rumpknecht if you like.”
“Nah, you’re totally a demon,” said Nicola
scathingly, unable to help herself. At this, the being cackled shrilly once
more.
Rumpknecht, also known as the dark Santa
Claus, was a being who gave naughty children gifts they would never have wished
for. In Germany, his name was synonymous with demons, to which Nicola could
only let out a little sigh.
“When you failed to make Olivia the
protagonist of the story, was that on purpose?”
“Well, I mean, her wish was to let her be
reincarnated inside the game... It wasn’t to let her be reincarnated as the
protagonist!”
“I guess not...”
This was a being for whom the misfortune of
human beings was his supreme pleasure. However carefully one chose their words
when forming the contract, the creature known as a demon would find some way to
split hairs and trip people up before ridiculing them for their foolishness.
Those who knew this would never think of
making a contract with a demon, but the young woman had not known. Her
ill-fated wish, born of her ignorance, had led her down a path to a truly
pitiable end.
The formless voice continued cackling to his
heart’s content until, with an air of satisfaction, he finally said, “Aha ha...
I definitely made the right call when I threw you together in the same world!
Thanks to that decision, I got to see something truly amusing! I never would
have expected you to curse her back, ready to die alongside her!” His voice
sounded as if it had steeped in a concentrated brew of malice, delight, and
arrogance. He audibly sneered as he attempted to rile Nicola up. “That was noble
of you. Is this the power of love?”
“As if it were anything as high-minded as
love,” spat Nicola without thinking about it.
The voice was overcome by bursts of laughter
again, as if it found this particularly amusing.
“You think love is high-minded?! Aha ha...
This is what makes humans so funny!” Every syllable the voice spoke dripped
with irony and was unnecessarily elongated.
“Hey, could you stop talking like that? It’s
really getting on my nerves.”
“I don’t think so!”
Nicola clicked her tongue unreservedly. But
she knew that this was her fault for thinking she could have a meaningful
conversation with a member of the demonic hordes.
Still, by way of revenge, she seized the
contents of her pockets and hurled them in the direction of the voice that
dripped with malice. She did this despite knowing a flashback was a kind of
dream and being sure that this would have no effect.
The handful of dream catchers remaining in
Nicola’s pockets flew quite a long way, tracing an arc in the air before
clattering to the ground.
“Wow, so scary! Fall back, fall back! Right
then, let’s meet again someday if we have the chance! Bis
bald!” As the voice delivered that parting shot, it slowly grew fainter.
But something about how the demon had phrased
that did not sit right. With a frown, Nicola said, “No, of course we won’t have
another chance. I’m about to die, right?”
“Hee hee hee, aha... Too bad! You probably
won’t die, I think? After all, I think I heard a real god say she owed you a
debt. Something about an offering.”
“Huh?” Nicola could not believe her ears and
did not understand what the voice was referring to.
She opened her mouth but could not immediately
find any words to say. When she finally managed to squeeze out her voice, it
trembled pathetically.
“No
way... Why?! When I made a curse, don’t you know that I was prepared to...” She
could not keep going. Are you telling me that I
alone may go on living after killing another person? There is no way that would
be allowed. Besides anything else, I can’t forgive myself. Nicola clenched her teeth
together.
As if unable to contain his delight, the demon
cried, “Poor little human! How wretched you are!” He then let out a laugh that
seemed to originate deep in his throat. “I shouldn’t be surprised! The gods
really are irrational! And cruel! It looks like the desires of the humans who
worship them couldn’t mean less to them! Bye for now, child of humanity! I’ll
see you again someday!”
After those final words, Nicola no longer
heard the voice of the being who sounded like the manifestation of villainy.
Nicola felt weak and slowly fell to her knees on the spot. Though her hands
were shaking, she buried them in her hair.
Nicola could not have defended Alois and
Sieghart indefinitely. If she had taken no action and they had died, the
kodoku’s curse would have rebounded on Olivia anyway.
The choice was between three deaths or two.
Nicola chose the latter and had issued the curse, intending to compensate for
Olivia’s life with her own and journey to death with the pitiful soul. Despite
that...
“I didn’t wish to go on living. I never wished
for this.”
7
Her body felt stiff, like a plank of wood, but
it was wrapped in something warm. She slowly breathed in, sending air into her
lungs. A familiar fragrance, something sweet but not the work of perfume,
pierced her nostrils. Suddenly, her body relaxed, releasing all its pent-up
tension.
When did I start to find
this sweet fragrance reassuring? Nicola wondered as
she worked her way back through her memories, but she closed her eyes again
after failing to find a clear beginning.
The same hand she had extended that day and
hesitated to use to take Sieghart’s hand now firmly enclosed her childhood
friend’s palm. His other arm hugged Nicola tightly, but with just the right
amount of strength in order to not cause her any pain.
As soon as Nicola sensed the warmth, she was
forced to realize that she had survived. She felt the back of her throat
tighten suddenly. To fight back the tears, Nicola bit her lip tightly.
After spending some time in the same mood, she
took a deep breath before slowly exhaling again. Stirring from her position on
the bed still seemed like too much trouble. With only a slight turn of her
head, she surveyed her surroundings and saw sunlight streaming through a gap in
the curtains. From the birds chirping, she judged it was most likely morning.
Nicola tried to say, “Um, just for starters,
why are we sleeping together?” But she was uncertain she made a sound. The
inside of her mouth was as parched as a desert. If she did manage to speak, her
voice would likely be raspy.
“Ungh...” Nicola groaned indistinctly. With
that, the long eyelashes on the ravishing face right in front of her stirred.
He breathed gently and just barely opened his eyes. His translucent skin was so
smooth Nicola could not even make out its pores. As his eyelids opened, two of
the world’s finest purple gems peered out from within.
They faced each other at such an extremely
close range that Nicola felt like their eyelashes might touch as they stared at
one another for over ten seconds. Sieghart then opened his purple eyes so wide
that they looked like they might fall out.
“Nicola?!”
Sieghart seized Nicola’s hands and pulled the
top half of her body upright with a minimum of care and politeness. The moment
he had done so, he embraced her, wrapping his arms around her. Nicola, who was
even thinner and weaker than usual, certainly lacked the strength to tear his
arms away and went along with it.
Like a broken record, Sieghart called Nicola’s
name again and again. He hugged her so tightly and insistently that she thought
he might crush her to death.
Sieghart, that hurts, Nicola thought of saying, but then decided not to. There was not even
a hair’s breadth between them, so she failed to pretend not to notice that
Sieghart’s body was trembling.
With extreme sluggishness, her arm feeling
like it had been immersed in a swamp, Nicola raised her hand and silently
stroked the silver head resting on her shoulder. When she ran her fingers
through his hair, which was wonderfully smooth, she noticed that the sensation
did not last as long as she expected. Before long, her right hand touched only
air. She remembered Sieghart’s long, silky, luxuriant silver hair reaching as
far as his back. It seemed that, at some point, it had become much shorter.
Nicola slowly closed her eyes, and after a
moment, she said, “You gave it as an offering to Meatol, goddess of fertility,
right?” A real god... A debt... An offering... Nicola
recalled what the demon had said.
Besides the one whose statue she had cleared
of the vines surrounding it, back in those ruins, she could not think of any
god for whom she had done any favors. And it was none other than Nicola who had
told Sieghart that it might accept his hair as an offering.
With his head still buried in Nicola’s
shoulder, in a muffled voice, Sieghart said, “You told me that when dealing
with beings from beyond the human realm, I must decide how to pay them. So, I
made my own wish and my payment.”
After gently pulling himself away from Nicola,
he traced the curves of her body as if confirming that she was really there.
“Looks like...you really are alive...” A
definite sense of relief and the tiniest hint of sentimentality accompanied his
trembling voice.
“I am afraid that I did indeed survive...”
murmured Nicola, finally forcing the words out before averting her eyes.
“Nicola, won’t you look at me?” Though
Sieghart’s words were gentle, there was something very forceful about his tone.
Nicola raised her head, but his amethyst eyes arrested her gaze.
Sieghart knitted his elegant eyebrows
together. His expression was contorted, almost as if he were enduring some
pain, as he opened his mouth to speak again.
“I’m sorry. I knew what you had resolved to do
and what you wanted to happen, Nicola. But I wanted— We wanted you to go on
living rather than have the chance to atone for your sin. With our own inflated
egos, we made that wish,” said Sieghart before scooping up Nicola’s hand and
wrapping his own around it.
Despite his words sounding like a confession,
there was a strong sense of his will somewhere in his tone. Nicola could not
brush his hands away.
Sieghart’s amethyst eyes were fixed squarely
on Nicola as he continued, “Don’t worry. Since we wished for you to live,
Nicola, we’ll share the burden of that sin.”
With these words, Nicola felt a pang in her
chest as if a claw had suddenly seized her heart. She bit her lip as the back
of her throat tightened again.
He already knows what my sin
was. When Nicola understood this, she felt like the
blood inside her had gone cold.
Sieghart was very sharp.
On that moonlit night, when they’d burned the
doll, Nicola had already told Sieghart that cursing someone meant the very same
misfortune would later visit the instigator. By piecing together the events
that Ernst had witnessed, Sieghart must have immediately figured out Olivia’s
misdeeds and what Nicola had done in response.
Nicola bit her lip tightly. As she shifted on
top of the bed, she heard something rigid snapping underneath her. The mattress
was somehow uneven—there seemed to be some hard bumps on it. It almost felt
like she was sitting on top of countless wooden planks.
She nervously drew back the duvet to reveal
several wooden stand-ins spread out beneath it and opened her eyes wide in
shock. At a glance, there seemed to be no fewer than three hundred of them. All
of them had Nicola’s name written on them.
“What are these...?” she murmured in a dry
rasp.
Sieghart’s expression relaxed slightly as he
said, “Alois went looking for the same fragrant wood that you used. Ernst cut
them into the shape of people, and Alois wrote your name on every single one. I
think he might have bought out the entire stock of that wood—not only in the
royal capital but all the surrounding towns as well.” Sieghart stated all this
with a wry smile, but Nicola was at a loss for words.
The stand-ins were very helpful, but the
fragrant wood used as their raw material was quite expensive. Even Nicola would
not use them unless the circumstances really called for them. And Alois had
made so many too. Even as a conservative estimate, she reckoned he had spent a
sufficiently large enough sum that if he had used it to buy a new carriage, he
could have expected to get some change back.
Of course, it was not only the money involved
that floored Nicola. Thinking of the time he must have put in to prepare them,
Nicola hung her head and drew her lips into a thin line.
This undertaking was a totally different
proposition from making just a few at a time. Nicola could not believe that
they had fulfilled such a massive task for her sake.
“I wasn’t the only one who wished for you to
be spared. Alois and Ernst made the same wish. It’s our fault that you
survived. Feel free to resent us for wasting your resolve. Feel free to blame
us.” This time, Sieghart gently embraced Nicola and pulled her closer. “It’s
our fault, so you do not need to feel guilty for being alive right now. We did
the wrong thing, not you, Nicola.”
Past her childhood friend’s shoulder, of which
his new haircut provided a clear view, she could see the countless wooden
stand-ins strewn across the bed. This act proved how they had wished for
Nicola’s life to be prolonged, not caring about the consequences.
All Nicola could do was clench her jaw hard,
knowing she had no right to cry. Still, the feelings that welled up inside her
became warm tears in the corners of her eyes, which ran down her cold cheeks.
After gathering at the point of her chin, they turned into drops and fell.
The more she told herself that she did not
have the right, the larger the teardrops seemed to grow. The dam had already
given way—the tears fell incessantly, staining her childhood friend’s shoulder.
On that day, for the first time, since she had
been born again in that world, Nicola cried openly.
8
Nicola cried and cried some more. When she had
finally calmed down a bit, a strong sense of shame suddenly overcame her.
When she abruptly grabbed Sieghart by the
shoulder and pushed him away, he did not resist.
“I would just like to confirm one thing. Is
His Highness also all right? Does he seem to have any lingering symptoms?”
“Nope, he’s fine. And I think we’ll be getting
a visit from Alois himself soon enough. On weekdays, he comes to check on you
just before lights out. But he said that since it’s a weekend, he’ll visit this
morning.”
“Sieg, I’m coming in,” a voice rang outside
the room. With uncanny timing, a knock came at the door, then it opened.
After stepping into Sieghart’s room, Alois
stopped the instant he saw that Nicola was awake. Because he had stopped so
suddenly, Ernst, who was walking behind Alois, bumped into him and sent him
tumbling forward.
“Your Highness! Please excuse my—”
But Alois did not seem to listen to Ernst’s
apology. He did not try to stop the momentum that Ernst had imparted by
barreling into him, but borrowed it as he made a beeline for the bed. He then
tightly hugged Sieghart and Nicola together.
“Ugh...” groaned Nicola. All around her, she
started to hear many disquieting snapping sounds. She then squeaked, “Eek!
W-Wait a moment! You’re breaking them—you’re breaking such expensive items for
no reason! Please, let go! Sieghart, fight back!”
“Eh?” mumbled Sieghart.
“Miss Nicola! Thank goodness! Really, thank
goodness you’re all right! I’m sorry, so sorry... And really, thank you...”
said Alois.
Sieghart did nothing to help, but instead
chuckled as Alois would not cease clinging to them.
As for Nicola herself, she did not have the
strength to tear Alois’s arms away and could only wail ineffectually.
Meanwhile, Ernst just wandered sheepishly around the room. Once Nicola was
thoroughly exhausted by this mortifying predicament and her body went limp,
Sieghart and Alois, who had their arms around her, slowly realized how weak she
still was.
Eventually, after releasing his grip on Nicola
and Sieghart, Alois silently borrowed the chair at Sieghart’s writing desk and
sat down. Nicola and Sieghart remained sitting on the bed, and Ernst leaned
against a wall.
Alois’s expression darkened. For a brief spell
he was silent, apparently feeling hesitant about what he was going to say.
He then said, dispassionately and lacking
intonation, “Miss Olivia is dead. For now, her death is being treated as
unnatural, but they do not have a suspect.”
“I see...” Nicola silently averted her eyes
once again.
Ignorance was a sin, and knowledge was a
punishment. Olivia’s half-baked knowledge of the occult had been both. Even if
she had been dancing on the demon’s palm the entire time, death was an
appropriate penalty for her crime.
As Nicola could not have gone on protecting
Alois and Sieghart forever, she’d had no choice but to overwrite the curse to
save their lives. If she had not done so, the curse of the kodoku would have
rebounded on Olivia and killed her anyway.
Was she to let three people die or only two?
Nicola had chosen the latter. It was not as if she regretted that choice in and
of itself.
“From what Sieg knows and what Ern
witnessed... Putting those together, I think I at least understand the bare
minimum of what happened. Once again, I am so sorry. And once again, thank
you.”
Alois reached out to take Nicola’s hands
before squeezing them tightly. With his pair of emerald eyes staring at her,
glowing with sincerity, Nicola could not bring herself to look directly at
Alois. Her eyes wandered instead.
“Sieg may already have told you this, but we
all wished for you to live, Miss Nicola. So you needn’t feel beholden to anyone
because you’re alive right now. We want you to share the burden with us.” Alois
smiled, though his expression seemed troubled.
Unfortunately, this was not a proposal so
simple that Nicola could just blindly state her approval. She might have really
died if it had not been her shikigami that executed the curse rather than
Nicola herself, and if not for the goddess’s protection and the many stand-ins
provided by Alois. If any of these things had been lacking, the consequences
would have been her end.
Though she knew in her head that a series of
miracles had saved her, she could not bring herself to affirm her life in
earnest. Her gaze danced around the room, making her look like a lost child.
Unexpectedly, Ernst spoke up as Nicola was in
her state of confusion. After marching up to Nicola, he knelt to bring his eye
level down to hers. He spoke haltingly, as if he were still searching for the
right words.
“Ah, my family has guarded the royal family
for generations. In turn, I was assigned to protect His Highness and once came
very close to death in the line of my duty.”
Nicola could only blink at this seemingly
unconnected tale. Without any concern for whether Nicola understood his point,
Ernst continued.
“I still remember clearly what my father said
when he scolded me for that... He told me that when protecting someone, only a
third-rate bodyguard would fail to ensure his own survival. He told me that
unless you both can celebrate your safety together after facing death, the one
who survived will not feel as if they have been saved. And so...”
Despite the artlessness of his speech, Nicola
could not help but gasp as his blue-gray eyes stared directly into her own.
“And so, won’t you allow yourself to be saved
for the sake of His Highness and His Grace? Won’t you affirm your own life?”
Nicola looked past Ernst’s shoulder to see
Alois silently nod. When she looked up at Sieghart sitting beside her, he
gently patted her on the back.
Nicola tried and failed to breathe, her throat
making an undignified gurgling sound as she did so. It seemed that her tear
ducts, having already given way once, had not tightened back up. Once again,
her view went blurry against her will.
In a flash, Alois stood up and ran his hand
over Nicola’s head to stroke her gently. He said, “Ern, let’s stay outside
until Miss Nicola has calmed down. I don’t think she would like us to see her
like this.”
Alois then left, dragging Ernst behind him.
Sieghart embraced Nicola as always, holding her close and remaining quiet as
she sobbed.
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Nicola wondered just how long she had been
crying.
Even after her tears had dried up, she had not
exchanged words with Sieghart for a while and quietly accepted his warmth. Once
the redness had disappeared from her cheeks and she had recovered her
breathing, she thought about something.
“Why am I in your room, Sieghart?” she asked.
Sieghart looked surprised at first, but then
his expression softened again as he said, “If we had left you in the girls’
dormitory, then we wouldn’t have been able to nurse you back to health. Had
anyone found you in that condition—in an unexplained coma, of all things—you
surely would have been taken to the infirmary. Besides, we were also worried
that the school might suspect you of having something to do with Miss Olivia’s
death.”
I see, thought Nicola. I guess
that’s true.
“Ah, by the way. While you were sleeping,
Gemini went to school in your place, disguised as you.”
“Gemini did that?” It appeared Nicola’s
familiar had been hard at work the whole time she was sleeping.
While Nicola thought she would have to reward
Gemini somehow, Sieghart made one last announcement in a stiffer voice.
“There is one more thing I must tell you.”
Nicola looked suspiciously up at Sieghart’s face. He seemed hesitant briefly,
but then his expression turned resolute as if he had finally made up his mind.
“Marquess Elsheimer’s heir, your uncle, has passed away... Consequently,
Viscount Weber will now inherit Marquess Elsheimer’s title.”
Nicola gasped. Did the
family of his elder brother who haunted him finally realize their wish for
revenge, or was it a coincidence? She would probably never know the
truth now. However, it looked like the side effect of the kodoku curse—that the
family of anyone who used it would prosper—had indeed taken its merciless
effect on her household.
She realized that, whether she wanted it or
not, her status had gone from the daughter of a viscount to one who was already
informally recognized as a marquess.
“Nicola, do you dislike me?”
Sieghart could be very unfair, was what Nicola
would have told herself if he had immediately followed up the news of her
elevation—which placed them on equal standing—with a request for marriage. She
could have easily forsaken him without mercy but just furrowed her brow.
I do dislike you. Nicola tried saying the words to herself, rolling them around in her
mouth without speaking. They tasted bitter, with an even nastier aftertaste. It
was unpleasant in a way that was difficult to define—something like food that
had gone bad.
Of course I don’t dislike you, she thought as she
frowned.
“I think you know that I’m not the kind of
person who would risk my life for someone I dislike.”
“Yeah, I guess you aren’t,” Sieghart said
casually, as if he had never doubted her feelings for him for a second. Nicola
could not help but feel a little annoyed, and glared up at him resentfully.
“So, do you like me, then?” asked Sieghart.
Nicola paused and responded, “I’m not sure.”
She felt exasperated, still struggling against this after all that had
happened. But as a knee-jerk reaction, this was the answer she gave.
“I see... That’s quite a pickle. I intended to
match your awkward pace as best as possible. If we really can’t even say that
much to each other, I guess I have no other choice.”
“Eh?”
Controlling his strength just enough so as not
to hurt Nicola, Sieghart took her by the hand and pulled her close. The
distance between them had already been small, but now it was zero.
At first, Nicola felt flustered by being so
close to Sieghart that she could feel his breath, but her sluggish body would
not do as she asked. She could do nothing as he stole her lips away.
“Mmf?!”
In shock, Nicola tried to pull away, yet the
arm wrapped around her waist would not let her do so. She felt as if the
ever-deepening kiss was stealing her very breath and mind as her eyes started
to glaze over.
“Mm... Mmf... Haah...!” gasped Nicola as
Sieghart finally released her.
“Did you hate that?”
What’s the big idea, asking
me if I hated a kiss after planting it on me without asking permission first? So Nicola thought, but whether she wanted to or not, she had to
acknowledge something. Feeling frustrated, as if her feelings had betrayed her,
she bit her now moistened lip.
She was not such a beginner as to claim she
had no clue where her thoughts and feelings were leaning. Plus, she could not
stand for her face to feel so hot.
With a look of satisfaction, Sieghart stroked
Nicola’s flushed cheeks.
“So, did you hate that?”
Nicola hesitated for a moment. “I did
not...hate it.”
“Good. It pays to be honest. Well then, as
clever as you are, you must know how you feel,” said Sieghart. Suddenly his
stern expression relaxed like his face had thawed, replaced by a startlingly
sexy smile.
Nicola’s face was still hot and flushed.
Finally, with her breath heaving along with her chest, she said, “Aren’t you a
little too skilled at this?” A sore loser, Nicola could not help but say
something so lacking in charm.
Sieghart pouted as he grabbed her hand again.
“You shouldn’t underestimate a man afflicted by his first love.”
Guided by Sieghart’s hand, Nicola placed her
own on her childhood friend’s chest. Through her palm, she could feel his pulse
working on overdrive, as if sounding an alarm to the rest of his body. She
blinked in surprise.
“I am not so void of feeling as to remain calm
after kissing a girl I’ve loved ever since I was a child.” An innocent,
slightly embarrassed smile broke Sieghart’s perfect, doll-like appearance.
Nicola’s flushed cheeks showed no signs of calming down either.
She hated the idea of anyone seeing her with
her face so red, so she quickly turned away. But her timing was poor—she found
herself looking toward the door just as it opened again.
“I’ve brought something to cool your face
down!” announced Alois. “Aha ha, Miss Nicola, you’re bright red! It looks like
things went well, Sieghart... Ah, by the way, did you end up needing your last
resort?”
“Looks like I somehow managed without it,”
answered Sieghart, making no effort to conceal his delight as Alois called to
him with a knowing look.
Rendered speechless, Nicola covered her lips
with the back of her hand. If that kiss was not Sieghart’s last resort, what on
earth could it have been?
“Tell me... What was your last resort?”
“Eh, ah...” As Sieghart hemmed and hawed,
Nicola swiftly abandoned him and glared at Alois instead.
While handing Nicola a damp handkerchief for
her flaming cheeks, Alois looked back at her with a mischievous smile.
“Here’s a hint. Now that Miss Olivia has
passed away, I, the crown prince, am without a fiancée. Therefore, I need to
select a new fiancée as quickly as possible,” said Alois, punctuating this
revelation by holding up a finger.
Nicola recalled that Olivia had belonged to
the house of a marquess, just like Sieghart. The only reason the crown prince
had been engaged to a marquess’s daughter rather than the daughter of a duke
was that there was no duke with a daughter of a suitable age.
Nicola, now a presumptive marquess’s daughter,
was so taken aback that she momentarily turned pale as the burning in her
cheeks suddenly subsided.
“Don’t tell me...”
“That’s right. If things remain as they stand,
they will count you as a candidate for my new fiancée. Though, well, you will
only be one of many.”
At light speed, Nicola turned back to Sieghart
and firmly grabbed his hand, which was elegant despite being callused by
swordplay.
“Sieghart, let us get engaged at once. If you
will still have me, please, let’s do it without delay.”
“You see. I knew it would go like this, so I
considered telling you to be my last resort,” muttered Sieghart with a weary
expression.
While Alois cackled to himself, Ernst returned
to the room and growled, “Why, you! Don’t you think you’re being disrespectful
to His Highness?!”
As this scene unfolded, Nicola finally felt
like her normal life had returned, and she had started to realize it was
decent. Her expression softened as she shrugged slightly to herself.
This isn’t so bad, she thought as she inadvertently let out an amused chuckle.
Nicola’s Little Occult Lectures: Lesson 5
Curse
Even if the one you curse suffers misfortune,
your excitement will only be temporary. After all, when the curse successfully
imparts that misfortune, the same woe will return to you.
The expression “If you curse someone, dig two
graves” is quite famous in Japan. So why do people still curse each other so
carelessly? This has always puzzled those in my profession.
A curse is something like a tangled thread. It
is surprisingly easy to get a piece of string tangled, but much more difficult
to untangle it again. Sometimes, no matter how much time and effort you spend,
you find that you are caught up too deeply in a curse. No matter how hard you
struggle, you will never escape it. There’s really nothing more bothersome than
a curse.
Epilogue
Half a month had already passed since Nicola
had awoken from her slumber.
Even so, Nicola had always been puny. In order
to recover the stamina and weight she had lost, she spent her days struggling
to move her sluggish body and eating heartily between meals.
Having come so close to death, she could not
hope to instantly return to everyday life immediately after regaining
consciousness. As for her presence at the academy, Gemini still attended
classes in her place.
After spending an entire week doing nothing
but sleeping, her physical strength seemed to have diminished by about fifteen
percent. Sieghart had apparently moved Nicola’s limbs for her while she was
napping, but her muscles had decidedly atrophied anyway.
Nicola had time to kill anyway, so she walked
around the dormitory and the school grounds while the other students were in
class. She spent every day working diligently toward her rehabilitation.
That said, she recovered surprisingly quickly
after just two weeks of this lifestyle. After half a month, she was already in
a condition not too far removed from what it had been before her coma. She knew
that, now that she had recovered, her rehab lifestyle could not continue
indefinitely.
“I guess it’s about time to get down to
business,” she muttered. This happened around the same time that the final
class of the day ended, and students came pouring out of the schoolhouse.
Sieghart would probably return to the dormitory building soon enough.
Nicola turned on her heel, deciding to head
back to Sieghart’s room. Incidentally, from when she had woken up until this
very day, Nicola had remained in Sieghart’s room. Though she would have
preferred not to, it was in their mutual interest.
While waiting in Sieghart’s room for her
childhood friend to return, she recalled the discussion she and Sieghart had
had on the day she woke up. At first, Nicola had naturally intended to return
to the girls’ dormitory.
“Right then, I’ll just be heading back to the
girls’... Wha...” But when she tried to stand up from the bed, her legs got
tangled up, and she nearly toppled over. Thinking she was about to fall, she
reflexively closed her eyes and braced for the impact. By quickly holding out
his arm, Sieghart averted the fall. But that was not the end...
Though Sieghart had reached out to support
Nicola, he did not intend to help her continue standing. Instead, he
unquestioningly sat her back down on the bed. After kneeling next to the bed
and locking eyes with Nicola, he sighed in exasperation.
“In that state, there’s no need for you to go
back, right?”
Nicola hesitated. “But, well, I mean, this is
the boys’ dorm...” Her eyes moved back and forth. But Sieghart paid no mind and
just smiled cheerfully. His usual tender manner was unbroken, but underneath
that, Nicola could definitely sense his true intentions. He would not let
Nicola get away.
“A spell of invisibility—is that what you
called it? I heard about it from Ernst. I think he said that it can hide you completely?”
“Oof...” Nicola was suddenly at a loss for
words.
“If Gemini goes back to the girls’ dormitory
in your place and you can become invisible, surely that won’t raise questions.
More importantly, you might still need some assistance to get around. Say, is
there really any need for you to return to the girls’ dormitory yet?”
Nicola was left speechless. Underneath the
force of Sieghart’s smile, she could only avert her eyes and stay silent. Still
grinning, though there was definitely something insistent about his smile,
Sieghart pressed further.
“While you were sleeping, we entered the
middle of autumn. As sensitive as you are, when it gets to this time of year,
you always complain about getting into a cold bed at night. Unfortunately,
winter bedding will not arrive at the dormitories for another month. So, until
then, this is just a suggestion...” Having spoken thus far, Sieghart stopped
and smiled mischievously. “If you choose to stay here, I’ll get into bed first
and warm up the sheets at night. Besides, the rooms here are not huge. With two
people living here, the room temperature will surely rise a fair bit.
Considering all that, do you still want to go back to the girls’ dormitory,
Nicola?”
Nicola was still speechless. Only the ticking
of the clock on the wall disturbed the silence. Nearly a minute passed without
Nicola saying anything. Undoubtedly, it was difficult to resist the appeal of
having someone warm her mattress. Besides, they had known each other ever since
they were small. It was far too late to object to sharing a bed, and the warmth
of Sieghart’s body really was pleasant.
She carefully considered all these excuses as
they came to her one by one. In the end, she nodded timidly.
“Until I have recovered, I will accept your hospitality.”
And so it was that Nicola ended up staying in Sieghart’s room for a while
longer.
Now that Nicola had recovered, it was time for
her to announce her departure from that way of life. With the end of her time
in Sieghart’s room, there was something she had to broach with him. After all,
Sieghart had said, “As soon as you have recovered, Nicola, we will visit our
respective parents’ homes to get their blessings for our engagement.” They had
both agreed to this.
Hence, Sieghart had not hurried Nicola toward
her recovery. On the other hand, if she so wished, Nicola could delay their
engagement. That was the situation.
Even now, Sieghart still seemed to hold
Nicola’s feelings in the highest regard. For that very reason, she did not wish
to selfishly hold off their engagement by hiding the fact of her recovery. She
had been given more than enough time to prepare herself emotionally and knew
that it would be insincere if she put this off for no good reason.
She had only stayed there for two weeks. As
she gathered her belongings, which were not so many, she chuckled awkwardly to
herself. By the time she had packed everything, Sieghart had returned.
When Sieghart saw Nicola had already packed,
his eyes widened. He then turned to Nicola with a look of surprise.
Nicola tried hard to act calm, then gazed into
the distance and said, “I am fine now. As I have recovered, I will be returning
to the girls’ dormitory. Ah, by the way, you know... You know our agreement to
visit our parents. When would you like to do that?” As she finished speaking,
she glanced furtively up at Sieghart’s face. When she did so, she looked at two
eyes of purple quartz, opened so wide that she thought they might come tumbling
out.
However, this only lasted a moment. Sieghart’s
expression quickly stiffened again, and he stood silent as he faced Nicola. He
took Nicola’s hand with reverence, as if holding something easily broken.
After a moment, he said, “I’m sure that I will
go on needing your constant protection. Can you be happy with someone like
that? You don’t mind?” Sieghart’s gaze was serious, but there was a hint of
uncertainty there as his eyes faltered slightly. Surely his excessively refined
appearance would continue attracting beings from beyond the human realm. But
even so...
With a little sigh, Nicola stared straight
back into those amethyst eyes. She felt uneasy about stating what she was about
to say right to his face, but she could not resist him when he looked so
downcast.
“I don’t mind. After all, it’s not as if I’m
always protecting you. I am sure you will protect me too, so the feeling is
mutual. I think we’re just right for each other.”
The expression that overcame Sieghart’s face
defied any description with mere words. He might have been smiling through his
tears but his expression seemed to shine throughout his entire face. Despite
the complex emotions mixed there, he manifested happiness.
This must have been what was meant by a
ravishing beauty. Faced with Sieghart’s aggressive charm, which could surely
bring all the subjects of one or two smaller kingdoms to their knees, Nicola
could only keep her eyes half open. However, her cheeks were already burning
brightly, so she did not entirely resist it.
However, that saccharine moment ended very
abruptly. With a deafening bang, the door to Sieghart’s room was thrown open.
“Sieg, are you there?! We might have a bit of
a problem!”
Nicola and Sieghart froze reflexively and
turned their heads toward the doorway, where they saw Alois stumble into the
room in a hurry. They could only silently stare back at each other after this
extraordinary sight. What on earth was happening?
“Alois, what has you looking so pale? You
don’t seem like yourself,” asked Sieghart.
“For starters, look at this.”
Sieghart knitted his elegant eyebrows as he
studied the letter Alois had brought with him. The wax seal on it bore the
crest of the royal family.
As he ran his eyes over the letter’s contents,
Sieghart’s expression slowly grew even more severe. After seeing her childhood
friend place a hand over his mouth as he became lost in thought, Nicola turned
back to Alois.
“Excuse me, but just what is...?” Nicola
asked.
Alois looked down at Nicola with an awkward,
almost apologetic expression on his face. He then said, “Erm, well. Putting it
bluntly, the royal household has issued something of a troublesome decision...
As they put it, until I have selected a new fiancée, they will not permit any
standing engagements to be dissolved. That’s the gist of this vexing letter.”
Nicola was confused. “Um, excuse me. But what
is so vexing about that?” In all honesty, Nicola was not well informed about
noble matters. She struggled to grasp Alois’s words, but despite racking her
brains, she could not.
Alois quickly glanced at Sieghart, who was
still reading the letter with a troubled look.
With a frown, Alois said, “Sieg and I... No,
probably the same is true of all nobles... In any case, I, the crown prince,
must choose my fiancée once more. So it was predicted that most marquesses with
daughters would put up their hands. Of course, they would only do so after
dissolving any preexisting engagements.”
Having apparently finished reading the letter,
Sieghart now silently raised his head. With a stiff demeanor, he took over
Alois’s explanation.
“If that happened, then naturally the noblemen
whose engagements were dissolved would need to find new fiancées as well. The
royal family reasoned that by canceling the engagements of marquesses and
dukes, the relationships between families in noble society would change
dramatically. Regarding all that, even if you and I wished to get engaged... It
looks like we no longer can.”
“Yeah... It might be difficult,” said Alois
before giving a bitter, apologetic smile. After sighing and looking away,
Sieghart handed the letter back to Alois.
“Umm... So, what does this mean?” Nicola
raised her head and looked timidly up at Sieghart, who gently stroked her hair.
“Looking at the daughters of marquesses, or
presumptive ones, who are not already engaged, there are only three. That
includes you, Nicola. Under these circumstances, having so few candidates to
possibly wed Alois means the palace will probably not permit our engagement.”
“In other words,” said Alois, “until I have
officially chosen a new fiancée, you probably won’t be able to get engaged to
anyone, Miss Nicola.”
“Eh...?” Nicola finally understood the
situation thanks to the thorough explanation the boys had provided her. Still,
her face stiffened unexpectedly.
This was her first time considering an
engagement in this life or her previous one. After she had finally made up her
mind, prepared for the worst, this was how the world saw fit to treat her?
In shock, she muttered to herself, “Can this
really be happening?”
Afterword
Hello. It’s nice to meet you. I would like to
thank you for picking up this book.
The motivation that got me thinking about
writing this book was a change in my employment. When I resigned from my
previous company, I found I had about two months’ worth of paid leave saved up.
That said, it is not as if I am someone with a
particularly great number of hobbies. After finding myself with far too much
time on my hands, by sheer coincidence, I happened upon a small novel writing
contest. The award was limited to novels with a particular theme, that being
“romances set in another world.” This is not a genre of books I usually read,
but at the time I thought to myself, “I guess these are popular; let’s try
writing one.”
By the time I had nearly used up all of my
paid leave, the story had already expanded to 150,000 characters.
“Other world stories,” “Young noblewoman
stories,” “Reincarnation stories,” and “Dating simulation game stories”—all of
these concepts are very much in vogue. They are popular genres. I’m still not
sure how I arrived at the following idea: “Let’s mix all of these and add a
dash of occult flavor.” Though I can’t quite remember, I found myself getting
quite excited as I wrote it.
Unfortunately, I was unsuccessful in that
novel contest, but by the time I had finished writing my story, I had developed
strong feelings of attachment to it. After all, it was the first novel I had
ever completed. It felt like a waste to abandon it, so I wanted to get more
people to read it. With that in mind, I tried posting it on several
story-publishing websites.
A long time ago, when I was still an
elementary school student, I once investigated what was involved in becoming a
novelist. But back then, no matter where I looked, I found the same answer:
“The usual course of action is to submit a story for a new writers’ award.” And
I believe the method of doing so was still “sending a manuscript by mail.”
Nowadays, anyone can easily publish a novel
for free. By attaching appropriate hashtags to one’s work, one can easily apply
for any new writers’ award. Though I am still a youngster, having only lived a
few years past twenty, I couldn’t help but think, “How times have changed.”
I spent roughly half a year adding and
deleting those hashtags over and over. When I received word that I had been
given an award, my state of mind seesawed from day to day. Eventually, I
decided to celebrate in earnest. I’d done it.
Upon the publication of this book, I would
like to thank everyone who examined it, including my head editor;
Kinokohime-sensei, for drawing such adorable illustrations of Nicola; and so
many others who assisted me. Thank you so much. Far and away, my greatest
thanks go to you, the reader, for picking up this book.
And so, I pray that we might have the chance
to meet again.
- Ito Iino
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